Wildcard Wallflower

Wildcard Wallflower: Episode 8 - BREATHE. Episode 8's Mood Playlist  (Apple Music) Intro Radio Review: Breathe - Maverick City Music, Mad - Solange  The Forecast/BUT God Radio Review: Trust In You - Anthony Brown & group therAPy, The Battle Is The Lord's - Yolanda Adams Ri's Ramble Radio Review: Save Room - John Legend, STAYING ALIVE - Drake & Lil Baby The Sidenote: The Subtle Art of Not Giving A Fuck by Mark Manson Radio Review: Everything is Everything - Lauryn Hill This Week's Letters to My Loved Ones Radio Review: Breathe - Fabulous

Wildcard Wallflower: Episode 7 - Vibes Over Aesthetics Episode 7's Mood Playlist  (Apple Music) Intro The Forecast/BUT God Ri's Ramble: Vibes Over Aesthetics  Honorable Mention - Gossip Kills Friendships (by Albaner C. Eugene Jr.) This Week's Letters to My Loved Ones

Wildcard Wallflower: Episode 6 - Ego Death Episode 6's Mood Playlist  (Apple Music) Intro Radio Review: Ego Death - Ty Dolla $ign (feat. Kanye West, FKA Twigs, Skrillex), Something More - Roisin Murphy The Forecast/BUT God/Ri's Ramble: Ego Death Knowing God has never failed me before, and my steps are already ordered. Realizing that I know everything and nothing at all, and dwelling in the present moment. Maintaining my essence, allowing the walls of my mind to fall, letting go of things that I no longer identify with. Allow new opportunities to fill in old spaces.  Radio Review: Girl - The Internet (feat. KAYTRANADA)  Honorable Mention - Sheryl Lee Ralph's EMMY Award Winning Speech The Sidenote: Share The Wealth Radio Review: I Was Here - Beyonce, Rich - Kirko Bangz (feat. August Alsina), Love Theory - Kirk Franklin This Week's Letters to My Loved Ones  Radio Review: Rain/Revelations 19:1 - Sunday Service Choir

Wildcard Wallflower: Episode 5 - Family Ties.... Episode 5's Mood Playlist  (Apple Music) Intro Radio Review: This Too Shall Pass - Yolanda Adams The Forecast/BUT God Radio Review: Blessed & Highly Favored - The Clark Sisters, BREAK MY SOUL - Beyonce, Something Has To Break - Kierra Sheard Ri's Ramble: Family Ties Radio Review: Family Ties - Baby Keem & Kendrick Lamar This Week's Letters to My Loved Ones - Solid Friends Radio Review: Family Feud - Jay-Z (ft. Beyonce) Prayer for Serenity God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time, enjoying one moment at a time; accepting hardship as a pathway to peace; taking, as Jesus did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; trusting that You will make all things right if I surrender to Your will; so that I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with You forever in the next. Amen.

Wildcard Wallflower: Episode 4 - In The Dark.... Episode 4's Mood Playlist  (Apple Music) Intro Radio Review: Locked Up - Akon The Forecast - In the Dark Radio Review: God Did - DJ Khaled  BUT God  Radio Review: W.A.Y.S - Jhene Aiko (Kayden's Tribute)  Ri's Ramble: Can We Talk? (inspo by Albaner C. Eugene Jr.) Radio Review: People - Jonathan McReynolds This Week's Letters to My Loved Ones - Solid Friends Radio Review: Golden - Jill Scott

Wildcard Wallflower: Episode 2 - EYE DEE KAY. Episode 2's Mood Playlist (Apple Music) Intro Radio Review: Step by Step - Whitney Houston The Forecast/BUT God: IDK, FOMO, Finding Free Good Energy Radio Review: Cozy - Beyonce Ri's Ramble: Reaffirming Myself/Positive Perspectives Radio Review: Our Deepest Fear Poem This Week's Letters to My Loved Ones  Radio Review: Roses - Kanye West Our Deepest Fear by Marianne Williamson "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear in that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our Light, not our Darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the World. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won’t feel unsure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone. As we let our own Light shine, we consciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

Wildcard Wallflower: Episode 1 - Just Sit In It.  Episode 1's Mood Playlist (Apple Music) Intro Radio Review: Lonely - Chloe x Halle The Forecast: My Recent Feelings of Loneliness and Gratefulness simultaneously. Ri's Ramble: Trusting God in the Midst of Your Process This Week's Letters to My Loved Ones (Forgive Me I Kept Forgetting People!) Radio Review: Summer 2020 - Jhene Aiko The Reconstruction by Jermisha Frazier  Reconstructing Is tearing down, and rebuilding something new. Getting rid of things that no longer benefit you, A clean slate A new plate Fresh start With a courageous soul and pure heart. It's hard. To admit that you've fallen short, Or to- Take a step forward and immediately be push right back When you’re thinking you've made progress, You see the distance you have to go and start feeling less and less, Motivated. Because you remember how close you were- How you almost made it And now you've watched all of your hard work get disintegrated Thennnnnnn. The negative thoughts get contemplated. We all know it happens, but nobody ever wants to say it. How you've- Found yourself in an empty room thinking the worse, I mean. I know my grandmother keeps the .38 in her purse And shit I can't seem to get out this hole so living feels like it's no longer even worth- All the shit I've been going through. Pessimism consumes you. The walls cave in and then- Darkness becomes your new best friend. We've all been through it. When you get in a position where you're 1.6 seconds from saying screw it, But something stops you and you just can't do it Giving up isn't in you. And you decide- At that moment the sorrow no longer can continue And. And- The room starts to get bigger. You breathe and begin to figure- Out your next move. What's best for YOU. That gives birth to your solid foundation. You've already been the perfect demonstration Of where you refuse to go back. Sometimes it takes life kicking you in your ass for you to see the aspects you lack And- Then starting your reconfiguration. Or reconstruction. Tearing down, and rebuilding something new. Getting rid of things that no longer benefit you Letting go of shit that was "supposed" And finally enduring the pain that is Growth.