– 05:19] Opening SegmentI introduce the guest, Angi San Souci.Angi shares about her background and childhood lifeGrew up in a standard neighborhood.She shares about the challenge she went through in her teenage years.Angi talks about her trauma on September 11th, 2001The verbal and mental abuse by her family.[05:20 – 13:39] The Unhealthy Belief System Angi talks about the unhealthy belief system that led her to unhealthy relationships and decisions.She was making the decision based on what everyone around her wanted.When you are living your life trying to fit into these molds of what everyone else wants you to doYou lose yourself incredibly quickly. There's no way to please everyone cuz everyone wants something different from you.She ended up as an overachiever and held herself to the impossible standard.Angi shares about her college journey.She picked and chose her rebellion. She took on a lot more leadership roles and burned herself out.The mode of false-survivalWhen you are in a constant survival mode, your body and your adrenaline will keep on going and keep you fighting for survival.The fear of facing the traumaShe did not realize that it was a trauma Angi talks about her [13:40 – 19:00] The Journey of Loving Yourself The snowballing impact of traumaAngi talks about the eye-opening conversation she had with her coaching friend.She was already in a toxic marriage and many toxic friendships.Angi talks about her social coping mechanism back in college.Being so busy that kept her moving.The need for external validation in such unhealthy waysShe talks about some of the relationships that she had.She looked for someone to love her because she couldn’t love herself.The fear of being aloneAngi talks about how she missed all the red flags.She did not be able to see it because she did not know what she was looking for [19:01 – 28:06] The Red flags and Impact of Domestic Violence Angi shares about the beginning of her toxic relationship and marriage She did not have enough time and opportunities to find the red flags. The red flags were not visible until after the marriage.  Anggi talks about the red flags she received after marriage.Verbal abused after the first few arguments. Extravagant way of saying sorry without actually saying sorryDomestic violence most of the times are starting small, and it didn't seem so significant, like one piece of straw at a time and then all of a sudden it becomes a pile.Angi shares how it eroded her ability to trust herself and destroyed her inner self-confidence The different impact of physical and emotional abuse on most victims When it comes to emotional abuse, no one can really see and protect you except yourself.Tweetable Quotes: “When you can not love yourself the way you needed to be love, you will keep attracting toxic relationships until you figure out what you need to do with yourself.” Angi San Souci.“Domestic violence most of the times was starting small and didn't seem so significant, like one piece of straw at a time and then all of a sudden it becomes a pile .” - Angi San Souci.“When you are in a constant survival mode, your body and your adrenaline will keep on going and keep you fighting for survival .” - Angi San Souci.Find out more and connect with Angi on LinkedIn.Surviving to Thriving is brought to you by Knight Protection Services. A veteran-owned and operated company, Knight Protection Services employs a diverse group of former law enforcement officers and military veterans of the highest integrity, with extensive experience in risk assessment and crime prevention. Find out more by visiting  https://knightprotectionllc.com/.For More Information About Surviving To Thriving:  http://tothriving.org/