15.06.2022 reflection is beauty. Space. Decisions. Inner voice. Best, take care

14.06.2022 00:37 AM Tuesday I am grateful. How would I answer the same question? “Should I be afraid to miss the phase where I could write this?” “Yes.” She said, “It could happen.” What I would say: “you’ll write what you need to write. If you have to write a story it doesn’t matter what happens in the world, you will get it done. Phase or no phase. Words are eternal. Just like your name, Khalid.”

Week 190 6:01 PM Sunday Feeling relieved I recorded. I read 8 of 10 Letters to a young poet. Read of George Orwell's 'Why I Write', learning is great.  I ordered a new bike, arrives while I am in Vipassana, and I am thinking a lot about getting the Supernote A5x. It seems like an incredible machine but it is expensive.. Stay healthy. Find balance without blockage. Appreciate your ups and downs. Some days are yours. Take care. Best, Khalid

Week 189 05.06.2022 Sunday 11:46 PM All the things we think all the time. How we keep thinking them. The instances. Go through them. That was a power nap. I ordered a bike online. Best, Khalid

Week 188 19:56 29.05.2022 you think you’re grown up until you see yourself be a kid again. And you forget all the wisdom you think you know, and you need Marvin Pauli to remind you about it all over again. I felt so unaligned last night. Accept the gifts. Hold on to nothing. Be. I saw Theo and did cupping today.

Week 188 24.05.2022 11:38 Kim, Thomas, Tom, Katharina. Die Sachen die du darauf achtest. Die Methode die du darin schreibst. Die kleine Bewegungen, das Papier dass sie zittert mit ihre gekleidete Daumen. Handschuhe mit Nageln. Die Schulter shrug und die Satz. Das bewegt sich alles. Und du tanzt mit. Du tanzt mit der Energie. Das ist alles was du tun kannst.

Week 187 22.05.2022 Sunday 22:58 pm I woke up knowing it would be a beautiful day. The reality of self within itself. I did crossfit and felt so open to everything in life. I cooked beans, threw the trash, cleaned the dishwasher. I want to figure out how to do my training routine and subscription soon. I’m laying in bed and my tailbone is just gone. Invisible shoes. The stories one can write and the stories we all live through. What’s the story you want to live? What is your actual sense of ‘realistic’? What is critical thinking really? The source of information, its intention in being conveyed, how it is perceived and thought about. Will you act on the brain feed? Being physical is nice. What you feed yourself.

Week 186 15.05.2022 10:45 PM Sunday I also started doing free life coaching online for strangers, I think I'm good at it and I'm following my format. I want to build my expertise and skills and apply things and be more in touch with life. I also am going to soon start as a child companion for impaired children (beeinträchtigte Kinder).  I woke up at 6 for three days in a row, the dreams I had were interesting, like delayed lights. And did one muscle group per day really well. I plan on keeping that up. I think I'll wake up early and do the workout from home tomorrow (back). I have a pullup bar so should be fine. It's because I want to go to the office tomorrow. Not home.  Praying. There can be answers in prayer. There are answers in thinking. The question: Do I continue reading the book? Or do I sit down and think through my own thoughts, in the only way that can be relevant to me?  Be the agent of chaos. The path will move how it needs to. And if you think you are an agent of it in any sense, you will simply continue.  Prayers and best. Khalid

Week 185 08.05.2022 10:37 PM I'm grateful. Little and little I learn more and more about myself, and more and more I see what kind of person I am and can be.  I'm finding better ways to organize myself and the things I do. The things that matter to me and how I prioritize. I have a lot of energy now that I don't speak to my roommates. As crazy as they want to see that, I was just done. And now I am not moved left and right unnecessarily by things that genuinely don't matter to me and don't change anything at all. It's not my housemates I'm going to lead to salvation, and they're stuck in their own circles too. I don't want to be stuck in their thing. I just did a twist 30 minute routine. I was sick for the last days, since Thursday morning. Feeling better today and hopefully completely fine tomorrow to go to work. Sleep was a blessing. I watched many things. I learned. The connections continue. Soon, more and more, I'll be organized in a way that I feel is sustainable.  To be with the rhythm of things, it doesn't mean there needs to be an amazing effort, just an understanding of the subtleties. I'm in my rhythm. Everyone else is in theirs.

Week 184 New Moon 01.05.2022 Sunday 11:41 PM. I saw Mahmoud for lunch. Meditated, ate a small amount of chocolate, made a glass of fresh lemon with a little salt, I had listened to a podcast on ADHD in the train to and back, I ate three bio eggs with raisins and sunflower seeds, whole wheat bread with honey, worked out my back (around 40 pullups with negatives), laid on the acupuncture mat and recorded this one. *it is not entirely in the order. The post it notes and the mic are in front of me. Take care.