Underneath

**This conversation is not meant for the logical linear mind.  It is an invitation into or an invocation of a slow space that exists underneath our busy lives and beyond conceptual thinking. So consider listening to it in an environment that, for you, is conducive to slowing down on the inside and to meandering deeper into yourself. I would love for you to be as comfortable as possible as you listen and to notice how, not just the vibrations of the words but also the silence in between them impact you.** In today’s episode Lorella Ricci, my beloved teacher of many years when it comes to navigating inner realms, joins me in a conversation where we sink down, through the patterns of repressing seemingly unwanted sensations, and into what we, in today's conversation, happen to describe as a fog, a primordial energy, that can help us feel those seemingly unwanted sensations, especially in those moments when they are too intense for us to feel alone. And we notice wondering: Can we really allow ourselves to come into full presence  of our current experience and allow THAT to show us or guide us, even when we record ourselves with the intention of making that recording public?  We ask ourselves the question that has become like a daily mantra for Lorella which is: what’s the feeling I don’t wanna feel? And we explore why the eff we would wanna feel, and possibly even reveal, feelings that we don’t wanna feel. We speak into how some of these sensations that move through us are constantly pushed away and judged without us necessarily even being aware of that happening. How a conversation that we had had the day before today’s recording was made, had been impacted by such pushing away and judging of sensations. And the different quality of relating that openes up, both within us and between us, when both the hardening of protection and the suppressed sensation can be supported by that fog like sensation that I mentioned before.  As I say this I notice wondering, what happens for you, when I say that we can push away internal sensations without even being aware that we are doing that…what is it then that we don’t get to feel? What is it that we possibly never get to experience, without even knowing it?  At more than one point during the conversation it gets viscerally known to me how these types of sensation-based conversations engage a different way of listening that for me can feel dormant in a more conceptual type of conversation. How it feels almost like stepping into a forum, listening to the elders share their wisdom through a very different language than the one we are used to: through the language of sensations.  Another thing that comes up is how those seemingly unwanted sensations, that we so often push away, when we don’t interpret them and we feel them with the support of that fog, they are delicious to hang out with. That when we try to put a label on them we are staying in the terrain of trying to figure them out from the conceptual mind, and how that pulls us up and away from the fog or the felt sense of belonging and support and into separateness, into the fragment. But what is that sensation fog that can support us to feel these unwanted sensations all about? Yeah, what is that fog like sensation all about… In today’s episode we don’t aim to intellectually understand what that fog like sensation is, nor do we intend to respond to the question asked at the beginning of the conversation by searching for an answer. Instead we spiral down through the body, and we let the sensations help us respond. The invitation is for you to spiral down together with us and to then, with your awareness rested into that felt sense of supports underneath it all, listen to Lorella share, at the end of the conversation about a hidden doorway, a fast track, to getting down there. You will also hear how that hidden doorway, for Lorella and I during today’s conversation, is connected to you, the listener, whether you do stay until the end or not.  Titti Paulina:  www.tittipaulina.com You can contact me via email at [email protected] and you will find the link to suscribe to my newsletter here. You can also follow me on Facebook and Instagram.  Lorella Ricci: www.lorellaricci.com  

**This conversations are not meant for the logical linear mind.  It is an invitation into or an invocation of a slow space that exists underneath our busy lives and beyond conceptual thinking. So consider listening to it in an environment that, for you, is conducive to slowing down on the inside and to meandering deeper into yourself. I would love for you to be as comfortable as possible as you listen and to notice how, not just the vibrations of the words but also the silence in between them impact you.** In today’s episode I talk to Maira Jorba about how sensation-based conversations, conversations where we allow for silence and where we become aware of and speak into sensations and thoughts that we usually suppress, support us into a more grounded state.  And how in this grounded state we feel more settled into our back body instead of being more outward and forward focused as we can tend to be when we are in a more conventional type of conversation. Memories of school come up, where this way of relating did not feel safe to us. Another thing that comes up is how making space for silence in a conversation allows for time and space to feel bodily sensations. And how those internal sensations come with important messages about how to relate with the world. We also become aware of how, on a personal level, recording these podcast episodes is a way for us to practice and, for ourselves, normalize being in the world and connecting with other people, and feeling internal sensations at the same time. We also speak into how exciting it feels to us to see what comes through us and the present moment when we don’t have a predetermined agenda and when we record with the intention of sharing that recording in a public place.  Titti Paulina:  www.tittipaulina.com You can contact me via email at [email protected] and you will find the link to suscribe to my newsletter here. You can also follow me on Facebook and Instagram.  Maira Jorba You can connect with Maira via Facebook or at [email protected]. 

**This conversation is not meant for the logical linear mind.  It is an invitation into or an invocation of a slow space that exists underneath our busy lives and beyond conceptual thinking. So consider listening to it in an environment that, for you, is conducive to slowing down on the inside and to meandering deeper into yourself. I would love for you to be as comfortable as possible as you listen and to notice how, not just the vibrations of the words but also the silence in between them impact you.** In today’s episode Maira Jorba joins me for the first episode of Underneath the podcast where we have sensation-based conversations. The idea of this podcast is to bring awareness to and speak into thoughts and sensations that we might usually not mention (or be aware of) in a more conventional conversation, and that arise in the moment when we don’t have a predetermined agenda about what to say. In some episodes there might be a predetermined topic but in this one nothing was decided beforehand. Maira and I just got together and hit record to explore what would come out of the present moment between us. Well, it’s not just any present moment since we are recording with the intention of sharing that recording publicly. So we find it interesting to bring awareness to, what we often refer to as parts in us, that get stirred because there might be a potential future third party observer of what we say. When we notice the parts that wonder how a potential future listener (you maybe) might judge us and not necessarily identify completely with them, we usually have more space to feel their underlying sensations and to then be more aware of sensations all together. So in today’s episode, for instance, we come across tingling, buzzing and slow wave-like sensations.  We feel into, that the reason that we enjoy relating in this slowed down, sensation-based way is that we can tune into sensations in the body that we might not be aware of otherwise and how when we are less aware of them we relate more on autopilot. On the other hand, when we do pay attention to these sensations, when we make space for them, we notice how we have more of a conscious choice about how to relate with others, about the most appropriate way to proceed with life. At one point during the recording, as we mention and observe, instead of identify with these different parts, I notice how my awareness kind of sinks down and becomes immersed into a felt sensation of something that throughout my life has not really had a lot of opportunities to come through when I'm in a conversation with other people. That I even have a tendency to leave that felt sensation when I’m in a conventional conversation. Maybe because this “something” within me seems to be very tricky, if not impossible, to translate into words. And also because, when it does try to express, something else comes in that wants to control the situation, convinced that this slow to express “something” will never be able to compete with fast paced and intriguing thoughts and ideas.  So we speak about how recording these episodes is a way for us to get to know the parts that tend to take over the steering wheel when relating with others, not to get rid of them but to feel the felt sensation of them and allow all parts and sensations to come through which helps us come closer to who we wanna be.  In today’s episode we also come across the sense of relief from allowing space for silence in a conversation. How something in us relaxes from the fact that we are not going anywhere with these conversations  If anything, we are going down.  Titti Paulina:  www.tittipaulina.com You can contact me via email at [email protected] and you will find the link to suscribe to my newsletter here. You can also follow me on Facebook and Instagram.  Maira Jorba You can connect with Maira via Facebook or at [email protected].   

**This conversation is not meant for the logical linear mind.  It is an invitation into or an invocation of a slow space that exists underneath our busy lives and beyond conceptual thinking. So consider listening to it in an environment that, for you, is conducive to slowing down on the inside and to meandering deeper into yourself. I would love for you to be as comfortable as possible as you listen and to notice how, not just the vibrations of the words but also the silence in between them impact you.** This episode of Underneath is part of a recording that Johanna Eriksson and I made shortly after I had felt the impulse to start this podcast. In it you will hear us go into that that there is no agenda for these conversations yet how there is an intention for them. But that that intention does not really come out of the verbal framework and the logical mind. Instead the intention for this podcast is a felt sensation. A place deep inside of me that doesn’t use words. I do, however, try to find some words for it in this recording and they turn out to be that the intention for Underneath is to open up a space where this “something that I can feel as this felt sensation” can get a chance to express somehow. It's an exploration of what happens if we don't have an agenda between us, and we just connect in the moment and bring forward what is in us and between us in that moment. Especially those thoughts and sensations that we usually hide or don’t speak into.  You will also hear Johanna talk about how she felt uncertain to join the conversation as she didn’t feel on top of things that day yet how hearing about the intention made her relax and feel welcome in whatever state she might be in, that all parts of her can, not just join but also contribute to the conversation. No part has to be hidden.  We also come across how there seem to be a part that does have an agenda though, a hidden agenda, hoping to produce value for potential listeners. And how what it really longs for is for people to slow down and notice the yummy energy, underneath it all, that so easily gets missed when we are busy or when we are repressing parts of ourselves. It wants to feel this yummy sensation simply for the sake of feeling it and it longs for meeting people at that depth.  Other things that come through this particular episode are how Johanna notices something in her that, by recording these conversations want to provoke potential listeners that might find these types of conversations awkward how a potential judgemental listener might actually be more connected to ourselves than we usually are aware of how incorrectly verbal language represent felt sensations how it feels to not know how or why, to not have clarity, to not have a logical, coherent explanation yet trusting a sensation and move forward anyway, together into the unknown.  Titti Paulina:  www.tittipaulina.com You can contact me via email at [email protected] and you will find the link to suscribe to my newsletter here. You can also follow me on Facebook and Instagram.  Johanna Eriksson:  You can contact with Johanna via Facebook