This time in our serial podcast “Hallo, Ephemeral Berliners!”, our special guest Dillon shared his life in Berlin (2019-2021), currently he lives in a La-La Land, where almost everything is commodified and dreams are fabricated.  As an artist and a person with an American passport, Dillion had always longed for life outside of the states, and Berlin became his first station. As we were traveling back in time, Dillon suddenly realized that he was “idealizing” Berlin and the flashbacks of his “good old time” in Berlin marginalized his other less bright experiences. From “trying to be okay” to having roots and feeling good, Dillion had intense and fruitful “dates” with himself, midnight playgrounds, summer lakes, met people who were trying to engage and to “figure things out” like him and developed a lot of new creative habits. Here, Dillon surrendered to new noises in this flat, green city; with such slightly losing control, he ran into/found unexpected new landscapes. These landscapes are personal, yet full of potential. Welcome to join this multiple-sensual journey with us! Some Links to Dillion’s work: Surrender to The (new) Noise https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2R58bSNWIoA&t How to Fill My Voice with a Space: https://soundcloud.com/dillonbastanprojects/how-to-fill-my-voice-with-a-space

Midnight Ephemeral Talks Episode Two Let’s Talk About Desire “Love and appetite are both fundamental parts of human nature; when they are inaccessible,  they become obstacles to one's life.” Wang Xiaobo once said. This is a perfect line as the opening for our second episode, “Let’s Talk About Desire”, where we move from appetite to sexual desire and other kinds of contextualized desires. This time, we, Alyssa and Somer, invite two friends, Bo and Indu, to join us and talk about desire, erotics, human connection, fear, addiction, repression and many more. Our talk starts with Somer’s recent live performance “Me and My Desired and Desiring Body”, and moves on to several questions regarding desire such as “What is your first association when it comes to desire?”, “Where does your desire come from?” and so on. Each guest has different approaches yet equally inspiring responses; it’s true that we may never universalize human desire, any attempt to unite desire may turn into violent actions. This time, we have a German-English speaking guest, so our episode two is in English. For Chinese speakers, we provide you with a written introduction and an oral pretext in Chinese, please check below and listen to the pretext. We hope this will be helpful for you. For a bookmark-included and speakers-visible version, please go to our Youtube Channel and watch/listen to our (hopefully) sleeping-aid midnight talks. Our takeaway question is: What is your first association with desire? Looking forward to hearing from yooou and your ephemeral bodies. Ephemeral Studio Berlin Jan.2022 If you are still with me,  as an appetizer, we got some quotes from this episode for you: I always feel that I’m a stranger in my birthplace; since little, my biggest desire is to leave for somewhere else, somewhere different, though I don’t really know what a “Bigger Outside World” really means. Back then, I had a lot of self doubt, self criticism, I think that’s one of the side effects of having idols. It could be a kind of motivation, but if it does not suit your default setting, it can be a problem. Now, I stop living a life according to my idols. Now, I’m more like a blank canvas, no idols above me, I write my own stories. I had goals, but I failed, because the methods didn’t work, it was too organized, too rigid, too in a box for me. I can’t grow freely, so I’m trying not to do that (new year resolution). But I’m still looking forward to the future and trying to embrace it, but not in such a strict way. The things that matter to me: How do I desire? With what kind of specific situations, things, conditions could desire be productive? I go with the flow of life, and I prefer to enjoy the process, with intensity of desire. References: Audre Lorde, Uses of the Erotics: The erotic as Power, 1978. Sexuality, in: MacKinnon, Catharine A. Toward a Feminist Theory of the State. Cambridge: Harvard University Press, 1989. pp.126-154. Julian Barnes, Death, Penguin, Vintage Minis, 2017. Books Alyssa mentioned: Luke Burgis, Wanting: The Power of Mimetic Desire in Everyday Life, 2021.

Midnight Ephemeral Talks Episode One Anorexia Nervosa, Not About Food In our first episode of Midnight Ephemeral Talks, “Anorexia Nervosa, Not About Food”, we (Alyssa and Somer) invite two friends, Bo and Langjie, to join us and talk about Food, Eating Disorder, various relationships between our body, the flowing or the lack of appetite, and food. The conversation starts with discussions about Somer’s recent live performance “Me and My Eating Disordered Body”, and goes on to inquiries about dieting body, fitness-obsessed body and other regulated bodies, the art of cooking/loving, the potential of different ingredients and so on. This time, all of us speak (sometimes broken) Chinese, so our first episode is in Chinese. We provide you with English subtitles for key sentences, for a subtitle-included and speakers-visible version, please go to our Youtube Channel and watch/listen to our sleeping-aid podcast. Warning to those who are into Foucault, Deleuze and the notion “Becoming", this episode might be a bit exciting and thus a sleeping-killing pill for you. Ephemeral Studio Berlin And we got some quotations from this episode as a preview for you. The pleasure of food is abstract to you, whereas the hatred attitude towards food is abstract to me. My body has always been my tool, a container that aids my brain to carry out an intellectual life. And since I started the project “Me and My Ephemeral Bodies” , it is no longer a tool, it has become the protagonist. Metaphorically becoming plant, it is an attempt of the Body to escape from rational control, as the instinctive desires of the Body are overflowing. For both dieting or fitness, the common part of both activities is: Let the Body serve a specific purpose. However, the Body is not obligated to serve any purpose. Body is something perceptive. The relationship between you and food is itself a very private process. With repeated practice and dynamic balance, you gradually develop a kind of adaptive mechanism of your own. IG: @ephemeralbodies E-mail: [email protected] 須臾夜談第一期 “神經性厭食症，無關食物” 在我們第一期的須臾夜談“神經性厭食症，無關食物”里，我們（Alyssa與Somer）邀請兩位朋友，博與瑯傑，加入我們，一齊談論有關食物，飲食失調（諸如暴食和厭食）等不同和食物的關係等等相關話題。這場對話從對Somer最近的一場名為“我與我飲食失調的身體”的實況表演藝術的討論開始，之後進入對於減肥、健身以及其它情況中被調控的身體的談論，最後，我們也談到烹飪的藝術。 此次，我們的談話用中文進行，我們會提供一些中英文參考資料索引和部分英文字幕。你也可以在Youtube搜索到包含字幕的Podcast的視頻版本。 須臾工作室 出自本次長聊的一些精彩語錄： 食物（的快感）對你比較抽象，厭食症對我比較抽象。 我的身體一直是我的工具，幫我的大腦進行智識生活的一個容器。 而從我做這件作品開始，它不再是工具，它稱為主角。 隱喻性地變成植物，是身體逃逸出理性控制的一種嘗試，身體一種本能的慾望的充溢。 減肥也好健身也好，都是讓身體服務於特定目的，但身體不需要服務於任何目的。 身體是一個感受性的東西，你和食物建立關係，本身是一種很私密的過程，在反復實踐的動態平衡中，你會長出一個自己的適應機制。

親愛的朋友們，大家晚上好，歡迎收聽我們的須臾夜談。我們穿越各種距離，給在任何時空的你，一個大大的電子擁抱。通過須臾夜談，我們希望，讓角落的聲音被聽見。每一期播客，我們會邀請兩位好友加入我們，聊聊和”須臾身體”有關的各種話題。

Dear all ephemeral bodies, welcome to Midnight Ephemeral Talks, we are Alyssa and Somer. We hope our podcast may be a platform where all kinds of bodies talk freely and their voices reach other open ears. In each episode, we invite two friends to join us and talk about everything related to our ephemeral bodies.