In this video, I open up about where I am in my personal journey and share insights into my healing process. I begin by offering a trigger warning as I discuss self-harm, but I invite those who struggle with it to stay and listen as I share how I have healed that wound within my heart. This episode doesn't follow specific subtopics but rather focuses on my plans for the show, what I find interesting about myself, and what I've learned along the way.

Initially, I started this show to explore entrepreneurship as a creative practice and delve into the self-development required to sustain a creative flow. I express my anticipation for upcoming changes, highlighting that I won't be announcing every little change but rather allowing my audience to experience my growth and evolution alongside me. I emphasize the value of documenting my journey and avoiding dwelling in the energy of past changes, seeking validation for each decision. As I anticipate these changes, I admit to feeling both nervous and excited simultaneously.I use this episode as an opportunity to cryptically vent and share the lessons I wish I had learned earlier. While I'm engaged in entrepreneurial projects, I explain that I'm still in the learning process and hope to share more about my entrepreneurial journey in the coming months.Before being an entrepreneur, I identify myself as a creative individual. I express my love for painting and how creativity permeates all aspects of my life, from financial struggles to emotional challenges and relationships. I emphasize the importance of creativity as a source of joy and innocence that allows us to build, explore perspectives, and find solutions. I discuss the shift from a mindset of fearing what could go wrong to embracing the possibilities of what could go right.Sharing more about myself, I describe my intelligence and sensitivity during my childhood. Despite being academically advanced, I explain how I wasn't emotionally and socially at par with my peers. I turned to books, writing, and math and science as sources of comfort and understanding. I reflect on the social conflicts I faced during my educational journey, which affected my attendance and academic performance in my final years of elementary school, high school, and college. This pressure to finish what I start continues to influence me in adulthood, but I have learned to determine if I can see projects through before starting them.Regarding my recent discoveries about myself, I talk about my past struggles with self-harm. I express gratitude for outgrowing this behavior but acknowledge that the urges haven't completely disappeared. Through self-reflection, I have realized that the root of these urges lies in feeling misunderstood. With this newfound understanding, I can now seek more understanding and address this underlying issue.While I acknowledge that I'm not an expert in everything I discuss on the show, I emphasize that I'm an expert in my own experiences and feelings about them. I want the show to be a gateway for healing the heart, rather than focusing solely on the brain as traditional healing approaches do. I encourage viewers to embrace their worthiness of love and explore their coping mechanisms and self-sabotaging traits with compassion. I urge them to fixate on joy, address limiting beliefs, and develop a relationship with their past selves to make conscious choices aligned with their inner guidance.In conclusion, thank you for being with me on this journey. Healing is challenging and uncomfortable but essential when feeling stuck. It's not something to hyperfixate on but rather to be felt, as it involves healing the heart rather than just the brain. Thank you for being here and sharing this experience with me.

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