Workaholic. It definitely is something to be. But it is not the right thing to be. It is one of the things that led to my fiery burnout a few years ago.
My body and mind are as ripe for it as a newly tilled field in the spring. New business. The challenge. The rush. The way it can push everything else outside of my head. The escapism.
It is also a part of who I have to be. Business owner. Income earner.
And it is exciting. I do enjoy what I do. I enjoy seeing the results of what I am doing every day. I'm engaging in a profession that I am good at it. It really is exhilarating.
But I know it can bring the emptiness back. I know where this path leads.
How I not return to that place I was a few years ago?
By allowing the parts of who I am to grow as well.
Balance.

Episode 33: A Wishy Washy Pause

This is an authentic, uninhibited journey into my secret world--that I guess is not so secret now. I just want people to know that they are not alone and that there are people who do understand. I was able to hide everything so well that nobody ever saw the life of quiet desperation I was living. Trauma, Major Depression, PTSD, Anxiety Disorder, isolation, fear, stigma, suicide and the inability to communicate it with those I loved.

You are not alone.

I am not alone.