After barely sleeping, crying, laughing, exercising, and halfway returning to some semblance of being a normal human being - let’s check in!

If you have made it this far — You are a miracle beyond all miracles. Way to go. In this episode I’ll share some experience of what has worked to improve my mental state this week, post deathly-detox, and then talk about what we can (and can’t) do about all the damage we created while we were out getting loaded. The damage, that feels like a stranger did it, now that you’ve been sober for a couple days. The damage, which has to be right in our newly sober faces, so we can learn something about ourselves.

Detox totally sucks but it’s basically over in a week. Now life starts.

Damn. Hello my fellow fans of pharmaceuticals. Detox Day 3 is certainly a rough one, physically. But here’s the thing I/we always get wrong about kicking - and why your best bet is to check in somewhere professional for the whole thing (if possible). While you are in this state of severe withdrawal and misery, everybody is still mad at you. That’s probably part of the reason you’re going through with this shit process of kicking anyway. And just because you’re hurting, and nutting out this week-long shitstorm, the people you hurt along the way, well, they don’t feel sorry for you at all. My girlfriend - and that’s not a very descriptive word for the woman of my dreams, the woman I’m sure is meant to be my wife, who I want to grow old with, who I would give anything to make happy - literally dumps me during day 3 of detox in today’s episode. I’m experiencing emotional pain and suffering beyond words, but thankfully we have a way to survive it. The program of recovery gives us support, and a solution, to face the suck. And boy, does it suck hard today. This is - not an exaggeration- the worst day of my life.

Hi! My name is Austin and I am a recovering heroin addict. Join me as I try to drag my ass back to sobriety after a painful and ugly relapse. I am desperate to rediscover the feeling of living a meaningful, joyful life - but like you I am having a hard time stopping, as badly as I want to. Here goes nothing - day 1 kicking dope.

It ain’t pretty, it ain’t nice. It hurts and aches and it is scary, terrifying, strange, and new. But it leads through the woods to a beautiful life on the other side. Join me from day 1 (miserable) sober, to the rest of my life in recovery.