So now we come to the conclusion of the pitwalking process as we wrap up Season 1 of this podcast.   In this episode I review the entire process of walking through the pit - the PITWALKER formula.   In the final step of the process we come to understand that the VISION we saw in our pit in conjunction with the new REVELATION of TRUTH that set us free to see new POSSIBILITIES and choose a new PATH… that this vision is in fact the PURPOSE we are called to live at this stage of our journey.   The vision I saw in my pit over a year and a half ago is the PURPOSE that has driven my life ever since. This PIT VISION caused me to move my family across the country from Ohio to California, not knowing anyone or anything. This same pit vision gave me the courage to take the leap sell all our possessions and travel the country with my wife and kids in an RV this year.   If and when the time is right I will resume season 2 of this podcast.   In the mean time if you have questions about the pitwalking process, comments, or otherwise want to engage with me you can do so on The Pitwalker Podcast Facebook page.   See you on the other side of the pit.   Peace, love and light.   Samuel Neider

The Voice of TRUTH from the DIVINITY IN OUR HEART has delivered to us a MESSAGE inside the prison in our pit, and that message SETS US FREE because it changes the lens that has driven the thoughts that have kept us in a cycle of bondage.   This message shatters our prison bars by giving us a NEW LENS, and with this new lens we survey the landscape of our pit and find that an entirely NEW POSSIBILITY has opened up to us.   A NEW POSSIBILITY… with NEW POWER… to walk a NEW PATH… out of our PIT.   At this point we turn back to our heart to seek the DIRECTION and DIRECTIVE within us.   And then we get to CHOOSE.   There is no perfect path. There is simply the path that our heart DESIRES and DIRECTS, that we get to CHOOSE.   Here are the two poems I referenced in this episode. Henley wrote his poem in the infirmary recovering from foot surgery on his right leg after his left had been amputated years before. I wrote my poem while recovering from surgery on my left Achilles tendon. Interesting similarites:   Invictus Out of the night that covers me, Black as the pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be For my unconquerable soul.   In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is bloody, but unbowed.   Beyond this place of wrath and tears Looms but the Horror of the shade, And yet the menace of the years Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.   It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll, I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul.   William Ernest Henley, 1873   Prisons Prisons all around me, Prisons calling to break free. If I do not break my prisons, Who will rescue me?   “No one” says the prison “No one’s coming to set you free.” “If you want to break out of prison” “You must find the lock and key.”   “Fuck you and fuck your prison” I answer violently. “Fuck You and fuck this life, I didn’t choose this difficulty.”   “Not true” says the Voice in my heart. “Walk with Me so you can see.” Then all the thoughts come flooding, All the years, all the choices to be.   As my life comes crashing inward, No more finger pointing at Thee. For now I see, now I realize, These prisons are just me. But now I see, now I realize, I am the lock and key.   Samuel Neider, 2018

The AWAKENING has begun.   The Voice has in our heart has spoken something NEW into us that has set us FREE.   The problem is that we are not used to listening to this Voice, or even hearing it in the first place.   The voices in our head and the noise in the environment around us mostly drown it out.   So how do we know that we are actually hearing The Voice and not the voices?   In this podcast I lay out the litmus tests I use to distinguish the Voice from the voices: Freedom vs bondage Faith vs fear Heart vs head Simple vs complicated Peace vs anxiety Quiet vs cacophony

Now we have come to the APEX of the pitwalking process.   All the work up to this point has been to prepare the way for us to hear a NEW voice - the VOICE IN OUR HEART.   To hear this Voice, the Voice of the divinity within us, we had to face our PAIN, expose it like a raw nerve, and release it.   In doing so, we encountered our PRISON - the LIE about ourself that we have held onto; the lie that has kept us in BONDAGE.   But a NEW TRUTH is awaiting. The LIGHT in our heart shines forth in our darkness, like a beacon in the night, and in this light, the Voice in our heart speaks TRUTH to us.   And this truth LIBERATES us.   And this truth TRANSFORMS us.   And this truth CHANGES our REALITY forever.   Get ready, because your world is about to be permanently altered.

Have you ever gone back to a place you remember from when you were a kid? Did you notice that it wasn’t the same as you remember it?   It’s the same with the painful memories of the past in our pit.   After we experienced the initial trauma or drama, a thought entered our minds - a thought often related to not being enough or being alone - and we chose to believe that thought.   Our belief in that thought gave it the power to become the reality that we have lived in ever since - the self limiting reality that is our current prison.   After RELEASING the rage and CREATING SPACE, we can now go back into the original memory with a NEW LENS to receive a MESSAGE that will liberate us into a NEW REALITY.

Most of us have suppressed our feelings for so long that we have the emotional equivalent of an impacted colon - a colon that is full of shit.   If we don’t poop physically for a few weeks it becomes a serious medical condition. Much longer than that and we would die of toxicity.   It is the same when we don’t move emotions through and out of us. After not just weeks or months, but years and even decades of suppression, we become emotionally and psychologically toxic.   In the last episode I laid out the process for RELEASING THE RAGE, using anger as a catalyst to move the emotions in our PIT through us and out of us.   MOVEMENT CREATES SPACE.   Without clearing this emotional space we stay stuck - imprisoned in the chaos and confusion of our internal landscape.   But when we begin to purge the shit out of our internal piping, we create new space in our soul.   And with this new space comes the ability to see and hear differently, which is the doorway to liberation.

For most of our lives we have been taught that it is not ok to feel and to express our feelings, and we have conformed and complied, choosing to suppress our emotions for years and even decades.   The end result is that we become emotionally CONSTIPATED.   In this constipated state, when we get triggered, we either try to stuff the triggered feelings, adding more shit to an already overflowing shitbag inside of us, or, if we just can't handle it anymore, we EXPLODE our suppressed shit all over the people around us, all too often on those we love the most.   In the pitwalking process, there is no way to experience liberation without first RELEASING our suppressed emotions, and doing so in a safe and healthy way.   In this episode I lay out a detailed process to tap into the feelings in your pit - guilt, shame, fear, sadness, blame - and then use anger as a vomiting catalyst to release years and years of suppressed emotions.   This step in the pitwalking process is where things begin to turn the corner.   Don't turn back now. Keep walking into and through the darkness.   RELEASE THE RAGE. Liberation is at hand…

Once we use the feelings to connect us to the root memory behind our current trigger, it's time to open our eyes to SEE the SCENE in our pit.   You may think it is scary to actually look at what happened - in fact, your mind may have been blocking out the memory for a long time - but you are already feeling the feelings in your pit, so it can't get any worse.   Once you are in the scene, take out your journal and write out every detail, as if you are writing it for a movie.   Seeing is important, because without seeing we have no way to go through.   And in the process of liberation and transformation, there is no way around - the only way is through.

Feelings are the access point to the prison in our pit. Without feeling we're not even in the game of life, let alone the game of growth.   Every emotion creates sensations in particular areas of our body, and these sensations store memories from our past. As we go through the process of pitwalking, the feelings we need to pay special attention to are the (recurring) triggers in our lives that have us stuck in patterns of behaviors that are no longer serving us.   In this episode I talk about the simple way of connecting the feelings we are having in our body to the root cause or root memory of that feeling - where it originated from.   The work of transformation requires that we find this root of pain because ultimately it is tied to a self-limiting belief.   If we are not dealing with roots, the best we can do is deal with the symptoms and create coping mechanisms in an attempt to put bandaids on the deep gangrenous wounds in our life. And at the end of the day, you wouldn't be listening to this podcast if you wanted to remain in the rot.

We live in a culture that tells us it's not ok to feel, and this culture of SUPPRESSION and SEDATION has resulted in a society where most people have never even set foot on the pathway of liberation.   Being stuck in our lives starts with INTERNALIZING and TRAPPING our feelings. Those feelings are tied to BELIEFS that we have created about ourselves, and those EMOTIONALLY CHARGED BELIEFS are the PRISON that we live in.   The access point to our belief prison is through our feelings, and the ACCESS POINT to our feelings is through OUR BODY.   Every emotion that we experience creates sensations in particular areas of our body.   Allowing ourselves to feel the emotions physically opens the doorway to the source, and the source is where we are heading on this journey of liberation.   Today it's time to tune in to your body and become aware of exactly where your physical being the emotions from your pit are being held hostage inside of you.