Episode WebpageWebsiteBlueSky ProfileTikTok ProfileSupporter’s Club Preview Ep #4In this episode I talk about my frustration with the lack of results I received after my years of solid effort to get acknowledgment for MY DAD and his service to the Local Police Department In a city with a hardline MAGA stance and stronghold within its City Council My numerous requests that I’d made that had been dismissed over and over by local Law Enforcement and were completely ignored by the City CouncilA City Council, that has held events about suicide awareness at the local pier and spoken openly about suicide A City Council whose members have made cute little videos that they’ve posted on the city’s social media pages grandstanding about the importance of normalizing suicide awareness and making it a topic of conversation In a city that has made and continues to make headlines for arresting a former NFL punter who recently spoke out at a City Council meeting - The same Police Department my Dad worked for and served his community as a member of - That same Police Department arrested the former NFL punter for speaking out against current Council’s hard line, zealot like worship of MAGA and all it stands for In a city that includes Christianity as one of it’s most honorable and and highest values - where GOD and RELIGION is very much their platformIt appears to be quite the dichotomy when I looks at the city’s current council full of PROUD MAGATS - yet they have completely IGNORED ALL of MY REQUESTS to acknowledge my dad and his service to the community 40 years ago The Christian, God Loving City Council Members, who WILL NOT BE BOTHERED to say my Dad’s name. My Dad, the former City Police Officer whom most people describe as a good Christian and a GREAT Officer who engaged in Missionary work to those that have lost their way, on and off the clock I read all of the emails I received from the city’s Police Department’s retirees who reached out to me to share their positive, glowing stories about my dad with me and to offer me support as I continued to try and get some acknowledgment for him from the City and its Police Department I tell a little bit more of mine and my families’ backstoryI share about the additional interactions I had with a few of the retirees that emailed me about my dad. Some of which I had phone conversations with and one that I met in person.The former colleague of my Dad’s i met with in person, who I now call a friend, sent to me as a guardian by my father - if you believe in that sort of thingI talk more about the conspiracy theories my family and my dad’s former colleagues have discussed over the years in relation to my dad’s untimely passing and give more details about his former partner with whom my dad engaged in street missionary efforts both on and off the clockThere are a few kismet moments and more gut wrench timing by the biggest loser of all, my ex husband. My ex husband who continues to disgrace the legacies of both my Father, a Police Officer; my Grandfather, a WWII combat veteran, and my entire family as he continues to live his life as though he’s some type of hometown hero, in my hometown, who gloats and boasts about the complete devastation he has brought to my life - while he continues to live in my hometown, a visitor and poser at bestThe story as told in the Podcast and Website is...

Episode WebpageWebsiteIn this episode I give a shout out and make a dedication to my #1 FAN an unexpected FAN - but a FAN nonetheless During my dedication speech I try and give my #1 FAN a very important financial lesson about the difference between a Line of Credit and a Deposit Account. My #1 Fan has been actively assisting my EX with his gathering and preparation of the financial documents he’s been providing to the court during our divorce. The very important detail - the difference between a Line of Credit and a Deposit Account - is not something that either my EX or my #1 Fan seem to know and it might just work in my favor - sometimes we learn lessons a little too lateAnother thing I mention to my #1 Fan is the legal issues that My EX might run into IF it is revealed that my EX is allowing an individual to access and review OUR joint bank and financial accounts, and that individual is not a Forensic Accountant. If that turns out to be true, it could put my EX in a very precarious legal situation I review the text messages I’ve posted on the webpage for Season 1 Episode 8 - one from my #1 Fan and the others are from my EX. My Ex’s text messages on the webpage for Season 1 Episode 8 are examples of Gaslighting behavior and how a Narcissists pace of exhibiting their behavior can appear at more of a slow drip, it’s not always an obvious deluge I round out the November 2023 timeline which includes:The final walkthrough and exit from the old apartment, My first zoom therapy session in the new apartment that’s interrupted by a weird version of my EX My Ex and I spent Thanksgiving with the McPnutz family, their “family friends” and a new smart fridge powered by ALEXA and sourdough breadMy Birthday, sufficiently ruined by my EX - which was the normMy Ex sets up our internet in our new Smart Bot Apartment. My EX and I search high and low for the Bot Apartment’s Smart Home Hub and it makes itself known during my EX’s very timely story about his friend who he describes as having the exact same WiFi woes that we experienced in our last apartment. Apparently once November 2023 hit my Ex believed hacking IS a thing……The last day of November I get on a plane and fly to the south to stay with my REAL BEST FRIEND (who’s NOT a therapist and didn’t harbor my criminal Ex Husband in her home), so we could record our Podcast that was never released because my Ex and my Ex BFF(the therapist) had other plans for me that week in February of 2024The story as told in the Podcast and Website is based on my understanding and perspective, it should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification. The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused. My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process - a divorce he filed for - in courtBlueSky ProfileTikTok ProfileLinks to Text MessagesMy Ex's Text that begins the phone clone gaslightingMy text to my EX calling out his gaslighting and abuse<a href="https://mmmblmd.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/Image-3.jpeg"...

Episode WebpageWebsiteSupporters club preview #3In this episode I read the other journal entry I made on June 23, 2023 - on the very bad no good day that I had a difficult time grappling with the lack of headway I was making in getting anything on my list of things I was trying to get accomplished with my dad’s memory and legacyI read the journal entry entitled November 21, 2024 navigating family drama - lessons from my childhood - hidden journal entry June 23, 2023Im this Blog entry I discuss my process and how I was able to find forgiveness and grace for my stepmother I address the extra burial plot my dad is buried with and how legally - that has made it increasingly difficult - for me or anyone else to get control of my dad’s plot, headstone, and remains. I talk about the lore and conspiracy theories my dad’s side of the family often discussed around me as child and how confusion and anger reigned supreme around the decision to bury him with an empty plotI give my dad some of the heat and hold him to task - he was not imperfect and he made some huge life changing decisions that had severe repercussions - not only for his life but for mine, my mother’s, my stepmother’s and all of our familiesI talk about the limited amount of concrete memories I have of my dad but speak to the tangible feelings and memories I have of our relationship and connection I explain the traumatic memory that is associated with the picture of me and my dad kissing - the main image of this episode - a memory that has only resurfaced over the last few years I finish the episode addressing my current situation and the state of my life - the mess and wreckage created for me by my abusive ex husband and how my family continues to judge me for not just sucking it up and going back to work and how given the current state of affairs we should all give each other a little more grace and understandingThe story as told in the Podcast and Website is based on my understanding and perspective, it should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification. The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused. My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process - a divorce he filed for - in courtBlueSky ProfileTikTok ProfileBecome a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/midlife-misery-the-journals--6430471/support.

WebsiteEpisode Webpage for Season 1 Episode 8Season 1 Episode 8In this episode I speak to the fact that its my 1 year anniversary of the involuntary 5150 hold my EX successfully placed me in using only his LIES and FALSIFICATION of MY medical records, he didn’t even need law enforcement or my psychiatrist - he knew the game and played it perfectlyI talk about gaslighting and how my EX slowly ramped up the fire, making it hard to see as it’s happening by the time I realized what was going on, it was too late. I refer back to the text messages I posted on the previous episodes webpage as examples of my EX’s manipulative and abusive behavior. I wonder what kind of Terminator I’m supposed to be since my EX told everyone that I was acting like one in the days leading up to the spousal abandonment and gave that “behavior” I was exhibiting as the reason for his sudden and unannounced departure……What does that say about my MOM and anyone else out that actually believes my EX’s story???? We might be in the middle of a mental health crisis that’s for sureI recall the VERY LAST AND FINAL Wedding Anniversary I’ll ever have the DISPLEASURE of “celebrating” with my EX. I learn that the neighboring BOT ran Complex is where a very famous murder happened. My EX and I move into our new apartment at our BOT ran complex. I find a very alarming piece of incriminating evidence - AGAINST my EX and his Killer Clown Murder Posse - under the sink in the “old apartment” while I’m packing. I throw in a text message from Ten Head Horse Chick. While we’re moving into the BOT ran complex I see some familiar faces. My EX turns up the flames while he continues to Gaslight me all the way out of the old apartment by manipulating his communication with the property manager. Fully Functioning Drunk Chick seems to think the familiar faces I saw while moving in to the BOT ran complex is an OH Sh!t moment - or she just wanted my EX to see it that wayMy EX plays hero while he helps the movers he hired with the entire move - they didn’t even ask for his help, he insisted and he paid them full price, what a great guy! I recall November 15, 2023 and how it would be the last day I even felt safe, stable, or secure - because the feelings were all fake anyway. I provide full transparency about why I’m doing the podcast and why I created the website - spoiler alert - it’s because my mental health has suffered so much over the last year and half due to the tremendous amount of abuse I’ve endured from my EX husband that he continues to unleash on my life. I have applied to use the safety net I’ve paid into my entire 30 year career that doesn’t seem to exist or at the very least, I may not get to use it. At the end of the episode on a Civics Diatribe about Social Security - if you don’t want to listen to it you can read it here in Blog Post- scroll to the end. BE KIND, EVERYONE IS STRUGGLING RIGHT NOW, THE FUTURE IS BLEAK FOR A LOT OF US AND WE’RE JUST TRYING TO GET THROUGH THE DAY.The story as told in the Podcast and Website is based on my understanding and perspective, it should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification. The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused. My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process - a divorce he filed for - in courtBlueSky Profile<a...

Link to Episode WebpageLink to Journal Entry I read in this episode on the BlogLink to the WebsiteWelcome to Midlife Misery: The Journals - Supporters Club Preview Episode 2In this episode I talk about my relationship with my Mom and how my years of work in therapy helped me to forgive my Mom and to see how her pain shaped some of the mistakes and her treatment of meI also speak to the forgiveness I worked to have for my Stepmom - while at the same time - I was also feeling very judged by my friends and family for sharing about a specific traumatic event involving my stepmom and the records I was requesting from the local police department about it - if they were still in existence. I share how frustrating it was for me to continue to be told "that's how things were at the time" and how most people I shared with simply expected me to "get over it" I share more of my communications to and from the Lieutenant of the Local Police Department that my Dad worked for in the late 70’s &amp; early 80’s while I continued to try and seek some acknowledgment of my Dad’s service from the Police Department and the City CouncilI talk about how I felt I kept getting the red tape treatment and how I consulted a friend of mine to give me some advice about how to reframe my approach and consider other options of getting acknowledgment for my father and his service to the Local Police Department I tease and set up how the week of February 5th, 2024 was this exact same time - LAST Year - that my Ex BFF and my Ex Husband teamed up to wage their full out assault on my reality My Ex BFF and my spouse would do that by lying to my therapist and utilized my EX Bff's manipulation of communication with my therapist and my EX BFF would place a call to the Local Police Department to my home to respond to the call my EX BFF made based on FALSE INFORMATION - A BLATANT LIE MY SPOUSE TOLD my EX BFF about a conversation we had, which precludes the involuntary psychiatric hold my EX and EX BFF worked together to place me into based on more lies my EX Husband would make to the medical staff in the Emergency Room on February 13, 2024I close out the episode reading the Blog entry entitled "The Impact of Trust:  Lessons from Betrayal" posted on November 20, 2024 the direct Link to read the Blog entry is posted belowThank you so much for listening and remember - BE CAREFUL WHO YOU TRUST WITH YOUR LIFE - IT MIGHT COST YOU EXACTLY THAT - XOXO LAUNAThe story as told in the Podcast and Website is based on my understanding and perspective, it should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification. The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused. My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process - a divorce he filed for - in courtBlueSky ProfileTikTok ProfileMusic Credits Music Credits: Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Timelapse  by Abstract_Solar Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Think it Over by Timur Haisyn Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: You Need To Fight For Your Life by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Waiting For Death by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: World...

Episode WebpageLink to Website Season 1 Episode 7In this episode I talk about my Ex’s extreme patterns of manipulation and gaslighting I point out the different photos my EX sent out as “proof of the damage” in the apartment that he claims to have found when he went back “the other day”The photos that show ZERO damage are the photos that have not been edited and were taken on April 6, 2024 The photos that show actual damage - including our ripped up marriage certificate my EX can be seen holding up with both of his hands in the photo - were edited on April 12, 2024 - right before he sent the images to my friend - In my EX’s other text messages to my friend my EX claimed that I was “up there” wreaking havoc around all the SMALL TOWNS in the MIDWEST My EX sent the text messages and images to the friend with whom I had been staying with, for almost a week, by that time. A FACT that clearly made my EX LOOK VERY BAD and further confirmed My EX WAS LYING IN REAL TIMEI talk about returning to the “old apartment” with my EX in early November 2023. I talk about the text message I sent to my EXBFF - where I poured my heart out and apologized to her profusely - and she COMPLETELY IGNORED IT - like all great therapists do…….right?? I talk a bit about being shaped by my Mom’s response, or lack there of, when I was sick and injured as a child in the 80’s And I go on a small diatribe about GenX - the Forgotten Generation - and why we take offense to being called BoomersI wonder what happened to my 3 rescue dogs that My EX STOLE and forbade me to see - despite me being their main caretaker for 9 years - I share a little about how I volunteered with a rescue organization and how, now, I’m much too traumatized by my EX’s theft of my dogs to even begin to think about volunteering or rescuing again, anytime soonOnce my Ex and I return to our apartment to pack up - my EX immediately begins to tell stories of the conversations he’s having with the neighbors, who all seem to say the same thing……kind of like they’re reciting a script or something We get to the 9th and final wedding anniversary I will ever celebrate with my abusive EX Husband and tell about his extreme gaslighting behavior - in ALL OF HIS TEXT MESSAGES to me after he abandoned me in March, 2024The story as told in the Podcast and Website is based on my understanding and perspective, it should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification. The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused. My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process - a divorce he filed for - in courtTikTok ProfileBlueSky ProfileMusic Credits Music Credits: Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Timelapse  by Abstract_Solar Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Think it Over by Timur Haisyn Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: You Need To Fight For Your Life by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Waiting For Death by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: World In Ruins by Rage SoundBecome a supporter of this podcast: <a...

***This episode discusses and contains depictions on the topic of suicide - if you or anyone you know is in crisis - please seek immediate help - text or chat with the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline by dialing 988 or text TALK to 741741 - and as always, please use discretion when listening***Midlife Misery, the JOURNALS - Supporters Club Preview Episode These episodes are going to be a bit different than the regular season episodes They aren’t going to follow the timeline of the Crazy Train Bananas - cyber death - long term poisoning plot - Attempt on my life and complete life destruction when MY EX’S murder plot failed - THE ONE I’M currently PIECING TOGETHER IN THE SEASON 1 EPISODESThe supporters club episodes are going to focus on my actual Journals - many of the entries you can find in the blog posts on the website and the ones to come. Once January 2024 hits my Journal entries get much more intense because my Ex's diabolical plan goes full steam ahead and we get to the 5150 moment The Journal Entries from 2024 are very raw, emotional, and extremely vulnerable because of the tremendous amount of trauma, turmoil, and chaos my Ex unleashed - and continues to unleash on my life There is a lot more vulnerability within the entries and they aren't necessarily suitable for everyone and they don't always help the story move forward - if anywhere - it’s a lot of venting and trauma processingI’ve decided to put those behind the paywall because I don't want them to muck up the waters of the actual storyIn the Supporters Club Episodes - I'll be diving more into my personal backstory, my family's story and my dad't story I want to keep that portion of my story as separate from my Ex's story as much as possible DESPITE THE FACT THAT IT IS INDEED MY STORY AND MY STORY TO TELL It was written and delivered to me by a Narcissistic Abuser/My EX Husband and I'm telling that story to help others out there identify the signs of abuse and to let other victims of abuse know they are not alone  My story and my family's story is worthy of more discernment - in my opinion and I'd like to keep the 2 stories as separate as possible Not that I won't be making connections to ANCHOR FACE OF DEATH - because they just have to be made But my Ex won't be the lead character in the Supporters Club Episodes - HIS EGO DOESN’T NEED ANY MORE INFLATION Another slight difference in the Supporters Club Episodes from the regular season  episodes will be in the scripting and delivery I spend a lot of time writing the regular season episodes out, editing them over and over, because they have to be linear and stick to a timeline and sequence of events and be as concise as possible because A - I have to have it make sense - B - I have to make sure the information I’m putting out there in the story is information that I can back up with receipts Because unlike my EX - I’m not trying to get hit with slander or libel - I want to make sure that I can say XY&amp;Z happened - and say here is where you can look for the information to corroborate what I’m saying to back it up In these Journal style supporters Club Episodes - they’ll be more free flow, free thought, and I might not be as poised - I might break down from time to time because the content and subject matter is much closer to my heart and much more emotional for me Which is also why I’ll try to keep the EX out of them as much as possible - this episodes will be less scripted and more off the cuff - so I might veer off, or go back and forth they wont necessarily be timeline specific and there may be some spoilers in these journal episodes  I might discuss something that hasn’t happened yet in the timeline of the season - much like this preview...

TikTok ProfileBlueSky ProfileIn this Episode, I speak to the text messages and accompanying photos my EX sent to my friend on April 12, 2024 - the day he filed for divorce.In his text messages my EX claims he went back to the apartment and observed “damage in the apartment” and claims that I caused the damage, however, the majority of the images he sent to my friend were edited on the same day he sent them. Ironically, the photos that are not of damage to the apartment are timestamped on April 6, 2024, the day my EX went to the apartment to gather items for the dogs. All of the photos of the actual “damage” that my EX is claiming I caused have all been re-sized and they were re-sized on April 12, 2024 around NOON - on the day he filed for divorce I tell about the time my EX sent a photo of my replacement Driver’s License (for one I lost in the apartment) to me and my friend “on accident” because our names start with the same letters. I explain my suspicion that my EX meant to send my driver’s license to someone else with a very close relationship to the McPnutz family, to my EX, and one of my EX’s co-workers and I lay that out in red string on a wall. Music Credits Music Credits: Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Timelapse  by Abstract_Solar Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Think it Over by Timur Haisyn Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: You Need To Fight For Your Life by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Waiting For Death by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: World In Ruins by Rage SoundI go over the timeline details for the first 4 days of November 2023 and describe the very last time I ever saw My EX BFF’s kids, who called me “Auntie” for years, and wonder how my EX and the EX BFF explain my sudden disappearance from their lives since I haven’t seen them since.During the first 4 days of November 2023, my EX and I returned to the “old apartment” to stay and continue packing up our things because we both felt we had worn out our welcome in my EX BFF’s home over the 2 weeks we spent there - but we both had very different reasons.Once we returned to the “old apartment”  my EX tells me about the “updates” the friendly neighbor’s shared with him about the complaints the property manager received about the nefarious neighbors hacking into the loud neighbors WIFI and how the Property Manager didn’t know what to do about it.I list out the meaning of MMMBLMD and then focus on the M - for Menopause - or Perimenopause  - which I blamed all of my “weird” ongoing symptoms. I speak about the Formaldehyde Toxicity Symptoms and the CDC information I posted on last week’s episode webpage and go into detail about how all of them affected me and for how long. I also describe how all of the "weird" ongoing physical symptoms I had been experiencing for years - suddenly disappeared, once MY EX disappeared and filed for divorce I share information about the burning hair smell I experienced in the week’s of January 2024 and how it peaked on February 13, 2024 the day my EX committed me on an involuntary Psychiatric Hold.The day the burning hair smell peaked on the day my spouse lied to the Emergency Room staff about my medical history. I share what I’ve learned about what the medical implications of smelling burnt hair and that I have never spoken about the burning hair smell until now because I was terrified my spouse would use it against me in the Emergency Room and with his twisted narrative about my mental health <br...

Season 1 Episode 5I Love the Smell of Formaldehyde in CRYPTOberIn this episode I give examples of my spouse’s ongoing “misinformation campaign” he conducted post spousal abandonment and on the day he filed for divorce.During that time my spouse continued to PRETEND to be concerned about me, my mental health, my reality, and my safety - while he maliciously spread BLATANT LIES to my close friends about the days leading up to our “separation” - and conveniently leaving out the PERTINENT details about his meeting with his divorce attorney and his FILING of PETITION FOR DIVORCE WITH THE COURT.I take a break from the CyberCrimes/Technological aspects of the story and start telling more about the weird illness and ongoing physical symptoms I had been experiencing for years and how they seemed to be associated with the POSSIBILITY of something more nefarious and sinister. I share information I discussed with my therapist during the sessions we had during the WIFIGATE Scandal/CRYPTOber Massacre and how my unhealed childhood trauma contributed to the implosion of my life and marriageI wrap up the CRYPTOber timeline when my spouse and I abruptly moved out of our apartment, after 7 years, and stayed with my “BFF” for a week and half. I give details of the weird and sudden illness that came over me while we were staying at my “BFF’s” and the weird lack of concern or acknowledgment EVERYONE in the home had towards me as I spent 4 days incapacitated and violently ill. There’s a weird “neighbor” moment when my spouse and I return to the apartment - together for the first time in over a week and my spouse’s unusual reaction when pointed it out to himI go into more detail about the “smells” my spouse was reporting to me - the possibility of what one of them could be, its potential association with my sudden inexplainable illness, and how a “NURSE” may have assisted my spouse with obtaining the substance and source of the smell. I share a text message the “NURSE” sent to me in July, 2024 where I sent her a response and asked her about the substance and how her response to me was slightly suspicious.Episode PageWebsiteBlueSky ProfileTikTok ProfileThis story as told in the podcast, and social media, through visual presentation of my medical records and text messages is based on my understanding and perspective, and should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused  My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process in courtMusic Credits Music Credits: Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Timelapse  by Abstract_Solar Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Think it Over by Timur Haisyn Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: You Need To Fight For Your Life by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Waiting For Death by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: World In Ruins by Rage SoundBecome a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/midlife-misery-the-journals--6430471/support.

Canvas Rebel Online Magazine ArticleEpisode 4 Season 1 Page on Website - mmmblmd.comMidlife Misery WebsiteIn this Episode: I give a brief description of how I was able to view the MANY rogue devices that connected to our Wifi and interchanged connections between Wifi and Ethernet.I describe the difference between a Therapist/Psychologist and a Psychiatrist and tell a little about which one has the authority to diagnose and prescribe medication. I also describe how schedule 2 substances are handled when they are prescribed and the guidelines that must be followed when they are prescribed.I talk about how my spouse/AFD left breadcrumbs for me while he traveled along the road on his path and nefarious plan.I point out the time in April 2021 - when my spouse/AFD LIED to the property manager - and he told her that "I cancelled" a meeting that I asked to have - between AFD, me and the neighbor - and how that action helped SGT to escalate in his harassment towards me.I tell about the time in May 2022 - a year after the cancelled meeting - when I finally found out from the Property Manager - that the meeting never happened - BECAUSE MY SPOUSE LIED TO HER.I go into more detail about the week of October 16, 2023 - and tell how my spouse/AFD poured gasoline onto the Molotov cocktail and played his "perfect little victim" act while he did it.I talk more about October 19, 2023 - when we arrived at the Tobias Funke of Therapist's doorstep - IN THE MORNING (that will become a VERY IMPORTANT DETAIL DOWN THE LINE) and how TFT pretended to be supportive and understanding of my concerns and experience.I begin to tell about the SUDDEN INEXPLAINABLE ILLNESS that I came down with - the illnesses potential association with "2 random smells" that had been prevalent for years - and how TFT/her Spouse/ and Anchor Face of Death would all change the narrative for me and BLAME IT ALL ON MY MENTAL HEALTH.The story as told in the Podcast and Website is based on my understanding and perspective, it should not be interpreted as factual claims about any individual or entity without further verification. The names and places have been changed or left cryptic to protect the accused. My name has also been changed to protect myself from my ex as he continues to drag out the divorce process - a divorce he filed for - in courtTikTok ProfileBlueSky ProfileMusic Credits:Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Timelapse  by Abstract_SolarRoyalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Think it Over by Timur HaisynRoyalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: You Need To Fight For Your Life by Rage Sound Royalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: Waiting For Death by Rage SoundRoyalty Free Music from Tunetank.com Track: World In Ruins by Rage SoundBecome a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/midlife-misery-the-journals--6430471/support.