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No Feeling Is Final

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Usually, when we talk about suicide we say those four magic words: "just ask for help". But Honor Eastly knows it's not that simple. She's been there and back, and now has years of phone recordings and diary entries, from the inside. These recordings form the basis of this podcast, No Feeling Is Final. This is a show for anyone who's ever wondered if life is worth living. And for anyone trying to better understand their friend, partner or kid, who's wrestled with these feelings themselves. At times heartbreaking, and desperate — but also darkly funny, and charming, No Feeling Is Final is a story of difference, identity, and why we should stay alive Just a heads up, this show touches on some heavy lifting feelings territory — including what's it's like to feel so hopeless that you want to die. It's not graphic — it's not that kind of show. But there is some swearing. Also — this is a memoir show. It's about Honor's experience trying to figure out some big stuff. So of course, it's only one person's story. This six-part experimental memoir, No Feeling Is Final was named one of the best podcasts of 2018 by The Atlantic, TIME, and The Financial Times. It also won the coveted Director's Choice Award at the Third Coast International Audio Festival 2019. In 2025, Apple named it a 'Series Essential', recognising it as one of the greatest achievements in podcasting. Content warning: This series discusses mental health, suicidal thoughts, and includes some strong language. Please read the listener guide for more information on sensitive topics. How's Honor doing these days? For behind-the-scenes insights, personal reflections, and an update from Honor since the series aired, visit: www.honoreastly.com/no-feeling-is-final-update Find out more about the Big Feels Club here https://www.bigfeels.club/about-big-feels-club Need support? If you're feeling overwhelmed or in crisis, help is available. In Australia, you can contact Lifeline at 13 11 14 or the Suicide Callback Service at 1300 659 467. For free, confidential support in your country, visit FindAHelpline.com. Credits Honor Eastly, Writer and Presenter Joel Werner, Executive Producer Alice Moldovan, Producer Graham Panther, Co-Writer Russell Stapleton, Sound Engineer

BONUS — Honor & Eddie

Honor chats with the totem for her sabbaticals to Doom Town, Eddie Perfect. WARNING: This episode contains some explicit language. If you or anyone you know needs help, reach out and talk to somebody: Crisis lines Lifeline on 13 11 14 Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800 MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978 Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467 Beyond Blue on 1300 22 46 36 Headspace on 1800 650 890 QLife on 1800 184 527 Chat services Elefriends: https://www.elefriends.org.uk/ Sane: https://www.sane.org/ eHeadspace: https://www.eheadspace.org.au/ Beyondblue: https://online.beyondblue.org.au/Webmodules/chat/InitialInformation.aspx Further information Where do you go when you’re afraid you’ll kill yourself? (ABC News): http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-07/no-feeling-is-final/10297760 My girlfriend told me she was suicidal. Here's what happened next. (ABC Life): http://www.abc.net.au/life/my-girlfriend-told-me-she-was-suicidal-this-is-what-we-learnt/10341474 Preventing Suicide (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/preventing-suicide/10344970 Ways to stay alive (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/ways-to-stay-alive/10352196

Oct 18, 2018

14 min

06 | Now is the time for cake

"Endings. Endings. Everywhere." Graham doesn’t think I am broken, but I still suspect I might be. WARNING: This episode contains some explicit language. If you or anyone you know needs help, reach out and talk to somebody: Crisis lines Lifeline on 13 11 14 Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800 MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978 Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467 Beyond Blue on 1300 22 46 36 Headspace on 1800 650 890 QLife on 1800 184 527 Chat services Elefriends: https://www.elefriends.org.uk/ Sane: https://www.sane.org/ eHeadspace: https://www.eheadspace.org.au/ Beyondblue: https://online.beyondblue.org.au/Webmodules/chat/InitialInformation.aspx Find out more about.. The Big Feels Club: https://bigfeels.club/ Gareth Edwards: http://gareth-edwards.com/bigfeels/ Further information Where do you go when you’re afraid you’ll kill yourself? (ABC News): http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-07/no-feeling-is-final/10297760 My girlfriend told me she was suicidal. Here's what happened next: http://www.abc.net.au/life/my-girlfriend-told-me-she-was-suicidal-this-is-what-we-learnt/10341474 Preventing Suicide (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/preventing-suicide/10344970 Ways to stay alive (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/ways-to-stay-alive/10352196

Oct 11, 2018

39 min

05 | Emotionally Deluxe

“So, where do you go when you feel like a masticated maraschino cherry?” How to collect your tears, the existential angst of the shampoo aisle, and the boy returns. WARNING: This episode contains some explicit language. If you or anyone you know needs help, reach out and talk to somebody: Crisis lines Lifeline on 13 11 14 Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800 MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978 Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467 Beyond Blue on 1300 22 46 36 Headspace on 1800 650 890 QLife on 1800 184 527 Chat services Elefriends: https://www.elefriends.org.uk/ Sane: https://www.sane.org/ eHeadspace: https://www.eheadspace.org.au/ Beyondblue: https://online.beyondblue.org.au/Webmodules/chat/InitialInformation.aspx Find out more about.. The Big Feels Club: https://bigfeels.club/ Intentional Peer Support: https://www.intentionalpeersupport.org/what-is-ips/ Further information Where do you go when you’re afraid you’ll kill yourself? (ABC News): http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-07/no-feeling-is-final/10297760 My girlfriend told me she was suicidal. Here's what happened next: http://www.abc.net.au/life/my-girlfriend-told-me-she-was-suicidal-this-is-what-we-learnt/10341474 Preventing Suicide (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/preventing-suicide/10344970 Ways to stay alive (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/ways-to-stay-alive/10352196

Oct 9, 2018

34 min

04 | 60,000 thoughts

"We have 60,000 thoughts each day. I will try to track every single one of them." On the other side of psychiatric hospital there’s less of things. In this episode Honor speaks about her experience with psychiatric drugs. We'd like to emphasise that this is just that — her experience. If you’d like to learn more about the science of these medications, these two articles are a good place to start; More data, more answers: picking the optimal antidepressant (The Lancet) https://www.thelancet.com/journals/lancet/article/PIIS0140-6736(18)30421-5/fulltext Comparative efficacy and acceptability of 21 antidepressant drugs for the acute treatment of adults with major depressive disorder: a systematic review and network meta-analysis (The Lancet) https://www.thelancet.com/journals/lancet/article/PIIS0140-6736(17)32802-7/fulltext WARNING: This episode contains some explicit language. If you or anyone you know needs help, reach out and talk to somebody: Crisis lines Lifeline on 13 11 14 Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800 MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978 Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467 Beyond Blue on 1300 22 46 36 Headspace on 1800 650 890 QLife on 1800 184 527 Chat services Elefriends: https://www.elefriends.org.uk/ Sane: https://www.sane.org/ eHeadspace: https://www.eheadspace.org.au/ Beyondblue: https://online.beyondblue.org.au/Webmodules/chat/InitialInformation.aspx Further information Where do you go when you’re afraid you’ll kill yourself? (ABC News): http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-07/no-feeling-is-final/10297760 My girlfriend told me she was suicidal. Here's what happened next: http://www.abc.net.au/life/my-girlfriend-told-me-she-was-suicidal-this-is-what-we-learnt/10341474 Preventing Suicide (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/preventing-suicide/10344970 Ways to stay alive (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/ways-to-stay-alive/10352196

Oct 7, 2018

29 min

03 | A Good Patient

"I keep trying to say the most honest thing, and it keeps changing." There are no good snack options in psych hospital. And it’s really hard to not look crazy. WARNING: This episode contains some explicit language. If you or anyone you know needs help, reach out and talk to somebody: Crisis lines Lifeline on 13 11 14 Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800 MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978 Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467 Beyond Blue on 1300 22 46 36 Headspace on 1800 650 890 QLife on 1800 184 527 Chat services Elefriends: https://www.elefriends.org.uk/ Sane: https://www.sane.org/ eHeadspace: https://www.eheadspace.org.au/ Beyondblue: https://online.beyondblue.org.au/Webmodules/chat/InitialInformation.aspx Further information Where do you go when you’re afraid you’ll kill yourself? (ABC News): http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-07/no-feeling-is-final/10297760 My girlfriend told me she was suicidal. Here's what happened next: http://www.abc.net.au/life/my-girlfriend-told-me-she-was-suicidal-this-is-what-we-learnt/10341474 Preventing Suicide (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/preventing-suicide/10344970 Ways to stay alive (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/ways-to-stay-alive/10352196

Oct 4, 2018

30 min

02 | The Vast Wasteland

"Hunting for a psychiatrist is a lot like hunting for 'The One'. Only much more expensive and with a tiny dating pool." A desert. A gameshow. A desperate attempt. Miles of red tape. And finally, an answer? WARNING: This episode contains some explicit language. If you or anyone you know needs help, reach out and talk to somebody: Crisis lines Lifeline on 13 11 14 Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800 MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978 Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467 Beyond Blue on 1300 22 46 36 Headspace on 1800 650 890 QLife on 1800 184 527 Chat services Elefriends: https://www.elefriends.org.uk/ Sane: https://www.sane.org/ eHeadspace: https://www.eheadspace.org.au/ Beyondblue: https://online.beyondblue.org.au/Webmodules/chat/InitialInformation.aspx Further information Where do you go when you’re afraid you’ll kill yourself? (ABC News): http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-07/no-feeling-is-final/10297760 My girlfriend told me she was suicidal. Here's what happened next. (ABC Life): http://www.abc.net.au/life/my-girlfriend-told-me-she-was-suicidal-this-is-what-we-learnt/10341474 Preventing Suicide (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/preventing-suicide/10344970 Ways to stay alive (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/ways-to-stay-alive/10352196

Oct 2, 2018

26 min

01 | The Voice

"Mum says my boyfriend is a keeper. Right now, for practical reasons, he is in fact the keeper of all the medications I am currently taking." We all have that voice in our head. The one that is brutally honest. It’s a good thing, right? Except when it really isn’t. WARNING: This episode contains some explicit language. If you or anyone you know needs help, reach out and talk to somebody: Crisis lines Lifeline on 13 11 14 Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800 MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978 Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467 Beyond Blue on 1300 22 46 36 Headspace on 1800 650 890 QLife on 1800 184 527 Chat services Elefriends: https://www.elefriends.org.uk/ Sane: https://www.sane.org/ eHeadspace: https://www.eheadspace.org.au/ Beyondblue: https://online.beyondblue.org.au/Webmodules/chat/InitialInformation.aspx Further information Where do you go when you’re afraid you’ll kill yourself? (ABC News): http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-07/no-feeling-is-final/10297760 My girlfriend told me she was suicidal. Here's what happened next. (ABC Life): http://www.abc.net.au/life/my-girlfriend-told-me-she-was-suicidal-this-is-what-we-learnt/10341474 Preventing Suicide (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/preventing-suicide/10344970 Ways to stay alive (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/ways-to-stay-alive/10352196

Sep 30, 2018

26 min

00 | Hi, My Name Is HONOR

No Feeling Is Final is a show for anyone who’s ever wondered if life is worth living. And for anyone trying to better understand their friend, partner, or kid who’s wrestled with these feelings themselves. At times heartbreaking, and desperate — but also darkly funny, and charming, No Feeling Is Final is a story of difference, identity, and why we should stay alive. WARNING: This episode contains some explicit language. And if you or anyone you know needs help, reach out and talk to somebody: Crisis lines Lifeline on 13 11 14 Kids Helpline on 1800 551 800 MensLine Australia on 1300 789 978 Suicide Call Back Service on 1300 659 467 Beyond Blue on 1300 22 46 36 Headspace on 1800 650 890 QLife on 1800 184 527 Chat services Elefriends: https://www.elefriends.org.uk/ Sane: https://www.sane.org/ eHeadspace: https://www.eheadspace.org.au/ Beyondblue: https://online.beyondblue.org.au/Webmodules/chat/InitialInformation.aspx Further information Where do you go when you’re afraid you’ll kill yourself? (ABC News): http://www.abc.net.au/news/2018-10-07/no-feeling-is-final/10297760 My girlfriend told me she was suicidal. Here's what happened next: http://www.abc.net.au/life/my-girlfriend-told-me-she-was-suicidal-this-is-what-we-learnt/10341474 Preventing Suicide (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/preventing-suicide/10344970 Ways to stay alive (All In The Mind): http://www.abc.net.au/radionational/programs/allinthemind/ways-to-stay-alive/10352196

Sep 18, 2018

6 min