I am posting these way after their moments. I’m no longer at this point of heartbreak. I am still healing and I am still working on all the goals I set for myself this year. Thank you for listening & if a man or woman ever made you feel like this, I hope that this episode reminds you that you are human, you feelings are valid, and you will heal eventually. Take your time. Fuck people who tell you to let it go. Go at your own pace.

Let's get into the background story that lead to my wanting to be transformed. I believe this story is necessary so that one can truly grasp what lead me to this point in my life right now. Part One is how this man broke me before leaving for Training (yes, he broke my heart again after). I want to give you all the real and raw emotion this heartbreak makes me feel, as ugly as it is... On this podcast, I will always be as genuine as possible! I know we all have our own disappointments, and this is the background story on mine. However, this is not the heartbreak that lead me to want to get up and be transformed. We will get into that in Part Two. I want to make it very clear, it is not solely the heartbreak that lead me to this point in my life. I have been through a lot and this was just the straw that broke the camel's back. In a way, I'm glad it was.

Lately there have been a few instances that have lead to me mom guilt. I feel like I’m doing everything that I can, but how can a 4 year old toddler really understand what I’m really working to accomplish ? Just a disclaimer, towards the end i say 4 months but baby don’t get it twisted, we are 4 weeks away from graduation! Any professionals or moms who know something I don’t, please reach out to me on my IG: shestaybeautiful ✨ even moms who are feeling the same thing and want to share their story! It can be incorporated into my live discussions when I start video recording 🤍

Had to take a short break and evaluate myself, my past, my present, etc. I came to an important realization of myself and why I react the way I do. Abandonment/neglect syndrome is very much real. How do we treat it? Well google says self love. Let’s get into the back stories that, in my opinion, confirm this diagnosis for ME. ✨

What about when things are broken beyond repair? Dust doesn’t have to signify the end. Dust is often what must be present for the new beginning. Let’s get into it!

I have been reading this book “It’s Not Supposed To Be This Way” by Lysa Terkeurst. It is such a great book, I stopped midway to restart it and start taking notes. I love how everything she speaks on is surrounded by God. In this episode we speak on how disappointment isn’t always the devil, it sometimes just might be God leading us home. “Disappointment is not proof that God is withholding good things from us. Sometimes it’s His way of leading us home.”

Introduction of myself and my purpose for the podcast. Follow me in my path and road of complete transformation.