This week’s installment is an overview of my first interaction with the EMDR computer program. My therapist and I are creating tools to help me cope inside and outside the therapy sessions if reprocessing becomes overwhelming. •Audio Editing & Music: Sam Rosenthal/Black Tape for a Blue Girl•

The beginning of a series journaling my experience’s with EMDR therapy, Micro-dosing, & agender transition + media recommendations & pop culture junk. (WARNING: I do say the word “excited” way too many times soooo, don’t say I didn’t warn ya)

Today I want to talk a little bit about why I felt trapped in monogamous relationships with straight dudes for so long & how (for me) breaking that unhealthy dating pattern, while also learning to refuse to compromise who I am to be loved, was one of the best decisions I've ever made...

In this episode, I talk a little bit about what being pansexual means to me and how I came to discover my sexuality in the first place…be sure to check out the my YouTube clip on the subject as well... *Pansexual Slime Video* Ko-Fi.Com/FYPMW

Do you genuinely have a foot fetish? Is it OK to have a foot fetish as a Dom? Are you into Femdom and/or cuck play? How did you get into ABDL? Why are you into ABDL? Why do you offer a sliding scale for your services when it comes to trans folks, other sex workers, disabled folks and those in hospice care? and Have you always been polyamorous? (I'll be expanding on these subjects separately as this project moves forward so keep an eye out!)

This is my first set of interviews! My friends Cupcake SinClair and Ingrid Mouth were lovely enough to be my test subjects. I ask them about themselves and some other questions I came up with. I also ask about the advice they would give to newer/younger sex workers and, as expected, they both give very insightful and helpful answers.

Fan questions about my gender.

Does it matter what others think? What kind of intimacy do you prefer? Do you become IRL friends with regular suitors? As a non-sex worker, am I able to work with you on adult projects? Do you watch your own content? Do you enjoy cuddling? How do you prepare for/create a scene for film? (Note: just to be clear I have no issues with those who choose to participate in blood play and hard/taboo kinks. I just don't like that it's expected from every alternative performer regardless of their previous work.)

I talk about what it was like growing up kinky and what life is like as a professional and personal fetishist.

This is a short intro about why I’m starting this project and what learning from others as well as being vulnerable and expressing my views on here means to me.