Herni's Thoughts

Life's good...yeah but sometimes I just start wonder "why"...

Life isn't always what you think it'd be... Turn your head for a second and the table turns . Yeah, I know that I did you wrong, but will you trust me when I say I'll make it up to you someday. i gats face up , i gats get mine, coz I can't know the top till I get too low ..... I tried hard to make you want me ,but it feels like we're not meant to be ,and the truth will always haunt me ,tho it sets me free. Like a distant memory I'll leave again... I kinda know love can be so easy if i start by loving myself 🙂.

Hey I looked forward to every single day thinking you might confess how you feel Yh I know I'm the one who doesn't wanna waste time ,coz I think I know how it's going to end I really don't want to consume my emotions on you,cos I think it's a waste of time But yet I'm trying I'm trying not to know much about you, that'd be hard for me to go back to being strangers with you I'm trying to understand that there's no sun for those who met at night ,just the moon I'm trying hard not to spend the night with you and start Wondering what we are after the sun comes up, Yh I'm trying hard not to get involved in emotional exhaustion,coz it gets me even more lonelier Yh I'm trying

I believe there's this point in our life that we seem to have a dying wish and at that point in time, everything seem awkward and absurd... Yh ...funny tho,i guess I'm at that point rn , it's kinda like weird I'm sharing it out , but it's not to me ,it get things off my chest ..... I hope you enjoy listening

Herni💜: Hey, I mean you I wonder when you're coming home And if at all you'd come I tell you, You've been gone for too long And I've been all alone... I used to be your comfort zone I used to be your one and only I used to be the one you wanna hold Remember? I would wanna hold you, falling in your arms Yeah... We go through phases I know some days are breaking I Know some days are bulletproof I know we keep on changing But one thing is always true I'll never give you up Twas easy when we started Coz twas everything I ever wanted But this love feels different Everytime. Coz we go through phases.... I'm not perfect but I'm trying Yeah... I wouldn't lie , It's amazes me You moved on so easily from someone you once called home It kills me inside Yh .. It hurts a lot I know I miss you I hope you miss me too Coz I don't wanna Miss somebody who's not missing me Don't you understand I'm trying! And maybe I'm a mess But God knows how Mmmmm I wish I had discipline for me Coz I don't know how to turn down the way I feel I guess I still need you to come home 😔 (Smiles) I said home The broken one? Let's build it together again So we can feel comfortable, trusted and open. And errrhm.... Share our feelings The truth is For so long I forgot that I've been stucked in one place than a cave of a lifetime A deep dark cave And then , I let out some egos outta my world And you came around and brought the good out of me For the first time I started to feel things again I started to feel happy But lately I guess I'm feeling distant from you I care, yh, I miss us But I know you wanna move on. And if I'm being really honest, That's what scares me I don't want things to change That's why I think maybe I should stop the change To turn back the clock To make things go back to how they were But I Know that's naive It's just not how life works Let's move on Sometimes it's painful Sometimes it's sad Sometimes it's surprisingly happy So you know what, Keep on moving on Who am I to stop you. Make mistakes Learn from them, And when life hurts you, because it will Remember the heart . To hurt is good It moves you out of that cave But please keep the door open The door of your heart But I still hope you come home soon😔

Yeah, we'd rather be a lover than a fighter 'Cause all this while, we've been silent Never felt a feeling of comfort, And all this time, we've been hiding And we never had the chance to speak up We're so used to being quiet But with the silence We found peace in your violence Can't tell us there's no point in trying We're at one, and we've been quiet for too long It's time for us to take it We're the boss right now Ain't gonna fake it Not until you go down 'Cause this our game And you better come to play We used to hold our freak back Now we're not letting go We make our own choice, we run this show So leave the lights on No! you can't make us behave So you say we're complicated That we must be outta our mind But you had us underrated Now we're not gonna be silent anymore Coz, you've taken our silence for weakness, Now we *RISE*

*WEAK* When everything gets broken The devil hits his stride Remember what I told you? I'll need to hide behind Fear of moments stolen Coz I never wanna say good night So we can run into the open With your hand inside of mine And when everything is over I hope to think of this as better times Yeah... We're doing okay so far But things could get better if we realize That all we need to do is help each other As long as we are alive I just wanna be as happy as I can be Coz everytime I think I have it all figured and planned I get confused Guess I'm too weak My demons and I had a holy dance And I won't lie Success has it's Downfall I'm really tired of everything around me Yh, Everybody is going through some real shit We all have demons that we don't show Dying in silence But this despicable violence in soul keeps coming Making me wonder Who am I ? But I guess I'm just someone that's afraid to let go Coz I'm sad and low (Mmmmmm) They say the sky's the limit And to me that's really true I'll keep pushing Just wait 'til I get through...😪

Coma

Growth

*LOST* Lost in your eyes Staring through the walls of the sky Bleeding through the edges of my scars within Take me with my breath to the end of this Coz I get cold when I'm alone Feeling like I'm stuck inside Feeling like I'm stuck inside my tomb Yh I'm on my own Lost in a trance Rhythm to the thoughts in my head I'm scared you might run away I'm scared you won't feel the same with me I don't wanna fall deep without you Tell me.... Would you run if I try to stay? Alive Need my soul and I need yours too Soon, the sun will rise and the night will fade Tho you came around but it feels so lonely without you now