Born mixed-race to a white prostitute mother and a black, pimp father, Nicole grew up belonging to one of the most notorious families in the Boston underworld. Having seen and experienced unimaginable things, she found an outlet in music and finally gained a sense of self until drugs and alcohol stepped in. She shares about her new path in healing the PTSD, staying sober and trying to realize her artistic dreams. She also touches on being a lesbian, having a nervous breakdown and a dogged belief in science which cracked open the door for her to reimagine a universe that might hold the love and positivity she has found essential to staying sane. Nicole performs under the name Blu Nyle.Check her out on all social media @BluNyleGlobal or her speaking about the importance of opening up hereThis ep is sponsored by BetterHelp online therapy.  To try a week of counseling for free go to www.BetterHelp.com/mental  Must be 18To become a monthly donor (and qualify for bonus content and goodies from Paul go to www.Patreon.com/mentalpodTo make a one-time donations via Paypal go to www.mentalpod.com/donateTo help fund Paul's next trip to record international guests, especially in Ireland, go to https://www.gofundme.com/pauls-trip-to-irelandFollow Paul on Twitter and Instagram @mentalpodSee omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.