The first Christmas Eve and Christmas without you. Holidays without your loved ones can leave you feeling empty. I discuss how this holiday, very important to my family, has changed since the loss of my brother; and ways that I’ve tried to heal for future holidays without him.

Some more signs from my brother, and how this made me feel. I also talk about the importance of getting support during your grief.

This episode details the guilt that I felt after my brother mentioned wanting to have a “brother sister talk”. How I wish I could’ve gone back and changed things, and how I’ve dealt with this. I also mention my first dream of my brother after his passing.

This episode gets into what it’s like to have your first birthday without your loved one, and how the thought of celebrating something without them is something you just do not want to think about. I discuss the letter written to my brother on my 30th birthday. As well as an experience I had one night with feeling like someone was in my room with me.

Guilt, sorrow, and looking for answers can take over at some points in the grief process. In this episode I talk about how these factors effected me and how I deal with it presently.

This episode explains the first holiday after losing my brother. How it made us all feel. I get into detail about the anger and guilt that now arises within this part of the grieving process.

This episode gets into the spiritual side of this grieving process, and how I have the pleasure and gift, of knowing a special individual to help me along with healing. I explain the connections and signs I have gotten from my brother through Jen, and on my own as well.

In this weeks episode, I start to discover the days of the “final goodbyes”, and what that all feels like. I describe being at my parent’s home, the day after his passing. I get into detail about what it was like to be at my brothers services as well.

This episode details what this podcast will be about. It dives deep into how grief starts, and what it can do to your thoughts. How it can effect you emotionally. The episode is meant to help those you are starting out, or have been enduring the pain and grief, and want to have a commonality with someone who has been through it.