In this episode is discuss my realization that I crave the pity of others. I crave the validation of the pity that I already hold for myself. I tell myself I hate being pitied by others and that somehow I am on a pedestal of sorts because I am a man and I can be vulnerable with others about my feelings and emotions. Last week I came to the realization when thinking back on past conversations with friends and loved ones, that I love to be vulnerable as a way to harness the pity of others. I do not make an effort to show how much I value those who are an avid part of my life. I reach out to others out of my own selfish desires of wanting to be pitied and have my negative outlook on life be validated. 

 It is important to acknowledge what you may be going through on a personal level.

In what ways was I creative while growing up within an isolated family system?

What is this idea? I ramble about this idea for about ten minutes here. Enjoy.

In an attempt to look at and try to answer this question I look at my past and how my parents viewed life and how they made decisions. Is man morally good? morally evil? or is mankind nothing more than creatures with the ability to make choices of their own free will which impact their lives in any number of ways?

Homeschooling didn't benefit me. Here is why.

Do I actually love my parents?

In this episode I look back on my childhood and attempt to dissect the man my father was and try to answer the question of whether or not he was a misogynist.

Raised to be racist? In this episode I discuss how many white parents, including my own, struggle when discussing the topics of racial differences and how teaching your children to be "colorblind" or trying to be the individual who "doesn't see color" is actually harmful in the long run. 

Grief. Here are my ramblings regarding five things I feel I have learned.