'How old are you?'  That is such a simple question yet hard to be accurate. How do you see yourself? I'm not talking about, 'I'm a gentle but fierce individual.'  I'm talking about your human vessel(ego) or your soul. The body you currently reside in is only temporary but your soul is eternal. If you detach yourself from your perspective but instead, choose to view yourself as a soul living a human experience, you will start to see life differently. You will find the beauty in everyday life, seeing the connection between every single living/nonliving organism. Your ego is your human vessel, the five senses. Your soul contains your intuition, divine wisdom, past life experience, and so much more. When you allow your ego to strip away, you connect with your soul through your heart because that is the only connection keeping you alive. When you know someone's 'age,'  what is that supposed to tell you? No age will allow you to understand someones mentality nor their experience. You could have been on this Earth for twelve years but have the mentality of an eighty year old. A number is not an accurate description of your experience, how you process information, or what goes on in your internal world. You can be thirty but connected to your inner child, thus giving off an immature essence. Enjoying life, learning to not take everything seriously while having fun does not make you immature. Blaming everyone else, neglecting responsibilities, manipulating others for your own gain, getting angry when someone doesn't agree with you or if something doesn't go your way, judging someone, getting pissed off at everyone because of your own actions is all acting in an immature fashion. How can you accurately put an age on your mentality and/or experience when we contain an abundance of traits, wisdom, and knowledge. You can't put a price or an age on experience and wisdom. 

You cannot continue living your life with a blindfold on, pretending that if you can't see something, it's not happening. The first step to becoming more conscious to your surroundings and your life is first embodying the only vessel you have. That means no more running from your emotions nor using methods to numb your feelings. Emotions are intense but every curse is a gift. Your emotions are a roadmap to your heart and your happiness. Most people don't want to hear what every ounce of their being is telling them so they decide to run. Eventually you'll win, right? Emotions can no doubt, suck sometimes, but that is the only way we grow, heal, and learn to love unconditionally. If someone or something triggers an emotion inside of you, the only way through is feeling it. Ask why you feel it and instead of acting on the emotion, just sit with it. Embrace your darkness, embrace your light. It's so easy to ride the highs of life that we try to avoid the lows at every cost. You must first feel the low to embrace the high or that high will become a normal feeling and lose all of its touch.  What happened in your past, that triggers this emotion? 

Growing up were you told you would go to Hell for doing something? Did someone try to use fear to force you into behaving a certain way? I've decided to call bullshit and say that Heaven and Hell already exists on Earth. If you live in fear, judgment, resentment, anger, and misery, you create your own living hell. If you live in unconditional love, you create your own harmony and peace, thus living in your own personal Heaven. I believe we all go to the same place no matter the actions you have done through your ego. Your soul communicates with you through your heart and intuition. Your soul is known as the 'light' but your ego is what creates fears and can lead you to darkness. Trusting your ego over your soul will create more darkness but letting unconditional love in will only bring you more love and light into your life. We all have feminine and masculine energy inside of us, gentle and aggressive or destructive. The Bible is written through different perspectives on someone else's life but says that god would be unjust if he let everyone into Heaven. Everyone is capable of darkness but that is simply a tactic to keep you in fear and easily controlled. Differentiating between your ego and fear will help you realize that once your human vessel is dead, you're nothing but unconditional love and light. You are a LITERAL blob of light that will go to the same place as every other soul that has once lived and will continue to live. 

As children, we were the most authentic without fear of judgment. As time grew on, we slowly started putting up walls and masks to hide who we were because we were hurt by others. We felt criticized and judged by the ones closest to us and we felt unsafe to be ourselves. We still have an inner child who feels locked inside a box that deeply wants to be unconditionally loved and cared for. They want to express their joy and play without fear of being hurt. That poor child is asking for your love but first, you need to face your shadow. Healing the wounds that have been self-inflicted or inflicted by others to your inner child will help you become more authentic to yourself, remove your mask. You can't expect to draw in the ones meant for you if you are pretending to be someone else. Remove who you think others want you to be and be who you are when you're alone and feel safest. Allow your inner child to come out to play and have fun in the world because it's really not that serious. Strict and serious is dull. The ones who don't accept you for as you are, aren't meant for you. Allow them to fall away so you can be connected with the ones who WILL appreciate you for exactly who you are. If someone won't accept you for you, they aren't accepting themselves and you don't need them in your life. 

Have you ever said yes when all you wanted to do was scream, 'NO!!!!' but you just have such trouble saying no? You want to help but you're already so overwhelmed and you feel bad if you say no? Some people see this and will try to take advantage of you simply because they know you have trouble saying no. It is not selfish to put yourself first if you simply don't want to do something nor have the energy to do it. Putting yourself first is actually selfless. You can't help someone else to the best of your ability if you're running on empty. Resting is essential to re-energizing and making sure you're okay is the first priority. You cannot continue running on empty or half energy, using caffeine to give you a few more hours before you simply, break down. Embrace the time when you feel called to rest and put your foot down when you need to. There has to be a limit but if you don't draw one, you won't be happy. People will always try to step over your boundaries and they will if you let them, don't. You are just showing them that they can take advantage of you or use you. Free will is your best friend and so is the word, 'no.' 

Based on the title you're probably going to be expecting a workout routine with a specific diet. Luckily, I don't give the same advice as anyone else. Through personal experience, I am giving you the true key to help connect better with your body. If it was easy, everyone would do it so how badly do you want it? 

Have you ever felt as if you're watching your life in a third person point of view or as if life isn't even real? Who knows, it might not be but there's no way to prove it. Anything is possible, I believe everything exists until you prove it doesn't. Open your hearts and mind to the possibility of more than what you were told growing up and think about how you could've been closing yourself off to so many different possibilities. What if we're all living in a video game or television show, but don't realize it? Who is in control? 

Have you ever wondered why every possible coping mechanism you use to escape your pain or reality is only a temporary escape? That's because you CAN'T escape your pain and reality forever. You also can't escape yourself no matter how hard you try.  Could you imagine how much better it would feel if you faced your pain, felt it, healed it, then released it? No one enjoys crying nor truly want to feel it but can you honestly tell me there is pain you don't want to currently feel right now that is trying to come out? I'm trying to encourage you to sit down with yourself, start writing or drawing and just allow everything that comes up to flow freely without judgment. You need to be gentle with yourself when it comes to trauma because we all have an inner child who was so hurt, they felt like they needed to go into a box and hide because it was too painful to express themselves. When you deal with the pain you've been trying to escape, you learn how to be more authentic without giving a fuck about what others will think or say. They're not living your life, you are. 

Have you ever tried to find yourself in someone or something else but it failed? That's because true happiness will never come from outside of yourself. No one can tell you who you are or what you enjoy but most enjoyment comes from creative endeavors. Writing, singing, dancing, skating, drawing, painting, designing, directing, any possible way you could express yourself can help you find true happiness. Using your talents and gifts to express your voice, your story, your ideas, and put them into action will help bring you the harmony and happiness you look for. If you look for unconditional love in someone else but you hate yourself, you will only create trust issues and a fear based connection. If you found someone to love you unconditionally but you're too insecure to actually be vulnerable, that connection will fail. If you don't love yourself but you expect someone else to love you, you may end up begging someone for love but accepting the bare minimum. You may tolerate toxic connections because you feel that is the best you deserve. You deserve to express yourself and deserve love but you need to give yourself that unconditional love and freedom of expression above all else. No one can give you what you won't give yourself. 

I confronted my fears, why can't you? Hopefully this can help motivate you to focus more on yourself and less on other's. Simply know, you're never alone, only misunderstood. When someone doesn't understand you, they make prejudgments and try to put you in a box but that box is unnecessary. If you take anything away from this episode, I want it to be, question your reality until you cannot come up with anymore questions. Not everything is quite as it seems and the further you look into something, the more sense it may or may not make. However, you will not always find the answers you're looking for and that's okay, as long as you ask the questions that are subconsciously being asked. I wanted to bring more awareness with my show to how connected we truly are and in the future, go deeper into who we are and how we're connected.