I was making toast and made the mistake of looking at my phone. And I saw kids. Kids the same age as mine. And I couldn't move. This episode is me trying to say out loud what I think a lot of mums feel but don't know how to say — that weird guilt of watching the world fall apart while you're standing in your safe kitchen. The guilt of caring. The guilt of not doing enough. The guilt of still being okay. I don't have answers. I just needed to talk about it.