Watched 83 and got reminded about why I started working in the first place

Reflections on lost memories and how feelings of impending doom are temporary. Ps. I was gonna post this on 10th after posting the one I was supposed to post on 6th on 10th but I forgot to publish it😭

It's been 3days since my last year of school startes and I'm already exhausted

Woke up today and got the news that my grandma passed away last night. Im not ok

So I went to a dance workshop today and it low key changes me. I realized how I don't let myself make mistakes and how I strive for perfection which just ends up making me underconfident. Today was easily the highlight of my month and I hope to keep creating art throughout my life.

So after giving a really bad econ exam and having a breakdown in the washroom. I made resolutions to stick to a consistent schedule and make studying a habit and this time I'll do it. Bcz I don't want to cry in the washroom bcz of another bad exam.

Gonna delete this later (prolly not). I had to whisper for this one which will be torture for your ears (or not 😏😏) bcz I CANNOT whisper. Skip this one out or have your ears tickled

So I keep comparing myself to other and honestly it just made me feel trash about myself bcz I'd always question what that other person had that I didn't which made someone I liked fall for them. And it became a habit bcz of certain things that happened in the past, so I could constantly scrutinize myself and evaluate my selfworth on who wanted to be with me. This episode is about me dealing with it but that part is just towards the end bcz I kinda started storytelling 😶

Idk what this is, I'm feeling down right now and if I just want to let it out because my doctor told me to write a diary and I don't feel like I can atm.

This episode is for my best friend who I love more that I could probably ever express. (P.s we could be heroes just for one day. Ily)