I think I’m lonelier than I sometimes admit.It’s strange to say that when I have a partner I love, close friendships, a full life and people around me. But I’m beginning to realise that being alone and feeling lonely are two very different things.In this episode of Dear Christiano, I’m exploring something I’m still figuring out in real time: the loneliness of feeling different, the loneliness that can exist inside relationships, the loneliness that comes with outgrowing people—and the uncomfortable possibility that sometimes the walls we build to protect ourselves might also be keeping connection out.From growing up feeling like “the only gay in the village,” to having a million friends, getting sober, leaving my old life behind, moving to Bali and rebuilding from scratch, my relationship with loneliness has changed enormously.But it hasn’t disappeared.And maybe it isn’t supposed to.Maybe loneliness isn’t always something we need to fix.Maybe sometimes it’s simply reminding us that, underneath all our independence, discernment and “people annoy the shit out of me” energy… we still want to be known.Not by everyone.By the right people.

Have you ever looked back at your life and realised the same kind of person keeps showing up?For years, I believed I had a pattern of attracting controlling people. Different friendships. Different workplaces. Different chapters of my life. But the feeling was always the same—I would slowly stop speaking up, second-guess myself, and lose my voice.In this episode, I'm exploring a difficult truth: maybe the pattern was never really about them. Maybe it was about the parts of me that were afraid of disappointing people, setting boundaries, and trusting my own instincts.This isn't an episode about blaming others. It's about taking ownership, understanding self-abandonment, and learning that choosing yourself isn't selfish—it's necessary.If you've ever walked on eggshells, struggled to say no, or stayed silent to keep the peace, I hope this conversation helps you feel a little less alone.

You don't need more confidence.You don't need another sign.You don't need permission.Sometimes the life you've been dreaming about begins with one small step taken before you feel ready.In this episode, I reflect on the moments that changed my life—from coming out and changing careers to moving to Bali, starting businesses and finally launching this podcast. Every transformation began the same way: by taking the first step without knowing where the path would lead.If you've been waiting for the perfect time, this conversation is for you.

One of the hardest parts of changing your life isn't changing yourself.It's watching your relationships change with you.In this episode I reflect on giving up alcohol, leaving Australia, moving to Bali, losing friendships that once meant everything, and learning that loneliness isn't always something to fix.Sometimes it's simply the space life creates before introducing the people who truly belong in your next chapter.If you've ever outgrown people, felt alone or wondered if something was wrong with you...this conversation is for you.

Turning 40 wasn't the beginning of a midlife crisis. It was the beginning of finally becoming myself.In this first episode of Dear Christiano, I share why I stepped away from everything I had built, what burnout, reinvention and turning 40 taught me, and why this podcast exists.This isn't about having the answers.It's about having the conversations with ourselves that change everything.If you've ever felt stuck, lost, burnt out or ready for your next chapter, this conversation is for you.

There were so many times I wished I could trade in my life for a different one.As a kid, I fantasized about being a world-class tennis player, a celebrity, a famous speaker — anything that would make me liked, adored, loved. Because the truth was, I had no friends. I was invisible. Bullied. Alone.In this vulnerable episode of Dear Christiano, I reflect on how childhood fantasies and people-pleasing shaped my early years, and the lifelong process of peeling back the layers to finally accept the hand I was given — and learn how to play it on my own terms.✨ This episode explores:– The fantasies that masked childhood pain– Why people-pleasing felt safer than authenticity– The truth about feeling unworthy of being yourself– How healing is ongoing, not a destination– Why freedom comes from changing the game, not wishing for new cardsIf you’ve ever caught yourself longing for a different life, this is your reminder: your story, your cards, your journey — they’re enough.💌 Subscribe for weekly queer reflections on healing, identity, and radical self-compassion.🔔 Subscribe to Queer Quest PRO for more radical queer healing, education, and transformation: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌈 Join the Queer Quest Community & Quests: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌟 Register for The Queer Comeback Webinar at https://www.queerquestwebinars.com/webinar to learn how to rebuild your life and health in a queer context. 📘 Download The Journey to Queer Healing Guide at https://www.queerquestwebinars.com/freeguide for invaluable insights and practical tips on your healing journey.

This is not just a meditation.This is a reclamation.This is a vow to live your queerness as holy, unapologetic, and revolutionary.In this deep 3-part guided journey, you’ll awaken the fire of rebellion that lives inside you — not as chaos, but as sacred truth. You’ll step into your queer power, meet your Sacred Rebel Self, and return ready to live your daily life as proof that queerness itself is divine.💫 In this meditation, you will:🌈 Awaken the fire of queer rebellion in your body🌈 Meet and merge with your Sacred Rebel Self🌈 Break the chains of shame, silence, and conformity🌈 Declare your existence as resistance🌈 Return to daily life embodying queer sovereignty and freedomThis is for every LGBTQIA+ soul who has ever been told to dim their light, shrink their truth, or soften their voice.Your life is not a mistake.Your queerness is not a burden.Your existence is a sacred rebellion.Take a breath. Step into the temple.And remember: you are not just living — you are liberating.🌟 Subscribe for more queer meditations + healing journeys🌐 Access my full queer meditation library inside Queer Quest PRO: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/

Internalized homophobia and transphobia are the invisible chains many LGBTQIA+ people carry. In this 4-part series, Christiano Green unpacks what it means to heal from these internalized voices of shame, fear, and unworthiness — and how to step into queer joy and liberation.You’ll learn how these patterns show up in our lives, how to break the cycle with compassion and community, and why embracing queer joy is one of the most powerful acts of resistance we have.If you’ve ever struggled with feeling “not enough” as a queer person, this episode will help you reclaim your worth, your joy, and your freedom.💌 Subscribe for weekly queer reflections on healing, identity, and radical self-compassion.🔔 Subscribe to Queer Quest PRO for more radical queer healing, education, and transformation: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌈 Join the Queer Quest Community & Quests: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌟 Register for The Queer Comeback Webinar at https://www.queerquestwebinars.com/webinar to learn how to rebuild your life and health in a queer context. 📘 Download The Journey to Queer Healing Guide at https://www.queerquestwebinars.com/freeguide for invaluable insights and practical tips on your healing journey.

To the outside world, you may look raw, open, and unafraid to share your truth. But inside, you know there’s always another layer you’re struggling to reach.In this intimate episode of Dear Christiano, queer coach and storyteller Christiano Green reflects on the deeply personal, non-linear process of vulnerability. From growing up in a family that never talked about emotions, to learning how queerness teaches us to hide, Christiano explores why vulnerability can feel exhausting — and how to approach it with more compassion and less shame.✨ This episode explores:– Why vulnerability is never as simple as it looks from the outside– The role of family silence and queer conditioning in bottling emotions– How comparison makes vulnerability harder– Why working one layer at a time is powerful enough– Reframing vulnerability as liberation, not pressureThis is a love letter to anyone who has ever felt “blocked” in their vulnerability. You’re not behind. You’re not broken. Your journey is deeply personal — and it’s enough.💌 Subscribe for weekly queer reflections on healing, identity, and radical self-compassion.🔔 Subscribe to Queer Quest PRO for more radical queer healing, education, and transformation: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌈 Join the Queer Quest Community & Quests: https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/🌟 Register for The Queer Comeback Webinar at https://www.queerquestwebinars.com/webinar to learn how to rebuild your life and health in a queer context. 📘 Download The Journey to Queer Healing Guide at https://www.queerquestwebinars.com/freeguide for invaluable insights and practical tips on your healing journey.

What if you could step through a doorway in time and meet the version of you who already made it?The one who is free. The one who is thriving. The one who carries no shame, only wholeness.This deep, introspective queer meditation will guide you into a sacred space where you’ll meet your future queer self face-to-face — to receive wisdom, love, and courage for the journey you’re on right now.In this practice, you’ll:🌈 Release the old narratives of shame and fear🌈 Step into a vision of your highest queer self🌈 Receive guidance, healing, and belonging from the future you🌈 Anchor this energy into your present momentThis is more than a meditation — it’s a queer healing journey, a time-traveling embrace of the person you are becoming.Take your time. Breathe deeply. Let your future self remind you:💫 You are already becoming. You are already enough. You are already whole.🔔 Subscribe to Queer Quest for more guided meditations, healing journeys, and queer empowerment practices.📲 Access ALL of my queer meditations + transformational programs inside Queer Quest PRO https://courses.queerquest.vip/pro/