“What gets you out of bed each day?” They ask me this before I leave the psychiatric ward of the hospital, for my safety plan. I have no answer, and after a few minutes they suggest “Friends? Family?” I give in and say friends, but it’s a lie. I don’t know why I wake up each day. Most days I wish I didn’t. This podcast is about my life as a 22 year old white cis straight woman with a lot of privilege and a lot of pain. For whoever is willing to listen, truly listen, I’ll take you through a journey of my past and present, while simultaneously trying to find the answer to the question “What gets you out of bed each day?”. There will be no holding back, it’s gonna get messy, strap in. TW: Depression, Anxiety, Self-Harm, Suicide Attempt, Medication