I am going to take a social media break; I have been emotionally struggling with a lot of personal stuff. During clinical, a lot of stuff has happened, and to say the least, it has affected me. I am in the process of finding a trauma counsellor to deal with my past trauma. Don't worry, I will be okay, it's a matter of time to overcome this issue before my next clinical. 

Sorry for not uploading the video this morning; I stayed up a bit late last night and did not wake up in time to post this. I do have an update, so I was supposed to have an interview with a special guest, but we will have to postpone it once again until further notice. Other than that, please enjoy my rant on Catfishing, lol. I definitely had fun talking about it.

Hey everyone: Sorry for not posting the podcast this morning, I have absolutely forgotten to publish the episode, but here it is. This is my take on life lessons that I have learned over the past three years since my dad had passed. I am forever grateful to be back in school right now and work on what I am genuinely passionate about. I hope everyone has a beautiful week, and I will catch you on the next episode (next Wednesday).

I have been verbally, emotionally, and psychologically abused by my family for my entire life, and it sucks. My parents never really understood how much their words had hurt me; if it were not for counselling back in 2014, I would not be able to handle the stuff today. It has taken a lot of time for me to learn to heal from some of the trauma but, unfortunately, there are more that are resurfacing, and I will need to take action to fix this. I am not an angry person, but that should not excuse me for exploding onto people who have hurt me. I am aware that to let go of the pain, anger, and resentment, I will need to talk to a professional about it. In the long run, I would not be explosive as I would be right now. I hope that people realize that it is not okay to be verbally, emotionally, and psychologically abused by anyone; no one should ever endure this at all. If you feel alone, don't be because there are people who are dealing with as well. I am thankful to talk about it openly because I think it is vital to share the awareness and a helping hand to those in need. If you have ever experienced this and need to talk to someone about it, please do not hesitate to message me. I am always here to listen and be your comfort. 

It is pretty alarming that Asian hate crime is on the rise, and it sucks to receive this kind of behaviour from anyone. Because I experienced these horrendous actions, I feel the need to impact the issue better. I do not tolerate anyone targeting other races because they think they are superior to them. That is not right; I do not care if you are successful, wealthy, popular, famous, or whatever; nobody has the right to make others feel inferior. That situation had made me angry, furious, upset and shocked; I will not sit around and let it go past me. I want people to hear this and feel empowered to speak up. Also, if you see something, say something. Please lend a hand, give them your information to be the witness to the scene. Finally, let's be kind to one another, okay? Just an FYI, I meant to say from 11:30-12:05, NOT 11:03-11:05 LOL.

I am taking a different approach to this episode; today, I will talk about my journey in dealing with grief. I am doing the best to deal with the loss that was handed to me unexpectedly. I will be talking about the loss of my grandfather (from my dad's side), one of my cousins (from my mum's side), my precious dog (Benji, who I still miss dearly), my father, and my most recent passing of a friend. Grieving is not easy; it is still a learning curve for me, but that does not stop me from living my life for the better. I hope you will enjoy this episode, and I will post another one in two weeks.

This is one of the hardest subjects that not many would want to talk about. I get that being in a suicidal state, it is hard to get help, let alone talk about it. So I am taking this chance to open a discussion about this sensitive topic. Again, if you need to talk to someone about being in a vulnerable state, I have listed the numbers below.  Call 1-800-784-2433 (1-800-SUICIDE), or call your local crisis centre. Contact us: Frase Health Crisis Line: 1 877-820-7444 Anywhere in BC 1-800-SUICIDE: 1-800-784-2433 Mental Health Support Line: 310-6789 Vancouver Coastal Regional Distress Line: 604-872-3311 Sunshine Coast/Sea to Sky: 1-866-661-3311 Seniors Distress Line: 604-872-1234 Online Chat Service for Youth: www.YouthInBC.com (Noon to 1 am) Online Chat Service for Adults: www.CrisisCentreChat.ca (Noon to 1 am)

I can not believe that I have been dealing with depression for over 23 years of my life. It has been that long, and I am still here shows how much strength, resilience, and motivation I have. I hope that some of you will appreciate where I am coming from and understand me a little more. I would never want anyone to go through what I have gone through because it is not right. When I have children of my own, I would never want to hurt them in anyways; I want them to feel loved, understood, and welcomed. I feel like my life has never been easy because I constantly feel like I am a burden or an inconvenience to my family. My family said that they want the best for me, but their choice of words and actions are completely opposite. I hope you will enjoy my episode. Samantha

I am getting a little personal with this episode. In the midst of this pandemic, many people are dealing with depression alone, which is not right. I am personally battling with my depression; some days, it is hard for me to get out of bed, but because I have school, that is the only thing that keeps me going. I have made a promise to myself that I will succeed, and I will tell all the haters to piss off.  If you know anyone who is having difficulty dealing with depression or any other mental health, here are some phone lines that you can call. Here are some resources: Call 1-800-784-2433 (1-800-SUICIDE), or call your local crisis centre. Contact us: Frase Health Crisis Line: 1 877-820-7444 Anywhere in BC 1-800-SUICIDE: 1-800-784-2433 Mental Health Support Line: 310-6789 Vancouver Coastal Regional Distress Line: 604-872-3311 Sunshine Coast/Sea to Sky: 1-866-661-3311 Seniors Distress Line: 604-872-1234 Online Chat Service for Youth: www.YouthInBC.com (Noon to 1am) Online Chat Service for Adults: www.CrisisCentreChat.ca (Noon to 1am)

Let's have an open & honest discussion on body Dysmorphia and understand a little bit more of the disorder. Here is my brief understanding of the disorder and personal experiences. Enjoy.