TRIGGER WARNING: CHILDHOOD ABUSE (SEXUAL AND PHYSICAL) In this special preview episode, Kayde reflects on their childhood, current events happening with their mother, and tries to make sense of the motivation behind their mother's actions. They talk, at length, about what they hope to achieve as a parent themselves and also how they can be better than those who came before them. Kayde also thinks out loud about how they plan to provide a life for their children that they never received themselves: a life full of unconditional love, compassion and support.  This episode does get a bit dark, and Kayde's emotions were quite heightened at the time of recording, so please be aware of that. If anyone is offended by the views or opinions expressed by Kayde in this week's episode, Kayde would like to extend their most sincere apology, for they know what this subject matter can do to a person, and would like to let you all know that was never their intention. Please listen to today's episode with an open mind and an open ear. Kayde hopes their pain could help someone heal or grow from their own trauma, and hopes they can let people know: You are not alone. **FACT CORRECTION: I said the eldest of us was 3, when I meant to say 13, and even that was wrong. My mother left us alone to fend for ourselves when my sister (the eldest) was 14-15. I was in Primary school, Grade 3. So I would have been 6-7. Apologies FIND KAYDE: liinks.co/mx_austinn --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/ltabi-pod/message