While I was drinking, I knew I needed to stop. However, I would convince myself not to stop because of all these fears I convinced myself would happen when I did. Guess what? Most never came to fruition! and, if they did, I was grateful! Listen to this episode as I address these specific fears and tell you how they played out for me when I became sober.

Growing up, I was always taught to not hurt others feelings. That what words you choose do matter. But, what about the words you use when you talk to yourself?

When I was drinking, I did not feel like I had much control over my life. What I did, where I went, who I went with was dictated by my access to drinks. I would constantly debate myself over what I should or should not do. In sobriety, I have gained freedom. In this journey, I am learning that I am in control of where my story goes and how it is written. I am the author of my story.

As important it was for me to develop a morning routine, my nighttime routine has been a game changer. Listen to this episode to see where I got my guidance from in forming this nighttime routine and other tips I have found along the way.

My first sober summer was hard. But as I progressed, I picked up tips and tricks along the way that made it a heck of a lot easier. Listen to this episode to hear how I made summer better and it is still my favorite season even in sobriety.

I know this has already been released but I have had so many conversations around shame I could not help but reshare this. I hope by listening to this someone will begin to lose the feeling of shame associated with drinking and not drinking.

When I drank, I found that I struggled with jealously. I was jealous of other's accomplishments and daily wins, even though we were friends. In sobriety, I have learned what this really stemmed from, and I find that I don't struggle with this as much.

My entire life I have loved to read. Even when I drank, I read. Whether I remembered the story line or not, thats a different question.When I first became sober, I leaned into reading, to fill all this "extra" time I seemed to have. Reading also did the trick for quieting my mind.Listen to this episode, to hear how reading has become a consistent source of comfort for me in sobriety.

Listen to this episode to hear me read some very vulnerable and raw entries from my journal during a time when I went back and forth with not drinking, moderation, and complete chaos. This is a hard episode for me since I read my entries unedited and hope someone out there can resonate and this gives them some hope.

The beginning of May has been a hard time for me for the last 6 years. It is the time by dad got sick and ultimately passed in mid-June of 2018.This is a hard time for me, especially while I was drinking. I spiraled...a lot. More so each year because I did not feel any reprieve. I did not understand how I felt worse and not better. Listen to this episode to hear how things are different now that I stopped drinking. While it is still a hard time, it is manageable, and I finally feel lighter during what was an extremely heavy time for me.