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From before she could remember, Kylie was told exactly who she was & should be. The only problem: It never felt like the truth to her. So Kylie decided to find herself, herself.Carrying a painful secret, she left her home and her faith on a journey to answer one question: Who am I? A question she’d confront head-on during MDMA therapy.(00:00) Intro clip(02:42) What was it like growing up for you? (05:45) What’s an example of you being taught something that caused you resentment?(11:22) How did you make the decision to break out on your own?(15:06) What was making decisions like out on your own? (20:00) What was your first MDMA experience like?(23:09) How the Tao Te Ching helped Kylie. (25:09) Kylie’s experience with psychedelics before MDMA. (26:28) MDMA comes on. (27:21) “Spiritual” experience with MDMA begins. (30:07) The feeling she’d “always craved.”(36:38) What did you bring up? Kylie’s abortion story. (38:50) What perspective did MDMA give you on your abortion?(41:38) What did you feel when you relived your abortion?(42:43) Kylie’s liminal experience: the voice of her child. (51:35) What did you think of yourself before and after the MDMA experience?(54:36) How did all this feel coming up?(55:10) How did you tell yourself the story of the abortion?(58:29) Kylie lives another life (and dies).Notes: To focus this episode, we cut discussions around Kylie's brothers and father, differences between religious and non-religious people, and one concerning experiences that showed her how far she had come. We consulted with Kylie, and she approved this flow. Other edits are limited to dead space, audio blemishes, unnecessary words, and unessential content.
