My wife and I were talking this morning. We now have this thing where we don’t touch our computers for the first hour of the day. We live in a place where we can see the sunrise. As it’s coming up we talk about whatever also comes up.
This morning she asked “Why can’t I write what my thoughts are? I can think of them but it doesn’t transfer to the page.” Something like that. I paraphrase because I can never remember what’s said verbatim. But, you get it, right?
What I said was when we were young we didn’t aspire to be seen or thought of as being out of the group. An outcast. Most of us anyway. Some people like to be the ones outside watching all the campfires. But I digress.
When you’re a kid in, say, the first grade, the worst thing you could be told by one of your classmates is that you’re weird. Especially if the one saying it is a cute girl. It makes you think and reassess what made them say that. You internally review all of your processes. What you think. What you say, wear and have for breakfast.
Sure, you can tell them to bugger off but then that just brings in more negativity that you have to deal with. Next thing you know you’re eating lunch with the other weird kids. This is how stand-up comedians and serial killers are born.
So we teach ourselves to filter what we’re thinking before we write or express what we’re thinking. It creates a blockage, a resistance that we have to overcome to get the thoughts out.
My wife said that it seemed like I didn’t have that problem because I write and post stuff even if it’s weird. It took me a long time to overcome that. I realized that movie makers and musicians do it all the time. Sometimes it works and sometimes not. Nobody knows until it’s finished. The trick is to not let it stop you. Whatever is in your head, write it out. Paint it. Chip away at it. Create something.
Then my wife brought up that it’s a waste of time arguing. The person who judges you and says you’re weird, forgive them. Handle arguments spiritually. Send them positive thoughts. Because you’re also sending yourself positive thoughts.
We’re all going through something. Everyone gets scared by life. We’re born into pain and try our best not to go through that again subconsciously. The world is chaotic. Try to be f*****g kind.
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