Girlscamp
Girlscamp
Hayley Rawle
I deconstructed my Mormon faith down to the bone—and when my dad died, the deconstruction shit really hit the fan. Now, Girlscamp isn’t just about what’s fallen apart, but about exploring what might come next. Around the campfire, we’ll swap stories from life after faith shifts, laugh at the quirks of high-demand religion, and dig into the ways Mormonism shows up in our culture—from pop culture and art to media and everyday life. I’ll also sit down with voices ranging from therapists to philosophers to everyday people reimagining belief, as we tackle what it means to live, love, grieve, and grow once certainty is gone. Honest, curious, and a little irreverent—because that’s what Girlscamp is all about.
The Black Sheep Back in Utah
I went back to Utah for the first time since moving to LA, and it was a mixed bag of emotions. Today, I'm talking about the good and the bad of being back, my first-ever Girlscamp live show, being seated next to a Mormon stake president on a plane, why I want to ditch social media entirely, and a note on 'surprise' pregnancies. Dr. Julie Hanks on Girlscamp Ms Meredith on Girlscamp Elizabeth Gilbert Ted Talk Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account ⁠⁠here⁠ for two bonus episodes per month and more. For more Girlscamp content follow along on ⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠, ⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠ and ⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠. For ad inquiries please email [email protected]. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Sep 30
1 hr 4 min
Religion WAY Off the Rails
In this wild card religious stories part 2 episode, things get even crazier than the first round. We’re talking about spiritual coercion to “speak in tongues”, religious justification for taking away women’s right to vote and a dog poop brownie virtue lesson. And that’s just a taste. I also end up ranting about politics, what else is new? Try Desire here, code GirlsCamp for $100 off Try Earlybird here, code Hayley20 for 20% off Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account ⁠⁠here⁠ for two bonus episodes per month and more. For more Girlscamp content follow along on ⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠, ⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠ and ⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠. For ad inquiries please email [email protected]. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Sep 23
1 hr 3 min
*TEASER* Friendships: Keeping Them, Making Them & Breaking Them
We’re talking all things friendship! I share about my friendship situation in  California, what I think makes for healthy long-term friendships, how to make new friends and give an update on my big friendship breakup of a couple years ago.You can listen to the whole episode at the Girlscamp: Unplugged podcast here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Sep 20
1 min
Secret Lives of Mormon Wives Season 5: Ex-Mormon Recap & Reaction
It’s that time again! We’ve got another chaotic season of The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives to unpack, and I’m breaking it all down from my perspective as a former Mormon wife. We’re diving into why Taylor Frankie Paul needs to get off the show, that wild comment from Mayci’s older sister, McCall, and the ways Mormon programming played into the end of Layla and Mason’s relationship. I’m also sharing my thoughts on the Zac and Jen baby blessing drama and why I think they’re still struggling so hard in their untraditional dynamic.   REFERENCES  McCall DaPron dancing video Girlscamp: Homecoming live show tickets ⁠here⁠ Try Desire here, code GirlsCamp for $100 off Try Earlybird here, code Hayley20 for 20% off Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account ⁠⁠here⁠ for two bonus episodes per month and more. For more Girlscamp content follow along on ⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠, ⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠ and ⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠. For ad inquiries please email [email protected]. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Sep 16
1 hr 3 min
Religion Off the Rails
It’s time for one of my favorite types of episodes: reading your wildest religious stories. Today, we’re diving into Ted Bundy’s bizarre stint in Mormonism, a UK reverend threatening six-year-olds, people praying over Utah dirty sodas and a deeply spiritual testimony about a Margherita pizza. Grab your holy water, because we are officially going off the rails. Girlscamp: Homecoming live show tickets Gabby Bryan baptisms for the dead bit Try Desire here, code GirlsCamp for $100 off Try Earlybird here, code Hayley20 for 20% off Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account ⁠⁠here⁠ for two bonus episodes per month and more. For more Girlscamp content follow along on ⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠, ⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠ and ⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠. For ad inquiries please email [email protected]. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Sep 9
1 hr 9 min
*TEASER*  Sunday Check-In: Threesomes, Mormon Cringe & More
Happy Sunday! I decided to do this week's Sunday check-in here on Patreon, where I can be more open and unfiltered. I'm responding to your submissions—including my thoughts on threesomes, my cringiest Mormon phase, advice for a baby-naming crisis, and my current hyperfixation. I'm also talking a bit about how things are feeling in LA, now that we're coming up on four months since the move. You can listen to the whole episode on the Girlscamp: Unplugged Patreon here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Sep 6
1 min
Permission to Start Over with Zoe Lazerson
It was so lovely to chat with today’s guest, Zoe Lazerson, about the times in life she’s made the difficult choice to start over: when rejecting the Mormon life path expected by her community and when ending two long-term relationships. We talk about the similarities between leaving a relationship and a religion, her unorthodox, mixed-faith family upbringing in Utah, and her current spiritual philosophy on life. Try Earlybird microdose TCH gummies here, code Hayley20 for 20% off. Try Desire here, code GirlsCamp for $56/month. Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account ⁠⁠here⁠ for two bonus episodes per month and more. For more Girlscamp content follow along on ⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠, ⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠ and ⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠. For ad inquiries please email [email protected]. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Sep 2
1 hr 21 min
Eating Disorders, Mormonism & The Road Back to Myself with Clara Henrie
Content warning: This episode includes discussion of eating disorders and eating disorder recovery. Today, Clara Henrie bravely shares her story of eating disorder recovery, particularly where it intertwines with her Mormon faith deconstruction. We discuss the ways high-demand religions can exacerbate eating disorders and the specific Mormon doctrines that Clara felt contributed to her experience. Most poignantly, Clara talks about ultimately choosing herself—in leaving Mormonism, in eating disorder recovery, and in the next chapter of her life. Clara’s Instagram National Alliance for Eating Disorders Hotline The National Eating Disorders Association Website Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account ⁠⁠here⁠ for two bonus episodes per month and more. For more Girlscamp content follow along on ⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠, ⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠ and ⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠. For ad inquiries please email [email protected]. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Aug 26
1 hr 24 min
An Ex-Mormon Tries Unitarian Universalism
I went to church this Sunday of my own free will. You read that right! I took a microdose mushroom gummy on Saturday, went down a Unitarian Universalist internet rabbit hole, and then had to go check it out for myself the next morning. As you can imagine, I felt and thought a lot of things, and I’m excited to share them all with you 🤍 EVERYONE who signs up to my giveaway will receive a FREE Rose suction toy with their @bellesaco order!  https://www.bboutique.co/vibe/girlscamp-podcast #bbpartner Use code HAYLEY20 for 20% off your order of Earlybird CBD. Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account ⁠⁠here⁠ for two bonus episodes per month and more. For more Girlscamp content follow along on ⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠, ⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠ and ⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠. For ad inquiries please email [email protected]. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Aug 19
1 hr 3 min
Am I Glad I Went on a Mormon Mission?
Ten years after returning home from my Mormon mission, I’m finally answering whether I’m glad I went—and exploring why that’s such a complicated thing to answer. I also share submissions from fellow returned missionaries about how they feel looking back on their own missions. Their responses are all across the board and open up so many thought-provoking conversations about how we make sense of an experience that shaped us in significant ways, even if it was (at best) a mixed-bag.  Tara Herbert episode EVERYONE who signs up to my giveaway will receive a FREE Rose suction toy with their @bellesaco order!  https://www.bboutique.co/vibe/girlscamp-podcast #bbpartner Join the Girlscamp: After Dark Patreon account ⁠⁠here⁠ for two bonus episodes per month and more. For more Girlscamp content follow along on ⁠⁠Instagram⁠⁠, ⁠⁠TikTok⁠⁠ and ⁠⁠YouTube⁠⁠. For ad inquiries please email [email protected]. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices
Aug 12
1 hr
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