justaposition
justaposition
justaposition
i quit twitch streaming
50 minutes Posted Dec 31, 2020 at 4:45 am.
Podcast Intro
My Streaming Journey / History
How I Got Into Mental Health Content
finding my niche & using twitch strike
why streaming was toxic for me
being a Smaller Streamer (less than 15 avg viewers)
being raided with 10k+ by lilchiipmunk (first giant raid)
streaming was a 'waste' of my time
my mistake was NOT diversifying from Twitch, I even tried Mixer
being an attractive girl on Twitch / showing boobs / Twitch 'thots'
Twitch TOS is a joke... + favoritism
streamer twitter & my regrets
hyper focus on followers / numbers & hypocrisy
streaming as a hobby vs for growth, "being the next pokimane"
streaming = marketing & I fucking hate it :)
streaming is manipulative (the parasocial problem of streaming)
boundaries and vulnerability 
codependency among viewers & streamers
toxic viewers and Twitch trolls, large streamers
why it felt harder as a smaller streamer 
being obese & in the spotlight 
codependency with viewers dumping emotions
streaming is community management + minecraft & jackbox nightmares 
streaming is like masochism LUL
how i quit, it was REALLY hard...
toxic patterns, comparison, & validation
streaming felt like a popularity contest
dealing with guilt of disappointment for ourselves / community
follow for follow (f4f) communities Twitch Kittens, Team Emmmsie, etc & "networking"
streaming made it hard to have fun offline...
best memories in streaming
worst moments in streaming
my regrets from streaming
advice i'd give to others
should you quit?
advice i'd give to others
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In my first podcast, I end 2020 with a brutally honest reflection over the past 4 years being a twitch affiliate and streamer. I talk about what I've learned, my regrets, advice, and delve into common streaming topics such as streamer twitter, toxic viewers, etc. Streaming not only amplified my anxiety disorder, but it also fed toxic patterns of comparison, lack of self-care, and obsession. I am so done with streaming, time to focus on myself. Happy new year!
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