Hey Guys,  Today someone asked me what I would do if I couldn't model anymore, and after some reflection and personal insights, I recognised that modelling for me is the perfect fit for who I am. It allows me to explore and master my physical body, my mental states, and express my emotions. I couldn't ask for a career and lifestyle that suits me any better.  I'm only at the start of this journey, and it's far from easy, but at least it feels right.  Thanks for listening,  Chaye Xx --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/chayeunfolding/message

This is my first podcast attempt. I'm 27 years old from Australia. A woman of transgender experience, and a fashion model. I want to talk about my journey so far, what I've learnt along the way, and hopefully, inspire others to go after their own "personal legends" and dreams.  I don't know if this podcast will last, but like most things in my life, I just want to give it a go and see how it plays out :) Thanks for listening, following, and subscribing! www.chayehartwell.com @chaye.hartwell --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/chayeunfolding/message

In this episode, I share the first part of my life journey so far. I touch on how ashamed I was at school for having gender dysphoria, especially in attending an all-boys boarding school. I end the episode with the realisation that for the first part of my life I used my studies at both school and university as a way to hide my fear of wanting to live as a woman.  Thanks for listening, following, and subscribing! www.chayehartwell.com @chaye.hartwell --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/chayeunfolding/message

In this episode, I continue to talk about my journey so far. We pick things up with my time at university and how dedicated I was to lie to myself about who I really wanted to be. At the age of 22, I was still studying finance and accounting at uni and had started exploring the world of "pick up" as a way to hide who I really was. This episode brought out some tears in me.  Thanks for listening, following, and subscribing! www.chayehartwell.com @chaye.hartwell --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/chayeunfolding/message

In this episode, I continue to talk about my journey so far. It explores how and why I left my corporate accounting job, how my family and friends reacted to that decision, and what I did afterwards. I discover for myself how multiple times in my life I got close to accepting my gender dysphoria but somehow managed to always run away from it. I end the episode having just met a very important person in my life, who without, Chaye could not exist as she does.  Thanks for listening, following, and subscribing! www.chayehartwell.com @chaye.hartwell --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/chayeunfolding/message

In this episode, I try to talk about the relationship that I had with someone when I came out as Transgender in 2018. I touch on how hard it is for couples to go through a transition, and how for me how my relationship began and ended with this person. It's difficult to not lie to someone you love when you are already lying to yourself.  Next episode I want to talk about the practical steps I took to transition, including starting hormones, seeing psychiatrists, GP's, and counsellors.  Thanks for listening, following, and subscribing! www.chayehartwell.com @chaye.hartwell --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/chayeunfolding/message

In this episode, I talk about the steps that I took to begin my hormone treatment including seeing my GP for the first time, visiting a psychiatrist, and my counsellor. I also explain the initial effects of beginning my treatment and how I focused on presenting a more androgynous look at the start. I tried to keep this episode a bit more upbeat, but even still, I managed to talk about my struggles with food in the past and my obsession with healthy eating.  Thanks for listening, following, and subscribing! www.chayehartwell.com @chaye.hartwell --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/chayeunfolding/message

In this episode, I continue sharing the story of my transition journey. I pick things up at the 3-month mark of starting hormones and go on to share my first modelling experiences. I end the episode with having doubts about whether modelling is for me or not, as a result of a troubling experience that I had with a photographer taking advantage of me. Next episode I will talk about my journey into studying fashion design and styling, and maybe my first sexual experience with a man.  Thanks for listening, following, and subscribing! www.chayehartwell.com @chaye.hartwell --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/chayeunfolding/message

In this episode, I get personal with the story of my first sexual experience as a woman. At this stage of my journey, I was 6 months on hormones and had finally accepted and acted upon my desires to have sex with men. Whilst the experience was positive and life-changing, it taught me that I needed my reassignment surgery sooner rather than later. I'll talk about that in my next episode.  Thanks for listening, following, and subscribing!  Please also leave a review and or rating now that we made it to Apple Podcasts :) www.chayehartwell.com @chaye.hartwell --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/chayeunfolding/message

In this episode, I explain how I managed to organise my reassignment surgery and the hoops that I had to jump through with my health insurer to make it happen. I end the episode with a request to health insurers to please make gender transitioning related surgeries covered as part of health insurance policies.  They are life-saving procedures and deserve to be treated as such.  Thanks for listening, following, and subscribing! Please leave your questions as comments below! Available for listening on Apple Podcasts and Spotify https://podcasts.apple.com/au/podcast/chaye-unfolding/id1489267760 https://open.spotify.com/show/5dpYBSsMaZC7zMFZkEehZL Website: https://www.chayehartwell.com Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/chaye.hartwell/ --- Send in a voice message: https://anchor.fm/chayeunfolding/message