“My intuition was saying, Yeah, you were born for this. And my logical brain was saying, People won’t listen to you, what do you have to say? And then my soul: I have a lot to say. Trust it, trust it.”
DISCLAIMER: WHAT WE TALK ABOUT ON IN MY TRUTH TENDS TO BE VERY RAW AND CAN BE TRIGGERING. RESOURCES FOR SUPPORT AND HELP ARE INCLUDED AT THE END OF SHOW NOTES - SCROLL DOWN FOR MORE INFORMATION.
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“My days of being a doormat are done. They’re done.”
Welcome everyone to this episode of In My Truth!
I recorded this episode of the podcast in Costa Rica with my gorgeous friend Hallie Rose. I’d just finished up a week-long ayahuasca retreat at Soltara, which is always an amazing and transformative experience for me. (You can read the whole series of my first experience at Soltara here.)
But on this beautiful warm day, the birds were chirping and I was sitting with my beautiful friend Hallie.
Hallie Rose is doing a three-month volunteer position at Soltara, helping out with social media and recording her own podcast - you can find the episode with me here.
She’s been on a journey of healing herself through other people’s stories, just like we are all doing on this journey with the In My Truth podcast, which was also born after an ayahuasca experience. Hallie is spreading the messages of other people’s stories, and in the process being a sponge of healing, learning and growing.
The work is constant and it never ends, so what is Hallie Rose wrangling with at the moment?
Thematically over 2019, Hallie was faced with a variety of opportunities to show up for herself and work on her intuition, but it is still something she struggles with.
Let’s dive in.
“What is my intuition and what is my fear? How do I delineate between that inner knowing and my ego holding me back?”
Join your host Sarah Riegelhuth as she’s joined by Hallie Rose in this episode of In My Truth, as they dive into working out where their gifts are, storytelling, resistance to the limelight, and developing trust.
“It’s kind of like being a little piece on a board game, and you’re being moved along. And then ayahuasca came into my life and it’s like someone plucked that piece off the board and says, ‘Do you realise you were on a board? Do you realise you were part of a game?’ while holding it loftily above the board. And the perspective that comes with that is so immense it’s almost crippling.”
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Listen in to the In My Truth podcast as Sarah Riegelhuth and Hallie Rose get deep into the stories around creating a podcast, exploring healing with ayahuasca, and being told they’re acting selfishly.
Since sharing more of their stories, Sarah and Hallie have opened the doors on more and more beautiful stories and conversations that have been incredibly healing. The conversations that happen behind closed doors can be so beneficial for others to hear.
Where could you be sharing more in order to help others heal and grow?
Hallie and Sarah also get vulnerable with the stories they’re living with around:
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the yearning of our souls
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being a storyteller
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being seen
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the logical brain
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staying in a place of trust
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allowing emotion
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owning our own stuff
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turning inward
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calling medicine into our lives
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peace
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abandonment wounding
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soul contracts and gratitude
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ayahuasca love bubbles
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spiritual bypassing
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asserting boundaries
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putting our needs above others’
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projecting onto our partner
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feeling it out
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addiction to being busy
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forgiving ourselves
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consciously uncoupling
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our friendships
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attachment styles
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taking space in a relationship
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selfishness
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feminine and masculine energy
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how our inner child can show up
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being too much
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not having the answers
“I don’t want to play any games. I don’t want to read a book on dating and do this and do that to get the person. I want to be 100 percent in my truth, and my truth is: I’m struggling with boundaries, I have abandonment wounding, I’m super emotional and I’m going to cry. This is all me.”
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Remember you’re not alone, and there is hope, even though it may not feel that way at times. Talk to someone, a friend or family member and let them support you. Reach out to a professional. Do whatever you need to do to start your journey back to feeling good.
Here are some resources I found on Google (because I am not a professional, these are not recommendations, just suggestions with love and empathy from me to you):
Lifeline (Australia): 13-11-14 is a confidential telephone crisis support service available 24/7 from a landline, payphone or mobile.
Beyond Blue (Australia): 1-300-22-4636 OR chat online between 3pm & 12am 7 days a week
No Shame On You (USA): 1-800-273-(TALK) 8255 OR text 741741 for a 24/7 crisis text line (a live, trained crisis counsellor receives the text and responds quickly) OR visit I’m Alive for 24/7 online crisis chat
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (USA): 1-800-273-8255
Crisis Services (Canada): 1-833-456-4566 OR text 45645 between 4pm and 12am daily
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“I watched myself slip away. I watched myself go from being able to hold space for him and being able to stay in my stuff and let him be in his, and all of a sudden it was a big, messy puddle of I don’t know what is yours and what is mine and I am a complete mess. But that is when I then learned and understood.”
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