Recorded on the 5th of November 2020. Felt like a good day. Regaining flow. I just got off the phone with my grandfather now. And was just present with him. Sunday 8th of November It's good to have him in my life, who knows how long I'll have him for. Things speak to me at night. And I speak to myself. Formulating sentences, putting them together. Thinking it all through.  I wish I could dedicate all my time to my art. But I am going through what I need to, should and have to go through as it all comes together. I think of her, always. But not all the time.Regaining the self. Anger. A consistency. A rage.