What is your trauma response? Fight? Flight? Freeze? Fawn? What are trauma responses and how do we figure out what ours is? How are they made? What can we do about them? Adverse childhood experiences, abuse, neglect, and traumas train our brain from pre verbal ages to the time our personality is set. Our entire lives are being affected by hidden traumas, remembered traumas, and a myriad of other not so good for us experiences. It's not to late to have a better future!

This is the introductory episode for thee full episode that will publish June 29, at 5AM. Sometimes life gets in the way of things and it has been doing that for the last couple of weeks. This mini episode explains a bit of that and some of the foundation for healthy 4 F responses. Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/ Apple Podcast: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/ Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6 Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw Digging Through Dominoes Social Media: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/ Twitter: @DiggingDominoes  email Teri at [email protected]  https://www.facebook.com/groups/tattooedbikerchicks.bikersforbikers  YouTube: https://youtube.com/c/TeriAnderson Facebook https://www.facebook.com/thetattooedbikerchick https://www.facebook.com/BohemianReflection https://www.thetattooedbikerchick.com/ InstaGram:  https://www.instagram.com/thetattooedbikerchick/ https://www.instagram.com/bohemian_reflection/  Snapchat: @inkedbikerchick Redbubble: BohoReflection.redbubble.com Peloton: #TeriAnderson   Teri Anderson  trauma awareness  reparenting  post traumatic growth  the fawn response  fawning trauma response  trauma response fawning  fawn trauma response  complex ptsd

I had no idea what an emotional flashback was, much less how to manage them. I now realize the most difficult times of my adult life have been filled with emotional flashbacks and just how they were controlling my life. Listen along as I explain what emotional flashbacks are and how I am now learning to manage them.

A vital part of staying on top of recovering from trauma is knowing what the signs are that it's time to take care of you. Self care is something we sometimes think can be put off. As soon as you recognize your triggers and you feel you're about to spiral, taking care of yourself is your top priority,  We were neglected and abandoned as children so it's natural to think we don't matter. However, it's imperative we get to know ourselves and listen to the signs of your inner child crying for help.  Teri Anderson trauma care  childhood trauma  recognizing signs  heal yourself childhood trauma adverse childhood experiences reparenting  mental health  awareness risk factors  ptsd  abandonment issues mental health awareness Digging Through Dominoes   0:00 hello everyone and welcome back to 0:02 digging through dominoes where we 0:05 examine the dominoes in our past 0:09 so we can change the game of our future 0:16 welcome to digging through dominoes a 0:19 podcast that looks at mental physical 0:22 and emotional trauma through real and 0:24 inspiring conversations 0:27 this is your safe haven that welcomes 0:29 you in but also isn't afraid to talk 0:32 about what hurts the most 0:34 and now here's your host teri anderson 0:42 today's episode's gonna be shorter than 0:45 the others because 0:46 i'm not doing so great 0:48 i've got some things 0:50 shingles internal shingles what the heck 0:53 who ever thought about something like 0:54 that 0:55 not feeling so good plus 0:59 therapy last week i have therapy every 1:02 friday 1:03 every friday for years 1:07 and i love my therapist 1:09 i think a lot of people shy away from 1:11 therapy because they cannot find a 1:14 therapist that they can connect to and 1:16 that happened to me it took me years to 1:20 find the right therapist 1:21 and the right psychiatrist and i 1:25 you know i've got a team you know the 1:28 three of us we really work at this hard 1:30 we work at keeping me healthy 1:33 and 1:34 above above the surface of the water 1:36 when there are a lot of times that i 1:38 wanted to be nothing but below the 1:40 surface of the water 1:42 well this week in therapy we talked 1:44 about some things that brought some 1:45 things up emotionally for me 1:48 that really 1:51 are affecting me 1:53 and you know i want to be really blatant 1:54 really transparent really clear with 1:56 everyone 1:58 i am still very affected by the things 2:01 that happened to me when i was a kid and 2:03 i'm going to tell you about some of that 2:05 but it 2:06 with the forewarning that this is going 2:08 to be a shorter episode this week 2:11 for that very reason i'm trying to still 2:14 work through these things and on the 2:16 surface they may not seem that 2:25 crucial 2:26 but to me what it did it brought back 2:30 those feelings i had in full 2:34 force 2:36 we were talking about the death 2:40 of the one person in my life 2:43 i knew loved me 2:45 beyond 2:46 measure 2:49 that was my grandmother 2:51 i mean i want you to picture this okay 2:54 here i am this this little kid i was 2:57 probably 2:58 four or five years old 3:01 my grandmother 3:03 had a farm 3:04 that she rented out 3:06 she was very cosmopolitan very chic and 3:09 you know way cool 3:12 she was born on the farm she hated it 3:14 she was always embarrassed that she was 3:17 had been born on a farm and she didn't 3:18 have shoes and she didn't have a horse 3:20 to ride to school that she had to ride 3:23 to school on a mule 3:25 so she really pushed and pushed and she 3:28 got herself out of that town but she 3:31 kept that farm 3:33 and we were at the farm one time i don't 3:36 know doing farm business or whatever she 3:38 took me with her 3:40 a lot 3:41 and there was i don't remember what it 3:43 was called it was sort of like a 3:45 reservoir 3:46 it was like 3:48 you know the beverly hillbillies they 3:49 call the swimming pool the concrete pond 3:51 well this to the best of my recollection 3:54 it was a 3:56 a concrete 3:58 pond but it was above ground i don't 4:00 know i don't know how big it was it had 4:02 some fish in it and there was one 4:04 particular fish i wanted 4:08 and i'm watching this woman dress to the 4:10 nines 4:12 take her shoes off roll her pants up 4:15 climb into that reservoir whatever it 4:18 was to catch the only fish i wanted i 4:22 didn't want any other fish i wanted that 4:24 one blue fish 4:26 and i'm watching her with a jar 4:29 walk around 4:31 trying to catch that damn fish 4:34 if that doesn't say i love you 4:39 and i 4:40 want you to know i love you 4:43 i don't know what does 4:46 but she did it 4:48 my parents never would have done that 4:50 never never never 4:54 but we were talking about her and the 4:56 things that she had done that really 4:58 made me feel wanted accepted 5:03 and 5:05 cherished 5:08 and then what her death did to me 5:13 being the age i was i was almost 16 5:16 years old i had had 5:18 i was blessed i had a much longer time 5:20 with my grandmother than my my cousins 5:23 did 5:25 and i was also the first grandchild 5:28 for i was a girl 5:30 first grandchild and therefore i held 5:34 the crown 5:36 in the 5:39 grandchild arena according to my 5:42 grandmother 5:44 and 5:45 i have to say that my aunts 5:48 i think they gave me a little bit of 5:50 grace in that i think 5:53 with me i would have a little bit of 5:54 trouble with my p with my mother 5:58 indulging one grandchild over another 6:01 but i think they may have had a little 6:02 grace with me 6:04 because they did see 6:06 what i went through with my parents 6:10 being you know almost 16 there are some 6:12 things that they told me there were a 6:14 lot of things that they didn't tell me 6:18 we did some wonderful wonderful things 6:21 before she died and when she died 6:24 it was the strangest thing 6:26 i was 6:28 i was in bed i was asleep and my mother 6:31 came into my room and woke me up 6:36 and 6:38 she said terry deena just died 6:41 i said i know 6:44 and my mother just collapsed crying on 6:46 me 6:48 which was for me very uncomfortable and 6:50 very unusual because my mother my 6:52 parents did not touch me they did not 6:56 hug me and i can remember looking back 6:58 at 7:00 christmas photos 7:03 with my mother and her sisters and their 7:04 families and we always get a picture 7:06 every 7:07 every christmas 7:09 and 7:10 in my aunt's families they're laying on 7:12 each other they're hugging each other 7:14 they're 7:14 you know being all lovey-dovey 7:18 but in the fan the pictures with my 7:20 family 7:21 we were about six inches apart 7:23 everyone's arms were crossed and no one 7:25 was touching 7:27 that i think was the first time i 7:29 realized there was a real legitimate 7:32 problem with my family 7:34 and i don't know how i got off on that 7:35 track talking i guess because i didn't 7:37 want to really 7:38 have to talk about the death of my 7:40 grandmother 7:42 but my mother came in and she said terry 7:44 had her dina had died 7:47 and i knew 7:48 because i had just had a dream 7:51 if you could call it a dream or was it 7:53 not a dream did i actually travel there 7:55 did she beckon me to her 7:58 in her final moments 8:00 i remember being in the bedroom that she 8:03 was in 8:04 and we were talking i had been out and 8:07 bought a dress that day for a school 8:09 dance 8:10 and there was a sandstorm which was very 8:12 unusual in dfw 8:14 but back on the farm it wasn't unusual 8:17 at all they were all the time 8:20 and i remember telling her we talked for 8:22 a bit she told me how much she loved me 8:25 i was telling her you know she asked me 8:27 about my day i told her about the 8:30 sandstorm it was just like the 8:31 sandstorms back in big spring and it 8:34 hurt it would sting your legs when you 8:36 would walk in it would sting your face 8:38 it was horrible 8:40 and i don't know how how long i i 8:43 felt i was there seems like i was there 8:45 long enough to have a pretty good 8:47 conversation with her and then 8:50 at one point she told me she loved me 8:52 again and she said you need to go now 8:56 because sandy will be here in a minute 8:59 sandy was my aunt and my grandmother was 9:02 at that time staying with my aunt 9:07 while she was sick 9:09 and the next thing i knew my mother was 9:12 tapping me on the shoulder telling me 9:14 that she had died and my answer to her 9:16 was i i know 9:20 i was telling this to my therapist and 9:24 we 9:25 or he asked me a question he said terry 9:27 how long did it take you 9:29 to really come to terms with the death 9:31 of your grandmother you speak about her 9:33 a lot 9:36 you you let me know she was really your 9:38 only 9:39 trusted caregiver besides your your 9:42 other aunts 9:44 how long did it take you to process her 9:46 death 9:48 and i sat back because that was a 9:50 question 9:52 i've thought of before 9:54 i know for about five or six years i 9:57 didn't think about it it was actually 9:58 seven years after she died and went to 10:00 the cemetery and i just fell apart 10:03 in the cemetery 10:04 on her grave and i spent the entire day 10:07 there 10:09 but i would 10:12 i told him something that i hadn't 10:13 really thought of before and that was 10:17 that i pretended that she wasn't dead 10:20 here i am almost 16 years old and i'm 10:22 saying 10:24 to myself you know logically i knew my 10:26 grandmother was dead i was at the 10:28 funeral i saw the whole thing i was 10:29 there i knew it but in my heart of 10:32 hearts 10:35 i 10:36 would tell myself she was going to 10:38 another country to get treatment 10:41 she was going to get well and she was 10:43 going to come back for me she wasn't 10:45 going to leave me 10:47 in this situation that i was in she was 10:49 going to surprise us all she was going 10:51 to come back her hair was going to be 10:53 back it was raven black 10:56 she was gorgeous 10:59 and she was going to be healthy and 11:01 whole and everything would be just like 11:03 it was when she was there 11:06 or at the times when i was with her 11:09 and i he said really you 11:12 you had this fantasy it was like yeah it 11:14 was really you know i thought about it a 11:16 lot i thought about it it seems like 11:18 almost every day 11:20 you know is she gonna come back today is 11:22 she gonna be 11:23 here today i wonder what country she's 11:25 in today i wonder what treatment she's 11:27 trying today 11:28 so i was really 11:30 trying to convince myself i guess that 11:32 my grandmother had not died 11:36 and 11:37 then he asked me if i had 11:40 ever had 11:43 any other 11:45 um similar situation 11:48 and i thought for a second i looked at 11:51 him 11:52 virtually 11:54 and said yeah 11:56 when i was a little girl 11:59 i had a pretend family 12:02 and i knew they were a pretend family it 12:04 wasn't like i was telling myself my 12:07 grandmother was coming 12:08 home but i kind of created my own family 12:12 where i was safe i had even a nanny 12:16 and her main job 12:19 was to make sure that no one 12:22 hurt me my mom and dad in that fantasy 12:25 world had hired her 12:28 basically for my protection and you know 12:31 when i look back at it now i almost 12:33 wonder if 12:35 it was my grandmother that i had in that 12:37 role 12:39 but i did i had this pretend 12:43 fantasy family 12:45 it was perfect i would do things with my 12:47 mom we would go places we would have 12:50 fun she would cook which she didn't cook 12:54 and she was teaching me these things 12:58 and my dad was always really my real dad 13:01 but he was home 13:03 he was always home he wasn't flying he 13:06 wasn't with other clients he was home 13:09 like the rest of the dads were 13:11 but i had a different mom and i had this 13:14 nanny and so we sort of talked through 13:16 that and that brought up this huge rush 13:19 of emotion 13:20 in just how abandoned i felt as a child 13:26 you know my parents made sure i had 13:28 everything i needed 13:30 and i know when i was little 13:33 and my dad was going to school and he 13:35 was doing these things my mother stayed 13:37 home with us 13:38 i know that my grandmother did pay for a 13:41 lot of things she paid for my dance 13:43 lesson she paid for my christmas present 13:45 she bought me clothes 13:47 she paid for a lot of things and 13:50 as my dad's career took off 13:54 they they did make sure that we had the 13:56 necessities that we needed but nothing 13:59 else 14:02 at least my mom my dad was gone mom came 14:05 home she'd go to bed she would close the 14:07 door she would lock us out 14:09 but in my pretend family that didn't 14:12 happen and you know 14:14 at the time that my mother went back to 14:15 work i was probably 12 years old maybe 14:19 13 years old 14:21 heck i could have been older than that 14:23 but i still had this pretend family 14:25 where i was protected and i would 14:28 retreat into that family 14:32 i wouldn't be hurt 14:34 i wouldn't be trying to get my mother's 14:35 attention that i was really there 14:38 we wouldn't get into fist fights 14:41 i mean my mother and i and i had some 14:43 very physical altercations when i was 14:47 young 14:48 and 14:50 i really don't know why i know 14:53 a lot of them i 14:57 had said something 14:59 about wanting to be with my aunt or 15:02 wanting to be with my grandmother or 15:04 when i was going to see them and i think 15:06 that set her off i think it provoked her 15:10 and 15:12 now looking back on it you know at 60 or 15:15 60 years old and seeing the trauma that 15:17 my mother had gone through 15:20 not having her mother there and then her 15:23 daughter is crying out for her sister 15:26 and her mother and not her 15:28 i think that 15:30 really 15:32 put more of a divide in there 15:35 and i take blame for that and i really 15:37 shouldn't 15:38 because i was young and those were the 15:40 only people that had protected me and if 15:43 i cried out for them 15:46 and was beaten like i was 15:49 or i wouldn't be spoken to 15:52 or i would have to stay in my room for 15:54 however many weeks it was 15:57 you know the only safe place to be was 15:59 in a fantasy world 16:02 and i think that i kept that fantasy 16:04 world up for quite some time 16:07 you know i know 16:08 until my 16:10 into my adulthood 16:12 on the outside i could be somebody 16:14 completely different 16:16 i was 16:16 i appeared confident and self-assured 16:20 but i wasn't i was scared i was scared i 16:23 was gonna lose something i was afraid 16:26 that i was gonna die in a car accident 16:32 i was afraid i had all of these fears 16:37 within me 16:38 but i was putting on this brave face 16:41 this different face 16:44 so no one could see how horrible i was 16:47 that my mother didn't love me the way 16:50 she loved my brothers 16:52 and 16:54 that i wasn't 16:55 so horrible that my dad chose a 16:57 profession 16:59 that would take him away from me all the 17:01 time 17:03 and i know that's not what happened i 17:05 know that's not why my dad decided to 17:07 become a pilot 17:09 he loved flying 17:13 but flying was really the other woman in 17:16 his life or was the woman in his life 17:20 flying took him away from my mother took 17:22 him away from us and my dad and i had 17:25 always been very close 17:30 as close as we could be i guess 17:33 it's really weird i just said that 17:35 and then i realized but wait a minute 17:37 terry your dad never hugged you your dad 17:39 never told you he loved you 17:42 but he showed me in ways he bought me 17:44 toys he made toys for us 17:48 he did things that he would interact 17:51 with us my mother would never 17:53 never do that 17:56 so 17:56 that's the way i knew my dad loved me 18:00 and what's really weird is i don't ever 18:02 really remember being hit by by my dad i 18:04 do by my mother and i know my brothers 18:07 were hit by my father because i 18:09 witnessed it and it scared me to death 18:12 to think that that could come toward me 18:15 and i always tried to be really good 18:17 when my dad was home because i didn't 18:20 want what i saw my brothers 18:22 get 18:25 but at the same time my gosh being so 18:28 lost 18:29 and 18:31 not realizing a lot of this until i was 18:34 about 58 years old is when i felt safe 18:36 enough to start letting this come out 18:40 that says a lot 18:41 that says how much damage and how much 18:44 fear was there 18:47 and to think of everything that i've 18:49 lost 18:51 because i imploded 18:55 in 2008 when my dad died or he died in 18:58 2007 my mother in 2006 2008 i fell apart 19:03 and i think i've told you that's because 19:04 i thought it was safe to do so then 19:08 and 19:10 i really 19:13 went to rock bottom 19:16 i had to rebuild every part of myself 19:20 and i don't think it was until the last 19:22 two years 19:24 you know 2020 2019 2020 that i really 19:28 made a lot of 19:32 connections 19:34 and realized 19:36 i wasn't the bad kid 19:38 my aunts were telling me i was a 19:40 delightful child my grandmother loved me 19:44 my dad started talking to me a whole lot 19:46 more after he died 19:49 about how important it was to let your 19:51 kids know they you loved them 19:54 and he you know he still he was still 19:56 very uncomfortable with with anything 19:58 like that he was 19:59 basically left in a playpen 20:02 um 20:03 all day long while his mother worked and 20:05 the neighbor would come up and feed and 20:07 change him 20:09 so my dad 20:11 had 20:14 my parents had traumas of their own to 20:15 deal with 20:20 and last friday talking to my i think 20:23 texas just came out of my mouth when i 20:24 said friday 20:26 talking to my therapist it 20:29 it's made for a really long really hard 20:31 weekend i've slept most of it i went to 20:34 a couple of 20:38 i went to see friends perform 20:40 they're jazz musicians 20:42 i went to you know some 20:44 a couple of things this weekend and it 20:47 helped but it it it really um 20:52 it distracted me 20:53 and it reminds me how i would distract 20:55 myself before i knew what was going on 20:59 before i knew i had cptsd before i knew 21:02 that there was really 21:04 an emotional problem that i needed to 21:06 work on 21:08 and i would escape 21:10 and i feel that's what's happening right 21:12 now 21:14 and i 21:15 i really did a lot of research this week 21:17 and i was okay i was okay during the 21:20 doing the research i was okay putting 21:22 everything together 21:24 but 21:28 friday 21:29 with therapy 21:33 it put everything in a new light a new 21:35 picture for me 21:37 it brought the past alive it brought it 21:40 back full force 21:43 and i'm i mean 21:45 i'm struggling right now 21:48 vander 21:50 um 21:51 where is that let me find it here 21:54 bessel vander kulk 21:57 many of you if you've if you read a lot 21:59 on 22:00 ptsd trauma neglect 22:04 abuse such things such as that you'll 22:06 you'll know that name vessel vanderkult 22:09 he said 22:10 people talk about trauma as an event 22:12 that happened a long time ago 22:16 but what trauma is 22:18 is the imprints that event has left on 22:22 your mind and in your sensations 22:26 the discomfort 22:28 you feel and the agitation you feel and 22:31 the rage and the helplessness you feel 22:35 right now 22:37 that's where i am right now i'm not in 22:40 the in in the 22:42 in the present i'm fine 22:45 not really 22:47 i'm not talking about you know present 22:49 day 22:49 day problems 22:51 it really resurrected 22:55 flashbacks for me 22:58 of when i was a child and some of the 23:00 things that had went on had gone on 23:03 and so i'm having a difficult time so 23:05 i'm going to ask you to forgive me but i 23:07 am going to cut this short because 23:10 i need to focus on me right now 23:13 for the next couple of days at least and 23:16 hopefully have a 23:18 full-length podcast episode up 23:21 next tuesday 23:23 but i need to be aware 23:25 as you do of what your triggers are 23:28 what you need to do to bring them down 23:32 and sometimes when we push through we 23:33 push through so far 23:36 that we fall 23:38 face first because there's something 23:40 emotionally we need to deal with 23:42 at that time at that moment 23:46 and i know for me it comes when i start 23:48 sleeping as much as i've been sleeping 23:51 so i need to do some soul searching i 23:53 need to figure this out i need to sort 23:56 out this fantasy family and the fantasy 23:59 that my grandmother had never died you 24:01 know those are things that i held and i 24:04 think i put them in a box and put them 24:06 away but they're really quite disturbing 24:09 right now and i don't think it's 24:11 i really don't feel it's like in 24:13 anyone's best interest for me to go on 24:17 and do 24:19 more of an episode 24:22 on trauma on ptsd on cptsd at the moment 24:27 because right now i feel like a broken 24:29 jar 24:31 and i know that it has been put together 24:35 but what bessel vanderkolk said about 24:39 the 24:39 imprint 24:41 it's still there 24:45 i need to take that seriously because i 24:48 need you guys to take it seriously 24:51 and i need to be 24:54 in this position 24:56 if i'm going to be doing a podcast on 24:59 mental health 25:00 overcoming 25:01 cptsd and trauma 25:04 and i find myself in a position where i 25:06 need help i need to be able to be 25:10 real with you and say 25:12 hey i'm sorry this has to be a short 25:15 kind of 25:17 on the fly 25:18 episode because i need to recognize 25:23 what my inner child is crying out for 25:26 and that's weird trying to re-parent 25:28 your inner child the first time i did 25:30 that it was like way weird 25:33 and i was in the i was in a flashback 25:37 and 25:38 i realized i was in a flashback and i 25:40 realized what i was feeling at that time 25:42 no was nowhere near 25:45 what the moment called for 25:47 i realized i was feeling what i was 25:49 feeling when i was a little kid in the 25:51 same thing it happened to me 25:56 and so what i did was 25:59 i'm talking to myself i'm talking to 26:00 like little terry there saying it's okay 26:04 you're safe with me 26:05 i'm gonna take care of you 26:07 i'm not not gonna let anything happen to 26:09 you 26:10 you are safe 26:12 i mean she was just three four five six 26:14 years old i'm 60. i think i can 26:17 take care and protect 26:19 a little child especially if that little 26:22 child dwells within me 26:25 so i need to heed that calling and i 26:27 need to do that i hope you'll forgive me 26:30 for that 26:31 hopefully next week we'll be back with a 26:36 revelatory 26:38 episode of 26:41 grand proportions 26:43 and that everyone will be able to learn 26:45 something 26:47 but 26:48 look at me and look at yourself 26:50 if you're feeling your triggers 26:53 you're walking through your triggers and 26:54 you know what your triggers are listen 26:57 to them 26:58 and take care of yourself 27:00 so that's what i'm going to do 27:02 i'm going to say bye for now 27:04 and i will see you 27:06 next week 27:12 thank you for listening to digging 27:14 through dominoes 27:15 make sure you subscribe so you don't 27:17 miss any future episodes in the meantime 27:20 connect with terry on facebook and 27:22 instagram at digging through dominoes on 27:25 twitter at digging dominoes and online 27:29 at digging through dominos.com 27:32 until next time thank you for listening 27:36 [Music]  

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Navigating life with caretakers, parents that have their own traumas is never easy. The continuation of getting to know me, my traumas, my proper diagnosis, how I messed up because of childhood neglect and trauma and how I'm surviving day to day!

Episode 6 of Digging Through Dominoes explores the origins of and causes of Complex PTSD (C-PTSD) with examples of how my early childhood affected and shaped my entire adult life.  COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker: https://www.amazon.com/Complex-PTSD-Surviving-RECOVERING-CHILDHOOD/dp/1492871842/ref=sr_1_2?crid=2VU5D6X8PUMCM&keywords=pete+walker&qid=1652770699&sprefix=pete+walker%2Caps%2C181&sr=8-2 Healing Your Emotional Self by Beverly Engel: https://www.amazon.com/Healing-Your-Emotional-Self-Self-Esteem/dp/B08BT19X6Z/ref=sr_1_1?crid=1FWAZ97WJLG93&keywords=beverly+engel&qid=1652770793&sprefix=beverly+eng%2Caps%2C159&sr=8-1   podcast urls: Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/ Apple Podcast: ttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/digging-through-dominoes/id1619200152?i=1000557547966 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/69onD9bgg30EYvixz8DJFz?si=086dc9095e664d3b iHeart https://www.iheart.com/podcast/338-digging-through-dominoes-95565843/ Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cHM6Ly9mZWVkLnBvZGJlYW4uY29tL2RpZ2dpbmd0aHJvdWdoZG9taW5vZXMvZmVlZC54bWw Amazon Music/Audible: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/ff3b62d1-4acb-4a3d-8bd8-89f5aba3ace6 Player FM: https://player.fm/series/digging-through-dominoes You can use this RSS feed in other Podcast platforms: https://feed.podbean.com/diggingthroughdominoes/feed.xml YouTube main Channel URL for Podcast playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH7d2wyB-0gDe5fAjI2cSi4J Digging Through Dominoes Youtube Video Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4A3V8sW0X5c1QZGqQfBqXw Digging Through Dominoes Social Media: Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/DiggingThroughDominoes Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/diggingthroughdominoes/ Twitter: @DiggingDominoes  teri anderson  mental health awareness  mental health awareness month  mental awareness month  mental health awareness may trauma PTSD Complex PTSD

In this episode Teri's guest, Jeff, discusses with Teri how her night in the behavioral unit, misdiagnosis with biploar disorder affected us both in unexpected ways.  His experience of watching Teri in a situation he could do nothing about. His mistrust of the medical system and doctors that only check boxes.  He also gives a glimpse of how, and when, he realized the extent of animosity in Teri's family of origin.  teri anderson  mental health awareness  psychotherapy  60 something  teri anderson  mental health awareness therapy sessions uncomfortable psychiatrist social worker unconditional love devastation no trust referral to a psychiatrist second opinion screening for bipolar disorder judgemental personality tests misdiagnosis paranoia bipolar misdiagnosis self doubt Digging Through Dominoes introspective C-PTSD  Complex PTSD Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder disassociation escape numb isolate Teri Anderson  60 something  mental health awareness  

The symptoms of Bipolar disorder, C-PTSD and how they overlap.  The medications they put me on for bipolar disorder and how they destroyed my life.  The side effects, the destruction, my reactions.