So maybe we can’t understand the idea of hell, and throw it out. What was all that stuff in the Bible about it for? Why is it so important to behave well? Why did god put us on the earth at all? Andy sits with the lack of hell for a bit, and tries to understand what a world like that would be like. Words: by Andy Balaam, released under CC-BY-SA. Music: dazed by airtone (c) copyright 2012 Licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution Noncommercial (3.0) license.

What if there were an eternal fire where people you love were tortured forever? What would that be like, how can we sit with that idea and inhabit it? Andy has great difficulty, and is compelled to continue sitting with the idea of god’s goodness. Words: by Andy Balaam, released under CC-BY-SA. Music: Toward Isolation by onlymeith (c) copyright 2012 Licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution (3.0) license.

If the actual god came to earth and walked around, how do we deal with this idea? Can it even make sense? How does it feel when we sit with this idea and try to figure out what it means? Words: by Andy Balaam, released under CC-BY-SA. Music: Relaxed Artifacts by Super_Sigil (c) copyright 2012 Licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution Noncommercial (3.0) license.

People often call Jesus a good man - does this make sense? Andy thinks through what it would be like if Jesus was just a man. Would it make sense to call yourself a Christian? Sitting with the idea, is there anything left for a Christian if the magic of Jesus is removed? Words: by Andy Balaam, released under CC-BY-SA. Music: Parametaphoriquement by gmz (c) copyright 2009 Licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution (3.0) license. Ft: Morusque

If time steps forward like clockwork and everything is determined before it happens, can we really exist at all? What are we if we are machines? How does it feel to inhabit that idea and sit with it for a while? Words: by Andy Balaam, released under CC-BY-SA. Music: Dark Clouds by onlymeith (c) copyright 2013 Licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution Noncommercial (3.0) license. Ft: FFGreen Mu (FFGreen)

If the horrible things we see in this world are all there is, and there is no final reckoning, how do we feel? What would we do? Will we look for more justice in this world, or will we give up on the idea? Words: by Andy Balaam, released under CC-BY-SA. Music: Passage of Time (Duet) by Martijn de Boer (NiGiD) (c) copyright 2016 Licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution Noncommercial (3.0) license. Ft: Doxent Zsigmond

If every wrong was going to be punished, and the people who had been hurt would be looked after, and given justice, what would that be like? Would we really like everything about us to be known? How would we act? Words: by Andy Balaam, released under CC-BY-SA. Music: Relaxed Artifacts by Super_Sigil (c) copyright 2012 Licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution Noncommercial (3.0) license.

Doesn’t it feel like sometimes some things matter? What do we mean when we say life has meaning? Does the idea fall apart when we look too closely at it? What would it feel like if something mattered? What would it feel like? Words: by Andy Balaam, released under CC-BY-SA. Music: Like Music (cdk Mix) by cdk (c) copyright 2015 Licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution Share-Alike (3.0) license. Ft: Phasenwandler

We’re exploring worlds where some of the things we normally pin our hopes on are gone, so it’s natural to look at the fundamental question: what if nothing matters? Andy spends some time trying to feel that, and work out what we would do or think if we truly accepted and embraced that idea. Words: by Andy Balaam, released under CC-BY-SA. Music: Dark Clouds by onlymeith (c) copyright 2013 Licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution Noncommercial (3.0) license. Ft: FFGreen Mu (FFGreen)

Having tried to inhabit the idea of there being no god in the last episode, this time Andy tries to feel what it would be like if someone was there: if she were listening; if he spoke. We spend some time sitting with the idea, and trying to explore what it would mean, and what it would be like. Words: by Andy Balaam, released under CC-BY-SA. Music: dazed by airtone (c) copyright 2012 Licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution Noncommercial (3.0) license.