That moment of depth, of breath.Breathe in, breathe out… sense it.

What if… damn what a question A question that asks you to lay all your cards A question that calls your bluff from the start You can’t hide from it, as it asks you to believe and pull the card from the deck What if… It’s like an invitation to an adventure A blank check to the treasure A song yet to be written A flower yet to bloom What if, what if, what if… My mind spins, and I shiver It’s an undefined feeling that gives me smiles and tear A ticking clock which makes you time travel to the possibilities of future A desire, a dream, a hope… what if!?

Wake up in the morning and hold me in ur arms. Kiss my forehead and tell me that you love me. Kiss my eyes and wipe the tears I slept with. Kiss my cheeks and let me know that you dreamt of me. Kiss my chin and tell me that you think I am stupid but I am your stupid. Kiss my nose and tell me that you think that I am not supposed to stay angry with you. Kiss my lips and tell me that you are mine. Teach me how to love you. Make me believe in love again. Make me believe in being worthy of my love’s gaze. Wake up in the morning and tell me…

Look me in the eyes and say, Say that each moment was a lie Say that each kiss was a way to say goodbye Say that each hug was a lonely embrace And love, say you won’t drop a tear when we part ways Say that you never cared Say that you got scared Say that world matters more than love And love, say that you will let this crush without a sigh For I have heard someone say, What is that love that’s scared to be there. What is that love which won’t fight with the world for their love’s tears What is that love that says, let’s part ways For before you go, I want to know Love, look me in the eyes and say.

Allow me to introduce myself For all you know is a mirage, a trace I don’t care for your grace I don’t care if your desires are misplaced I am the holy grail of love the forbidden fruit they curse I slay the desire of heaven I dry the deep wells of hell As innocent as I am, There are curses that I dive in and dwell You wish to smush me like a dropped flower But how so u missed my pointed dreaded armour Don’t be a fool and judge me yet Cause I am a sweet dream of heaven and the nightmare from the dungeons of hell.

Every time you walk past that door, You scratch my wounds You make me crawl back in pain You make me recall every hurt till date Every time you promise to fix things up A dent, a crack, a knot remains untouched You still give me that unworthy vibe You still make me helpless in my eyes You still make me question every why Every time you think you deserve I ask where were you when people loved to hurt I ask your intentions with me I ask the reason for your absence even when you were present near me And still you walk past that door Scratching every wound of mine Pausing to give a smile You think you are doing right by me You think you deserve my love till eternity You think I need to be your undisputed legacy You think… you believe… you choose And I… stay still in pain, in agony As you watch my scratched wounds And you walk past that door with a smile Walk past tht door… scratching me

Blank canvas, blank page, blank... Feels empty with no thoughts. Or may be the thoughts are plenty. Overlapping like the creepers, that try to cover all the ground. Unsure where it begins, where it stops, and where does it truly belong. A destiny, a desire of sorts Lost in the layers of infinite fear of first stroke going wrong. Let lose O’ my mind. Let go of the fear once in a while. Let the Mona Lisa smile.

It’s funny how the world sees a lioness in me And I curl in the corner every night while purring quietly. It’s confusing to find smiles on my walls and tear in my eyes For I don’t know what made me fluctuate and shiver inside. For I don’t know why I am awake tonight. I can’t comprehend this emptiness, This wish to be let lost but still a hope to hold on It’s so tragic, so mesmerising still That I dance on a rhythm of shattered thoughts I wish I could scream And I wish I could be mute all day long Damn you! Damn you me! I just close my eyes n wish for the dawn.

Spec of thoughts Thoughts of spec Who are you and who am I I am looking up at this sky Mesmerised and terrified at the same time Who are you and who am I The grand and the grandeur mysterious is the meaning of life The truth of what we see or the truth of the unknown, unseen by eyes Who are you and who am I It’s like looking in the mirror and finding yourself in disguise The cosmos is vast and minutest is our identity Still chest is filled with ego and no clarity Still world revolves around the spec of a being in mind Why don’t we question inspite Who are you and who am I Just a spec of stardust, time travelled through the light is who you are and who I am Close the eyes, for the dust has to settle in the night.

Few seeds of joy, Few sprinkles of tears, Glistening ray of hope, And with a hug to self, like the soil that embodies around a lonely sprout. I lay deep in dark, not sure since how long. It’s time to carve my way out. It’s time to open my arms and stand tall. For the flowers need to blossom and the bees need to dance For the fruits can come only if the stem is strong. Enough of hiding under the soil. Dig deep for strong roots and climb higher to catch the rain clouds. It’s time to unearth the real me, It’s time to unearth self.