I'm terrified of losing the life I lead. I'm dreadfully aware of how easy it is for things to go wrong. 

I can't help but question what I did or who I am to deserve this life and all the good that's in it. And I'm not so sure that's a question I can answer.

As long as I get to move, I will do my best to make the most of the life I lead. But is there a reason for me to be proud of who I am and what I've accomplished? 

I'm also not too sure.

How attached will I be to the things in my life I consider good, the things in my life that bring me joy?

And what part did I play to make it so, and can I live with the things I've done to bring the future I envisioned into fruition?