Join me on a five day water fast. That's right just water no coffee for five days. Let me help you get out of your comfort zone. If you dare I talk about BJJ getting to more of normal classes. 5 min Full Randori rounds are back. I forgot how taxing a 5 min round can be. We need to focus on our health, not locking down everything again this is all so stupid. Health is the one thing we need to talk about and no one does. All you hear is Lock it down. Not the answer we need this is not going to fix this problem.  Why do we do these things? Buy houses, get married. Why is this the dream. It lock us down and sometimes makes us unhappy. The good out balances the bad most of the time, but still why is the dream? Sometimes you find your best friend. That's the dream I believe, not the items we buy but the memories and friendships we acquire along the way. Stay calm after election it will be OK no matter who wins. Sorry about the solar glare I couldn't see it while recording. [email protected] naturalbossnh.com vapegallerynh.com grydlynkmusic @tyler_crain cconderman talkinwithtopher @talkinwithtopher @_conderman

Making this podcast is complex for someone like myself who has never worked with anything like this before. I got comfortable with the simple mic and editing process. This was making me lazy, so I upgraded to expand the podcast and take it further. I want to have conversations and to do that I had to upgrade and now I am out of my comfort zone. Getting something NEW started is a hard task. Once it becomes habit, and becomes a new comfort zone. I have to get out of that again and mix it up again in order to learn new things. This story takes place around 1993 when I was about 13. This is a poor example of how an older sibling should behave. I was trying to impress my friends and fit in. I did not realize how my choices affect my sister or my parents. This could have been worse this is true. Looking back on this now I realize what could have happened and how trying to fit in ALMOST killed my sister. Send questions, positive stories or having a hard time with shit email me at [email protected] Hit me up on I.G., facebook, tiktok, twitter, and snapchat Music by grydlynkmusic - @tyler_crain naturalbossnh.com vapegallerynh.com @NHVG

This week was a bit of a struggle. Found out my grandmother has breast cancer. I know she is 93 but the news still sucks. With that and old feelings popping up. I thought about drinking in the sense that I literally just thought about it. Instead of feeling like I was going to reacted to that thinking. It was just that a thought. So some progress made there. My 93yr old grandmother told me not to believe everything you read, because kombucha is not good for you. Love her so much and I know she has a had a good long life. I still don't want to lose anyone I care for. So this hit hard and triggered a lot of old feelings and self doubt. Finding out I am not as confident in myself as I thought I was. Tough but true. I have so much to work on. Its OK though, when I show myself I will always be this person that I am today. Then and only then will I be able to show others the new person I have become. [email protected] @talkinwithtopher @_cconderman cconderman I am also on FACEBOOK grydlynkmusic @tyler_crain @pmaderry @pma_plaistow @pmawindham naturalbossnh.com vapegallerynh.com @NHVG

Great weekend went to a wedding and a gender reveal party. Perfect weather. So I enjoyed some mushrooms and got lost in my thoughts. This is a podcast on those thoughts. So hold on this is going to get bumpy. Government is broken, Covid has destroyed our economy. What is going to happen after election is uncertain. So I say lets find more people or teams of people that can actually give all the people of the United States equality once and for all. Even though how I retrieved these thoughts was through psychedelics. I truly believe that our government is broken and it's up to us to fix it. One person can't do it. It has to be a group effort. Team Purple!!  [email protected] cconderman talkinwithtopher @_cconderman  naturalbossnh.com  #NHVG vapegallerynh.com [email protected]  grydlynkmusic

I go through my entire routine that I built for myself to help me through this pandemic and tough times. I go over the tools I used to make it easier to deal with. I rant a little about the word NORMAL and how it is over used word. I decide to give my opinion on how the stimulus package is not coming to us by end of October like promised. No shocker there. Dont forget to check out my tiktok, twitter, snapchat, and instagram. Email me at [email protected]. I want to add some segments to the show to have you my subscribers get involved with me. So email with what ever you want and I will give my advice. I am going to call it Topher's Advice or Advice from Topher, something like that. Please remember to let me know that it is OK to read your email on the podcast. Again thank you to everyone for all the support. Now it is my turn to give back.  @talkinwithtopher @_cconderman cconderman talkinwithtopher [email protected] @NHVG #NHVG vapegallerynh.com naturalbossnh.com

This is my story about graduating high school. What drove me to graduating. How I picked up the pieces and made it happen. I was flunking out, but my Families negativity drove me forward.        Negativity cab be used as fuel for positive things. I now instead of getting to upset, cause if I am real about this unsubscribes and negative comments do sting. Now I just use it to keep moving forward and it also shows me I am doing this right. The reason I feel this way is because they are trying to bring you to their level. Instead of that happening I just keep moving forward and do what I am doing because I know what i am trying to do is positive and could help people struggling like I did and still do through this crazy life.  Follow me on ALL platforms @_conderman, cconderman, and talkinwithtopher also you can email me @ [email protected]

I talk about how I felt after surgery. How the anesthesia messed with me for days. I don't think people share this experience enough. That's why I wanted share mine with you. Schedules and routines, what ever you want to call them. I feel like its the most important thing to me. That's why through all of this it has not changed one iota. Now when I can start running or get back on the mats I feel like like I have made it easier on myself. Recovery is so important as well. I find all of these subjects to be important but recovery is I feel is ignored. After an injury or a surgery like mine. I have to take my recovery very seriously. The reason I feel that way is even though I still cant do the things I want to as soon as I am heal and the time passes, I wont have to stop doing what I love for a long time. So my thoughts are: all good things in time. I never thought like this before. This is from lots of work on myself and being off alcohol. Its defiantly the best I have ever been!

I take you along on a trip to my covid-19 test. I talk about how all of this has change me for the better. I take you through my surgery. From the waiting room til after surgery.

This is the complete remodel of the computer room to podcast studio. Hope you enjoy the edit never done this type of editing before.

I realized this week that organization and cleaning is my meditation. When I organize and clean all of a sudden I can think clearly and get the stuff I was stuck on done. I have O.C.D. and Anal Retentiveness and I know that I am not alone on this. So I always wondered why all guys are labeled messy people. I believe we need to change this and realize that women are just as messy or sometimes even messier than men. Remembering that I work at a small business when I need time off or anything I do at work. This is because I have a big box store mentality and almost none of those rules apply to me today. This has been a tough change for me. Having employees to cover or help get stuff done is a benefit I do not have. So I need to work on this and deal with any challenges that may come my way.