After his relationship with Emily ended, John moved to a new city & dove headfirst into Ayahuasca.With the help of Liam, a modern shaman, John faced ego death, repressed anger, & a troubling question:What was the nature of his godfather’s love for him growing up?

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What happened after your relationship with Emily ended?

How did you come into your power?

Can you take us through your ayahuasca experiences in as much detail as you can?

Your relationship with ayahuasca sounds similar to your relationship with the powerful women in your life. Are there parallels there for you?

John looks for evidence of abuse at the hands of his godfather.

What it feels like to answer a difficult question on ayahuasca.

What could happen if you don’t resolve questions,

How John approaches the fear of difficult questions.

What do you mean, “It’s never fully over?”

Facing repressed anger.

Why John thinks being experienced with psychedelics doesn’t mean wisdom.

Why John has more anxiety with psychedelics now than when he started.