Healing CPTSD
Healing CPTSD
Embodied Self Therapy
Healing CPTSD is a podcast dedicated to healing from childhood trauma and complex PTSD. Join your host, Bianca Winter-Mallari, a trauma informed counsellor, somatic therapist, founder of Embodied Self Therapy and fellow childhood trauma survivor. Here we’ll explore the nuanced world of trauma, unpacking topics such as toxic family systems, intergenerational trauma, attachment, dissociation and shame. We’ll also explore pathways to recovery through somatics and embodiment, nervous system regulation, parts work, community and trauma informed care.
17. Relationships: From Disorganised Attachment to Dissociating in Conflict
In this episode, we dive into the complex world of relationships, focusing on how trauma can shape and challenge our connections with others and discuss everything from disorganised attachment to dissociation during conflict. For those of us who’ve experienced childhood trauma, these early disruptions — like attachment wounds, abandonment, rejection, emotional neglect, and abuse — can make navigating relationships particularly tough. By the end of this episode, I hope you come away with some clarity and insights on how to form and maintain healthier relationships. Themes explored Disorganised attachment & other insecure attachment styles  How trauma impacts relationships i.e. fear of intimacy, vulnerability and connection  Reenacting dysfunctional cycles i.e. choosing relationships/partners that mirror our early childhood trauma dynamics, self-sabotaging healthy relationships Navigating triggers, conflict, shutting down and dissociation within relational conflict and intimacy  How somatic therapy can support you in healing attachment and relational wounds Need to work with a trauma informed therapist?  BOOK IN YOUR 1:1 SESSIONS WITH ME ⁠BOOK A FREE 15 MIN CHEMISTRY CALL⁠ RESOURCES TO SUPPORT YOUR RECOVERY Trigger Toolkit Free Download Nervous System Workbooks EMBODY The Workshop 🍉 HELP FAMILIES EVACUATE GAZA Follow this link to donate
Sep 1, 2024
17 min
16. Somatic Therapy and how its different to "talk therapy"
BOOK A FREE 15 MIN CHEMISTRY CALL⁠ "Soma" is the Greek word for body, and somatic therapy refers to a range of body-based therapeutic approaches. Unlike traditional talk therapy, somatic therapy emphasises the mind-body connection, acknowledging that trauma is often stored within the body. This episode explores how somatic therapy (and its interventions such as mindfulness and nervous system regulation) can play a crucial role in healing trauma and supporting your overall wellbeing. Tune in to discover what somatic therapy looks like in practice and how it can help you on your healing journey. Need to work with a trauma informed therapist?  ⁠BOOK IN YOUR 1:1 SESSIONS WITH ME⁠ RESOURCES TO SUPPORT YOUR RECOVERY ⁠Trigger Toolkit Free Download⁠ ⁠Nervous System Workbooks⁠ ⁠EMBODY The Workshop⁠ 🍉 HELP FAMILIES EVACUATE GAZA ⁠Follow this link to donate
Aug 25, 2024
11 min
15. Coregulation: Foundations for Self-Regulation
BOOK A FREE 15 MIN CHEMISTRY CALL In this episode, we're talking about coregulation — basically, the building block for self-regulation. To manage our emotions and behaviours, we first need to learn how to do it with the help of someone else, which is what coregulation is all about. Unfortunately, if you’ve experienced childhood trauma, you might not have had this chance growing up. That's where therapy comes in — it's a great way to experience that connection and start building those skills in a safe, supportive environment. Need to work with a trauma informed therapist?  BOOK IN YOUR 1:1 SESSIONS WITH ME RESOURCES TO SUPPORT YOUR RECOVERY Trigger Toolkit Free Download Nervous System Workbooks EMBODY The Workshop 🍉 HELP FAMILIES EVACUATE GAZA Follow this link to donate
Aug 18, 2024
15 min
14. Relationship to Self: Through an Internal Family Systems Lens
BOOK IN A FREE 15 MIN CHEMISTRY CALL The relationship we have towards ourself can be a challenging, complicated or complex one when we come from complex childhood trauma backgrounds. In this episode, we explore the practice of relating to Self, through the lens of Internal Family Systems or parts work. After this episode, you will understand what makes up your internal landscape and hopefully create space for self-understanding, self-compassion, self-acceptance and self-love. Themes explored: - The Internal Family Systems model including the intentions, purpose and psychosomatic qualities of different parts - How trauma impacts parts and create protective mechanisms - The importance of working with a therapist to ensure emotional safety when relating to intense parts - Examples of parts work in therapy and how this modality can support trauma processing and integration Need to work with a trauma informed therapist?  BOOK IN YOUR 1:1 SESSIONS WITH ME RESOURCES TO SUPPORT YOUR RECOVERY Trigger Toolkit Free Download Nervous System Workbooks EMBODY The Workshop 🍉 HELP FAMILIES EVACUATE GAZA Follow this link to donate ⁠Embodied Self Therapy Website⁠
Aug 11, 2024
32 min
13. Therapist Green Flags: Tips for Finding a Good Therapist
BOOK IN A FREE 15 MINUTE CALL WITH ME Need to work with a trauma informed therapist?  BOOK IN YOUR 1:1 SESSIONS WITH ME How do you find a good therapist? No doubt, this can be a challenging and vulnerable process. In this episode, we unpack three therapist green flags to look out for when on the search for a therapist to support you in your journey to healing trauma.  Finding a therapist who aligns with your values, needs and personality is crucial for effective therapy. A strong therapeutic relationship is built on trust, understanding and mutual respect, which are essential for feeling safe and supported. When you match with a therapist that resonates with you, you increase the likelihood of forming a connection that facilitates open and honest connection, ultimately supporting your transformation. RESOURCES TO SUPPORT YOUR RECOVERY Trigger Toolkit Free Download Nervous System Workbooks EMBODY The Workshop 🍉 HELP FAMILIES EVACUATE GAZA Follow this link to donate
Aug 4, 2024
14 min
12. Resources and Emotional Regulation Skills for Decolonised Trauma Healing
⁠BOOK IN A FREE 15 MIN CHEMISTRY CALL WITH ME This episode explores resources through a decolonised lens. Resources can include self-regulation skills as well as people, places and things that we can access to support ourselves along our journey towards healing.  Decolonised practices and resources can help to cut through the mental maze we get caught up in through overanalysing and can help us resist the systems that keep us disempowered, separate and unwell.  Topics explored:  Decolonising our mentality towards mainstream approaches to mental health and viewing wellness through a holistic lens.  Cyclical and symbiotic living in sync with our natural rhythms and the importance of slowing down. Somatic practices – practical resources that can support with emotional regulation.  Co regulation and how our nervous systems are hardwired to engage with each other, animals and nature.  Rituals to create meaning, intentionality and connectedness in our daily lives.  Need to work with a trauma informed therapist?  BOOK IN YOUR 1:1 SESSIONS WITH ME RESOURCES TO SUPPORT YOUR RECOVERY Trigger Toolkit Free Download Nervous System Workbooks EMBODY The Workshop 🍉 HELP FAMILIES EVACUATE GAZA Follow this link to donate Embodied Self Therapy Website
Jul 28, 2024
37 min
11. Approaches to Healing Childhood Trauma
BOOK IN A FREE CHEMISTRY CALL This episode explores approaches to healing childhood trauma (early developmental and attachment trauma) and how this differs from healing from single-incident or complex trauma experienced later on in life.  Topics explored:  Developmental, attachment and preverbal trauma  Impacts of childhood trauma on early development and our sense of self, our core beliefs/worldviews, how we engage in relationships  Approaches to healing, what treatment and therapy look like – embodiment, co regulation, safety in relationships, processing emotions such as shame and grief How to heal without the trauma story & rehashing over the past  Need to work with a trauma informed therapist?  ⁠BOOK IN YOUR 1:1 SESSIONS WITH ME⁠ RESOURCES TO SUPPORT YOUR RECOVERY Trigger Toolkit Free Download Nervous System Workbooks EMBODY The Workshop 🍉 SUPPORT FAMILIES IN GAZA Links to donate here Embodied Self Therapy Website
Jul 21, 2024
17 min
10. Dysfunctional Family Systems: Dynamics and Roles
BOOK IN A FREE CHEMISTRY CALL WITH ME In this episode, we unpack what makes up dysfunctional family systems, exploring general dynamics as well as focusing on some specific roles.  NOTE: Throughout the episode, I refer to "family of origin," however these dynamics and roles apply to any family system you grew up in and are not exclusive to biological families. Need to work with a trauma informed therapist?  ⁠BOOK IN YOUR 1:1 SESSIONS WITH ME⁠ RESOURCES TO SUPPORT YOUR RECOVERY ⁠Trigger Toolkit Free Download⁠ ⁠Nervous System Workbooks⁠ ⁠EMBODY The Workshop⁠ 🍉 HELP FAMILIES EVACUATE GAZA ⁠Follow this link to donate
Jul 14, 2024
21 min
09. Kapwa: Unscripted Musings on Cultural Identity and Belonging
Ready to work together?  ⁠⁠⁠BOOK IN YOUR 1:1 SESSIONS WITH ME⁠⁠ BOOK A FREE CHEMISTRY CALL Kapwa (Tagalog) translates to shared identity, equality and being with others. When trauma leaves us feeling empty, fragmented, disconnected and isolated – how much of what we do is driven by our inherent need to belong and make sense of who we are? In this episode, I share my personal unfiltered insights and reflections on cultural identity, belonging and the journey to healing through integrating our different parts of Self. 🍉 HELP FAMILIES EVACUATE GAZA Follow this link to donate RESOURCES TO SUPPORT YOUR RECOVERY ⁠⁠Trigger Toolkit Free Download⁠⁠ ⁠⁠Nervous System Workbooks⁠⁠ ⁠⁠EMBODY The Workshop⁠
Jul 8, 2024
26 min
08. Healing Ancestral, Generational and Collective Trauma w/ SEED SPACE
TICKETS | ANCESTRAL HEALING CIRCLE: RECLAIMING OUR POWER AS WOMEN | AMSTERDAM EVENT With so much emphasis in the self development world to fix, release and heal what no longer serves us, we can overlook the talents, strengths and wisdom we have stored deep within us. Holding space for the positive inherited traits and characteristics passed down generationally is equally as important when coming back to our whole, authentic and most empowered version of selves. Join Embodied Self Therapy X SEED SPACE for a special community event centered around reclaiming our collective ancestral wisdom. Sunday, July 7th at Oracley Space, Amsterdam. Need to work with a trauma informed therapist?  BOOK IN YOUR 1:1 SESSIONS WITH ME BOOK A FREE CHEMISTRY CALL RESOURCES TO SUPPORT YOUR RECOVERY Trigger Toolkit Free Download Nervous System Workbooks EMBODY The Workshop 🍉 HELP FAMILIES EVACUATE GAZA Follow this link to donate
Jul 1, 2024
21 min
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