Anti Nihilist
Anti Nihilist
Zach Rudolph
Can emptiness be unlearned? I was raised in a Christian home. And no, I’m not about to tell you how I “outgrew” it or “evolved” past it. But I went through a season of depression that exposed the truth. Deep down I thought God hated me. This podcast is a documentation of the years I’ve spent unlearning half truths and digging for deeper ones. It’s a podcast about the journey out of Victimhood, Cowardice & Self Obsession and into; The Good, The True, & The Beautiful.
Why Sabotage Is Appealing | Commentary On Peter Boghossian x Africa Brooke
Hey everyone! Today I wanted to bring you a short episode on self sabotage and why it appeals to us. There actually is a kind of logic to it. For more on sabotage: https://open.substack.com/pub/zachrudolph/p/unholy-agreements?utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web
Oct 27, 2024
8 min
Thursday Cigars #02 | Bringing Up the Bottom, Bringing Down the Top
Today my dad and discuss weed, the interplay between Christianity and politics, hierarchy vs. acceptance, and how resentment undoes it all. Link to Ben & Marc podcast mentioned: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-future-of-the-american-dream/id1713388101?i=1000656137765
Jul 18, 2024
1 hr 17 min
Thursday Cigars #01 | The Goal & The Journey
Today my dad and friend Kevin join me for an informal chat on “success”, goals, and how to live the journey well.
Jul 11, 2024
59 min
Embarrassment Before Growth
Today my dad joins me to discuss the ever present cloud of insignificance, and a few thoughts on how to kill it.
Jun 10, 2024
28 min
NO PODCAST THIS WEEK
Here’s a quick overview of what I’ve been working on! Excited to be back with you all soon!
Oct 21, 2021
2 min
SUBSTACK
Trying something new… https://zachrudolph.substack.com/p/megachurch?r=rep67&utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=web&utm_source=copy
Sep 10, 2021
1 min
Welcome to Not A Victim
Fear, it's always been my scapegoat to hide from my reality... cynicism has been my go to friend, he keeps me from having to change... but recently i got to a place where i've spent long enough afraid, long enough waiting for someone else to fix things, long enough to be done wishing it were different. i don't know where this will go. i don't know how i'm gonna book and record this thing every week. i don't know if she'll ever care. all i know is, i can't keep living reactive.
Feb 12, 2016
43 sec