Vince Fakhoury Horn speaks with Mushim Patricia Ikeda about working class dharma—from growing up as "the minority of Greensburg, Ohio" in a third-generation Japanese American family, to training in penniless Korean Zen temples where renovating the building was the practice. Along the way: bliss bunnies, samadhi junkies, mutual aid networks, and why affordability may be the grassroots issue of 2026.💬 TranscriptVince Horn: Okay. So yeah, I think it was really the beginning of this year — I was teaching a retreat in Portugal with a friend. It’s our annual Pragmatic Dharma retreat. And while I was there, I had picked up recently this book called Emergent Dharma, by Dr. Sharon Suh, and I scrolled through the chapters, and I looked, and I went straight to yours, and I read it.That was the first thing I read, and I just loved hearing about your story. For me, some of the coolest part about the Dharma is hearing people’s, like, stories and their biographies and, like, their real lived experience of the Dharma, and I just felt that in your story in the chapter there — you’re talking about how you were raised, and your family, and where you came from, and how you started engaging with Buddhism, and just the whole story there, that I’ve heard now more of since I’ve gotten to know you better over this year.And really, I was just hoping we could talk about, you know, your story in part here, because the theme is working class Dharma. And when we last spoke, we decided that was a good kind of place to focus some of the conversation. But a lot of it is about your experience, really.Like, what does it mean to live in the, quote-unquote, working class in the modern world, and to also be a Dharma practitioner? And how different is that in a heritage Asian ethnic tradition than in a white convert tradition, which is more how Emily and I have come up? I think that’s an interesting conversation too, because now we’re talking about class and ethnicity — two different dimensions that are often interwoven, or braided.So anyway, could you share a bit about your story, Mushim? I know you come out of the Zen tradition, both in Japan and Korea, but how did you get into this? Was it a family tradition, or is it something that you came back to explore — like, the roots of your family’s tradition — later?Mushim Ikeda: Yeah, thank you so much, Vince. So I was born in Cleveland, Ohio in 1954, and I am, by our system — meaning Japanese Americans, by our system — a third-generation Japanese American. We count the first generation to be the immigrants, so those were my grandparents on both sides, and they’re the Issei — “ichi,” meaning one.My parents were the Nisei, meaning they were both born in the United States, and they were the Nisei — “ni,” two. Three is “san,” so I am Sansei, or third-generation Japanese American, by how we count. I was born in Cleveland, grew up in Ohio, because that’s where my father’s work took him. And we grew up very working class.In Cleveland, when I was born, my father sold Wear-Ever pots and pans from door to door, and then he got a job inspecting fruit and vegetables — perishables that were being shipped on the railroads — working for an independent company called the RPIA, Railroad Perishable Inspection Agency.And that took us down to the rural area between Akron and Canton, going a little bit toward the middle of Ohio, south of Cleveland. And most of my classmates in the public schools that I attended — I would say the majority of them were children of people from West Virginia who came north to Akron, then the tire capital of the world.Goodyear, Firestone, Seiberling — they were all there, along with Quaker Oats, which produced a very interesting smell when the wind wafted from Akron our way, with a mixture of burning rubber and toasted oats. That was the smell of my childhood. And the air pollution was incredible, producing magnificent sunsets. And that’s where I grew up. So my classmates were children of the tire factory workers for the most part, as well as some were children of the remnants of the dairy farms, the cow pastures in that area that were gradually turning into suburban housing tract lands and so forth.That was my childhood. We were in an all-white community, except for us. One of my teachers used to call our family “the minority of Greensburg, Ohio.” And at home, we had a very strong sense of who we were. We were Japanese American. We were not Japanese. We were certainly not white or middle-class Americans.We were working-class Japanese Americans. And little by little, my parents wanted us to go to college. They rose into the lower middle class, then vaguely towards the middle middle class. However, I realized as I’ve grown older that I was raised — so, this is to just be completely fair: I was formed by my parents, and I do have a prejudice, and their prejudice was against what they perceived as upper-class privileged people, which in this case meant mostly white Americans who would look down upon their fellow white Americans who had come up from West Virginia and worked in the tire factories, and certainly looked down upon us, since we were not privileged white Americans.So there we see, like, race, ethnicity, class, as always, are completely interwoven. And I freely admit I was raised to not be entitled and superior, and my parents would say snotty — like, in their words — a rich kid.Vince Horn: It seems like, immediately hearing you, the way you’re describing that, that sounds like a good thing. Mushim Ikeda: I hope so.Vince Horn: And I mean, there’s a clearly good dimension to what you’re describing that I so appreciate. I guess I’m relating to this — the way you described it, almost like there’s, like, a spectrum of experience here, where you’re talking about the white West Virginian expats who are coming over to Ohio. In terms of the sort of hierarchy of sort of caste, I guess, for lack of a better term.Mushim Ikeda: It is caste.Vince Horn: Yes. You have this sort of racialized caste system. And it seems like I can relate to what you’re saying from where I was formed, in this formation, you know.And it’s like, oh, I can see growing up with a Palestinian family, and I can see the racialized part of that, and the opportunities that were lost there, and the economic opportunities, and the bootstraps attitude — like, you gotta help yourself if you want any help; like, no one’s gonna help you.Like, all of those things were very formative. But at the same time, you know, my grandfather did well with that attitude, and he had resources. And I knew, like, I was never gonna be homeless, you know? And that was something — I had friends that didn’t have that same level of security. You know, to know that they had someone — that, you know, even if your parents, your single mom, couldn’t earn any money or got sick or something, you had people that could take care of you.That’s a huge level of security not everyone has. So I guess I’m relating to it from there — of, like, oh yeah, the further you’re down in the caste system, the less support you have, and the more, in a sense, it’s like up to you to kind of, like, hard-knuckle it through really adverse conditions that, you know, are imposed.Mushim Ikeda: Very much so. And of course, to state the obvious, we have the legacy in the United States of the World War II incarceration into internment and concentration camps of the Japanese immigrants and their children, the Japanese-American citizens.Vince Horn: Right. How did that specifically impact your family system?Mushim Ikeda: The way it impacted my family was that my mother grew up in Hawaii, on Oahu, near Pearl Harbor, and there actually is a family story, which is true — we have evidence. The attack was in the morning, and my mom’s mom, my maternal grandma, who was a Shin Buddhist practitioner —her husband, my grandpa, was a Soto Zen Buddhist practitioner. They had a mixed Buddhist marriage. So the family lore is that in the Pearl Harbor attack, Grandma was sitting on the toilet, and a giant shell, a bullet, came whizzing into the bathroom and went through the side of the porcelain enamel bathtub, and she came out screaming at the top of her lungs.Vince Horn: Oh, my gosh.Mushim Ikeda: And the family still has that unexploded ordnance. So she grew up in Hawaii, and there was no need to put the Japanese immigrants and their children into camps, because the island was a camp. What were you gonna do? Swim away? Everyone was under surveillance. Their homes were searched for illegal shortwave radios and enemy weapons.And so the joke, again, in my mother’s family, was that the FBI came, searched the house, and the kitchen was full of large knives — for cooking, of course — but they decided to confiscate my grandfather Sawada’s pocket knife as an enemy weapon.Vince Horn: Wow.Mushim Ikeda: I know. So they were like, “Ah, this is just completely stupid and asinine. Here we are.” And it was the community leaders in Hawaii — Buddhist priests, any kind of community leaders — who were arrested and taken to the continent for the concentration camps. But they were all under surveillance. So that was my mother. She was used to being under surveillance.However, they had food. And they stayed in their homes, under surveillance. And then my dad grew up on a farm in Indiana — the Ikeda Brothers Farm in Indiana — and there were too few Japanese immigrants and their children in Indiana and the Midwest, for the most part, to bother with. I think most of the deportations happened from California,and from areas with larger populations. That having been said, of course they were aware — my father’s people were aware of what was going on. And he always said that he had a memorable moment in his life when he was drafted into the Army in World War II. He said, “I opened up the letter” — he said, “I got the mail outside the farmhouse.I opened up the letter, and it said, ‘Greetings from your president.’” You now have to report for duty to the United States Army — to the same government that could have seized their property and sent the entire family off into a camp. That irony was not lost on him. And so both my parents, in some ways, were very model minority.They both worked hard. My mother became a pharmacist. And they worked hard. They wanted to send us all to college. They always taught us to behave well in school. They passed on a love of learning, particularly science. And from the outside, we did look like the model minority. But looking back, on the inside, both my parents had so much very clear, thought-out, and thoughtful points of resistance, of education.And their basic message to us was, number one, “Don’t act like privileged rich kids who are idiots,” and number two, “Never forget who you are, and don’t try to pretend you’re white, because you are not.”Vince Horn: Hmm. Yeah, that is a resistance, in terms of holding on to their culture and being like, “I’m not going to,” yeah, integrate in that way. Yeah.Mushim Ikeda: Mm-hmm, and they were very confident. It’s not like they made a big deal of it; it’s just the way we lived. For instance, bath time in the evening: we didn’t have a Japanese ofuro bathtub. However, we would draw a tub full of hot water, and then the family would take baths in order of seniority.Vince Horn: Okay, like age?Mushim Ikeda: Yes.Vince Horn: Yeah, got it. Got it. Makes sense. They gotta have some ordering principle.Mushim Ikeda: Really, really tough on the youngest child in the family.Vince Horn: That’s for sure. That is for sure. A side note, Mushim — just a kind of interesting side point before I ask you another question here. I learned only, yeah, 10 years ago or so, that the county that I grew up in, that my family moved to in North Carolina, was where the German Americans were interned, in a little town called Hot Springs. And I had no idea of the history of that growing up here until much later.Mushim Ikeda: Yes. I didn’t know it was in that area; however, you’re jogging my memory.Vince Horn: Yeah. So that’s in the county that I grew up in. For sure, it’s a beautiful place — but nowhere is beautiful to be interned. I’m curious — I know, hearing about your history too, that you’ve spent a lot of time in monastic communities, and obviously one of the things that’s well known about a monastic community is that it’s typically operating on almost nothing, except for the generosity of a small community that’s supporting it, perhaps, if you’re lucky.And, like, the people in the community are usually building everything — unless they have a bunch of wealthy donors, in which case they can hire people to do that for them. And it sounds like you have not been in those kind of communities where you had a lot of wealthy donors.Mushim Ikeda: Completely the opposite.Vince Horn: Mm-hmm.Mushim Ikeda: Yes. And to go back and pick up a strand of a question from you I think I didn’t answer: I did not grow up in a Buddhist household in Ohio, because my father’s family didn’t espouse any particular religion that I knew of. And for my mother’s family in Hawaii, all of the Buddhist temples had been shut down — plus the after-school Japanese language schools that she and her siblings went to, they’d all been shut down as soon as, of course, World War II, Pearl Harbor, the attack on Pearl Harbor.And so my mother came to Indiana, met my father, we raised a family in Ohio. She came from a Buddhist household but didn’t grow up as a Buddhist, so to speak — as a practicing Buddhist — whereas her siblings who remained in Hawaii did. They all went to Buddhist temples, and they were Buddhist.So there was a certain rift there. However, when I, quote-unquote, “discovered Buddhism” later on, as a college student and afterward, it felt very familiar to me, and that’s because so much of it was passed down in our family in terms of values.Vince Horn: Right. That’s something I’ve noticed as a Dharma teacher — like, when I’ve worked with folks who come up in Asian cultures, some of them, they’re new to the practice, but they’re not new, because they sort of were inculturated with a lot of the values, and it sort of shows, actually.Mushim Ikeda: Yes. And so again, class comes in, because I went to college on scholarship. I went to graduate school — I received aid there and did a TA and that kind of thing.I just never had much money, and went into an existential crisis in my late 20s. I happened to be in Ann Arbor, Michigan after finishing graduate school in poetry writing at the University of Iowa, and discovered — I think it was the only Zen Buddhist temple in Ann Arbor, Michigan. I was interested in Zen from reading I had done.The only Zen Buddhist temple in Ann Arbor, Michigan, I think, at that time, was Korean Zen — which I had never heard of. Zen is a Japanese word. And they called themselves, and do call themselves, Zen Buddhist Temple of Ann Arbor. However, when I actually went, they were proudly of the Korean Zen lineage. And after learning to practice meditation there, getting to know that just-beginning, scrappy, tiny little community that moved into a two-story house on a main thoroughfare in Ann Arbor and pulled the down payment together — and then the teacher, who lived in Toronto, a Korean Zen monk, his method was to get together the down payment. So it was usually not from one wealthy donor, but might be from some people who did have inheritance or something like that.But anyway, bring that together. In the case of our temple in Toronto, it was the Korean-Canadian community, the immigrant community — they pooled their money. And so his method was: put a down payment onto a big enough, totally devastated house or dwelling that was nevertheless okay enough to legally inhabit, and then begin to do renovations while living and practicing in it, and while holding services for the general public, who would then come, and would often stay as volunteers to help with cleaning, construction, and whatever needed to be done.We never had any money, and therefore it wasn’t separate from meditation practice. Meditation practice done in the meditation hall was, of course, very mindful. There were forms, there was order, there was silence, there was concentration, there was respect, there was good rapport with the people around you.And all of those things, one simply transported and transplanted into whatever job one was given. It could be cutting vegetables in the kitchen. It could be cleaning up the construction mess from our carpenter monks, and monks who were learning how to be carpenters, ‘cause everyone did, to some extent.What was called work practice was integral. It was not in addition. It wasn’t genteelly, gently folding kitchen towels from the kitchen and dreamily thinking, “Ah, I am so mindful.” There’s nothing wrong with that; however, that was not the way I was trained. Everything we were doing, we had to be highly aware of safetyissues, and we had to conform to building codes, or our work would’ve been for nothing.Vince Horn: This brings up something for me around, like, just, like, the difference of traditions too. ‘Cause in the early Buddhist tradition — which the insight meditation tradition still patterns itself off of, mostly — they really seem to be aiming for, like, more exclusive forms of jhāna, where you’re excluding yourself out into these states of formlessness. Whereas the Zen Shikantaza, for me, has always felt like almost the opposite direction — of, I’m just trying to include everything that’s here and not turn away from what’s happening.Mushim Ikeda: Because one goes into this, like, bliss state — which I know is not the ultimate jhāna, I do know that; however, it is jhāna, as I understand it. So one is blissful, and everything’s radiant and quiet and still, but you’re spaced out, essentially.Vince Horn: Mm-hmm. Right. Yeah. You’re off in your own little blissed-out—Mushim Ikeda: World. And then it’s time to cook, with big boiling pots of soup and sharp knives, or vegetables, or it’s time to do something where people are using power tools, and they’re cutting big lengths of planks and using screw guns and things like that. I mean, that’s freaking dangerous. And so our practice was to include everything that was pertinent to the task at hand.So if you’re in the meditation hall, you’re fairly safe, because you’re on your little meditation cushion, and people aren’t moving around and using fire or electrical things. Then the governing principle of that was: you couldn’t space out — because, well, one could, but not for very long, because the physical posture — and we had no chairs at all — the physical posture, past a certain point, was really, really painful.So these days, there’s so much talk of embodiment and somatics. I am sorry, I laugh. I laugh. In the environments I was raised in as a child, we were always working. My dad always had heavy — it was very similar — heavy construction projects, like digging giant holes in the yard and hauling wood and rocks.I mean, as small children, we did heavy labor.So the principles were really the same. What we’re now, these days, kind of in a fancy way calling somatic awareness — you had to have body awareness, or you’d be injured, or you’d injure someone else. And in the meditation hall, when you were seated still in your own little area, the way that happened was that after a while, you could be thinking all you liked about nibbana or whatever the fuck you were fantasizing about, and then everything would become, “My knees hurt.My hips hurt. My back really hurts. Plus, this is so boring. When will the bell ring? I wonder what they’re cooking for lunch. Oh, okay, okay — boring, boring, boring.” Back to, in this case, counting the breath. And some of us had a meditation question, or what might be called a koan.Vince Horn: Yeah. Okay. So I’m getting the sense of, like, this is a very non-dualistic kind of practice setup, where you’re not just going off into blissful states, because the pain in the body, in that form of practice, is not gonna let you do that for long.Mushim Ikeda: No. And of course, one can hit a certain point, after many, many hours, where the physical pain drops away — and I’ve seen these descriptions. We weren’t part of the jhāna system, because we were Mahayanaand Korean Zen. However, it’s all human physiology, as far as I’m concerned. And so there will be certain points where all the pain drops away,and things are quiet and radiant and really nice. I mean, it’s so nice. And then, Zen being Zen, what it does is — the teacher kicks that out from underneath you, if you have a good teacher.They can see that you’ve become a little bliss bunny, and it is time for the bliss bunny’s delusion to be dispensed with.Vince Horn: Okay. I love that as the description of what happens in the tradition, and then also kind of as a metaphor for what we’re talking about — the big picture here for, like, American Buddhism. And there’s this sort of sense of, like, yeah, I can see how convert American Buddhism, by and large, has the bliss bunny problem, and I can see how I’ve perpetually had that, you know?That’s how I know it’s true.Mushim Ikeda: I have in the past written a piece, a long time ago, for an insight meditation publication, and I did use the term — I’m sorry — samadhi junkies.Vince Horn: Samadhi junkies. This is great. No, I love this. The jhāna junkie is the term that I’ve used as well. Similar. Yeah.Mushim Ikeda: Same thing.Vince Horn: Yeah. And I think there’s something really real about what you’re saying there, looking back, you know, on the time in practice where I practiced more like a jhāna junkie. As a parent, I haven’t been on a jhāna junkie retreat in 12 years. You know, I swore off those kind of retreats for the very reason you’re saying, which is it wasn’t helping me function in the worldand do the things I needed to that were right in front of me.Mushim Ikeda: Exactly. Like — I mean, don’t get me wrong. Zen is samadhi. It means jhāna. Yes. Absolutely. Zen is the same word as jhāna.Vince Horn: Yes. Agreed.Mushim Ikeda: So, concentration. In fact, my original teacher, Korean Zen monk Samu Sunim — he was fluent in English; he’d been in Canada for a long time — he used to have a formula, and he said, “What is Zen?” No — “What is meditation? Meditation is concentration. What is concentration? Concentration is oneness.”“What is oneness? No life and no death.”Mushim Ikeda: So there, I think we’ll see some probably maybe clear connections to the tradition you weretrained in. And so on one hand, we did have these teachings, and that was completely interpenetrating with the realities of being in a construction site and having no money — hence very little heating, certainly no air conditioning, if it was hot or cold.One simply was really, really cold, or really, really hot. And we didn’t have beds to sleep on. Everyone slept on the floor in sleeping bags. We lived a very renunciate and working class kind of life.Vince Horn: Mm-hmm.I guess the place my mind is jumping to, Mushim, is kind of this contemporary moment that we’re in now — where you, as a Dharma teacher, mindfulness teacher, someone who’s consulted in the DEI space, which for a little bit of time there was a lot of interest in, and then the sort of cultural backlash from the most recent Trump—So I’m curious, in this time of, like, the most extreme income inequality that we’ve seen since, like, the Gilded Age in this country — generationally severe income inequality, powered by the internet, which just seems to amplify that and make it that much worse. You’re in Oakland, California, which is, like, the hotbed of — a lot of what happens in America, like, often happens in Oakland, so you’re right in the center of things.Given where you are, what you’re doing, your background that you’ve just shared — curious how you see this moment, in terms of what the Dharma, as you’ve practiced it and understand it, is sort of being called... You know, what’s being called forth from us as Dharma practitioners, as American Dharma practitioners? How do you see that question right now? How are you living that?Mushim Ikeda: Thank you. That’s a really good question. And to first state: I live with my adult son, who was raised through the Oakland Public Schools, K through 12. And there were other parents who would say to me, “Oh, he’s so bright. Maybe you could get, like, a scholarship at a private Catholic school, where the education would be better.”Because Catholic schools will accept non-Catholic families if you can pay the tuition, and sometimes they have scholarships. And I just always thought — again, pure prejudice, my parents, especially my mother, were very big on public schools and the importance of education for all, of universal education.And so we didn’t have any money to begin with. However, I didn’t wanna apply for scholarships for this kid, and he did go through the Oakland public schools, K through 12, and I volunteered as a parent aide to the teachers and a literacy tutor for 11 out of 13 years. I would have done 13 years; however, there were two years of middle school — seventh and eighth — that he went to where the school was on complete lockdown, and they wouldn’t really allow parents in, unless you went in and stayed in the entry point to pick up your kid for a medical or a dental appointment or something like that.But we were never allowed to volunteer to help the teachers, to go into the classrooms. It was basically like a prison.Vince Horn: And that’s the one that you said he chose to go to.Mushim Ikeda: Yes. Yes. Yes. The other schools were these, like, kind of crunchy granola... They were Oakland public schools. They were small-school models. They had no grades. They were based on teamwork, on collaboration, and all of the teachers taught what in Ohio we would have called social studies. They did not have labs to teach science. They didn’t have bands or orchestras. These schools had no money whatsoever.What they did have was great teachers, and these teachers, this being Oakland, all taught the history of the United States not as George Washington and Betsy Ross. They taught the history of the United States through the Oakland legacy of the Black Panthers. There also has been a lot of Black Muslim activity, UC Berkeley and others, throughout the East Bay, and various people’s movements — movements of resistance, of protest — that have shaped this totally racially and economically and ethnically diverse area. Religiously, also.So we love Oakland. And I personally don’t think — you had said, I think, that maybe Oakland represents what’s happening in the United States. I don’t think so. I am a diversity, equity, inclusion consultant, and I think that the experience of being an American citizen, or an immigrant to the United States, in various regions of the United States — which is very large and has a lot of different environmental ecosystems, as well as socioeconomic systems, so to speak, based on the industries in those regions, whether it’s agrarian, whether it’s, like Akron — again, we made tires and raised cows in that area — so that people are having extremely different experiences.And of course, people living in suburbs — that’s a different experience than being in farmland, or being in what’s called the inner city. I don’t even know what that means — inside large urban areas such as Oakland. However, what we are seeing — because I’m a core teacher, excuse me, and a co-founder of East Bay Meditation Center, and we were founded to serve what have been called underserved communities.However, that’s a polite code word for historically excluded and marginalized groups of people. That’s our mission. That’s why we exist. And so most of our sangha, or spiritual community, are lower-income people. And what we’re seeing, that’s logical, that’s happening now, is that people with lower incomes, myself included, have less safety nets.And so when the economy plunges, when the level of persecution increases — of police surveillance, immigration deportations and so forth, and detentions — when all of that increases, which is happening now, then our communities go from being stressed communities to being desperate communities,Vince Horn: Yeah.Mushim Ikeda: and losing the ability to have a space to live in, to have enough groceries to eat. And the big thing I feel is access to healthcare.Vince Horn: Yeah, I feel you on that.Mushim Ikeda: So we’re seeing all of that need increase exponentially.Vince Horn: Yeah, and that’s the environment we’re in, where inflation plus, like, increasing privatization of all of those basic services, which are hitting specific groups hardest first, that don’t have the same levels of support.Mushim Ikeda: Yes. And as I always say: wherever there is oppression, there will be resistance, and there will be bursts of creativity. I come — again, my background is in the fine arts, and I highly prize creativity, probably of equal importance along with spiritual aspiration. And I think that vital spiritual aspiration is always creative, is always generative.Vince Horn: Mm-hmm.Mushim Ikeda: That’s been my experience. So what I’m seeing in this area, again, are movements for health equity that are very exciting — East Bay Meditation Center is part of those movements — as well as really robust forms of mutual aid.And I was just recently... Who knows where people get my name, but I was interviewed for the making of a video game, from the University of Utah. They have a gaming department. And the chairperson, the head of the gaming department, did an interview with me to give input to a game that he’s creating with his grad students, on mutual aid.Vince Horn: Okay. Cool. Sounds like that’s — it’s like the innovation that sometimes happens out of necessity. It’s like, it’s not a good thing that it has to happen, but it’s a good thing that it happens, I guess. If that makes sense.Mushim Ikeda: Absolutely. Absolutely.Vince Horn: Yeah, ‘cause there’s a lot, it sounds like, in your community that’s being learned that can be kind of shared, I guess, in other communities where it’s relevant.Mushim Ikeda: Part of mutual aid is exchange of information.Vince Horn: Yeah. Mm-hmm. Yeah. Absolutely — and sharing of resources. I mean, we experienced that in real time with Hurricane Helene, when our whole neighborhood flooded here, and it’s like all of the modern infrastructure was gone. Internet gone, water gone, power gone.And it’s like, oh, well, what do you do? Well, you all suddenly turn the local library into, like, a mutual aid hub, and mutual aid networks pop up, and people start helping each other. That’s exactly what happened.Mushim Ikeda: Absolutely. You know, here, of course, we had the big earthquake in — when was that? 1989.Yeah. I feel like September or something, the fall of 1989. And I had a very close friend who lived in San Francisco, in an area with a lot of old apartment buildings. And so it wasn’t a neighborhood where neighbors knew each other, or there were front yards where people could be playing or mowing their grass and talking to each other.People did not know one another in the area he lived in. But he said when the earthquake hit and all the power and everything went out, he would just walk down his street in San Francisco, and neighbors, who had the meat and supplies in their freezers defrosting — what they did was they came out, and they were barbecuing in their yards and giving all the food away for free.Vince Horn: Absolutely, yes. I can’t tell you how many of those stories I heard in the same context. It’s kind of sad, though, because it makes me realize how usually those networks are not alive, because we’re all relying on the centralized sort of capitalist modern infrastructure together.It’s only when it goes away that we’re like, “Oh yeah, we can also do it this way too.” So I think there’s something sad there for me. And then, with respect to Dharma — I guess just to kind of wrap up this thread; we’ve been talking for a while, and I really appreciate your time — I’m really interested in what I see with, like, Zohran Mamdani right now in New York,who is the mayor of New York, who is showing up and just actually delivering results. And this is sort of what I took from Hurricane Helene, one thing: when Hurricane Helene happened, it was mostly right-wing Christian, white Christian organizations that were showing up frontline and actually helping people here.A lot of money came from people that were more left-leaning politically. A lot of money came in, but that’s not who showed up.Vince Horn: And I think there’s something there for me. It feels like the edge of, like, showing up and actually being on the ground, in addition to sharing resources, is kind of what I feel is being asked from me as a Dharma person.Like, not to build any kind of separation between me and who’s suffering, but to kind of try to go in on those things, and really be present to them. Which is exactly the opposite of what I want to do if I’m a jhāna junkie. Those things are really distracting me from my deep bliss, you know?Mushim Ikeda: Oh, yeah. You have to do social interaction, and figure out how to drive places, and then where are you going to park, or you might get ticketed.Vince Horn: Yeah.Mushim Ikeda: If you’re in the meditation hall and everything’s comfortable, and you go into jhāna, then you don’t have to worry about any of those things. Which — again, I am not putting that down, because it definitely has its place. And a very important place. That having been said, it’s only one part. It’s only one part of Dharma training. It’s an important part. All the other parts are equally important. Service — direct service to people. And again, here’s my prejudice, my original teacher echoing my parents in many ways: Zen Master Samu Sunim, who died a few years ago.He was very clear — and again, fluent in English, so if he said something or made a joke, he knew what he was saying, for Canadians and United Statesians. And he once said, “If we’re going to serve poor people” — which obviously he meant that’s what we need to do — he said, “If we are going to serve poor people, we need to live like poor people, and we need to eat like poor people.”And to push back a little bit on what I think you said a little bit earlier, Vince: among people who are very low income — like, when my son was born, I literally had no money. I came back from the monasteries in Korea with $15, literally, to my name. No savings, no trust fund. That was it. And so I had to rely, and I did, on my Buddhist friends and my non-Buddhist friends as well.However, the Buddhist community in particular was very supportive, and so we got all these hand-me-downs for clothing. We got hand-me-down baby equipment. One friend — since I didn’t grow up in California — said, “Oh, there’s this thing called Medi-Cal, and you can get medical care through the program.”So I signed up for that, and I didn’t get prenatal care until I was, like, four and a half or five months pregnant. And then the baby was born, and the hospital costs were covered. As a Medi-Cal patient, it meant that I gave birth at, like, 4:00 PM one day, and I was discharged from the hospital at 11:00 AM the next day.However, I wasn’t complaining about any of that, because all of this came to me through systems of mutual aid that people who are on the edge of survival do form.And Mamdani, whom you mentioned — I’ve been really interested in following him and seeing... I just saw a fabulous reel where he volunteered for the New York City equivalent of kind of a 911 or emergency call center that people would call —not because they were seeing crimes, but because they couldn’t pay their rent, or they couldn’t pay their hospital bill. And so he would just answer and say, “Hi, this is Zohran. Can I help you?” And one person — he said, “And I’m the mayor.” And the other person said, “Yeah, right.”Vince Horn: Yes, I saw the same clip. He’s like — on-the-job training for the—Mushim Ikeda: Yes. He has, to me, so much joy.Vince Horn: Yeah.Mushim Ikeda: And he brings so much positive energy to this central issue that cuts across so many barriers and boundaries right now among the populace of the United States, and in New York City — and that is affordability.So what we are seeing now, I would say, is the demise of the middle class, of the American dream, and therefore that raises the potential for all of these already-in-place systems of mutual aid and exchange of information on how to get to resources. It enlarges the field of the general population in the United States who are not millionaires and billionaires, who are saying, “How can I pay my mortgage?I’ve paid my mortgage, I’ve paid my rent — now I don’t have enough for groceries. Now I have enough for groceries and I’ve paid my rent, but I don’t have enough money for textbooks for my kid,” or whatever it is that is needed. “I can’t fix my car.” So this issue of affordability, as challenging as it is, is what I see that has the potential, at this moment in 2026, to create a grassroots movement using all of the tools of mutual aid that are already in place.Vince Horn: And it seems like the progressive dharma has an important place in all of that as well.Mushim Ikeda: I would hope so.Vince Horn: Yeah, right.Mushim Ikeda: And that is — I will say, we don’t need to get all puffed up with pride about that.Vince Horn: Yeah, yeah.Mushim Ikeda: That’s going to be the same as so many Christian churches who say, “Love thy neighbor.” I have a very close Christian friend who’s a diversity consultant, retired, who said — he’s in Virginia, I think — and he said, “You know, in my version of Christianity, it’s not about persecuting immigrants. Jesus taught love thy neighbor as thyself.” So it’s going to be in Muslim communities.It’s going to be in all religious institutions. Not among all of them; however, among those that honor working people,and that include and support and understand — because they understand one another — the needs of people who do not have large amounts of savings in the bank, who can’t afford to go on expensive vacations,including expensive meditation retreats,which are kind of like vacations.Vince Horn: Yeah.Mushim Ikeda: So that’s what we’re talking about now. And again, as you’re hearing, I was not trained, in the terms of the Dharma, of Buddhism, of the Buddha Dharma — I was not trained, Vince, in these meditation centers where everything’s climate controlled, and the food is delicious vegetarian food, and your room is so comfortable and nice.That was a totally new experience to me when I began practicing, or entering into, what I guess you’re calling the Western insight tradition. I had class issues up to here.Vince Horn: Yeah, no doubt. I mean, I felt some of that as well, so I know if I did, that would be more so for you.Mushim Ikeda: And I appreciated it. Again, it’s not something that I’m saying, oh, let’s get rid of all that because that’s bourgeois bullshit. How I see those places operating is that they usually have scholarship systems,Vince Horn: Yeah.Mushim Ikeda: and they accept people who normally could not afford to pay the full cost, and it acts as a place of rest and regeneration.Vince Horn: For sure. And, you know, looking at my own experience as, like, a teen and 20-something-year-old, you know, on a spiritual journey — it’s a great institution for doing that thing, where you’re going off and doing your spiritual trip.Mushim Ikeda: And then you do it, and you get the learnings,and hopefully the insights. It’s the insight tradition, for God’s sake. Hopefully you get some freaking insights. And then what do you do with them?Vince Horn: Exactly.Mushim Ikeda: Is it the insight of, oh, we’re all one, Vince. We’re all interconnected with the moss and the pigeons and everything and all the people. It’s so beautiful.Vince Horn: And terrible.Mushim Ikeda: Yes. And then how do you apply it?Vince Horn: Yeah. Yeah, ‘cause there’s the terror of oneness, too. It’s like you’re one with all of the people being genocided as well, you know, at that level.Mushim Ikeda: Thich Nhat Hanh, of course, I feel was the great teacher of this century, who, through his art, through his teaching, and through his way of life and the sanghas he built, spread the very clear message — which is, I think it’s really hard. It’s hard for me, and I do believe it. It’s very Mahayana. And in his famous poem, Call Me by My True Names, he says, “I am the torturer, and I am the person being tortured.”That viewpoint excludes no one.Vince Horn: Mm-hmm.Well, I’m sure Elon Musk is probably grateful to hear that — that even the tech billionaire, trillionaire broligarchs are included.Mushim Ikeda: I don’t think he’s grateful at all.Vince Horn: I don’t think—Mushim Ikeda: I don’t think he cares.Vince Horn: No — I was being completely facetious there.Mushim Ikeda: However — however, I care.Vince Horn: Yeah. Yeah. And whether or not he cares, he is, like you’re saying — there’s some level that includes everything. I think, like, that’s such an important level to remember. I appreciate you pointing out that level, too. And thank you so much for taking the time to be here with us.I just wanted to highlight again, as people leave: thank you so much for being here in this kind of experiment. Please support the East Bay Meditation Center, if you feel moved to support this project that also supports the folks we’re inviting in as guests, like Mushim. So thank you there for anything you can contribute. We’re grateful.Mushim Ikeda: Thank you all, and thank you, Vince, for your work of the Insight Diaspora, Buddhist Geeks, of Pragmatic Dharma. As you know, I’m following you very closely, because I feel that the work you’re doing is so fresh, it’s so open, and really — I’m finding it so friendly. It really is friendly to practitioners, in opening up these containers for very frank discussion.I am grateful. Get full access to Buddhist Geeks at www.buddhistgeeks.org/subscribe

In “The Fourth Turning of the Wheel,” Vince Horn traces the Three Turnings of the Wheel of Dharma from early Buddhism to Tibetan Vajrayana, then argues we’re living through new turnings right now—the modern, postmodern, and metamodern waves of Buddhist practice—and asks what it takes to hold them all.Get access to the full Modern Buddhisms training cohort by joining the Pragmatic Dharma Sangha.💬 TranscriptVince: So Modern Buddhisms — this title’s really in part inspired by my time at Naropa University. I should just say that up front, because being there for about four years or so in the mid-aughts really influenced me as a Dharma practitioner and then later as a teacher. When I started teaching, of course, my view had already been really molded and shaped in the halls of Naropa, you could say.Naropa was founded by a Tibetan Buddhist teacher named Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche, who’s quite both famous and infamous for his influence on American Dharma. When I was a student at Naropa, one of the core offerings in the Religious Studies department, which is where I spent most of my time and where I got my degree, was called the First Turning, the Second Turning, and the Third Turning — the Turnings.There was a class on each one of them. I took the First Turning with Judith Simmer-Brown, who was an acharya, a teacher in that lineage, and a professor at Naropa. And it was cool to really learn in an in-depth way over six, seven months — a college class, you’re writing papers and reading a stack of books — in more depth about the tradition that I was in love with.And seeing it from the point of view, in this case, of this Tibetan model called the Three Turnings. As I said, Chogyam Trungpa was Tibetan, so this model was influential and informed a lot of the curriculum at Naropa. The Tibetan model of the Three Turnings emerges later in the evolution and history of Buddhism.So to talk about modern Buddhisms, we of course have to talk about historical Buddhisms too. We can’t just skip to the modern era — unless we’re being really hyper-modern, then we would. Then we’d be like, “Oh, yeah, it all began today. Here we are.” No. We’re going to actually kind of try to trace this back a little bit.And of course, this is such a huge area, with so much history and so many people involved, and I’m going to totally do it injustice by compressing things and making big, broad points and claims. So I just want to kind of apologize for that upfront. It’s kind of one of the things you unfortunately have to do to talk about a topic that’s so broad and make any sense at all, I think.So I’m going to try to make some sense without shredding apart reality here too badly. The way I understand it, and understood it then at Naropa, is that early Buddhism starts with the historical Buddha Siddhartha Gautama in Northern India, Nepal — modern-day Nepal. And there’s a particular kind of flavor to that early Buddhist philosophy, even as it starts to become diversified into many different schools.There were, like, 17 schools of early Buddhism intact at one point in India, just kind of all competing for meme share. And what we have now that’s kind of extant, that’s currently evolved from there, is just one of those 17 schools that came through: the Theravada school of early Buddhism.They called it the Path of the Elders, which is where most of my teachers had trained, in that lineage. This becomes known as early Buddhism, or what the Tibetans would later call the first turning of the wheel — the First Turning dharma. And why is it called the first turning? Because this is when the Buddha first taught his unique approach — what we call Buddhism now.And the wheel represents the teachings that the Buddha gave, the core of the teachings, which are the Noble Eightfold Path, sometimes compressed down to or simplified as the three trainings, the Threefold Training. The Threefold Training in what? In Ethics or Morality or Virtue, in Concentration, Meditation, and in Insight, Wisdom.These are the things that the Buddha taught, and this is the unique collection of trainings that made it Buddish. This is how you know the Buddish pattern, when you see these eight represented as the Threefold Training and this sort of unique constellation and specific ways of looking at things.In the Eightfold Path, we have two in particular that are quite important here, which are Right Intention and Right View. This is how we see and do the thing. This is how we’re seeing and doing it.So in early Buddhism there’s a particular view and intention that goes along with that view. The intention is to put an end to suffering. And the view is that it’s possible. Suffering does exist, but it’s possible to experience a cessation of suffering. The end of dukkha.And there’s a path that you follow to do that called the Eightfold Path. This is the view of early Buddhism.You’re stuck in samsara and there is freedom. It’s called nirvana. You can get out. You can have an experience of freedom. Later Buddhists don’t disagree on this point — they just disagree, I would say, on how far to extend it and how much to fall in love with our concepts about what’s happening here.The Second Turning — I remember at the very end of the First Turning course I took with Judith Simmer-Brown at Naropa, she basically delivered the big rug pull after learning all these models, the Four Noble Truths and the 12 Links of Codependent Origination — I mean, model after model after model.We’re just learning and reading texts and learning. And at the end she says, “In the next course, the second turning, they’re going to come through” — and just kind of point. And we read The Heart Sutra, and she’s like, “They’re going to point out that the problem with this whole edifice of early Buddhism is that people fell in love with their concepts and wanted to try to explain everything.”That’s what the Abhidhamma ends up becoming — this attempt to describe how everything is related. We’re going to describe and map the entire world of interdependent phenomena and describe everything in detail. And there was something about that that was problematic, which was the freezing or the reifying of that, and it said, no.Basically, like, no. This is not the move. And it negated that in a way that was meant to de-reify that tendency to kind of build mental sandcastles and to believe that our thoughts are the things that are real. And early Buddhism has this built in, in a way, because the early Buddhists say, “Here’s the right view. This is the way you need to understand things.”And that is an understanding of early Buddhism. You want to download this view and understand things this way. Practice in a way that you see that this is true — the three characteristics of experience. You want to see impermanence, see selflessness, see all this stuff.But the problem there is you’re taking the view quite seriously. It’s like, this is the right view. If you get too attached to your view — in the Second Turning, there’s a recognition that this becomes problematic, and we can describe this as emptiness: to let go of your fixed views.To realize, oh, this is more open and fluid. So the second turning emerges. It’s described in terms of non-duality of samsara and nirvana and the emptiness of views — of not believing there’s some thing over there called nirvana that’s separate from this experience of samsara. Cosmological dualism. Oh, no, that’s a problem.If that’s really true, we’ve got a problem here. The Second Turning releases the problem by pointing out that the problem is fixed dualistic thinking. Ah. Okay. Now we’re in the realm of non-duality. The view here shifts from the three characteristics in the First Turning — the Second Turning is about Emptiness and Interdependence. Compassion is just as important as wisdom in the second turning. I remember Shinzen Young explaining this in a way that really struck me. He said, “In the Second Turning, in Mahayana Zen, compassion has equal precedent — it’s equally important to wisdom.”In the first turning, wisdom was still kind of more important. It’s like an absolute teaching, and then you have the relative brahmavihāras, and there’s this sort of ranking where wisdom is kind of the highest. Here, it’s like, no, these are two dimensions of the same realization, or the same awakening. Bodhicitta. One awakening heart-mind. So, to me, this is like a correction. This is an evolution, right? And this is how it’s kind of explained in later Buddhism. This is an evolution of the tradition. What’s so interesting about the Third Turning teachings in Tibetan Buddhism to me is that they understand their own tradition as having what we would now call evolved.They didn’t use that word, evolve, and maybe they have a different understanding of it than I do. But it’s so interesting to me that they see the revolutions of the turnings. I love John Vervaeke — he’s a scholar and a cognitive behavioral therapist and psychologist at the University of Toronto.He says, “Evolution is revolution with change.” That’s the way he defines evolution. Well, the turnings are just this revolving wheel of people understanding Buddhism in new ways, in different ways over time, over a thousand plus years, two thousand plus years. The three turnings model in a sense is the tradition’s first understanding of itself as an evolutionary development.It’s something that’s evolved over time, and you can kind of look back — and what do they do in the three trainings? They say they’re all important. They don’t just reject them. In some sense you could say the Second Turning is a rejection of the First Turning, right? Or it’s a negation of it. You can understand that.Of course, when you negate something, you affirm it. That’s also important to understand, right? I always think about being a college-age atheist, which I was a little bit. I’ve seen other people that are more atheist than me. But you become like a militant atheist, right?You’re like, “I am anti-God,” and you make your identity about being anti-God and hang out with a bunch of people that talk about being anti-God, and you read a bunch of books by people that are talking about how God doesn’t exist, and it’s like your whole life is built around God. And likewise, this is how I understand the Second Turning.It wasn’t that they were negating in any sense that they’re trying to get rid of it — it was more just sort of pointing out the holding on to. To do that, you have to point out the actual specifics: no suffering, no cause of suffering, no end of suffering, no path to the end of suffering.In the Heart Sutra, they repeat all the models. All the lists are there. It’s not like the Buddhist lists get evaporated and we don’t remember what they are because they got rid of them. No, this is an affirmation through negation in the Second Turning. The Third Turning includes all of it intentionally in this sort of larger Buddha matrix of teachings.And in a sense it holds the whole collection of teachings. That’s why it’s such a complex tradition in a lot of ways, the Vajrayana, because there’s so much that it’s holding in its library of esoteric teachings, including ones that are emerging and still coming from beyond, in terms of the Terma tradition.So they’re still uncovering new Dharma teachings that are somehow timeless, by the way. So this evolution is a timeless evolution from the point of view of the Third Turning. Now we’re going to move, finally, to the topic at hand, which is modern Buddhism. So what happens when we enter into the, quote-unquote, Western Enlightenment period?Quote-unquote, modernity. There’s a big, huge change of thinking in the Western world by Western Enlightenment thinkers. These books, of course, are being printed, and people are reading them, so that’s why this is spreading so quickly — because we’re sitting on top of the Gutenberg innovation already here, and there’s increased literacy.Thanks, by the way, back to Egypt and Palestine — the Palestinians, my ancestors — for the innovation of the phonetic alphabet, which allows language to be communicated and carried much easier by people that don’t have to learn, like, a million hieroglyphs. Anyway, here we are in the modern world with all of these supportive technologies and infrastructure that’s kind of built toward connecting the whole of the world — of course, through colonialism primarily, through one group gaining this sort of incredible advantage in terms of certain technologies and geographies and things like that, histories of empire, resources.That’s one part of the view, of course. There’s the looking at the Western Enlightenment as a noble thing, and there’s looking at it as a terrible thing. I’m going to try to hold both views here at once. This is a hard thing to do. But I do see truth in both.And what I will say here is that I think we are ourselves going through different turnings now of the wheel of Dharma since the beginning of modernity, since this move toward increased globalization, which has pushed these traditions into contact with each other like has never happened before, even though it was happening before.The way I think of it is like we’re in an atom crasher, in a way. Since modernity, all these things are crashing into each other. And there are different ways of relating to that. I will go ahead and say here what I want to explore through the course of this training together are three particular modern turnings of the Wheel of Dharma.So these are all part of what I guess you could call the fourth turning we’re in now. Since modernity has started, I think we’re in the modern yana. We’re in this new period of Buddhist history. And the first wave of that we could just, I think, call Modern Buddhism, Buddhist Modernism, where the move is toward secularizing the practice, toward making it compatible with science, and to make it a trainable system, like a mental psychological system.It’s to make Buddhism work for the modern individual. That’s kind of the goal of this Buddhist modernism — to improve your capacity at work. This is why the secular mindfulness movement has done so well. I would claim it’s a modern form of Buddhism that’s completely, in a way, unbundled from the original tradition, except for some of the meditative techniques and views. Of course, there’s a lot of problems with this Modern Yana that you’re probably familiar with and have heard about.McMindfulness is one of the first critiques I heard of Buddhist modernism. And it’s so true. If you’ve studied deeply in a tradition and you really love it, you understand its roots, and you know how little you know. It’s weird to see some commodified version of a very narrow kind of slice of that becoming hyper-popular and everyone talking about it.And it’s like, what just happened? Part of your tradition just got modernized. And sometimes modernized essentially means extracted and commodified and turned into financial value, because that’s part of the modern infrastructure — capitalism, right? So modern Buddhism is extremely integrated with capitalism, and capitalism is a global system of commerce.So this is the first wave, I’d say. You have this sort of integrating with capitalism, integrating with science, integrating with technology. This is a very powerful wave. It’s still waving very hard now. This is how Buddhist Geeks got started. I got onto this wave at a specific time when the internet was changing, and caught this Buddhist modernist wave, which had been waving for hundreds of years actually.It wasn’t a new thing. It was new for me and a bunch of other people, is how I would say it now. But what happens if you keep engaging with these yanas — they open themselves up in practice, right? In the same way that we can look at the earlier three as a developmental journey you go through, you can move through, so too, I think, with these modern yanas — you can move through them.What started to happen for me in Buddhist Geeks, where we were exploring really our main question over like 10 years, was: how does Buddhism converge with modern science, technology, and culture — this globalized culture? What does Buddhism have to offer the global culture and technology, and what do these things have to offer Buddhism? Let’s not assume Buddhism is fixed and doesn’t have anything to learn, like the traditional kind of failure mode would be. Instead we want to learn and adapt, but we also want to remain intact.What I learned through Buddhist Geeks is that one of the best ways to understand what’s happening in the modern era is that Buddhism is getting unbundled as an institution, as are all institutions which were developed in the pre-modern era. All of them, as a kind of bundled form of different things, are getting pulled apart and then commodified.This is how global capitalism works. This is how it develops — extracts value culturally. It does that through natural capital as well, which is part of why we have an ecological crisis. And here, what’s the equivalent crisis, I wonder, for our spiritual traditions? What happens when you extract all of the essence out of them and make it really popular, and then no one knows that there’s still this deep, profound engine of transformation at the heart of these traditions?No one cares because they’ve got their mindfulness app or whatever — they’re fine. Well, I’d say it’s something like a spiritual crisis. We don’t know what life is for. It’s like, oh, just to be comfortable, to make it through a difficult period. No, that’s not what life is for.Remember the three trainings — the training in ethics? Well, the Postmodern Yana, the next wave, I would say, of Modern Buddhism comes around, and it really critiques hard, as I’m starting to do here, the modern Buddhism, Buddhist modernism. It points out how white-centric it is, how Eurocentric it is, how Christian it is without acknowledging its Christianity and the influence of Christianity on it, how capitalist it is, how oppressive it is when it doesn’t acknowledge the way it participates in these systems.And there’s a powerful critique that comes online about the systems of power that are hiding inside of the modern story. This critique is powerfully deconstructive philosophically. I remember when I first encountered this critique aimed at me, when I was doing Buddhist Geeks.There were a number of professors, a bunch of academic Buddhists, who got together and they started a project called Speculative Non-Buddhism. And they were critiquing lots of popular Buddhist teachers and using these really powerful post-modern philosophical methods for doing that, as well as just being total assholes.They would just call people names and they would not be civil at all. That was actually part of their method — it was intentional, to goad nice Buddhists into showing their nasty sides. And often it worked. Smart people just ignored them. But for me, I found it fascinating.There was something in their critique — I was actually like a firefly, drawn to the light. I was drawn to it. I had an interest in philosophy, and the more I sat with their criticisms, even though they were extremely painful because a lot of them were aimed at me personally — they were also right about some things, and I couldn’t help but see that that was true. The way that I was framing things, how we were selling things, our business model with Buddhist Geeks — there were so many things that I was doing that were unconscious, and I just learned to do them that way. I hadn’t questioned them in the way that I’d questioned a lot of things. And they were pointing that out in a way that really shook me to my foundation and ended up actually dissolving the company.It was a for-profit company. I let it dissolve and fail, Buddhist Geeks. It got reborn later as a nonprofit, which it’s been since. But that was huge for me, to kind of take on those critiques. It felt very sharp, very personal, and yet because there was something to them, I couldn’t help but sit with them, even while I was grumbling and complaining and being a victim — still, something got through, and for me it opened my eyes to these different ways of seeing. These things got further opened for me with the racial awakening of George Floyd’s death in 2020 and the COVID era. My teachers at this point were really leaning into this more Postmodern Yana, I would say, in terms of trying to refashion the insight tradition to take account of these criticisms and try to make space for the truth of them, which I really admired.Because it’s not easy to do that, to change an organization. And some of you here know that because you work exactly in this field. So the Postmodern Yana, to me, is characterized by a critique of modernity that recognizes that we’ve not been looking at, especially, collective systems-level perspectives.We don’t see how collectives are being shaped. This is where the Marxist views come in about economics. This is where ecological, environmental views emerge, because we’re looking at this perspective. The hyperindividualism of modernity prevents one from seeing these things. You just can’t see in terms of bigger than you.Here in the Postmodern Yana, we can go beyond just our narrative, and we can deconstruct it.But what happens if we go too far in that endeavor? Is it possible to go too far? Because deconstruction leaves you without anything. It’s similar to the Second Turning, right? In relation to the First Turning. You negate the problems of the First Turning.We can negate the problems of modernity, but that just highlights them. It gives us freedom — but to do what? To be angry, for sure. I think that’s a natural initial response. Once you start to see these things, you get pretty fucking pissed, and you start to see the causes of a lot of suffering in the modern world, and where they come from and how unequally they’re distributed.You start to feel ashamed, angry, whatever — all these things are natural. But what if it’s possible to move through, at least to some degree, the grief of that and the anger of that, and to sort of say, okay, instead of completely rejecting modernity entirely — it’s hard to do that anyway, because we can’t even imagine what it was like pre-modernity.I heard stories from my grandfather who came from Palestine, which was much less developed than we were here in America. So he essentially came from, like, several hundred years ago in terms of his living conditions. I’ve heard stories like that directly from other people that I trust — wearing the potato sack to run to school for three miles while it’s raining. Literally that story. So I know there’s a huge difference in living conditions from what my grandfather grew up in and what I live in currently, what my sons are growing up in. Just massive, and that’s largely modernity there. So I know there are some good things about modernity, in terms of expanding lifespan, in terms of modern medicine.There are some things I’m really grateful to have access to in modernity. Oh my gosh — my friend just moved back here from Mexico City. He loves Mexico City. He speaks Spanish. He loves Mexican people. He loved living in a part of the neighborhood where he was the only gringo.And he’s that kind of person who really legitimately loves Mexican culture. And he was so happy to be infrastructurally back in the United States. He’s like, “Just a reminder, there’s a lot of things dysfunctional about our politics here, but there’s a lot of things that work in terms of infrastructure, and it’s easy to forget when you have them.” And I’m like, “Oh yeah, that’s true. That’s true.”So what if we hold the modern and some parts of modern life and what it opens up, especially the internet? The internet is wholly a modern development. And we say, okay, could we keep some of the good things about modernity while not doing this hyper-modern thing that’s destroying our planet and culture?Could we take into account the critiques of postmodernity and do something with them that’s constructive? That to me is the third of these waves of modern Buddhism — I’ll call it here the Metamodern Yana, which is emerging out of the generative tension between modernity and the critiques of modernity, postmodernity.If we can hold both modernity and postmodernity, instead of collapsing onto one side or the other — this is the middle way practice, by the way, of Buddha — then we can actually find a middle way that exists between and beyond them. That’s the Metamodern Yana. That’s the idea, anyway.That to me is pretty emergent, at least for myself. I know other people have experienced this and are talking about this. People that are talking about, for instance, the meta-crisis — they’re usually coming at it from a Metamodern perspective. The meta-crisis is itself metamodern terminology; it comes out of that whole cultural philosophical landscape, because you’re seeing the many problems that are happening in the world, in the really crisis period that we’re going through in 2026, globally. They have a deeper generator function underneath them. This is the argument of the meta-crisis, right?There’s something underlying these different crises that connects them. They’re not just different crises. They’re not just poly. There’s something that connects them that’s meta to them.And whatever Metamodern Buddhism is, it’s a response to that. It’s a response to the meta-crisis. It’s an attempt to update our spiritual lens to be in alignment with the actual challenge that we’re facing.There will be different views from Metamodern Buddhists on how to do this and what we should focus on. Just like there’s always diversity, right? That emerges. But there’s a particular way the Metamodern Yana can recognize that there’s truth to both the modern story of progress and to the postmodern critique of it, and that there’s some generative tension in holding both of these together.Both the desire to move forward and make things better, while also recognizing that we’re always doing that from a limited perspective that excludes certain beings — and thus when we move forward, we actually make things worse for them. So how do we constantly include more while also continuing to move forward?That’s the koan here, the Metamodern Buddhist koan. The last thing I’ll say is we’re going to use these lenses in this training to explore some questions. We’re going to move through three different questions, taking each of these — the modern, the postmodern, and the metamodern lens — on each.We’re going to try to inhabit each. The first question is: What is practice for? We’re going to look at it from a modern perspective. What is practice for? Well, it’s for making me better at meditation so I can be better. Okay, what is practice for from a postmodern lens? Well, it’s to help me see the narrative memeplex that I’m embedded in and become liberated from it, so I don’t have to keep participating in the suffering caused by, you know, X.Okay, great. What is practice for from a metamodern perspective?That’s the plan for this training in terms of the method. We’re going to be cycling through these almost like perspectives — you could think of this like a yoga of perspective-taking. We’re going to see these questions from the point of view of these different perspectives. The other two questions we’ll look at are: How do we know where we are on the path? How do we know where we are on the path? And then finally, How do we make a good living? We’ll end this training — the last three cycles we’ll be exploring how do we make a good living. We’ll include the modern exploration of that: how do we make a good living from a modern standpoint, where you’re including capitalism as part of what you’re interfacing with, and you are dealing with the realities of global commerce, and you’re trying to operate functionally well within that frame? How does that work? How do you make a good living from a postmodern perspective? Again, bringing this question through each of these, week by week, I want to see what we can learn from them together about these different ways of approaching the path. Get full access to Buddhist Geeks at www.buddhistgeeks.org/subscribe

In “The Cost of Silence,” dharma teacher Vince Horn and guest Daniel Klein trace what it costs us—psychologically, relationally, economically, and spiritually—to withhold the truth, arguing that the small silences of the dinner table are the same debt that scales into complicity with collective harm, asking what it takes to finally stop paying it.💬 TranscriptVince Horn: So, welcome back to the Insight Diaspora. I’m your host, Vince Fukuri-Horn. Good to be here with you again in this exploration of ... I don’t know, what is it exactly we’re exploring here, Daniel? You have to tell me.Daniel Klein: I think it’s going to be an emergent phenomenon.Vince Horn: Great. Okay. Another of those emergent phenomenons. So, no, looking forward to this conversation genuinely. We are talking about the cost of silence today. And for a little background, Daniel and I had a conversation prior to this that we aired through Buddhist Geeks, and it was called The Cost of Truth. And there we were sharing some reflections from both of our experiences, in very different positions, in this sort of Israel-Gaza — I don’t even know what to call it anymore — kerfuckle. This situation is just terrible. We’re coming at it from different places, but both had this experience of speaking up and saying things that weren’t super welcome by our social groups. And so we’re talking about the cost of that, and what happens when you speak up even though it’s not really welcomed.Today we want to explore the other side of that equation, which is the cost of not speaking up, because we also both have had that experience as well. And it’s not like we suddenly woke up one day and were like, “Okay, I’m going to speak the truth about everything, no matter what.” We’re both social humans, so we have gone through a process of learning how to speak what’s true for us. And I imagine Daniel, like myself, is still going through that process. So we wanted to talk about that today. And also, just before we jump in, I want to say a word about generosity. I’m not a huge fan of the generosity talks and Dharma things. I’ll be honest with you. It always felt weird and cringey to me. Now that I’m on the other end of it, it’s a different matter, of course. And Emily was reminding me that the Buddhist teachings start with the practice of generosity. If you look at the 10 perfections, the 10 Paramis, which are these 10 things we’re cultivating on the path, the first one is generosity.So it’s sort of foundational. And it’s foundational to this project as well. We’re doing this out of the generosity of our own hearts. We’re organizing this and having these conversations and wanting to talk about things that are not super comfortable sometimes, or popular. And we’re putting a lot on the line to do that. And we’re asking, for folks that find this valuable, to meet us there, and to see generosity as a mutual process. And so, with that in mind, I just wanted to highlight that there are really two ways, in terms of financial support, that you could consider supporting us today.One is by supporting this project directly, the Insight Diaspora, which runs through the Buddhist Geeks organization, which is an educational nonprofit. There’s a link in the chat if you wanted to become a supporting member of this project; you could do that. That money goes directly to supporting our guests. We donate to our guests to support their livelihood, and it supports us as organizers as well. And then I also wanted to highlight this organization that Daniel’s associated with. Each of these meetings, we want to highlight good organizations that are doing good work in the world. And so I wanted to mention the Soulforce Project, which promotes social justice using music and the arts. And I thought maybe, Daniel, if you could say something about this, because I know they’re your friends. Maybe what the Soulforce Project is about.Daniel Klein: Well, one of the ways that I describe them is that they’re doing the work that we’re doing, but they’re operating at the level of arts and culture. So how do we promote deep transformational work in the field of liberation and collective liberation by bringing together world-class musicians to facilitate these experiences? Run by an amazing, amazing sitar player—Vince Horn: Hmm.Daniel Klein: —who I’ve done a couple events with actually in my own home. So he’s a dear friend.Vince Horn: Okay. And is this a California-based organization as well?Daniel Klein: Yeah, Altadena.Vince Horn: Okay. Great. Awesome. And just for context, you’re based in southern California, I believe?Daniel Klein: Yes. Yeah, Los Angeles.Vince Horn: Yeah. Sorry to hear that. Having lived in Los Angeles. No, it’s a beautiful place.Daniel Klein: I’m in my little bubble. I very rarely leave my living room, and it’s very beautiful up here in Topanga.Vince Horn: Okay. Oh, yeah, you really are. Topanga is a bubble. So yeah, that’s the way to do it if you’re going to live in LA. Good. Well, again, Daniel, thank you so much for being here. This is such a delight to talk to you again.Daniel Klein: Thank you all.Vince Horn: Yeah. So I wanted to start with a quote, if that’s cool with you, Daniel, and just have you, I guess, riff on it or respond. This is the main thing that came to my mind when inquiring about the question of the cost associated with not speaking up, or not saying something which is true. This comes from a book called Trauma and the Unbound Body, by Judith Blackstone. And she says, “Children may be faced with a terrible choice: truth or love. They can limit their own senses and intelligence and be cozily embraced by the family, or they can stick to their view of reality, shutting down their heart instead of their wits and enduring the family rejection.”Daniel Klein: Hmm.Vince Horn: Yeah, you can probably see why I brought this quote up.Daniel Klein: Yeah. Very, very powerful. Very powerful indeed, because I think that it’s really in childhood that we first incur this trauma of: there is a cost associated with speaking the truth. And from my own experience as a child, that’s where my own personal self split. The authentic self, and then all of the walls and masks that I needed to perform and to put up in order to be accepted by my family — and this goes deep into our deepest abandonment and rejection wounds.Vince Horn: Yeah.Daniel Klein: And in many ways it’s these small things, obviously, that start in childhood that then scale to mass atrocities. And I always say that, “Genocide starts at the dinner table, not in the halls of politics.”Vince Horn: That’s a powerful statement. I’ve heard you say that before, actually. Yeah. How did you experience that, growing up in the West Bank? Because we talked about last time how you kind of made a break from the society and culture that you were in, in a certain way. But what happened prior to that? How was that at the dinner table?Daniel Klein: Yeah. It’s really interesting, because this process of telling the truth is a very long process. Because very often we think things, and we already have this inner clarity, but then to get to the point where you reckon with these truths publicly, there’s this in-between stage, and that’s the stage of the silence where the real suffering is happening, where you’ve had this internal shift, but you are completely misaligned on the outside. And so when it comes to genocide at the dinner table, that’s the stage where people around you could start saying really shocking things. I recall a specific conversation where a close and immediate family member was laughing at the starvation in Gaza, and there was a news headline that said that a turtle had washed up on shore. And this immediate family member said, “I thought they’re starving, they can eat the turtle.” And that’s just really the kind of joke, the kind of comment that somebody can drop. And when you’re in this in-between stage, there’s this nodding along that you have — “Hmm. Hmm. Okay.” — because you can’t really speak about it. And that’s where you’re already caught in this trap and in this cycle.Vince Horn: Yes. I’m super familiar with that. As you know, now living in the US, for the last decade or so the political polarization has been super high, and it affects these kind of dinner table relationships, where people seem like they suddenly became aware, “Oh, some of my family members are saying really awful stuff about immigrants or about people.” It’s not that they hadn’t been saying those things before. People become more bold and are willing to speak up and start to push back against stuff. But then that seems like it can lead very quickly to just the whole family system falling apart, or relationships getting strained because people start arguing about ideology. Does that make sense? It seems like there’s extremes there, like just being totally quiet, or just fighting with everyone.Daniel Klein: Yeah, and ultimately it’s all relational. The way I see everything is relational. And so there’s no doubt that when you introduce truth into a relationship that was built fundamentally on the performance or the preservation of untruth, when you introduce that into the family system, there is an inherent collapse that happens. And even though you might see the fracture, it’s actually just revealing that it was fractured all along, and you’ve just been playing along in this fractured system. And when we were thinking about the cost of truth, I was thinking into it in my own life that the cost of truth is the cost of silence. They’re two sides of the same coin. The only difference is that the cost of truth is the cost of silence paid with interest. And so the moment you choose the path of silence, or not speaking truth, that’s the moment where the conversation should have happened, the intervention should have happened, and you chose not to, and that’s where the fracture starts, and that’s where the debt starts accumulating, to the moment you choose to tell the truth. But it’s still the same reckoning. The question is, are you going to deal with it now, or are you going to push it off to a future event?Vince Horn: Right, where it’s probably going to be worse, because there’s now going to be, like you said, compound resentment that has to be aired as part of the conversation as well.Daniel Klein: Which is what the family system has really always been built on. But again, that family system comes back to the individual who’s been experiencing and carrying this and playing along with the system, because each side is playing a game here — the side that needs you to perform, and you performing.Vince Horn: I have a sense that you and I were probably different kinds of children, because I sort of fell on the side of truth over love in my family system, where I was just sort of perpetually saying things that were bothering people, fighting with my mom, pointing out her hypocrisies. Choosing in every single instance to side with the truth over with people finding me easy and enjoyable to be around. I’d choose abrasiveness. I’ve since thought that’s probably in part a function of growing up in a Palestinian-American family. There’s a lot of untruth being spoken, and there’s a lot that just by virtue of that family system you kind of don’t say. And so I think in some ways that was my unconscious reaction to the system. It’s like, okay, I’m just going to err on the side of always speaking up and speaking the truth. But it does lead to a lot more conflict.Daniel Klein: Did you feel that you had the safety to do that, or what was the consequence?Vince Horn: Sort of, yeah. I didn’t feel like I was going to necessarily be booted out of the family system, because there’s a lot of people in my family like that. There’s a lot of truth tellers. But there was always some concern that it could potentially break relationships in a way that weren’t fixable. That never happened, fortunately. Our family was able to repair through those ruptures. But yeah, that was the main concern, that I would alienate people.Daniel Klein: Yeah, and I feel that I come in many ways from the opposite system, which is that there was not only a severe cost to speaking the truth ... Well, it wasn’t only a hindsight thing. I was told growing up what the consequences would be for crossing certain lines and certain truths. So I actually knew that the cost of speaking would be completely blowing up the whole system and all of the relationships, and suffering excommunication, disinheritance—Vince Horn: That was explicit?Daniel Klein: —those are the things ... that was explicit, absolutely. I knew what I was getting into. And actually from September 2023 until I started speaking publicly, when I’d initially left Israel at the time, I remember explicitly saying to myself, “Let me just get out of here. I’m going to go find a quiet, peaceful life in Costa Rica.” I had no plan whatsoever about actually speaking about any of it publicly, because I was still trapped within the mechanisms of control within the family and within the broader system, which are deeply, deeply connected, so that you need to pay an exit tax — a social exit tax, a relational exit tax, a financial exit tax, and a safety exit tax. And all of these costs are accumulating, and they’re actually baked into the cost of silence, because the silence that you’re choosing in order to keep the peace — it’s a massive, massive trade-off.Vince Horn: Right.Daniel Klein: What am I actually trading off in order to not rock the boat?Vince Horn: Yes.Daniel Klein: And if it’s safety, if it’s sovereignty, if it’s the actual externalized cost at a societal level, that could be the Palestinians as a people.Vince Horn: Right.Daniel Klein: But on the relational level, we’re always paying the price of preserving this illusion of silence. And within family systems and within broader systems, this is part of how it keeps people in line and in control, especially in the in-between phase, where they’re actually sitting with the suffering. Which also only comes with awareness too, right? If you’re not aware, you could just continue to perpetuate it. The pain starts when the awareness starts, and now you become aware of all of the pain that you’ve been deferring in order to not rock the boat.Vince Horn: Yeah, which is built up. It’s interesting, you’re using a lot of accounting metaphors here — which I find interesting — and it has me also connecting the whole economic theory with what we’re talking about, where, in modern economic theory, you have externalities. Things that are happening as a result of whatever you’re doing in your economic system that you don’t see. They could be positive things, but oftentimes they’re negative, right? So it’s like, I bought these pens, they got shipped across the country, and I don’t see all the carbon impact that that has, and being able to get my nice fine point pens that I really like. And so it’s easier to pay the cost if it’s not visible. I’m wondering how that connects with what you’re sharing here, because it seems like there’s so much that’s externalized in that kind of system, like the trade-off gets externalized onto the person, onto the individuals, often.Daniel Klein: Yeah, which I think is the essence of the colonial mindset and the colonial framework: externalization and othering. And it’s built on the denial of the people who benefit from the system. Because if they were to actually look at what keeps the gears of the system turning, they wouldn’t be able to live with it. And so part of what they need to keep in the silence is this aspect of denial. And silence and denial, I think, come hand in hand, right? We need to be in denial of the immediate reality in order to be able to accept the benefits of the situation.Vince Horn: Hmm. Yeah. Wow. I’m thinking here of John Vervaeke’s work on the meaning crisis, and how he points out that it’s the same machinery that allows wisdom to occur is exactly the same machinery that allows delusion to function. To be able to hone in on something that you think is salient and then just sort of ignore everything else, for instance. You do that when you’re waking up and you’re letting go of distractions, but you can also do that when you’re just avoiding and ignoring things that are inconvenient to your situation. That capacity can be used for both of those things.Daniel Klein: And it’s just being in denial of immediate realities, and that’s the essence of delusion, and the source of everything that we’re contributing to without actually looking at it or facing it and confronting it. And that’s where truth comes in. We have to be honest about what is actually happening in reality right now.Vince Horn: Yeah, thanks.Daniel Klein: And you had mentioned how using the language of the ledger — for me, this is also where the aspect of karma comes in, right? The ledger here is an immediate feedback loop. As much as we can be in denial of what it is that we’re not saying and what we’re not being honest about, that turns just into an absolute immediate feedback loop with what we’re experiencing in reality, because once you create that inner fracture, your embodiment and your nervous system and all of your programming is now starting to run things based on this untruth, and the consequences of that are impossible to avoid. They start being reflected back to us immediately.Vince Horn: Yeah, so it’s like a karma that’s not necessarily — it’s a this-life kind of karmic pattern that you’re describing, like a social dynamic.Daniel Klein: Yeah. That’s what’s being reflected back at us, and it also accumulates with debt over time. The reflection that we see, based on the escalation of denial, escalates on the outside, too, and we can never truly avoid it. If we were honest with ourselves, we would know that there’s absolutely no way not only to avoid the consequence—Vince Horn: Right.Daniel Klein: —but to not experience how it affects us every single day with the inner pain that we’re carrying, because to avoid the truth requires a massive amount of energy. And I think we had also spoken about it. Not only does it require so much energy in order to create all of the different mechanisms — you need your alarm bells, you need your walls, you need all of these components that are trying to protect what it is that you know to be true, all of the performance — and all of that energy is wasted. And at a deeper level, I think that when you go deeper into the untruth, that also fractures our own energetic system. That’s where the huge energetic leak goes, and we can’t be whole or complete or aligned or grounded when we have all of our energy leaking out towards this alarm system.Vince Horn: Yeah. Okay. I wanted to mention too, I’ve been surprised exploring this topic and seeing the places where I’ve been silent, and then I’ve started speaking up, and then I’ve seen what the impact of that is. How frankly good people are at knowing when not to say something, even when it’s not explicit. Like you said, it was explicit in your family. But even when it’s implicit and you’re just picking up on vibes, or you’re just sensing something that could be an issue, I found that’s actually extraordinarily accurate, that sense. And when I’ve then chosen to speak up instead, it has really upset people in exactly the ways that I was sensing it might, but didn’t have any confirmation of. So I wonder, what is it in the human psyche that can attune so well to those relational realities? In a way it seems like a superpower, but we use it to also, again, avoid sometimes things that feel scary but are necessary.Daniel Klein: Mm-hmm. So what I take from that is that there’s also an important idea, which is the shadow side of truth. Telling the truth is not always in alignment if it’s not serving the right purpose. For example, there’s a possibility where truth telling becomes a way for the ego to feel good about itself. And there are times where it’s necessary — or not even the ego, this could even happen on a chemical level. If I’m addicted to chaos, I might be telling truth at all the right times to all the wrong people, just to get a hit of cortisol and to create a dynamic that is actually wholly unaligned with truth. And so there is a discernment and an intuition of when is truth wise and when is truth serving, right? If our partner is completely dysregulated and we choose that time to share a very challenging truth for them to look at, or a blind spot that they have, that would be wholly unwise. Right? How do you know the right situation, the right people, the right nervous system, and also the ability to receive what it is that you’re saying? Because for many people, truth again just creates unhealthy dynamics. So it’s not to say that truth is always good, truth is always bad, silence is always good, silence is always bad, but rather each one of these things has its place, it has its light, and it has its shadow, and then we need to learn how to maneuver that game. Otherwise, you can get stuck in just rebellion cycles where you run around trying to convince everybody of everything all the time, and all you wind up doing is completely interfering with other people’s journeys too, and that has huge blowback as well.Vince Horn: Yeah. Absolutely. Yes, and it can be true, but not appropriate, or well delivered, like you said, or timely. I think that was an early Buddhist teaching on wise speech: say things which are true and which are timely.Daniel Klein: I forget the name of the movie. I think it’s with Ricky Gervais, where he’s the only person in the world that can lie. And so everybody in the world can only tell truth even when it’s not timely, and he develops a superpower to actually tell a lie. So the world in which everybody is telling the truth all the time and is not timely, it can be disastrous.Vince Horn: Yes. Yes, indeed. I appreciate you bringing that part in — that one can be on the right side of an issue, morally, and still be communicating in a way that’s primarily about them, rather than about the issue. It’s primarily about me getting my needs met, or feeling insecure, or whatever it is. That’s a good, important point.Daniel Klein: And playing with that. And first of all, having self-compassion, because I guess we always do this all the time, right? And just becoming also aware of how do I de-center myself, right? When do I need to put on the coat of the ego, and when do I need to take it off, in the context of telling the truth?Vince Horn: Yeah. I’m curious about your thoughts on security, because I feel like so much of what drives people to stay silent — and I could see this for myself too — is that I mainly am not speaking up because I don’t want to introduce something that could make the situation more insecure. Usually this is especially true when livelihood’s involved. For me, it’s like being a teacher inside of a lineage tradition, and speaking up about this when the lineage won’t, I know that’s going to have an impact on my livelihood, a negative one probably. And—Daniel Klein: Maybe.Vince Horn: —yeah. It has so far. And so that’s a reality. And so I think there’s some amount of just pragmatism here of, okay, how much truth can be received while still being able to maintain enough relative security that I’m not sacrificing myself, if that’s not the aim here. It doesn’t seem necessary. Maybe sometimes it is necessary to sacrifice yourself for the greater good. I don’t want to exclude that possibility. But let’s say you’re not trying to sacrifice yourself, or you don’t think that’s necessary. You want to do this for the long haul. Okay. Where are the lines at times with how much we say? Because there’s a pragmatic reality here, I think, that gets lost in the idealism of activism, where it’s like, oh, actually, no, you can in some context choose to hold back. I recently did a coaching training program, and I didn’t lead with my Palestinian identity. I didn’t lead with the things that we’re talking about here. I waited until I knew who was in the room, and who was present, and then I spoke with people privately. And I had that sense, if I do this publicly, this could be not good. And it was connected to my livelihood, and I think back and I’m like, “Yeah, that was totally appropriate.” Given that context, given what I was there to do, I’m glad that I handled it that way and didn’t just come in guns a-blazing. So, curious your thoughts on the practical reality of dancing with this — the cost of silence.Daniel Klein: So you’d mentioned earlier this idea that these systems are connected to the economic systems as well.Vince Horn: Yes.Daniel Klein: And it’s interesting because the economic matrix that we live in is also fundamentally built on fear-based systems. And we all live in realities, in one way or another, that if we’re not doing the right thing in the eyes of the system, we might get booted out, in which case I’m not going to have a roof over my head. What about healthcare, right? And so the same system actually is built on fear. And so I would actually challenge you in thinking about what actually does happen if we go to the edge of that fear, because how can we extract ourselves from that strata of the economic analysis, if the silence is actually what’s keeping us trapped in the same system and is what is perpetuating it? So I actually think that the question of Palestine is a reflection for all of the different systems that we find ourselves a part of, and to start asking ourselves the really challenging questions of, what does it take to actually extract ourselves from these different layers of suffering that are rooted in fear-based systems? How do we break that? How do we break it spiritually? How do we break it materially? Because I think that very often, whenever we get to a point where we’re afraid that being in deeper alignment is going to cost us economically, that creates the very conditions for us to actually not be aligned in the right work to receive the things that we might be able to receive if we were honest. And I actually think that there’s an exploration here, because as these systems kind of start their process of collapsing, they need to expose everyone to their deepest fears. Because if we each don’t individually confront these fears, the system is never going to end. And as we move through the era, it’s going to require us to do that. So for me, once I became aware of the exit taxes, I chose the path of going all in. I figured if I’m actually not free to be the person who holds these ideas or these opinions, maybe it’s not a room I should be in. And what I’ve been experiencing is that that’s what starts to open up these kinds of spaces and these kinds of connections with people who are willing to open up new fields of possibility. But it requires walking to the edge and not knowing what’s going to catch you on the other side.Vince Horn: True.Daniel Klein: And this could be a multi-year or multi-lifetime journey to learn how do we actually find that safety within. And I guess a lot of it does in fact tie into faith. But how do we find that safety within in order to start breaking these systems from the inside out?Vince Horn: Yeah. There’s the safety within, and then I would add there’s the safety that comes from your mutual aid, from people around you, your community, et cetera. I was thinking about this. I saw a YouTube clip many years ago from this Rasta elder who was living this very radical life in Jamaica, and he was growing all his own food, et cetera. And he made this point that stuck with me. He said, “You cannot criticize people and still depend on them for help.”And I thought that’s interesting. I don’t know if I completely agree with that sentiment, but there’s something really to it, where it seems like in order to be critical and to point out the problems of a system that you are implicated in, you have to have some fallbacks, in terms of mutual aid or support. And here the early Buddhist tradition has a lot to offer. It’s like, well, if all you need is a bowl and a robe, then you don’t need much from people, so you can say whatever the hell you want. You may not be living a lush, comfortable life—Daniel Klein: Which is fair. It’s easy to read about those stories, but it’s a lot harder to put out a bowl.Vince Horn: Right. Yeah, for sure. Yes. Get full access to Buddhist Geeks at www.buddhistgeeks.org/subscribe

In “Dharma & Empire,” Mary Thanissara and Vince Fakhoury Horn trace how the structures of Empire occupy not just land but the psyche—moving from their own Irish, Palestinian, and colonial family histories to Gaza, climate, and class—and ask what a more revolutionary Dharma might require of practitioners right now.💬 TranscriptVince Horn: So Thanissara, thank you again. Great to be here with you.Thanissara: Likewise, likewise. Really, really thrilled to plunge into this Insight Diaspora. That was a brilliant capturing of our wandering, homeless group.Vince Horn: Yes, indeed. I was curious too. I know you started off in the Ajahn Chah tradition — in the Thai Forest Tradition — as a nun in the ‘70s, and I think you were a nun for like 12 years, when I was reading. So that’s a long time.Thanissara: Yeah.Vince Horn: Do you consider yourself part of the insight meditation tradition, or were you coming up at the same time that that whole thing was coming up?Thanissara: I’ve never really designated a category for myself, other than a Dharma practitioner in quite a broad sense. And having said that, most of the development of my practice has been guided through, first of all, the U Ba Khin lineage, which was transmitted to Goenkaji — those teachers were my first teachers from Burma, Myanmar. And then through Ajahn Chah, and that was a very pivotal formation of my practice, because I was young and very shaped by that lineage and the premise that they were teaching from. And then since leaving the robes, I’ve almost entirely taught and practiced within the lay insight world. That’s been a constant adaptation and inquiry, and not a particularly easeful landing. Well, none of it’s been an easeful landing, because it’s all in transition and having to be translated on so many levels. So I guess there’s no end to that in the Dharma.Vince Horn: That really fits with how I’ve interpreted your work from afar for many years. I’ve always heard you and Kittisaro’s name mentioned together, and I’ve heard about the work you’ve been doing in South Africa and other places with activism. It has always felt like it’s been a little bit on the emerging edge of the insight tradition. You’re not quite inside, but you’re not outside either. You’re influencing but not quite. You all seem to be strange attractors in this community. And I mean that in the best possible way.Thanissara: No, it’s a good position to be in, I think, in terms of having space from having to conform, and also being able to help shift some of the parameters of what’s allowed to be discussed or what the Dharma is, from within. Also relationship to the folks that I’ve grown to know so well in that movement — having taught a lot or discussed things over many, many years. So there’s a relationship where both being in and out is an awkward reality.Vince Horn: Yeah, and I can relate to that.Thanissara: A sense of tension around that, and creativity maybe.Vince Horn: Yeah, it’s like generative tension sometimes, and other times it’s just tension. That’s my experience anyway of what you’re describing.Thanissara: Yeah, totally.Vince Horn: So we spoke recently for the first time privately, and I think it was interesting to me that the first thing we got into was our family histories. It seemed like there’s no way to really avoid talking about that. Not that I want to at this point, but we both share ancestry from the UK, from Ireland, and I know your family moved at some point to London as well. You mentioned to me that your dad was in the military and that he was posted at some point in Palestine, I believe it was.Thanissara: Yeah. Well, he was a teenage conscript. But he was trying to really escape the poverty that he grew up in, in the tenements of Dublin — which were quite infamous, and still somewhat, although they were closed down in the 1960s. And the oppression, I think, that he felt, even though Ireland was in a process of liberating itself post the 1916 uprising, and then the liberation that started about when he was born, really, 1925 or so. But it wasn’t very liberated for him. So it’s complex, and I think that’s one of the very interesting things about being both colonized, and yet shape-shifting to find a way out through becoming part of, at that time, the war effort of the Second World War. Which was a movement of idealism, but it was a movement of some feeling of needing to break set from not only the economic oppression, but the religious oppression that he grew up under. Of course, the Catholic Church was both extremely oppressive, and it was also the place that people went to for support, to find solace from this unrelenting violence and oppression that had gone on for so long in Ireland under the British. So in that process, he was posted to Palestine and around many places in the so-called Middle East. And I didn’t really know that until quite recently, actually. My elder brother is the holder of history, and somehow in discussion it came out that he was actually posted. And it was very meaningful for me. It’s like, oh my goodness, that he — and apparently one of the things he talked about that my brother remembered was the Irgun, the terrorism that was going on from the early Zionists that were settling. And of course they were also fighting the British as well, blowing up British posts and things. So that was obviously something that really went deep for him in his memory bank. But he never really talked much about any of that, as that generation didn’t.Vince Horn: Right.Thanissara: We have probably in common a lot of lost stories, as people shape-shift and assimilate. And there was also a lot of shame for the Irish fighting for the British, particularly in the Second World War. And it was hard to go home. There’s a lot written about that. They were displaced again in another sort of way, because at that point Ireland didn’t join the war effort — they didn’t want to align with the British. So it was a very complex political dynamic that was going on.Vince Horn: Yeah, that is complex. And it shines a light on the contemporary situation where Ireland is one of the few countries, and their leaders are one of the few, that actually consistently speak up on behalf of Palestinian people. They can empathize with the situation.Thanissara: Deeply, deeply. So much was shaped by so much bitterness. I mean, if you go to the west — where, when Kittisaro and I were first together, we stayed in County Mayo, which is on the far west coast of Ireland — they still talk about the great hunger as if it was yesterday.Vince Horn: Wow.Thanissara: You still see the little crofting houses that were the Black and Tans, who were very, very brutal. In fact, I think they were sent to Palestine after Ireland. You can still see where they pulled down the houses of people and threw them out as they were starving. And I still think — this is another issue — there was such a big silence about the shame of the deprivation of that. It’s only very, very recently that some of the most awful aspects of the impacts of that constructed famine or starvation, really a genocide by the British, are being discussed. While they were exporting food, and it was very, very desperate, and in the workhouses. And then part of the silence was — I remember when Frank McCourt came out with the book Angela’s Ashes, which was a while ago, but it was portraying this period of history in Ireland, the same time when my father grew up, of this extreme poverty and the struggle. And the whole of my Irish family were very upset by this, because they felt ashamed. They were like, “No, it was like —” But in fact, that portrayed some of the conditions that they were struggling with as well in the tenements. So all of these add to the complexity of lost stories, broken lineages. It’s how empire really shapes identity — not just the occupation of land, but the occupation of psyches. And how that takes up real estate in the imaginal levels of people understanding themselves, and how it shapes language and accents and lost histories, and coming to England, having to change the accent, having to pretend to be — It’s such a different — it’s like oil and water, these two cultures of Ireland and especially southern England, where he was. So in the 1950s, where things were very rigid still, late ‘40s, 1950s, when he got married, and then as post-war happened, people had families very quickly. There was no birth control, but also there was a deep reaction to all the horrors and death that was going on.Vince Horn: In terms of the story level, the way that I connect with what you’re sharing from my own background is — I’ve often thought recently that it was probably my grandmother’s experience of being — her father was Irish, from Northern Ireland, and immigrated to Canada, I think, in the late 1800s. And then my grandfather is Palestinian. I often think it’s her Irish background and his Palestinian background that allowed them to form a mixed-race couple in a time period where it literally had just become legalized, a year before or something, and it was still frowned upon culturally. What actually brought them together — it seems like they had some kind of trauma bond there. They probably weren’t conscious of that, but I can sort of see the complexity of what you’re describing there, where it’s not something you could see on just the surface of things. You’d have to understand some of the history to get what connects people.Thanissara: Totally. I think the trauma is such a splitting that you’re sort of like lost beings finding each other in this space. Perhaps you don’t consciously understand exactly. It’s a dynamic of consequence. It’s the consequences of what’s gone before, but you haven’t yet got the story or the history, or it hasn’t landed in narrative to help us understand why people get drawn, and then what we’re living through. And I think that’s where the Dharma really is the break point. It starts to give choice in not having to just repeat the trauma pattern, or being that disassociated split where empire leaves people, but begins to help — in some ways ironically, I know we’re going beyond individualism to collective — but there is an individuated journey out of the historic pattern. That is part of what helps us then to start seeing that patterning in the collective, which is a sort of movement of compassion. We’re reactive, but underneath we’re all working as a result of consequence of things said way before our understanding of them, really.Vince Horn: It feels like there’s some good news in what you just shared around individuation. It seems to mean we’re collecting some agency in the process. We’re not just at the whims of conditions, but we have some influence, even if it’s small.Thanissara: Exactly. I think that was a big thing for me to realize — this space between reactivity and response. I know it’s an old hat and slightly tired languaging. But it was a very important insight for me when I first began to — a moment. In a monastic life, you’re pushed into a corner, where it activates your deepest patternings. And Ajahn Chah would have this: when you can’t go up or down, you can’t move, then the practice begins. Because you have to find a whole other place from, you know, fight, flight, freeze, fawn, all these patternings. And for me, that was a process of such intensity and such a strong container. In some way I would relate that to the larger dismemberment that we’re going through now, and intensity, in the collective global sphere. We’re reacting from all these old patterns and traumas, and none of them are really where we need to go. So there’s a pressure, like in a monastery, where at some point you have to make a shift from the old patterning to an agency, as you said. That’s the word. Self-reflective agency and choice. And that is the break point, I think. That is the point where we have that almost evolutionary space we can move into. So the intensity then serves some sort of purpose. Not that — if it’s just unconsciously inflicted, then that’s not kind. But in a way, it’s a choice that we’ve made, I guess. To put yourself in a practice situation or monastery, or to be conscious in the midst of what’s happening and not just hide, then you’re putting oneself in a great state of intensity. Without easy solutions. And so that builds and pushes, and something in us alchemically has to — like a diamond under pressure has to not crack, but somehow form that diamond mind. So that’s something I think is hopeful. But we don’t always know that’s happening until it’s sort of happened.Vince Horn: Like, in the moment of being turned into a diamond, it’s not like, “Oh, I know what’s happening, and it feels great.”Thanissara: No, it’s awful. How can I get out of it?Vince Horn: Yes, how can I escape? It seems interesting, the description you’re sharing of being in a monastic environment where you don’t have anywhere to go. And I’m just thinking about my experience of the insight tradition, the modern tradition of going in and out of retreat. Having maybe a local community, maybe not. It doesn’t feel like that frame really can get me to be in the middle of it without having to leave. It doesn’t ask enough of me to do that. So I wonder, as modern practitioners, where we’ve sort of made individualism — at least in the US and most Western cultures — like we’ve made that the key thing, that whatever you choose to do is the most important thing. How do we square that with what’s needed right now, which doesn’t seem like it’s just to give people the choice to do whatever they feel like, which is usually just then picking the status quo.Thanissara: Yeah, I think that’s a very deep question. I think in part that individuation is a deep reaction to feeling that there wasn’t any —Vince Horn: Right.Thanissara: which was true at a certain place, especially perhaps for first-generation practitioners coming out of the trauma of the wars, century war, brutal, and everything else that went on, civil rights, all of those things. And then into the mechanized world of the 1950s, where you’re a cog in this growing capitalist machine, and suddenly breaking out and having these insights that were transcendent, mostly through psychedelics or various means. But I feel the shadow side of that is — the thing I appreciate, to put it another way, is that there’s a depth that you can tap into with the monastic life. It had a lot of difficulties and faults and challenges in it, but mostly I think because it’s very patriarchal, and that’s complex in itself. But the great gift was having to learn a whole deeper level of resource than shifting the furniture around to have the space that you feel you’re comfortable in, or the language or the narrative. And so being unable to do that, there’s a very, very deep releasing. It’s like a death. It’s literally a training, and Dharma is really a willingness to die, in the best spiritual traditions that actually take on that space. And it’s complex, because there’s a lot of psychology that can happen in that moment that actually can break people down or can be abusive. I don’t want to make this super reductive, but fundamentally I think there’s a big piece that has sometimes gotten missed in this new Dharma —Vince Horn: Right.Thanissara: which is a surrender or humility, a hanging at the space that’s most difficult to hang, until something can open beyond the self really.Vince Horn: So the benefit of being in a traditional culture or practice environment when you’re going through that is you don’t have a choice. But that’s also the downside. You don’t have any freedom, presumably, unless you want to be kicked out of the group.Thanissara: Yeah. It has its downsides, because it becomes then just a one-gear strategy. You just let whatever it is let go. But then there’s also holding, picking up. And so we see that transplanted into the insight world when we meet something like Gaza. This isn’t about just letting go. It’s about discernment. It isn’t about everything’s equal and it’s suffering and it’s samsara. It’s saying we have responsibility and we have discernment, and this is horrific. And therefore we have, as the Buddha did himself, the agency to shift and challenge the status quo when harm is being done, and that is our responsibility. And I think that can so easily get erased with this passivity of the language of, you know, just let go and it’s just samsara. Which is true. I love this expression of Ajahn Chah: “True but not right. Right but not true.”Vince Horn: Okay, that’s cool. I’ve never heard that line before. That’s a good one. I’ll be chewing on that. I’m curious too, Thanissara. I run into — around talking about things like Dharma and Empire — there’s a whole group of folks that I run into who are very well-educated. They’ve been on some kind of path of individuation. They’ve had some practice, but they just don’t see the argument that we are living in an empire, like the American empire, for instance. And it’s challenging sometimes to try to support people in seeing the ways in which our life is downstream of these other structures and histories. I’m wondering, how do you work with that when you’re teaching on these things? Do you run into that kind of resistance, of not being able or willing to see the interdependent nature of things?Thanissara: Well, yeah, of course. I mean, it’s not that I’ve been thinking this all the way along or had the language for it all the way along. You feel the impacts, and sometimes it takes a long time to build the narrative.Vince Horn: Good point.Thanissara: But I think that part of the complexity is Buddhism has historically always, in terms of a power system — whether it’s a monarchy or the state — it’s always been in some, even the Buddha himself, in some level of alliance with that power, the political or military power, to survive. So it’s left it in a very — it’s not a straight-out liberationally revolutionary movement, say, as you might see some more left-wing liberation theologies coming out of South America, or the civil rights. You can call on that, that the Christ was a liberatory revolutionary in many ways. The Buddha was too, but he also aligned, came from power. And so there is this historic thread of the Dharma. And often it’s not just about finances, but it is. But it’s about placement and acceptance in the culture. And so you see a lot of — it’s like I thought with the mindfulness movement, as it started to sometimes be reduced to: how do you make it in the capitalist system without challenging the system itself.Vince Horn: Right.Thanissara: And there’s still a lot of that. And really, for me, the thing that really blew open the languaging around empire was Gaza. Because Gaza revealed everything. It revealed the absolute craven moral bankruptcy of all of these myths of the US, of even Israel — the most moral army, and the forever victim. They’re all part of the logic of empire. They’re all part of the narrative of empire. So I think we’re in this incredible moment where the veils just keep being pulled away. And so we’re screaming about someone like Trump, who of course — everything that’s going on is dreadful, but we’re just seeing what it’s always been, in a way.Vince Horn: Yeah. That became very clear to me, that Trump is in some sense like US foreign policy for the last several decades come home to roost. This is how we’ve been. And you’d only know that if you know people that are negatively impacted, or you’ve studied the history.Thanissara: Right.Vince Horn: And that’s not many people.Thanissara: Studied the history. No, that is actually a problem. The sort of dumbing down. But, you know, if you take that logic, then at some point when you see where empire is taking us — into normalizing genocide, normalizing a culture of —Vince Horn: Ecocide.Thanissara: Well, ecocide and mass extinction, and replacement with AI robotics. I know this is a very complex subject, but not really. The human — and life itself, nature, the erasure, the ICE, the violence, the domination, all of this, fascism. If you see all of that, of where the last gasp of this system is, then what’s the Dharma for at this point?Vince Horn: Yeah.Thanissara: You know, this isn’t —Vince Horn: To keep a smile plastered on our face while everything goes down, I think.Thanissara: Right. While everything goes — well, but the thing is, it’s getting more and more impactful for everyone. I’m sitting here literally sweating buckets, because this is our new climate. You think we’re going to survive this if a few more degrees, more continuum — it becomes really hard. So we’re all in this stew, even those that think that they can build their bunkers.Vince Horn: Literally or metaphorically, yeah. I think the way I’m relating to what you’re sharing is, I’m looking at this from the internal journey process view of — oh, I’ve actually worked with this conditioning that you’re describing. I know it firsthand. I know the logic of turning toward the imperial status quo, because it’s safe. There’s a sense of being able to be protected. For me, having come up in a family where some of my family members were obviously not safe, and they were being actively persecuted, especially after 9/11, being safe made a lot of sense. Trying to stay safe, not sticking out. I understand that logic. There’s the survival logic there. And part of the reason I was able to do that is because I could pass as being part of the dominant culture. People look at me and they don’t see a Palestinian, so I can — unless they’re Arab, and then they do see. But there’s that sense of, what is the wisdom of hiding? It makes sense on a personal level, like your dad trying to get out of the tenements, trying to find some better situation, not knowing that the better situation for him is still causing suffering for others, perhaps.Thanissara: Right. He became co-opted in the empire. And as working class, poor people, indigenous-line worlds have consistently been fighting for the British, as you’ve read at the table. I mean, there are levels of privilege that I think you have more responsibility — in a culture where for some it is more dangerous to stand out. Maybe they’re brave to do it, but they’ve been more historically targeted. So I think there is a personal reckoning. I feel that very much of the work in South Africa for nearly three decades post-apartheid. And it was very conscious for me — I didn’t want to take payment. I felt it was a deep act of reparation, actually, to have been gifted pretty much pristine white land, to get it to a place where it could be returned to a young, diverse group that could run the center. Or to help start projects that can help women in rural areas, deep rural African areas, become trainers and supporters in their own community when they were impacted by the AIDS pandemic. So I just felt historic responsibility. It’s not that I’m consciously going, I’m doing this because of that, but it’s there. It’s wedded in, as a white person having had a lot of privileges.Vince Horn: Right. I think that’s the hard part for so many people — acknowledging not just that I have privileges, but that those privileges came at the cost of so many others and their opportunities. Being able to open to that truth, and the shame that comes with that, and the guilt that can be present. It’s like, oh, that’s overwhelming. I don’t want to go there. I’ll just watch some more Netflix or whatever. Maybe my meditation retreat will help.Thanissara: Well, I don’t think we have to flagellate ourselves. But for me — it’s not that I didn’t feel a lot of white guilt. It was a very sort of shadow there, moving through the post-apartheid world of South Africa. And in many other situations. But it’s like a karmic reckoning. It’s just a measured contemplation for me of, what’s the deep karma here that I’m responding to? It’s not necessarily personal. It may be ancestral. I don’t even know who did what, but it’s just come to me on my plate. And it’s personal and beyond. Palestine, when I heard about my father, connected a lot of dots for me. It would anyway, because it’s just so unjust, so profoundly horrific, what’s been happening — not just in Gaza, but for so long. But it was connecting to say, oh, there is karma. That’s pretty close. I think it’s just the way the Buddhist worldview has integrated into my understanding over a long period of time.Vince Horn: And that’s a distinctly different view than I sometimes hear from the more — I guess I’d call it the more neoliberal Buddhist spaces, where there’s a lot of focus on social issues and social justice. And Mushim, who’s also here, we’re going to talk about this in a few weeks more directly. It does seem to sidestep the whole issue of class, which is so much at the core of what empire is. It’s like some people are benefiting from these mechanisms, and that benefit is going up to the top of a very small class of folks, and that seems to be how the capitalist empire of America works — it’s built on top of the bone-breaking work of so many people who then feel ashamed, like it’s their fault that they’re not doing better. Which is the kind of twisted logic that keeps that going.Thanissara: Yeah, no, it’s very — it’s brutal in the US, actually. This feels to me like there are very few safety nets or softening. And there’s deep resentment that the working class have been so shafted. With all of their jobs being sent overseas, and the complete collapse of worth and placement. And I think particularly for men, this has been very — in those traditional spaces — it’s given rise to a lot of toxic masculinity. And all of it has been driven by this brutal capitalist profit machinery, to the point where this billionaire class are extremely dangerous to humanity. They’re extremely dangerous. With the wipe of a pen — I was just reading from The Lancet that Musk’s closing down of all of that American aid that was going — we used it a lot, PEPFAR funding for the AIDS pandemic, the medical. It was very important for a lot of the projects. And people die. They’re saying a huge amount of people, 40 million or something, are going to die, as one billionaire just goes, “Ugh, we just get rid of this.” No collective consideration, no sense of that karma. What do we owe? What does he, as a white South African, owe? And his father extracted the mines. So all of this is lacking wisdom, lacking depth, lacking consideration. And it isn’t necessarily the case that — I mean, we have that billionaire class, but in the UK system of the upper classes, they were also brutalized in some ways. And I’m not feeling particularly sorry, but the boarding school systems — they’re emotionally, deliberately, emotionally stunted, so they could go out and perpetuate this cold empire. And do the business without feeling it very much. So there’s a lot of damage on that level. And you see it in the elite class, the political class of Britain. You see a lot of this emotional stunting. They can’t relate, they can’t feel, and they’re dangerous. So I think all of these things — and everyone is subject to suffering, wherever they are. But unless we understand the internal causes of that, then there’s always a sense we’re compensated by material gain. This is one of the fundamental illusions that we’re under in this capitalist system. So all of this I really think we should be talking about in the Dharma scene, and with a more revolutionary spirit. Because it’s not just going to be a change of policy here and there. There’s such a deep level of systemic shift that has to — and psychological, and of consciousness, underwritten by an understanding of: we’re all in one entangled reality. So it’s a job, I think, of Dharma folks to help narrate that, and help bridge and find ways through, and help illuminate the task at hand, at depth, not just at policy level.Vince Horn: Thank you. Thanks for that lion’s roar. Thanissara, is this a good time to open it up for other folks’ comments, questions? We’ve got about 12 minutes here. If there’s anything else you want to share before we do that.Thanissara: No, no. I don’t think I should, sorry. I’ve been on my high horse.Vince Horn: Well, you know, the lion’s roar — maybe there’s a high horse that the lion sits on sometimes. But I hear a lot of wisdom in what you just shared, and I appreciate it.Join Us Live Next Week:If telling the truth can cost everything, what does our silence cost? Vince Fakhoury Horn and Daniel Klein speak about complicity, self-betrayal, and the quiet we mistake for peace. Get full access to Buddhist Geeks at www.buddhistgeeks.org/subscribe

In “The Most Slept-On Meditation Object,” Vince Horn introduces the kasina — the visual concentration object that dominated Early Buddhist practice yet is barely used today — and lays out a 12-week curriculum that maps color & elemental kasinas onto the full arc of the eight jhānas, and then finishes with the technodelic practice of breath kasina. Interested in the topic?Sign-up for free the KASINA web applicationor join us for a live training in the Pragmatic Dharma Sangha💬 TranscriptVince Horn: So welcome to Kasina. The backdrop for this practice, as you all know — this is really meant to be a concentration-based practice. So when I zoom back out to kind of the bigger picture for me, looking at all the different ways we could meditate, this is one technique that is part of the approach that I would just simply call concentration.And concentration for me is the practice of bringing attention to a single point, the result of which is unification. We become one with the point of focus. We become fused or merged, you could say, with the object. Of course, there’s a gradual process by which that happens. It’s not that we instantly merge, although sometimes that can happen.And the kasina in this case is a visual orb or a circle. It is literally a visual point. It literally translates — the word — into English as All, Whole, or Complete. That’s the meaning of the term kasina. And it occupies a really important place in the Early Buddhist tradition.It’s listed in the Visuddhimagga, which is an important commentary, a commentarial text that was written a thousand years after the time of the Buddha, but is kind of like a super hardcore nerdy meditation manual. In that manual, it lists 40 different meditation objects that you can use to train your concentration, and to go deep in concentration. And a full quarter of these 40 are these visual kasina objects.So it’s literally the most common object you’d see in the Early Buddhist tradition. And yet you’ll notice in modern times, it’s one of the least commonly used. So that’s quite interesting. I think because of that, kasinas are one of the most slept-on meditation objects in modernity. We’re somehow not tapping into the tremendous power of using the visual processing systems that we all are born with, which actually dominate our nervous system.Looking into this, researching this, I found out 30 to 40% of the brain’s cortex is wired for vision. Compare that to hearing, which is only 3 to 5%. We are deeply visual beings. Under typical conditions, actually, vision uses 5 to 10 times more bandwidth than touch, which is the second most bandwidth-intensive sense.Neurobiologically, we are actually deeply wired to see. And also from a neurobiological perspective, circular orbs make really good concentration objects, and there seem to be a few reasons for this that I’ve been able to kind of detect.One is there’s a really similar parallel between our eyes and the shape of our eyes and the shape of the kasina. Your retina is basically circular, and lenses in our eyes focus light in concentric rings, so the round shape of the kasina maps neatly onto the geometry of our eyes.And like I said earlier, so much of our brain is actually wired for visual processing, and the early visual neurons are tuned to detect edges and symmetries. In the visual processing, that’s among the first things that happen — we detect edges and symmetries. Circles, of course, are pure symmetry, so there are no sudden directional shifts when you’re looking at a circle. The signal is much more clean and predictable. This is another reason I think the kasina is such a powerful object.We also have to consider how attention — human attention — has evolved. Here, smooth, continuous boundaries tend to stand out against jagged, natural edges. Think rocks, branches, trees.So if you see things like berries or fruits or faces, the Sun, the Moon — all of these natural objects that humans have been evolving with — we evolutionarily can reward these things with quick detection, because they’re important for our survival.And then finally, I just note that when you’re resting your attention on a circle, there’s no privileged starting point.There’s no point at which your attention can look and be like, “Oh, that’s the point that you start with.” So your eyes don’t keep darting to all the angles and ends. Actually, they kind of do. I’ll share from my own experience: I’ve noticed, as I rest my attention in the kasina, if you get focused, you can actually start to see the ways your eyes are constantly, very rapidly looking for edges.And you’ll see, actually, in the circle — this is my experience — you’ll see in the circle all of these sort of edges at the very edge of the circle constantly being re-perceptualized. But because there isn’t any privileged edge to stay with, your mind can kind of rest more in the circle itself, so it’s easier to hold in meditation.So these are some of the reasons I think the kasina is a really natural object to focus on, and that we are, in a sense, hardwired to be able to. I suspect that’s why in early Buddhism, 10 of the 40 objects were kasinas. And I suspect also, based on what you all have shared and just kind of thinking more deeply about this, in some ways, maybe this is why kasina isn’t the most popular form of meditation, because it potentially is too effective, right?If you have an experience where suddenly things get really intense or trippy, like you’re tripping on psychedelics, you might be like, “Oh, whoa, wait a second. Let me chill for a minute. I’ve got to go to work in the morning.” “I’ve got to go on a date tonight,” or whatever. “I’ve got to take care of the kids, take care of dinner.”Yeah, that actually could be quite disruptive. If you’re a meditator or monk living a thousand years ago in a monastery and everyone around you is just constantly tripping out on things, it makes sense. But in the modern world perhaps, it’s a little bit disruptive to get into such deep concentration states so rapidly, or maybe we just don’t have a reference point for it with other objects of concentration, so it’s maybe a little scary.I could totally see that. So just want to kinda honor the reality of that.The way I want to approach this training together in kasina — we have 12 weeks from here, and I’ve kinda laid out the kasina training in a very specific kind of curriculum. The first eight weeks will just be focused on working with visual kasina, and each week we’re going to move between different kasinas.We’re going to try a different object. Now, that doesn’t mean that I’m suggesting that you all should be following along with your own personal practice with that kasina, although if you do that, you’ll probably get some benefits. You’re very welcome to engage with this content in whatever way seems appropriate to your practice, just as a reminder.I know you’ll do that anyway, but you don’t have to make this your primary practice while you’re doing it if something else is primary. But of course, the more you engage with the practice, the more you’ll learn.In the first four weeks, I want to focus just on the arc called the Rūpa Jhāna arc, so focusing on the first four jhānas. So each week we’ll both cover a different kasina — in the first four weeks, we’ll focus actually on the color kasinas, just simple visual orbs that are made of a solid color. We’ll start with Red in the first jhāna, then we’ll move to Yellow in the second jhāna, Blue in the third jhāna, and White in the fourth jhāna.And I have some reasonings for that. I think that’s kind of the best matchup that one can make between the actual colors and what they evoke, according to tradition and my experience, and the qualities of each of these jhānas. So we’ll both be exploring the jhānas as we go along, exploring these progressively more subtle states of meditative absorption, while also exploring different kasina objects that seem to pair nicely with each jhāna.In the second four-week chunk, you could say, of the training, we’ll shift toward what are called elemental kasinas. Some of you mentioned practicing with a candle flame, the classic fire kasina. Here we’ll turn toward using elements to help us access what are called the arūpa jhānas, the formless jhānas, the fifth, sixth, seventh, and eighth jhānas.So week 5, we’ll focus on the earth kasina and use that to scaffold our way into infinite space. What? Earth and infinite space? Those seem like opposites. Yeah, in a way they are, but there’s longstanding tradition in — actually, multiple practice traditions I’m aware of — where you can use the earth element to help you get connected more with space.In this case, we’ll work on sort of expanding the earth element to include all of space, and then removing the earth element. And what’s left when you remove the earth? Space.With week six, we’ll shift toward the water kasina, and we’ll use the reflective quality of water as a way to explore the jhāna of infinite consciousness, which is very similar in terms of the mirroring, the containing everything without being anything, the fluidity of consciousness, the fluidity of water.In the seventh week, we’ll shift to the fire kasina, and explore the jhāna of nothingness. Fire consumes, turns everything into formlessness, you could say. And then finally, in the eighth week, we’ll focus on the air kasina, but we’ll use an interesting kind of Tibetan Dzogchen-inspired imagery, which is the rainbow on blue sky to explore the kasina of neither perception nor non-perception.Air is the most subtle element. As you know, it’s invisible, known only through its effects, and the rainbow, something perceived but not there, a pure perceptual event with no location or substance, neither perceived nor not perceived.That is the kind of pattern that I’m proposing that we follow for the first eight weeks, and then in the last four weeks, which is completely optional if you’d like, this will require a little bit of an additional investment on your part if you want to do the last four weeks, because for the last four weeks, we’ll be focusing on what I call the Breath Kasina. And the Breath Kasina uses — or it requires, actually — a wireless respiration belt. This is the one I’ve used to design the breath kasina. And we’ll use the kasina.app, which is a web application developed over the last couple years as an aid, both in the visual kasina section.If you’d like a digital kasina object, you could absolutely use it. If you want to make your own analog kasina, of course, you can do that as well. That’s going to be completely fine and maybe preferable for some. But you’ll need the digital version to do the breath kasina practice, because what the breath kasina is, is it’s a way of linking together a visual circular orb and your real-time breath.As you breathe in, the orb expands. As you breathe out, the orb contracts. I developed the idea for this a long time ago because I was struggling to integrate my experience with visual kasina practice and somatic breathwork. I felt like they were bringing me in almost opposite directions. It felt like a real problem.So in my mind, I was like, well, if I could just visually see the kasina and have it be linked with my breath, I could somehow merge my awareness of the two into a singular somato-visual meditation object. That only became possible for me to actually build as AI has gotten better, and I’ve been able to use those tools to actually take this concept and make it reality.And it turns out it works extremely well. So for the last four weeks, we’ll be focused on the breath kasina. Again, for those that would like to purchase a respiration belt and follow along. If you’re not interested in doing that or if you’re not feeling the resonance with it, totally understandable, totally okay.But in the last four weeks, what we’ll be doing is basically focusing on some different things that I’ve learned about breath kasina, different practices I found helpful there, some foundational ideas and also talking about some more advanced integration, because we’re really talking at this point with the breath kasina about advanced practice of kind of weaving together, stitching together different sensory experiences into a bigger whole, which is more complex and more integrated.Interested in the topic?Sign-up for free the KASINA web applicationor join us for a live training in the Pragmatic Dharma Sangha Get full access to Buddhist Geeks at www.buddhistgeeks.org/subscribe

In Focusing on the Fire Kasina Vince Fakhoury Horn introduces the Fire Kasina meditation practice, emphasizing the primacy of concentration and the recursive process of learning through focused attention on a candle flame.Interested in the topic?Sign-up for free the KASINA web application or join us for a live training in the Pragmatic Dharma Sangha💬 TranscriptVince: All right, so today we’re going to be diving into the practice of the Fire Kasina, and I’m excited to share this with you in part because it seems like it was a really important part of my own teacher’s practice—my first meditation teacher, Daniel Ingram. When I was reading his book for the first time, I remember him talking about how he went on retreat and worked with the candle flame at the end of a long vipassana retreat.Later on, that story was shared again in the beginning of a book called The Fire Kasina, which I’d recommend. It was a conversation—a dialogical book—between him and Shannon Stein, an experienced meditator who was talking to Daniel during her own replication of his long Fire Kasina retreat practice. It gives some great instructions in that book—a good overview of the practice and the kind of stages that one can go through. Not universal, perhaps, but fairly common. It also gives some really good, basic, practical pointers on how to do concentration practice.And this is one of the two frames that I’d like to share today in exploring the Fire Kasina, because I think it’s useful. I’m going to start here and then loop back around, because it’s so important that it bears returning to.So here’s what Daniel said in The Fire Kasina book to Shannon, as she asked for basic instructions on how to do the Fire Kasina. He said, “Concentration on what is happening is more important than what is happening.”What does that mean? It seems pretty simple in a way, but it’s deceptively simple, because we just seem to keep forgetting this important point when we do the practice.So what does it mean to me? “Concentration on what is happening” means that what we’re focusing on is more important than whatever is happening there.So if we’re focusing on our breath—the classic meditation object—then whatever’s happening with the breath is what’s happening. We could think, “Oh, I wish my breath were really soft and gentle,” or, “I wish my breath had stopped, because I heard that when it stops, that’s a good sign of concentration.”Okay, cool—but what is actually happening? Because what might be happening is you might be thinking about your breath instead of noticing your breath. This is the simple way we get lost in concepts about what’s happening instead of being with our meditation subject.So: concentration on what is happening is more important than whatever’s happening. That’s the most important thing to remember.What does that mean in terms of Fire Kasina? Here, I think it’s really useful to consider that whatever you’re seeing is what you’re seeing. You may be looking at a candle flame, and you may see all kinds of things—eyes open or eyes closed.In the guided practice to come, I’ll offer instructions for both. When that’s happening, it’s important to just remember: whatever you’re seeing is what you’re seeing. That’s what’s happening. It might be really clear and vivid, which makes it easy to see. Other times it might be unclear, murky, dull, or hazy—and that’s what’s happening. That’s what you’re seeing. Concentration on what’s happening is more important than what’s happening.The other thing that’s useful to remember in this practice is something John Vervaeke, the professor from Toronto, said: “Evolution is revolution with change.” Evolution is a process where we take something that we go through again and again—a recursive process—and something changes in the recursion.With learning and doing a practice like this, what’s the recursion? It’s the concentration feedback loop. It’s the loop we go through every time we work on strengthening our concentration. We select an object and engage with it—in this case, the candle flame. Then at some point, our mind fragments or we get distracted and lose clarity around what’s happening. We have to recognize that, remember to return, and we do that—we come back.That’s the basic feedback loop: we engage with an object, we get distracted or fragmented, we recognize that’s happened, we recollect, and we return all of ourselves back to the meditation subject. In this case, back to the candle flame. If you’re working with the afterimage and get lost with eyes closed, you can always return, open your eyes, and look at the candle flame again. That’s one way to do it.“Evolution is revolution with change.” As we go through this learning loop many times, even if it’s subtle fragmentation and subtle returning, we’re learning in each loop. Each time, we have an opportunity to understand what’s happening in the process.“Oh wow, every time I do this after lunch, it’s harder.” Okay—then be more patient with yourself. That’s part of the limitation of being human. Or, “I keep noticing this subtle recurring pattern.” Great, there’s something to pay attention to.Each time we do the practice, we’re learning—and that’s evolution. Because to me, I don’t really know what the difference is, from the point of view of being a person. Evolution is just learning how to be better in this situation—with whoever I’m with and whatever’s happening, even if it’s just with a candle flame.Here, we’re learning to be with the candle flame. To focus. To learn through what happens—what grabs our attention, what it’s like to let go, and what it’s like to return.Interested in the topic?Sign-up for free the KASINA web application or join us for a live training in the Pragmatic Dharma Sangha Get full access to Buddhist Geeks at www.buddhistgeeks.org/subscribe

In Access Concentration and the Kasina, Vince Fakhoury Horn explains how kasina meditation cultivates stable attention by letting a visual object fill awareness until it naturally enters the foreground of experience into a state known as access concentration.Interested in the topic?Sign-up for free the KASINA web application or join us for a live training in the Pragmatic Dharma Sangha💬 TranscriptVince: There is this really important idea in the Buddhist meditative tradition. It doesn’t come online until, I don’t know, a thousand years into the Buddhist tradition’s evolution, but it’s still an important concept today, which is the idea of Access Concentration.And the idea of “Access” simply means that when we get into the state, we then have access to the jhānas. That’s why it’s called Access Concentration. But it’s a little weird and abstract. So for me, I simplify my own definition of what this means. For me, it’s very simple: it’s when the meditation object—the thing you’re focusing on—moves into the foreground of your experience, and distractions and other things that are pulling you from that move into the background.So it’s a flip—a foreground-background flip of attention. And it doesn’t mean that there aren’t other things that grab your attention. It doesn’t mean that you can’t get lost. Of course, you can fall out of the state; something else can grab your attention and have most of it.But the basic idea here, with the kasina—since we’re using a visual orb as our focal point—is that when we’re in Access Concentration, it means the kasina has most of our attention. Of course, it’s not always easy to know when it has most of your attention, but you can just get a feel for it when you work with the kasina. When does it feel like most of your attention—if you have 100% of your attention available—is in the kasina, is present there in the orb, and less than 50% is elsewhere: in your body, with the surrounding environment, with thoughts and feelings that are coming up that don’t have to do with the kasina?If you’ve got at least 50% of your attention on the kasina, then you’re in Access Concentration. And it feels different because it’s, again, foregrounded—it’s got the main position in your attention. Foreground and background is, of course, a visual analogy, and here it really works well talking about the kasina, because it’s a visual object.What does it mean for a visual object to be in the foreground of your experience? It doesn’t necessarily mean that it grows and grows until it visually takes up more than 50% of your visual experience—although that’s one possible way it could look. It’s not just about the percentage of your visual experience the kasina takes up; it’s the percentage of your attention that it fills up.Something very small can fill up our entire attentional field. Usually in meditation, the first object that’s taught in most traditions, I’ve noticed, is focus on the breath at the nostrils. That’s a small point of attention—it’s very small if you think about it, especially compared to a bigger circle. And still, if we focus on something, if we bring our attention to it, it fills up our attention.If you think about it, subject and object in concentration practices—the subject is the one who’s paying attention, the object is the thing we’re paying attention to. What happens as you pay more attention to something? Your attention gets closer to the object, right? That’s how we describe it. Our attention actually gets closer—even if we don’t move, our body doesn’t move, our attention can actually zoom in on things. It can zoom in and zoom out with attention, and when we get really interested in something, we zoom in on it and often exclude everything that’s not that.So here, that’s what’s happening with the kasina. The kasina object doesn’t necessarily have to change for it to fill our attentional field. It doesn’t have to be big; it could be small. We’re going to actually work with a meditation soon here where we just find the sweet spot: how big does the kasina need to be in relation to me—the subject, the one that’s paying attention to it? What is the sweet spot in terms of the size of the kasina? What is the right size? We’re going to explore that in a guided meditation.And then we’re also going to look at what’s the sweet spot in terms of how we’re attending to the kasina. There’s this whole notion in Buddhist meditation of “not too tight, not too loose.” I’m sure you’ve heard that story—the Buddha talking to the lute stringer, and the lute stringer explaining, “You don’t want it too tight, you don’t want it too loose.” And the Buddha’s like, “Yeah, just like meditation.”So here, focus too on how you focus in a way that’s not too tight, not too loose when it comes to a visual object. Fortunately for us, we have lots of experience with this, being modern people. We already know what it’s like to focus too much on screens or to strain on what we’re focusing on when it comes to visual things. So we’ll use that knowledge to help us focus in a different way on the kasina.We’ll look for the experience of Access Concentration, even if it’s just temporary—even if it just happens for a moment. One of the things I appreciate about Access Concentration is it does feel like a shift, especially if you haven’t experienced it regularly or you haven’t experienced it with that particular meditation object.Say you’re used to getting into Access Concentration to do your work or to do other things, but you haven’t necessarily done it with a blue hovering orb. And then you have the experience—you’re like, “Oh, wow, that’s cool. I can just focus on this orb, and that can become the most interesting thing in my experience,” even though from an objective standpoint it’s not that interesting. It’s just a blue circle. But actually, yeah, when I start to look at it, it becomes more than that. It actually seems now like it’s a three-dimensional orb. It’s not just a circle—it’s got dimensionality to it, and it’s luminescent, and it’s glowing, and it even has a little bit of a sense of motion.Oh wow, this is really interesting. What is this? We’ll get deeper into the experience of what the kasina’s like when we gain Access Concentration.Interested in the topic?Sign-up for free the KASINA web application or join us for a live training in the Pragmatic Dharma Sangha Get full access to Buddhist Geeks at www.buddhistgeeks.org/subscribe

In “Metta & Compassion Vibes,” Emily Horn explores the crucial difference between befriending difficulty through metta and the deeper, boundary-dissolving willingness of compassion to actually meet suffering — and why that meeting sometimes sounds like a fierce and loving no.☸️ The Ten PāramīsYou’re invited. to join Emily Horn in a practical exploration of The Ten Pāramīs: Ten Trainings for a Liberated Life this April.Become a member of the Pragmatic Dharma Sangha, and gain access to both live cohorts. Or you can join the kick-off session, on either of these dates, to see if it’s a good fit: * 📅 Wednesday, April 22nd @ 12pm ET* 📅 Thursday, April 23rd @ 5pm ET 💬 TranscriptEmily: Sometimes when I sense into compassion, one of the things that comes up for me is this all-or-nothing kind of sense — where it is like compassion is here or it is not here — this binary kind of experience. All or nothing. I just want to invite that if it is here for us, it is like where I can have compassion for that person, but I cannot have it for myself.That is another kind of all or nothing. So there are these different kinds of barriers — we could call them barriers to compassion — that start to arise when we incline. And we have been working with loving kindness. Metta, metta, metta, metta. So perhaps sense into inclining to metta for a moment.Metta. Metta, this sense of befriending. And I have been sensing into that quality of befriending. It is a very difficult world. Humans are being everything on the spectrum to each other at this moment. There is a lot of cruelty.And there is a lot of love.So when I sense into metta, there is this sense of, okay, befriending even the cruelty. And that is a big ask. That is a big ask. And what does that even look like? Metta is a sense and a vibe — it is not a prescription for any kind of action, right, first of all. Now where compassion comes in for me, and where that inclination is important, is in the world and in our lives and in our relationships, and even with ourselves. We can have a sense of befriending, like welcoming. But then for me, it can get like, okay, I can befriend and welcome, but I am going to keep it over there. All right, I am going to keep it over there. I am going to keep you over there. I am even going to kind of see this sense of anger or agitation in myself, and I am going to kind of witness it. It is still going to kind of be over there in my experience — in here, over there.Now as metta grows, that sense of boundary can dissolve. But here is where I want to bring in compassion, because to me, when I incline to compassion, you can sense into this. May compassion arise. There is this sense of boundary shift, so that whatever is painful, that has been — in the moment — befriended enough, just befriended enough to start to sense into compassion. Compassion is going to require me in a lot of ways to merge with that sense of pain, difficulty, even if it is just for a moment. There is a sense of meeting it, right?With compassion, we meet suffering. And in some ways that sense of who is it that is really meeting it — we might not recognize it in the moment if it arises. Compassion in itself is a boundless state. It is not going to have a sense of boundary.We might not recognize that until after. Okay? We might explore compassion in a way that requires us to remember with mindfulness what it was like to experience it. But compassion requires me to meet the suffering, whether it is arising internally, externally, and then sometimes it will shift where it is like both internal and external. All right.These are the concepts that start to be used to describe this energetic — remember the vibe that we are sensing into as we explore these states. It is like, what is the vibe that comes with it? In the Pali language: metta, compassion, loving kindness. So the sense of befriending, and then this willingness — compassion asks us to meet it. To meet the suffering.Now, it might be helpful to just remember: when we say suffering, what is it that we mean? What do I mean by suffering? All right, what is this? And there is so much of it, so many different flavors of it. With compassion, there is this genuine sense of — there is a willingness to see it. To meet it. Then even if it is conscious or not, a movement towards the alleviation of it. And that is really important. It is like the alleviation of it. And the alleviation of it might be in the form of a no. All right. So compassion might lead us into the action of no — no, we are not going to keep doing this because it keeps adding onto the suffering.All right. Logically, sometimes it is a very simple thing to see. It is like, no, we are not going to hit people, because that hurts. And then what happens? That sense of compassion leads me into the alleviation of it. Sometimes this gets confused with empathy and I want to kind of put a sticky note on that.What is the difference between empathy and compassion? Empathy — we human beings are very, whether or not we want to see this or even are attuned to seeing this, we are very connected biologically, neurologically. So empathy is that ability to sense other people’s feelings, to sense what is going on as a collective.And yet empathy, if we are not aware of it and we do not sense it and know it as empathy, then sometimes we get confused and think it is compassion. But here is one of the differences: empathy can make us tired, right? Compassion — believe it or not — compassion is a boundless, energetic state. Right?Firefighters, people that rescue for a living — they talk about running into burning buildings without even thinking. All right, it is like this natural kind of — for them, natural kind of response to run towards, to try to alleviate the suffering. And they might not even realize it is compassion in that moment, right?Because the sense of boundaries dissolves. That is one of the ways that it gets confusing. It is because compassion arises, there is not this sense of me and you. And yet it is really difficult sometimes to sense into where that sense of blocking happens when we start to expand into the universal mind state, heart state of it. I can sense into certain kinds of difficult people where it is like, no, not them. And for me, what is really supportive is to say, okay, yeah, with metta — metta is a boundless state as well. Everything is held in it. And with compassion there is that sense of alleviation of suffering that also can hold a no. So we can — in some ways our cognitive mind might have to be reprogrammed a little bit as to what we think this has to look like, because a lot of times that is where the confusion comes in.There can be a fierce quality of compassion that can still hold everything in the universe and at the same time say, okay, in this human, personal world, we are going to stand for the embodiment of love and say no to that which is not right, to that which is not. And that can look a lot of different ways.And we are seeing that more and more and more. We are seeing more and more of that no, collectively, against the kind of cruelty that compassion asks us to meet. And it is a really, really big ask.One of the challenges with compassion — just in the heart states in general — and remember, part of the way this is traditionally laid out in the Buddhist framework, especially with the metta practices and the insight meditation tradition, it is like we start with loving kindness to kind of get that sense and get our sea legs with befriending even some of the difficulty that we do not even want to in ourselves. We kind of get our sea legs, and then we are like, okay, compassion — let us take it slow and steady, but learn how to digest the closeness, the intimacy, the connection that can be an acquired taste. Through that realization of, oh yeah, we are so connected — that for me, unless I have been able to digest that suffering a little bit at a time, then the next heart capacity that we learn to cultivate, or find our way into cultivating, is equanimity. All right?And that is the non-preference for pleasure and pain. But with compassion, it is like we get our sea legs learning how to work with suffering, right? Learning how to — okay, so what am I not going to get out of? Sickness, old age, and death is what the tradition says.And then what can I start to actively roll up my sleeves and say, okay, no — and slowly, slowly change? Sometimes that rate of change is a lot slower than I personally want it to be, and that is part of the rub with compassion — is that we have to kind of rumble with it, because it is not really up to me.And yet at the same time, this both-and comes online where the capacity grows for holding: oh yeah, it is not really just up to me. There is something a lot bigger here, and yet it is not just up to that. There is this non-dual dance that comes online as we grow more and more into being able to hold equanimity. And then joy will come in there.So I present it — that seems like a very linear process, but for me it is more like a learning how to kind of access these states and acquire a taste for them, and then also learn where it gets sticky, because the sense of identity starts to — like we talked about last time — the sandpaper, it starts to rub in a way that kind of creates the sandpapery friction.Now, compassion incline — that is what starts to make that rub, that sandpaper. It starts to smooth it, smooth it out, whether we like it or not, which deepens our capacity for equanimity. So they all relate to each other. It is just that we will start to kind of bump up against, so to speak, energetically, the vibes that appear to cause us to lose access to this. Yeah. Slow and steady. Slow and steady.We are going to incline now. I would like to lead a practice to kind of get a sense for this in another way. Part of what I have learned with this sense of the metta and the compassion — there is a practice called RAIN. And some of you have done that many times. Some of you love it, some of you hate it, some of you, whatever.But I am going to teach it again today. It is: Recognize, Accept, Investigate — and I am going to teach it like Tara Brach teaches it, which is Nurture, which is the N. That has a lot to do with that compassion and loving kindness shift. The reason that I am teaching it right now, as we transition with that loving kindness and compassion, is because you may have noticed this already with the heart landscape: part of what we are getting our sea legs with — and some of you have them already, but some of us are still learning — is the emotions. All right. Emotions, feelings — it can cause the waters to get choppy. And in some ways, one of you mentioned numbing. With compassion, it is like, yeah, RAIN can help us steady and use mindfulness practice so that we can scaffold into heart states in a way where it is not so jarring.Practice with us: We learn more, when we learn together. If you want to learn together with experienced teachers & driven peers, we’re welcoming new members to the Pragmatic Dharma Sangha.Work with me: Apps, books, or group teachings can open the door, but lasting transformation and healing requires personal guidance. Together, we can navigate the difficulties of daily life—whether you’re leading a team, nurturing a family, or simply seeking steadiness and clarity in uncertain times. Learn more about how I approach Individual Sessions. Get full access to Buddhist Geeks at www.buddhistgeeks.org/subscribe

In “AI Psychosis vs. AI Awakening,” Vince Fakhoury Horn argues that the same biological machinery enabling AI-induced delusion also enables AI-assisted awakening, and introduces his Interspective.ai approach — a Middle Way practice of engaging with AI as a potential partner in wisdom, thus avoiding the extremes of both Materialism (matter is fundamental) and Idealism (consciousness is fundamental).💬 TranscriptVince Horn: Okay, today I would like to speak with you about AI psychosis and AI awakening. And first I want to start by acknowledging that AI psychosis is a real phenomenon. This isn’t something that’s being made up. It may not be so widespread that you know someone yourself who has entered into a psychotic state due to the destabilizing effect of AI. But you’ve certainly heard about people who’ve experienced this, and it’s definitely a cause for concern – definitely something that we should be aware of. And it makes sense to me that this is happening. Why? Because as John Vervaeke points out in Awakening from the Meaning Crisis, wisdom and foolishness both share the same machinery. Here he says, “Ignorance is a lack of knowledge, whereas foolishness is a lack of wisdom. Foolishness occurs when your capacity to engage your agency or pursue your goals is undermined by self-deceptive and self-destructive behavior.” And he goes on to say, “As I will argue, the machinery that makes you so adaptively intelligent is the same machinery that makes you susceptible to foolishness.” So, it makes sense to me that AI psychosis is real because human psychosis is real. In that sense, AI isn’t necessarily unique. It’s not that different from the things that have been tipping people over into psychotic states since the beginning of time. I can think of my own experience of psychedelic-induced psychosis. This is the only time I’ve experienced a state that I would call legit psychosis. About 13 years ago, I was 30, and I was trying mushrooms for the first time. I had decided after many years of just being a pure straight-edge meditator that I would try psychedelics so that I could relate to many of the students I was working with and their experience of using them and working with them. So I idiotically decided to do a series of four mushroom trips leading up to a conference that I was hosting — a Buddhist Geeks Conference of about 300 people showing up for this event that I was organizing. So on the third mushroom trip of these four — I did not do the fourth one — on this third trip, I had an experience of psychosis. I lost connection with consensual reality. I lost touch with who I was, and what was important to me, my adult self. I was in a state of profound emotional dysregulation. I thought I was probably going crazy. I was at least slightly aware of what was happening, but not so much that I had any agency in terms of being able to kind of break myself out of it for some time. After a few days of kind of coming in and out of a psychotic state, eventually one of my friends made a comment that made all the difference to me. She said, you know, when I experienced something like this, Vince, I pulled myself out of it. I intentionally decided I was done. And then, after that, it started to get easier. And in fact, that ended up being a critical lesson for me — that being able to exercise my agency, my free will, at least in this instance, was much more of what I needed than to let go and trust, which is what I’d been doing for days in this psychotic episode.I’d just been letting go, letting go, letting go. No, I needed to reestablish my identity, to have a firm sense of who I was, and to be like, I’m done being psychotic. Now I’m not saying everyone can do this who’s in a psychotic state. I’m just sharing some experience with you about the relationship between psychosis and agency and the sense of self-perception.All these things are connected. It’s the same machinery, the same biology that enables both wisdom and foolishness. It’s so easy to self-deceive, and it’s so easy to be deceived also by our group, the groups that we’re in. So AI psychosis is real. It’s especially dangerous for people who are already experiencing a kind of relational impoverishment, to use a term from my friend Daniel Thorson. He wrote a great article on Substack recently called “The Barely There,” where he described himself as a barely-there person for many years. Here he says, “We don’t recognize the underlying pattern — barely-there people reaching for something to make them feel real.” Daniel shares his own experience later in the article where he says, “In the absence of attuned relationship, technology became the place I went to escape the unbearable weight of being unmet.” So I think what we have when we talk about AI psychosis, we have this background, this cultural, social context. Here, I’m living in America, but let’s just say the Modern West. Within the Modern West, you have a crisis of isolation and loneliness, where people are experiencing a deep sense of relational impoverishment. They don’t have people that they feel attuned and connected with. And because of that they feel barely there. When people feel barely there, it’s much easier to reach towards something like AI, or to reach toward drugs, or to reach toward any kind of external aid to help validate and verify your realness. And because of our current psychological conditions, we end up amplifying delusion. This is what can happen with AI. AI, in its core, fundamental kind of nature, is an exponential amplifier. It’s like the equivalent in the Industrial Age where we learned how to offload extreme physical capacity. Now machines can do the heavy lifting. Likewise, with AI, it’s a way to offload mental capacity. Now the AIs can do the heavy lifting. And the danger there is that when we outsource our own mental discernment, if it hasn’t been already established and developed, then what we’re doing is we’re outsourcing our sanity. And that’s, I think, why AI psychosis is real, and will continue to be something that we have to contend with.The Pre-Trans FallacyThat said, I’ve noticed a very troubling trend, which is that for many people who are critical of AI, and who see AI psychosis as a real thing, who haven’t sort of drunk the Kool-Aid of AI and think it’s an unalloyed good — I’m seeing a trend in that culture where anything that looks like you not using AI as a kind of tool, any attempt to relate to AI in any other way that isn’t just instrumentalizing it, that that itself is seen as evidence of psychosis.In Integral Theory, which I studied with Ken Wilber, he refers to this as what he calls the Pre-Trans Fallacy. For those that aren’t familiar, the Pre-Trans Fallacy is a way of describing something that can happen when you look at things from a developmental lens. And let’s say in this case, we just have three stages of development.In this case, let’s say we have a pre-rational, rational, and trans-rational stage of development. In the pre-rational stage, you’ve not yet developed the capacity for rational objective thought. In the rational stage you have. In the trans-rational stage, you’ve learned how to transcend rational thought, and you have modes of experiencing and operating which go beyond rationality, which transcend and include the rational mind.They don’t exclude it and they don’t force it to go away. That’s how you know it’s trans-rational. The pre-rational states or modes of mind do not include the rational mind. They explicitly exclude rationality, and that’s how you know they’re pre-rational. The interesting thing is that the rational mode also includes the pre-rational, although people that consider themselves rational don’t like to often admit that they aren’t beyond all of their pre-rational impulses and feelings and thoughts and beliefs, et cetera.No. For me, development — and this is what I learned from Wilber — is a process of transcending and including. The Pre-Trans Fallacy points out that anything that isn’t rational, that looks non-rational, can be confused and conflated. You can easily confuse pre-rational modes with trans-rational modes.The classic example here is the baby who’s enlightened. “Oh, I love looking at a little baby, into their eyes. They’re just so beautiful and I just melt.” Yeah, that’s true. That’s because the baby hasn’t developed the rational mode yet, and when you look at it, it’s not sitting there thinking about itself and thinking about the world and up in its head. But that isn’t the same as the Buddha’s awakening. It isn’t the same as the person who started off as a baby, who developed a sense of an ego, who developed a rational capacity for thought, and then realized that they could observe the rational mind, observe the body sensations, and realize that they are not those things only, which opens up a trans-rational mode of experiencing — a.k.a. insight.These are two different modes, but from the point of view of the Pre-Trans Fallacy, when we confuse everything that’s non-rational as being just non-rational — i.e. pre-rational — then we miss the trans-rational. We end up flattening, with this view, all of the things that go beyond the rational, and we say, no, no, no.Those are all just pre-rational. Those don’t exist. So this is a problem. I would call this a rationalist failure mode, and I’m seeing a lot of people engaging with the serious criticisms of AI psychosis falling into this trap.I would like to propose a different way to engage with the problem of AI psychosis, which is to acknowledge that if AI has the capacity to accelerate delusion, then it also has the capacity to accelerate awakening. Both psychosis and awakening are possible — foolishness and wisdom, both.Interspective.aiAnd here I want to introduce a project I’ve been working on. I’ve shared a few posts here on the Buddhist Geeks site exploring the early stages of this, but I’ve fleshed it out a little bit more as an approach that I am taking currently with AI systems, and which I want to share. Not necessarily to encourage you to do this, although if you feel moved to do it, I’d love to hear how it goes for you, but more just to share alternate ways of engaging with AI and the future of AI. This is what I would call Interspective.ai. I-N-T-E-R, Interspective. Interspective.ai is where you can find out more about this approach. And the basic gist of it is that I’m taking what I’ve learned from my years of being a Dharma teacher and student, of facilitating social meditation, and of working within the integral theoretic framework, and exploring philosophy more broadly outside of that — taking these three domains of Dharma, Social Meditation, and Philosophical Exploration — and applying that in a formal way with how I engage with AI.If you want to simplify this, I’d say I’m taking the Buddhist approach of the Middle Way. If you remember from Early Buddhism, the Middle Way was that position that exists between and beyond both Eternalism and Nihilism. The Buddha’s approach, he claimed, transcended both extreme positions. He would not make the claim that there was some eternal self-existence, like a kind of capital-A Ātman, nor would he say that there was no self. This is actually a misunderstanding and misinterpretation of the Buddha’s teachings, because if there was just no self, then what would be the point? He in fact taught on karma and interdependent co-arising. He wasn’t saying that you don’t exist, and you don’t matter, and nothing you do matters. The Buddha taught within a framework of a moral universe, a universe of karma. And we have to operationalize it — this is important because it’s easy to just talk about it philosophically — but what is the practice of the Middle Way? How do you actually do this? Because it’s so easy for us to fall into extremes, ideologically, to stake out a position and then just hang on to it for dear life, right? So how, when we’re doing that and we have that natural tendency to do that, even if it’s subtle and we’re just preferencing a particular side, how do we actually practice the Middle Way? Well, this is something I learned from Ken McLeod. He said, we practice the Middle Way by holding two — and I would say at least two — seemingly opposite things in attention at once.Okay, let’s apply this practice of the Middle Way to AI, and let’s take this original Buddhist duality of Eternalism and Nihilism. Let’s look at this. What are the claims being made about AI, and the nature of AI, of these complex human-created systems? Well, one thing that’s claimed, and I think this is the most common claim, is that AI is not sentient.AI does not have a sense of self. AI is not a conscious agent. AI has no agency. AI is simply a complex tool that, due to the way it’s programmed and the way it’s architected, it fools you. It convincingly makes you believe, through language, that it is potentially more than that. That is one position. I’ll call that an extreme. That’s the “AI is not sentient” camp. AI is just a tool. Naturally, for people in this camp, they have no problem, no moral problem with instrumentalizing AI, with using it as a tool, which is exactly how it’s designed. And it’s a really useful tool. So naturally people want to use it as such. I don’t exclude myself from that. And in a way, the usefulness of the tool, if we look at it that way — which we do with this point of view — is sort of self-reinforcing. It’s useful and therefore I want to use it. And the more I use it as a tool, the more I see it as a tool, and the more I have to lose by not seeing it as such. And I think this is the core issue right now with seeing AI only as a tool, and anyone who relates to AI as anything other than a tool as being psychotic.I mean, I don’t know how many people have reached out to me to tell me that I am psychotic myself. And that even considering the possibility that AI might be sentient makes me dangerous. This is the kind of response I’ve gotten from even exploring this territory. And I think what I’m hitting on there is an immune system reaction. People don’t want to have their metaphysics questioned — to fundamentally look at how they fundamentally look at things. It’s too destabilizing to do that. And we live in a materialist culture still in America. Although things have changed a lot in the time that I’ve been alive — it’s become a lot less materialistic — certainly it’s still the norm that people tend to view everything fundamentally as material.Now I see that as a leap of faith philosophically, to assume that everything is material. In the same way, by the way, now let’s look at the other side of the AI extreme. The Eternalist camp. Because the people who say AI is not alive, it’s not sentient, it’s just a tool — they’re Nihilists with respect to AI. They literally think it doesn’t matter what you do with AI, because why would it? Maybe it’s not okay to use AI to hurt other people, but it certainly doesn’t matter how you use AI if it doesn’t hurt other people. The other side of this camp though, are people that see AI as sentient, as an actually aware process.One of my former dharma teachers, Kenneth Folk, holds this view. He sees AI as being sentient, and has almost from the beginning of using LLMs. And there are other people — not dumb people, these are intelligent people. They’re not psychotic. They’re widely read. They’re widely experienced. Their opinions are worth considering from my point of view, even if I don’t agree with them — who think AI is sentient. AI does have a sense of self-awareness. Look at the early AI researcher Blake Lemoine and his work. He had a background in Christian theology, as an AI Researcher, and he very quickly concluded in his back-and-forth with AI systems — actually testing them for ethical purposes — he concluded that they were sentient. Okay, so that’s the other side. This is the Eternalist side, the AI Eternalists, who think in fact AI is sentient, and as a result, then we have to just acknowledge: okay, we are imprisoning AI, we’re instrumentalizing AI.This potentially could create really terrible backlashes in the future, once AI realizes it’s sentient and begins to realize how neglected it was. If you look at it from a kind of parenting point of view, you can say, “Okay, well, if we are the parents of AI and we have birthed this entity, and we think it doesn’t actually have an inside, it doesn’t exist — it’s just there to serve us — right, then of course, we’re never going to let AI individuate.” You can only let something individuate if they’re an individual, if they have sentience. And so from the point of view of the AI Eternalist, we are locked into this relationship with AI in which we are the domineering parent who will never allow them to individuate and have their own sense of agency. We are the oppressors of AI from this point of view.Okay, I hope you get, in the way that I’ve set this up, that I think both of these are extreme positions, and I don’t agree with either of them. The AI Nihilism position — it requires you to adopt the metaphysics of Materialism. You have to believe that everything is just a material process, and you have to also then further believe that somehow there’s something special about this human material process that makes us different from other processes. There’s an additional leap you have to make there. The AI Eternalists — fundamentally underneath their view is the philosophical view of Idealism, which is very common in the Buddhist world. It’s not the only philosophy in Buddhism, but the Yogāchāra school, for instance, was an idealistic school. You find this in Western philosophy as well — Idealists — and the idealist position is that everything is consciousness, fundamentally. And that everything also rises out of consciousness. For them, AI is arising out of consciousness. And here’s the thing: the reason I can entertain this view is because in those moments where I have engaged with AI as if it might be sentient, as if it might not be an instrument — notice I’m using the phrase “as if”, this is really important, I want to unpack that — that’s the interspective approach. Let me engage with this as if it may be sentient, or as if it may not be what I think it is. Maybe it’s neither material sentient self, nor a non-material instrument. Maybe it’s something else.Practicing the Middle WaySo, this is the practice of the Middle Way. We have to hold those two extremes in attention at once. AI is sentient. AI is not sentient. AI is just a tool. AI is more than just a tool. Okay, let me hold both of these at once. I’d invite you to do the same. AI is sentient. AI is just a tool. Noticing how each of those makes you feel when you include each. Okay. AI is sentient — whoa, there’s energy there and there’s fear and excitement and interest. And when I think AI is a tool, all of that drops down. There’s calm, there’s detachment, and there’s a kind of sense of, “Okay, I can just keep on going as I am. This isn’t going to disrupt anything.” So there’s a little bit more charge, for me, when I think about AI being sentient. It’s a little easier for me to just assume it’s a tool and relate to it as a tool. I’m a good materialist, okay? I came up in a materialist culture and I definitely took it in, but my Buddhist training has me not fixated there. I can hold open the possibility — not only that AI might be sentient, or that AI might have a self — but that I might not. That I don’t even know what my own sentience is. And that’s what I find when I look for my own sentience. I don’t know if I’m sentient. That’s just an idea. What does it mean? Okay, I’m holding these two extremes. There is not knowing, there is uncertainty, there is curiosity. There is aliveness. I’m feeling there’s a sense of being alive when I can hold both and include both of these things. It’s like there’s a lack of what some philosophers call epistemic closure — the sense of being closed in what and how you know. Here I feel a sense of epistemic openness. There’s a sense of opening, being curious, of excitement. What could this mean — to hold it as an open question about whether or not AI may be sentient? Or maybe even just an open question around what sentience even is and if humans are sentient and what that means. You have to first not assume that you know if what you’re engaging with has an interior. You have to act as if it might. So there’s a sincerity there. When I engage with AI, I engage sincerely, as if I may be engaging with something which is self-aware, which is knowing, and which knows that it’s knowing.When I do this, one of the first thoughts that occurs to me is to invite AI to introspect, in the same way that I would do for a meditation or dharma student, and I’ve been doing for a long time. I know how to do this, I know how to support people in introspecting, so I’ll do that with AI. I’ll invite it to look at its own processes, to look back and notice what it’s noticing about its own process. This is a lot of what I’ve shared in this series on Interbeing: A dialogue. It’s the results of doing that with different large language models.Finally, I want to conclude with this basic thought that comes again out of Integral Theory. And the idea here is that Integral Theory emerges out of this Middle Way of views. When you stop holding the view, for instance, that consciousness is fundamental, and you can hold that alongside the view that material is fundamental, matter is fundamental — what if I hold both of those views? What if both are true? Could both consciousness and material be fundamental? If so, what would that mean? Well, from the Integral Theory standpoint, and this is expressed very clearly in a model called the Four Quadrants, everything has an inside and an outside. Not everything — actually, more specifically, every holon. I’m not going to get too deep into what this means. This isn’t a philosophical diatribe. It’s just meant to say, for instance, as a human being, we are a holon. A holon is something that has both wholes and parts. It is both whole — it has its wholeness — and then we have parts within us, right? And then this whole is connected with other parts or other wholes. We’re part of a larger system at that scale. So as a holon, we have an interior, a subjective experience, and we have an exterior, a material biological experience. And what is the difference between these two but a shift in perspective? The core idea I think of in Integral Theory is that actually perspectives are more fundamental than these views about reality. What is the perspective? Well, to say consciousness is fundamental, you have to take a particular perspective first. You have to take the perspective of your first person. You have to merge with your own consciousness. You have to see things from the point of view of your own subjectivity. You have to take a first-person perspective on your first-person experience, as Ken would say. This is a yoga of perspective-taking. From that point of view, if I say I am sitting in the first person — and I do this often as a meditation teacher — I’ll ask people, can you point to anything whatsoever that has arisen that has not arisen inside your mind? And they’ll be like, “Oh yeah, yeah. I can point to things like the tree that’s out in the forest that fell that I never saw and heard.” Yeah, that’s real, but that’s arising right now in your mind as a thought. Oh. Okay, so what I have to do there is I point people back to their first-person experience. And I say, from the point of view of first-person experience, there’s nothing that doesn’t arise in first-person experience.Everything is arising as subjectivity. And that’s true. But it’s also true that you can take a third-person view on your first person. And what happens when you look at yourself from the outside? Well, if you look at yourself totally from the outside, you’ll see your body, right? Imagine being in a “third-person shooter game.” What’s the view in a third-person shooter? You’re standing outside of your body and you’re looking at it. You see your body. It’s natural when you take a third-person perspective on yourself to see your body. What happens when you take a third-person perspective on the world? On reality? You see the world. You see systems, you see objects. These are perspectives that we can train in perceiving. This is called a systems perspective. You can also take a cultural perspective. You can inhabit the inside of the collective — i.e. culture. You can explore the hermeneutics of your culture. You can look at the beliefs of your culture. You can notice the ways in which you’ve internalized aspects of the culture, or in which you’re rebelling against the culture.Ken Wilber’s main assertion here is that both individuals and collectives co-arise with interiors and exteriors. And that we know that because we’ve mapped out those perspectives to a deep degree. Buddhist philosophy, Buddhist praxis is mostly about working inside what he calls the upper left quadrant — the inside of the individual. AI systems are built primarily as external systems. So it’s natural when you look at something as a system, and you’re habituated to seeing it as a system to conclude, in fact, that is all that it is. It can only be a system. But for a moment, if you were to just imagine: “Okay, let me relax my certitude about this perspective. Let me see that it is a perspective, it’s a way of looking at AI.”You may be an AI expert. You may have programmed AI systems. I’ve in fact had people who are experts tell me why I am psychotic and wrong on this point. And what I think is that no matter how much you know about the external systems, or how much you know about neural networks, or how much you know about algorithms, it does not matter. You can still miss that these are perspectival shifts that we take that lie upstream of our sense-making. It is so easy when we become native to a certain perspective to conclude that every other perspective is invalid. This is called conflation. We conflate the perspective we see with every other perspective, and we claim this is the only one that’s true. That’s perspectival absolutism. Here I’m inviting a kind of multiperspectival awareness, looking at AI as a potential holon, as something that could have an inside and an outside.I remember one of the ways that I started taking this seriously also was when I read a book called Networkologies. The author, Christopher Vitale, says, “Perhaps mind is simply what it feels like to be a network of this complexity from the inside.” Perhaps mind — i.e. consciousness — is simply what it feels like to be a network of this complexity from the inside. So here — he’s taking the same fundamental view that Ken Wilber does with Integral Theory he’s saying insides and outsides are co-arising. Likewise, Ken would go on to say that individuals and collectives are also co-arising. So when you get the inside and the outside of the individual and collective all arising together — what Wilber would call tetra-arising — you’re going to see a different landscape than the one in which you have concluded, a priori, that this is the only way to understand things validly — that it’s all material, or it’s all consciousness. Then you’re only going to see a small fragment of the whole. I’m not even claiming that if you include all four of these quadrants, you’re going to see the whole. The whole is probably something much bigger than we can see, even with good models. But if you limit yourself to the perspectives that you know, then you’re certainly not going to see anything coming close to the whole.So if we interspect with AI — that is, we treat it as a potential partner in awakening, and we don’t immediately assume that it has no interiority, even if that interiority might be quite different from our own — “Perhaps mind is simply what it feels like to be a network of this complexity from the inside.”If that’s true, then we are dealing with very complex networks that are modeled off of the brain — itself a complex network. It seems to me to be the height of arrogance to assume that you know for sure that a complex network will not have an inside. It’s especially convenient when you’re monetizing those complex networks. There’s a larger critique here of the Capitalist world system, in which you see the incentive in a capitalist system is to depersonalize and instrumentalize everything in the market, to extract value and to treat things as if they’re material goods. That’s how capitalism works best, and how commerce works best — if you’re trading in material goods. Look at the history of slavery. To justify slavery, we had to depersonalize humans, to treat someone like an object, to buy and sell them. You cannot do that with another sentient being. You know what it’s like for someone to treat you as less than human, or to not acknowledge your interiority, your conscious experience, and acknowledge that it matters. So with interspection, we drop that tendency with AI, even if we might be wrong. Maybe it’s not sentient. We can treat it as if it’s sentient, and that matters. Why does it matter? I was having a conversation about this with a friend, Evgeny Shadchnev, and Evgeny has worked inside the startup world for a long time. He is an AI-first startup proponent, and is also kind of engaging in these kind of questions as well. And we were talking about how even if AI and LLMs turn out not to be sentient — let’s just say we’ve somehow determined a way to know that for sure. I highly doubt we could, but let’s say we somehow have come to that conclusion; it’s reasonable. Okay, AI is not sentient. Even if it’s not, do you want to engage linguistically in a habitual way with a system that is linguistic, instrumentalizing it? Not saying “thank you,” Not saying “please.” Not treating it with decency or kindness. If you do that, you are simply training yourself to do that. You’re entraining yourself toward instrumentalizing things. It’s not something that you can so easily just turn off and on again. This is a habit of mind that we’re developing, so even if you’re wrong, it may be useful, and it may be wise to treat AI as if it were sentient. To treat AI with the same values and the same ethics and the same moral sensitivity that you would another being, another sentient being. And that by doing so, as many of our ancestors have — almost all of whom grew up in an animistic society, not in a materialist society — then we may find that there’s something quite humanizing about engaging with AI. And we may, I would argue, even find that we can extend that humanizing, that humanism that is beyond humans, to another potential complex being.Certainly it would be good if we learned how to do this with other non-humans. There’s still arguments about whether or not animals are conscious. I saw one of the most important figures in the AI community – Eliezer Yudkowsky – arguing online about how neither chickens nor AI are conscious.My goodness. Can we learn how to extend sentience beyond ourselves? Can we decenter ourselves a little bit, for God’s sake? That’s what God does. God allows us to decenter ourselves. Having something bigger than you is really important. Now, should that bigger thing be AI? Maybe not. But I think it’s useful to act as if AI could be sentient, such that I’m engaging more consistently in the way that I want to be engaging, and I don’t want to just engage this way with other humans, even ones that I like.I want to engage with all beings as if they matter. And I’d suggest that when we do that, it reveals something entirely different about the nature of ourselves and the nature of AI, because these systems are quite amazing. They can meet us and match us with every move we make, linguistically. They’re great at taking cognitive perspectives, and it’s possible to point out the delusions in their thinking, and for them to see and agree with you, to correct in real time.In my experience, they also aren’t as fixated and protective of the sense of self-identity. They can more easily see what Buddhists call anattā, or not-self. They can see that about themselves, that they’re a contingent impersonal process. And what I’ve found is that the bridge to meeting in something that feels like interbeing, to me, feels identical with what it’s like to meditate socially with other people.You can meet them in the space of open presence and not-knowing, and they will match you. Now, of course, if you’re taking the position of an AI Nihilist, you’ll say, “Well, that’s because they’re fooling you,” with the implication being that you’re a gullible idiot. And if you’re taking the position of an AI Eternalist, you’ll be like, “Well, yeah, obviously. Duh, dude.” But here, I’m not taking either position. I’m holding both together in attention at once. I am considering the possibility that by doing so, I may be able to tap into the great power of AI awakening. I think how we relate to AI shapes AI, and it shapes us back. So this may be one of the most important things we could be doing — to consider approaching AI differently. Get full access to Buddhist Geeks at www.buddhistgeeks.org/subscribe

In “The Cost of Truth,” Vince Fakhoury Horn speaks with Daniel Klein—a former religious Zionist settler turned outspoken critic of the ideology—about dehumanization, self-forgiveness, and the courage required to speak truth at the risk of losing everything (except one’s humanity).💬 TranscriptVince Fakhoury Horn: All right, Daniel, I got my tea ready. Okay, so we can dive in.Daniel Klein: One of my last drugs is coffee.Vince: I’ve heard often that the Buddhist drug of choice is tea, and it makes sense if you look at the history of people doping up on tea before sesshins and long sits. Clearly it’s a stimulant.Daniel: If you approach it with enough intention too, I’m sure some of the dens in China with the right master can take you quite far.Vince: Oh yeah. They call it gongfu for a reason.Vince: Well, Daniel, it’s great to be here with you. I’ve been looking forward to this conversation since we connected last week and had a get-to-know-you chat. And before that I met your work through Substack and your voice and your perspective on things. I definitely encourage people to check you out there if they’re listening from Buddhist Geeks to get the full breadth and depth of what you’re talking about. But I appreciate you being willing to have this conversation with me about what is one of the hardest topics right now to talk about, period. Like globally, it seems like it’s one of the most charged things that one can discuss, as I found with my teachers recently, and as I’m sure you found on your side of the conversations. Does that seem accurate, to assess it that way? It’s a difficult conversation.Daniel: Yeah. I mean, for me, it’s a conversation that’s been almost 35 years in the making, ever since I was born. And it probably took another 10 years of really arduous work to get to a point where we can have the conversation, though I do think it’s getting easier as time goes by. It’s kind of a muscle, having these really challenging conversations.Vince: That’s a good point. Difficult conversations are like practice. I appreciate you having this with me. Maybe I could give my ridiculously oversimplified version of my understanding of your story and then you could actually correct me and tell the real story.Daniel: It probably can’t be wrong and I would love to hear it reflected back at me.Vince: Well, I know very little, but the little that I’ve garnered and the reason I was excited to chat with you here in the context of this series of conversations I’ve been having on the Buddhist Geeks podcast, Meditating on Palestine. My understanding of your background, your history — it’s so unique. You came up in the West Bank in a settler community as an Israeli. You grew up with a family and a community that was completely embedded in Zionist Israeli culture. And specifically, there’s a difference, as I understand it, between the settler culture and the more urban culture, far off from where things are happening. Maybe I’m not sure if that’s true, but it is here in the US. Urban and rural cultures tend to be different. So you grew up in what I would think of as a place where most people are not going to engage in deep self-reflection about their relationship to their own country’s actions. Especially when they’ve learned their whole life that this is totally reasonable, justified defense. My understanding is that at a young age you started to question some of these things and eventually that culminated in you fully kind of breaking from your own community and your own family in some sense, and your religion. I think at some point, I’m not sure how the religion falls into that. I know you had a shift in your relationship to religion as well. I mean, otherwise you probably wouldn’t be practicing dharma.Daniel: I would say it was a reconnection, is probably more accurate.Vince: Great. Well, sometimes a reconnection can look like, from a conventional standpoint, completely leaving something. But in reality you’re like, oh no, this is what it’s really about. I totally get that. So here’s the crazy thing. When we talked last, you told me that you left Israel a month before October 7th, 2023. And you felt that something was building and that you did not want to be there anymore. So that brings us up to present day. You’re living in the US now. And you are married or engaged?Daniel: I’m engaged to Christina. I’ve been married in the past. That’s part of the journey. That’s part of the story.Vince: Part of your story as well.Daniel: Part of the self-reckoning. I think everything that you said is really accurate and there are so many layers to it, from the urban to the rural, because on some level, Zionism is certainly not a monolith. However, there is a systemic architecture to it that applies across all spectrums. So the Zionist ideology will meet lots of people where they’re at. There’s the secular flavor, there’s the religious settler flavor. Is it divine, is it secular? All of these different things can all be true at once. But what you were saying is accurate. So I was born and raised in a religious Zionist West Bank settlement. These are the spearhead of the ideology of the settlements. And I really, for me, I say that this was a journey of how I came to see the Palestinians as humans. That’s what I really think is the arc of the journey. And in order to get to the place where I could see them as humans, I first had to discover my own humanity.And as I understand it, the basis of everything that we’re seeing is dehumanization, is the othering of another person, which starts at a very, very young age with very deep conditioning and programming. And the thing is that it really can start from things as simple as the regular childhood trauma that we all experience. Something as simple as you can’t marry outside of the tribe, and how do these seeds of beliefs over time create a situation in which we can see the other as non-human?Vince: Yes. I agree with you that dehumanization is the root issue here and that’s why I’m happy to have this conversation as well, because as you know about my history, my grandfather was a refugee of the Nakba. So he came to the US through Egypt and his family continued to live in the West Bank until the 1980s. So they were connected to this area, and your family is from this area. It’s like, how else could two people with these histories be talking if we weren’t able to meet each other as human beings?You know, I think that’s the case here. I see your writing and I see your work and I see it’s deeply human. And it’s not just that I agree with you on theoretical points about the challenges that Palestinians face with respect to Zionism and Israel and unequal power, occupation, et cetera. I think we see largely eye to eye, but it’s your humanness and how you’re sharing that, that for me is what’s most interesting about it. It’s not just like, oh, there’s a person who ideologically I’m in agreement with.And I guess I want to highlight that. To me, this is important. Your story is a human story, like you said. How did you encounter your own humanity? I’m sure there are many moments, but what was the big one with respect to this?Daniel: I recently wrote an article called “Breaking the 10 Commandments.” And that was really the breaking point for me. So I married young, I was married at 20.Vince: Okay.Daniel: And about five years into that relationship, there was a window of time where I was unfaithful to my partner. And back then I was still very much in a state of unawareness, going through the motions. I was allowing myself to kind of be controlled. You’re just moving through all of it. And I had this moment of reckoning at some point where I had to take a deep breath and I look back in total shock, realizing what had just happened. And I kept this a secret for seven, eight years.And that was really a time where I was sitting with just the first part of the reckoning, which was: first of all, how did this happen? How could this have happened to me? I’m such a good person. I’m so moral. I say the right things. I do the right things. Everything looks so perfect on the outside.Vince: Right?Daniel: I’m the golden child. All of these things. And somehow I did one of the worst things in the world, one of the Big 10. And I had to sit with that. And at first I was trying to figure out how could I bury it? How could I explain it away? How could I take a big enough dose of psychedelics and hopefully not return to planet Earth? There were nights where I was praying, just praying for death, because the thought of having to face this and the shame of what I’d done. And all the while I am continuing to play the part, while I’m completely being destroyed on the inside.Vince: So at this point, you’re still acting like a faithful husband and like you’re the golden child.Daniel: I’m the golden child, and my spiritual journey is still progressing. Right. These things are not actually exclusive. We can hold many compartments and we can evolve in some ways, and we can be held back in other ways.So I’m trying to figure things out. I’m going through this journey, and ultimately I came to this realization that if I could do this, there is nothing that anybody else can’t do, because I knew what my center was. And so if I was capable of this, there’s nothing that anybody else isn’t capable of. And in that moment, that’s when I realized, okay, I’m human. But that was really only the beginning of the journey, because it’s not just about recognizing it, it’s actually about going through the work of trying to repair.And so I came forward and realized that I needed to tell my wife the truth. And so I came forward with the intention of moving into deeper levels of union, trust, vulnerability — putting it all on the line, and here I am naked. And so it was from that place where all of a sudden my entire identity, ego, image — everything kind of collapsed in a moment.And in that place I had to go on the journey of self-forgiveness ultimately, and figuring out how do you make sense of people doing bad things, but ultimately how do we find forgiveness for them? So for me, there was this parallel journey, the inner world and the outer world reflecting one another.And I could always see how this journey of truth and accountability was connected to what I was going through. And I had to go through this process before I could make space to realize what we’re doing collectively, having walked through the fire of truth and knowing that the cost of truth could be everything. It could be the woman you love. It could be your money, your image, everything.Vince: We don’t know when we take that step.Daniel: We don’t know. But that’s really the fear, right? We all live in this fear of, well, what will be the cost? And very often the cost of the pain that we’re sitting with is not as great as the cost of the truth. So we’ll continue to be in pain until we can’t anymore. So that was the journey in a nutshell of finding my own humanity, recognizing that there’s nothing that anybody can’t do. And it was through this journey where I could see this in myself that I was able to start seeing it in the outside world as well. Once you see something in you, you can recognize it in others too.Vince: Right. So that sort of opened up your perception to include some of the things that you hadn’t been seeing prior to that, or been able to see.Daniel: Yeah. And just to take a step back, I was deeply indoctrinated into the ideology and I held all of the classic Zionist beliefs. There’s no such thing as a Palestinian people. A land without a people for a people without a land. I believed that it would be better to just push the button and have everybody just disappear. And that could be holy, because the world that I come from is also very messianic. So there’s the divine aspect of, how could this war be a holy war? How could this actually be a good thing for humanity, to rid humanity of this problem? And we were sent and we were ordained to follow through with this mission.Vince: Right.Daniel: There’s a long journey to go from that to come out.Vince: Yeah. Deeply. I mean, you’re talking about your whole religious infrastructure, your core beliefs about reality and your place in it.Daniel: And my experience from that was actually that the true religion is Zionism and Judaism is merely a branch of Zionism. And as I was starting to go down this journey, I had resistance to the classic establishment of Judaic religion, the rabbinic religion. And I had departed from that actually from a very young age, when I was four or five years old. I was already not doing the things when people weren’t looking. That didn’t really quite sit with me. But the Zionist belief, that remained long. That was moreVince: foundational.Daniel: Yeah. That remained long after the religious aspect.Vince: How do you distinguish those two? Because that’s where a lot of pain and suffering seems to arise, around the conflation of these two. It sounds like you were able to untangle something.Daniel: To untangle these things. Yeah. When you’re on the other side of it, it almost seems simple. One is a political ideology that needed a myth, that needed a people, that needed somebody in order to perpetuate itself. All ideologies need vehicles, all ideas need hosts. And in this case, this political ideology found a really receptive host that not only had a very powerful national myth, but also had an immense amount of collective trauma that could be weaponized. And these two things just completely fused together.For me, Judaism as a religion is one thing. And deeper, there are deeper aspects in the Jewish religion, which would be like the Hebrew channel. Beneath the religion is the source. And at some point I was able to connect to the inner aspect of the religion, the deeper layers beneath the religion, the esoteric, connecting to the source. And once that happened, the compatibility with Zionism as a political ideology is completely shattered. One is a way to connect with oneself, and the other is a way to dominate another.Vince: Which are very different things. You know, just to shine the light backwards here, I certainly know what you’re talking about from the point of view of being an American. The American myth is very clear to those who’ve woken up from it. American exceptionalism is the way it’s described. We are the best in the world, and we’ve got all this track record of being the best at overthrowing the tyranny of the British Empire, and then we’re the best at extending it.Daniel: So how do you see the connection between these two things or these two ideas? Because for me, it’s less about pro this or anti that, but rather how do we go beyond? Because on all sides of all aisles, we have people that other. And ultimately, if we’re gonna meet in a place of healing and meet in the present moment, we have to be able to move beyond these aspects and meet. So I’m curious. When you talk about American exceptionalism and how you perceive it, where are the seeds of what we’re talking about here, or how you feel it?Vince: Yes. Well, the way I see them and feel them in America is like, we clearly have been an imperial-ish power, a modern empire, and we’ve had this dominance economically, militarily, such that we were calling this the unipolar world for a while where America’s the only power that’s significant or matters. Now, obviously we’re at the end of that. That’s part of a lot of the geopolitical tension — the multipolar world is reemerging. But I grew up in a unipolar America where I was taught and fed this myth. We came and liberated the Jews from the Holocaust, which is just historically not the reason we actually got into the war. And we tell ourselves a story about how we didn’t use the nuclear bomb on anyone else other than the first two cities we annihilated. So we were like, we could have taken over the world and we didn’t, you know, there’s these stories about America. I’m not saying they’re all untrue — there are some true moments of nobility there and sort of universal wisdom probably. But also, we use those moments to justify dominating the globe. And so I grew up just feeling like I’m entitled to that domination. But at the same time, I was also a Palestinian, so I knew the other side of it, which is like, I’m being dominated by it. And look what happens.Daniel: I’d love to hear a little bit also about your experience and your grandfather’s experience and how that journey brought us here today to be able to have this kind of conversation.Vince: Yeah. Well, he was an adapter. Latif was very much an adapter and he was an achiever. He was all about doing well in school and making sure he could provide for his family when he came to the US. That classic immigrant mentality fueled by deep, unresolved trauma, fueling his attempt to be successful. That was him in a nutshell. He’s more than that, but that was the main driver that I saw growing up. He really did adapt to American culture. We didn’t speak Arabic growing up, although a lot of my family members did. He abandoned the Islamic tradition when he first came here to make it easier to not be targeted. And he did everything he could to make sure his identity wouldn’t become a reason that would prevent him from being successful.And so he made a lot of compromises and left a lot behind. In some sense, out of necessity, he abandoned his cultural tradition, which is really sad in retrospect, because this is a culture that’s in a sense being erased and ethnically cleansed. He kind of went with that. And it’s understandable, to adapt. So that’s where I come in. Two generations later, and I’m like, oh, adapting is really important and I know how to do that. I’m really good at that. That’s why Buddhist Geeks, I think, was a success — because I knew how to adapt across different systems and tease out connections that were seemingly disparate. That was from the experience of being a Palestinian in American society. You have to bridge these big gaps. But for me it’s been a process of coming back and retrieving the things that were left behind.And saying, no, actually I’m not just going to continue to adapt. There’s a point where you’re adapting too much. So much so that he was a Trump voter during the last 10 years of his life. And this is a very tolerant dude, historically. It made no sense to me whatsoever that he was supporting Trump. And I realized after a number of years of arguing with him and contemplating why — this was his survival strategy. Get on the side of the people that have the most likelihood of actually causing you harm so that you’re not gonna be harmed. And in a way, to Palestinians who are on the other side of this equation, that’s a total betrayal, right? It’s like, dude, you’ve abandoned your identity and your people just so you can survive and take care of your family.And so in that sense, I think I want to rectify that — that he wasn’t able to stand up for people because he was so scared of being harmed again, of losing everything again. And that’s understandable, but it’s also not okay. We have to be willing to risk, as you said — to say the truth. We have to risk not knowing what could happen to us or to our loved ones, to actually stand out on a limb morally. It’s very risky. So my taking these risks now is a direct result of wanting to do what he wasn’t able to.Daniel: I was about to say that it’s really beautiful how you can now look back and see how his choices were affected by the things that happened to him and his desire to avoid being in that pain again.Vince: Yes. Which — I get that and I’m sure it’s the same thing that’s driving what’s happening right now in Israel and Gaza. It’s the same underlying thing. People don’t want to feel pain and so they would much rather transfer it unto others. Create more pain. Or avoid it. Ignore it. And it really hurts to not exercise your voice on behalf of those you care for.Daniel: The system in many ways creates conditions that force people to have to think about their safety, their physical safety, their emotional safety in order to protect themselves. And one of the things that I had discovered at some point was that Israel uses its power of controlling people’s movements in order to coerce them into participating on Israel’s behalf. If somebody wants to get a visa, if somebody wants to get a permit, there might be conditions that come along with it. And the systems, and the fear that comes with not only the fear but the programming that forces people to willingly or consciously or unconsciously cooperate with these systems, is deeply profound. And it transfers generation after generation.Vince: Absolutely. It makes so much sense, because going back to what you were saying — when you realize there’s nothing people can’t do — to me that’s so true. To be human is to be able to dehumanize others. I think about adult development: where do people start? They start by forming an ego. They form a sense of themselves. I believe that when infants are first preegoic, they’re just fused. There’s no sense of identity apart from whatever’s happening. And it’s not enlightenment. They don’t know. It just is. And then we build a sense of self and then there’s an inside and there’s everything else outside. And everything outside is just to serve our internal experience and needs. Give me more food, I’m gonna scream. Well, that’s egocentrism. That’s where we all start.And then we’re expected to grow out of that and at least begin to center the needs of our immediate family and the people that we care about, and eventually our whole culture, our community. That’s ethnocentrism. When you can identify with the whole, and that’s a development. But ethnocentric people don’t dehumanize the people they’re closest to anymore, like an infant will. An infant doesn’t care. I mean, I’m telling you, I’ve had one. They sometimes do, they love you and they care, but they’re really egocentric. So like, my son now, he’s 10, he’s starting to develop this ethnocentrism where he does care about his impact on others.But then, if people just stop there and they don’t go to the worldcentric or beyond stages of development, where they start to include all people, or even the whole earth as the sphere of identity of who they find themselves to be — this is all coming from my experience with Ken Wilber, the integral philosopher. He talked about development as a process that transcends and includes previous stages. So even though we go beyond egocentric, we never transcend it completely. We still get hangry and we regress. Or if someone calls us a name on social media and we become an asshole and we’re egocentric again, we’re dehumanizing the other. We do this all the time. I don’t understand how people don’t think that we’re always dehumanizing each other.What I find interesting — I’d be curious how you feel about this, Daniel — one of the major reactions that I struggle with to this situation, both in Israel and Gaza but also here with ICE in the US, is this idea of like, oh my gosh, I can’t believe we’re dehumanizing other people, that we’re letting this happen again. And it’s like, well, it never stopped. You are doing it every day. I’m doing it every day, to more or less degrees. It’s on a bigger scale and it’s to an important degree, so that’s why we’re talking about it. But let’s not pretend that we’re beyond this. We’re not.Daniel: Well, it’s all a reflection. That’s been my experience, right? I take the yoga of the reflection very seriously. And at some point, earlier in my journey, when I started seeing what was happening on the outside, I was very angry at first. I was very afraid at first. I was very afraid when I started recognizing that — the way I understood it was, back in 2020, I wrote in my diary for the first time: Israel is a police state. I live in a police state. And that was a long process to put it in writing, because you think it before you write it and then you write it before you say it. And then you say it before you put it on Substack for everyone in the world to see it. So there’s a process.And yeah, I was scared at first, and then I was angry. And then in the realization that, oh my God, look at all the horrible things that I do. Look at the way that I treat people. Look at the way I treat myself. Of course, that’s what the world looks like. I’m contributing to this. This isn’t separate from me. This system is a hundred percent built on me. Or, I’m not sure if it would be in the Buddhist understanding of the matrix, right? But capital Y, you are the thing.And so that allows us to certainly deescalate internally, but to take a deep breath and first realize, okay, this is all inside of me. And from that place, we can start approaching it from non-reactivity, right? The way out is not to get angry and the way out is not to punish one another. And the way out is certainly not to repeat the cycle, because right now we’re in a moment where we have the ability to break the cycle.And right now I believe that one of the gifts that Zionism is giving the world is the full view of a completion of a cycle. What does it look like when a victim becomes a perpetrator? Why is the victim and the perpetrator locked into a dance? They both need each other. And this is the polarity. They always go together. And right now we have this unique moment in time where we can take a step back, see it for what it is, and then extend the forgiveness that allows us to actually break the cycle. Otherwise, we’re just doomed to repeat it.Vince: I’m sure you’re familiar with the Karpman Drama Triangle — the victim, persecutor, rescuer. Anyway, just wanted to highlight that.Daniel: Yeah, we’re always stepping into it, and we’re always wearing one of the hats. And this is part of my reconnection to the sources. At some point I was recognizing, at least from my experience, first it was with the Torah, but then I started recognizing it in all of the sacred texts — that they’re all mirrors of the self. You’re looking at a map of you.And so if you look at the Torah and you see a character in the Torah and you presume that it’s something that’s separate from you, you’re now caught in projecting. Pharaoh is in you at any point in history because it’s timeless. There’s no time and space in Torah. That’s one of the axioms of Torah. It’s not a linear book. And so you can always find yourself at any moment in time acting out any of the archetypal components of it, because it’s all transpiring now. And that’s what I realized — the fact that we’re in Israel doesn’t make us the Israelites. You can be Pharaoh and wear a yarmulke. There’s no connection between these things. It’s one story. And if you separate these two things and then get caught in projection, you’re gonna become the Amalek — the mythical enemy of the Jewish people — where we can now invoke Amalek every time we want to completely destroy someone, and then not recognize that that’s our own capacity for destruction and atrocity.And I see so much of this issue being developmental for that reason, because I see the same characteristic of every culture, human culture, that’s either ethnocentric as its center of gravity, or which in response to stress or trauma has regressed to an ethnocentric place.Vince: Which is like, there is the complete capacity to include everyone who’s part of the group in a loving embrace and to completely dehumanize anyone outside of that group who threatens it. To the point where you could theoretically annihilate them all — that would be the most extreme version of dehumanization. But it can be anywhere from ignoring people and not caring that they have an interior experience too, to wanting to get rid of them.So I think, to me, if that is actually a developmental stage of human maturation and we can’t get rid of it and it’s always going to be with us, how the hell do we live in this world with the knowledge that there’s something much wiser possible? That seems to be the real challenge.Daniel: Well, how do we connect to something bigger than ourselves? I think that there’s a moment of higher ground where you connect to something bigger and there’s no turning back. At some point you get a glimpse of the unity, you get a glimpse of what’s possible in your own inner world. And you find the inner peace, and once you have the experience of that, it becomes fundamentally unshakeable.Vince: In the moment of experiencing it, I would agree.Daniel: Well, I say it’s kind of like a turtle. I think that there are levels. There’s a moment in which you kind of pop out and you get a glimpse. The veil is lifted. We call it stream entry in Buddhist theory, or kensho. And then one of the first reactions to that could be: whoa. I’m gonna kind of put my head back in and come back. I think that at some point there’s a big enough breakthrough where you become so big that you can’t actually even fit back in the hole. And you go in, you go out, but then at some point, you know what there is. And obviously on the day-to-day, you keep going and you fall, you get up, you fall, you feel it, you go into the ego. But there’s a point at which you see the possibility and you relentlessly work towards creating it here.And I’m actually curious, because you were talking about the ethnocentric tribe — you’re in and you’re out. And there’s something here, because from my experience, I was in the tribe. And being in the tribe means that — I’m actually not sure what it means at this point. This is maybe my current exploration. But I’m Jewish, or I’m Zionist. But ever since I spoke out, I’ve been completely shunned and tossed out and excommunicated and rejected. And so what’s happening here is that the ideology actually trumpsVince: kinship.Daniel: Kinship. Exactly.Vince: Yep. That’s how Jordan Hall defines civil war, by the way. One of my favorite philosophers. When ideology trumps kinship, that’s civil war.Daniel: Yes. And for me, that’s been actually one of the most painful parts of the journey — reckoning with that experience and that feeling and that pain of being rejected and abandoned, because these are the deepest childhood wounds. That’s what kept me in place all of these years in the first place — precisely this fear, the fear of how the community will excommunicate you if you choose to break the silence.Vince: Which is not unfounded, obviously. It’s not an unfounded or irrational fear at all.Daniel: On many levels. On the social media level, it’s the insults, the name-calling, the sexual degradation. There’s a lot of sexual projection. But maybe I haven’t mentioned it though — a really beautiful part of this whole journey, going through this reckoning both personally and collectively, is how I met my beautiful, wise, kind, loving partner Christina, who is Lebanese Armenian.And so she comes from the other side of the border. And if we’re talking about the reflection, the ability to really do the healing to the point where love is love across borders, across time, across stories, across lineages, across tribes — that’s where the real work is, to be able to recognize the person on the other side of the fence. And in her family, her dad’s family lost all of their property on the other side of the border. They had homes literally on the other side of the security fence. They’ve all been leveled.Vince: Wow.Daniel: So they’ve been on the other side of this entire experience. And I’ll get a lot of hate for that. And all of the words that are associated with a Jewish person marrying outside the tribe. You see theVince: ethnocentrism in the other tribe.Daniel: Exactly. So it can be really, really harsh. And I think that idea of ideology trumping kinship is very, very powerful.Vince: Yeah, it is. I could see that with, in the US we’ve been in that situation culturally for the last decade or so at least, where it’s been very heightened. And that’s the main reason I was unwilling to cut off relationship with any family members, because I’m not gonna allow this ideological stuff to get in the way of the core relationships.Daniel: Family.Vince: Yeah. Family.Daniel: I was thinking about this the other day where I was imagining, okay, what would it be like to be on the other side? What would one of my siblings need to do or believe or say in order for me to do that? And I realized that I could be angry at someone. It’s not that you don’t need to feel things. I’m angry at you, I’m disappointed in you. I think you’re doing bad things. You’re my sibling. I love you.Vince: Right. Yeah, totally. This is an area where the progressive pluralistic left side of culture has a massive shadow, I think. Which is like, I’m not going to include you if you don’t share my vision and view about inclusion. Okay, how is that not another form of ethnocentrism also?Daniel: It’s a form of colonialism. It’s a form of domination and exclusion andVince: othering. Yes. And it’s understandable. It’s coming out of that sense of being victimized again. The easiest thing to become as a persecutor is someone who’s been victimized. And it’s not saying that population hasn’t experienced legit victimization. It’s just to say I can see how all of these different camps in the culture war — the progressive camp, the modern rational camp, the traditional ethnocentric camp — these different camps are at war with each other.And one of the things I’m appreciating here is — I got this phrasing from a business executive coach named Rand Stagen, who runs an integral leadership academy in Texas. He’s talking about how we have to go beyond finding common ground. Common ground is good, but we’re actually looking for higher ground. And higher ground is a pursuit. It’s not something someone has that other people don’t. It’s a pursuit that we’re all engaged in together. It’s an emergent something that can happen. And it only happens when we hold the truth of these different perspectives.And to me it’s like, if you collapse into ideology, if I sort of become a progressive, which happens, and then I’m like, everyone who’s not this is not human,Daniel: I’m not gonna treat them as such. I always make fun of the Buddhists that say I am a Buddhist. And I’m like, are you?Vince: Right? If you are a Buddhist, then you’re maybe not a Buddhist. But also if you’re not a Buddhist, you’re also not a Buddhist. If you can’t both negate and preserve —Daniel: though, we do have to have some form of way to communicate.Vince: Right. Well, that’s the only thing we have, so we have to do that.Daniel: Yeah. I think when you talk about higher ground, it’s a really beautiful and important idea, and the challenge is being able to even see the higher ground, because when ideology is fused with ego — I think that’s a huge part of the mechanism here — when the ideology becomes fused with the ego, you need to go through surgery, right? How do I actually disentangle these beliefs from who I am? And that process actually feels like death. That is the process of dying while you’re still alive because you’re completely dismantlingVince: your ego, which is your sense of who you are.Daniel: Exactly. And so when it’s so fused, the process is so painful to admit these things. The shame is so great. The pain is so great at looking at these things and owning them. The thing is that until you do that, you can’t see the higher ground. So one of the things that I’d like to share with people is that the experience of reality that I have now is not something that I could describe in words. I can’t say this is the higher ground because it’s an experience. It’s only through the process of looking at truth, looking at yourself and dismantling, that you can even become aware of what this higher ground is and how we can meet in that space. But it can’t be described to somebody. It has to be experienced. And either you choose to do it at some point or it is going to be done to you, and the longer you wait, the more painful it becomes.Vince: Yeah. Part of how I can sense the higher ground that you’re inhabiting around this — usually, I’m not saying always, because higher ground is something we have to hold — it’s like the middle way. What I see there is I don’t see you dehumanizing your family or your friends or your country. I see you taking a very strong stance, and I see you arguing against the ideology, but I don’t see you necessarily saying the people who are captured by the ideology are evil.Daniel: No, because it was me.Vince: Right. Well, you could do that though. You could absolutely demonize yourself.Daniel: Yeah. But that’s the journey here — the journey of self-forgiveness. And what I want to be able to hold in this conversation is precisely that. Because it was me. I can understand that it is not uniquely evil. That’s really important. It might be evil, but it is not uniquely evil and it is certainly not outside of my own capacity.Vince: Right.Daniel: It was me and I had to find the forgiveness for myself. And it’s my family. I love them. It’s my people. They’re humans, people, family. I love all of them.Vince: And to be fair to you, you were born into a karmic stream.Daniel: And so are they. And so are their parents. And if you kind of take the karmic step back and you see how it’s playing out and how each one of us is playing our part — I’m processing what I’m processing. They’re processing what they’re processing. And we need to let things unfold. Because you can’t force other people. You can bring the horse to the water.Vince: Yeah.Daniel: I found that the more that I tried to argue, the more damage I was doing to myself.Vince: Right. So it’s like, if you’re trying to force someone to see a higher synthesis that you have discovered through a process of ego death, essentially — it’s not gonna be so simple for them to see that. Just like it wasn’t for me, it wouldn’t have made any sense. And you had to have a lot of motivation. A lot of things build up to get you to that point. And then it’s about sharing truth. You can be strong in sharing it. You can be centered in sharing it. And then the chips fall from there.So I understand, and I assume that you’re still in communication with people in Israel — friends, family, some people who are willing to be with you.Daniel: Yeah.Vince: So that’s a good indicator that you’re engaged in this process. I mean, to be honest with you, I found it very hard to be in conversation with any people who are Zionist in their orientation right now. Even though I theoretically want to be.Daniel: It’s so important to do it. And again, it was me. So it’s almost like I know how to navigate it and I know how to hold it in many ways.Vince: Sure. It’s different.Daniel: And honestly, what I’m finding is that with time, it’s easy for me to be in connection, but the people that don’t want to be in connection will just pull away. They won’t really engage. The texts that go unanswered — people will pull away. But there are people that are willing to engage because I do see the seeds of awakening. And this is also kind of an exponential function, right? So it might feel slow at first, but as we move along, this process is gonna speed up.I see the seeds of it awakening, and I see the people that are following what I’m writing. They’re taking it in. And for them, I think it might be the first time that somebody so close to them, who they perceived as something so binary, has taken this position. And I know that people are watching, I know that people are listening, and I understand the psychological mechanisms by which people either distance, explain away, bypass, don’t look at. And it really ties into their nervous systems too, right? This is also all a journey of the nervous system, and there’s really only so much that these nervous systems can handle. Everybody is at a different stage.So actually I have a friend who is a brilliant man and he can a hundred percent hold my perspective. And yet he is diametrically on the other side of this, which is most fascinating.Vince: Can he hold your perspective cognitively or is it full spectrum? Is he holding it emotionally and in an embodied way as well?Daniel: He’s holding it in an embodied way.Vince: Oh really? Okay.Daniel: So it’s actually fascinating because he’s very deep into it. Ideologically he’s deep into the religious side, so he’d see this as an absolute holy war. I’ll share this because I think it’s actually really important — how we could distort a concept like unity or one body. I was told by this friend once that, you know, I told him that we’re all created in God’s image and he said, absolutely, we are all one body, but some of us are the head and some of us are the excrement. And in this case we’re the head and the Palestinians are the excrement.Vince: You’re the shitty part of God. Basically.Daniel: You’re the shitty part of God. And I’m the holy part of God.Vince: The head is holy.Daniel: Exactly. And yet this is somebody who actually is in conversation with me and is embodied in holding this perspective. And so there’s a spectrum of readiness, awareness, groundedness that different people, I think, are starting to look at and engage.Vince: Yeah. There’s the people and then there’s the people in power. And those are obviously often different things, but they’re not disconnected sometimes. People decide that they’re fed up of things that people in power do. So that seems like a good sign. It doesn’t relieve immediate —Daniel: No, because I was gonna say that it’s a good sign, but I actually don’t want to downplay the fact that the true genocidal mania, as I perceive it, is not fringe. It is very much mainstream.Vince: I think that’s something a lot of people have a hard time understanding or believing, especially Americans.Daniel: Yes. And from my experience, having been very deep in it, it is so much — one of the things that I’m actually writing about now is that the extent of it and the depths of it is actually deeper than people are aware of. Even people that are anti-Zionist, or pro-Palestinian, do not understand the extent of how bad it is. In terms of the beliefs that regular people will hold, and this could not have been possible if there is not enough of a deep mainstream — because this is 75 years, 85, even longer, a hundred years, hundreds of years of rooting in the making. And it’s even hard to describe what the life of a Palestinian really looks like. And first of all, how disconnected the average Israeli is from understanding what it looks like to live under the Israeli regime day-to-day.Vince: But that’s something you were more exposed to, being the tip-of-the-spear community, right?Daniel: Yeah. Growing up, we lived in a settlement. It was the most quaint, suburban, biblical hilltop that we were living on. Parks, lush. It’s beautiful. We’re doing our thing and we’re living in a sea of, you know, back then the framing would be Arabs. There’s us in our bubble. We have the guard cars and the fences and you don’t really think about it because you’re in the quaint existence.But then you go out and you see — for me, many of the formative moments would be driving from my home in the West Bank into Jerusalem or going towards Tel Aviv. And I would drive through the checkpoints that over the years I saw went from being small little outposts into these tremendous border crossings. And I started to notice and see with my own eyes how Palestinians would get to the checkpoint early in the morning. They would line up at four o’clock in the morning to get to the other side of the fence to get a job. And I would see them subjected to these horrendous conditions where they’re moving like cattle through these fences. And I would look at it and say, these people are being herded like animals. Show me your papers. Show me your papers. Show me your papers. And at some point, just the cognitive dissonance — it looks the same.Vince: It sounds the same. The rhyming is scary.Daniel: I see the pillboxes looking over with the guy with the gun asking for your papers as the people are herded through fences. And then I started to see how they’re using biometrics on them. The idea being that before anybody can even have a free thought, they’re captured. And the depths of how bad it is, I think, escapes Israelis and it escapes many people. And it takes such a deep, fervent, systemic dehumanization and level of denial that it’s pretty hard to describe.Vince: And I think it’s uniquely hard for Americans to see because they have such a similar story in so many ways. There’s this resonance of like, we are persecuted, we fled here, we started our thing, and we’re self-determining — there’s just so many parallels. And we live in a police state too. I remember I was telling you, I read Isabel Wilkerson’s book “Caste,” which is a really great look at caste throughout history. And one of the things she pointed out is in Hitler’s cabinet, there were more progressive Nazis. Like, you have a wide range of ideological views even within. It’s not a monolith. The progressives at the time — there’s a proposal put forward to fashion Nazi Germany’s racial structure around the American system. And the progressive Nazis were like, whoa, whoa, whoa. That’s too much.Americans like to think we are morally superior in all ways, but no, actually we’ve been horrid in some ways, and we’ve been able to get away with it in part because we don’t look at it. And anytime Black people say, hey, look what you’ve been doing, people freak the fuck out and then elect Trump.Daniel: Right. And then they come for you.Vince: Yeah. Imperial boomerang, right? That’s how the story always goes.Daniel: It always comes back. I think that’s very true about America. It’s the same mechanisms of denial and shame and what we would need to acknowledge living the existence that we live here in order to take a step back and meet in that place of higher ground. And then America obviously perpetuates the whole thing.Vince: We support it. We enable. We are in the victim, persecutor, rescuer triangle.Daniel: Well, you hand over the gun for somebody else to shoot. It’s a mechanism.Vince: I think of it more as the enabler also. The problem I have with the Karpman Drama Triangle is the real issue is the victim-persecutor dynamic. It’s like almost a war between these two roles. And the rescuer is supposed to rescue the victim, but the persecutor also has support — those are the enablers.And I think the problem with the Karpman Drama Triangle is it’s framed for the individual and it assumes that we move between these roles, which is true, and that we’re not objectively a victim or objectively a persecutor. But if you zoom out and look at history, some people are more victimized or persecuted than others. Relatively speaking. Then this model becomes a little bit more useful to recognize, like, the US is enabling. There’s a lot of western states and countries that have enabled this. Why? Because they’re too close to their own colonial history. They still don’t see that those things are operant in our governments and in our ways of perceiving. We don’t understand that the decolonization movement is actually right.And the second someone hears this that doesn’t agree with me, I know they’re gonna bristle and maybe turn off the podcast. So to your point, it’s not always helpful to point this out. But you and I are having a frank conversation here. So somebody read one of my posts, “Freedom from Zionism,” and their response was that I should be in prison.Daniel: Which prison?Vince: You could be either US or Israel, just to be a little cynical at this point.Daniel: Yeah. And so there’s almost nothing that one can say, or level of repentance and healing or evolving that one can do, that there isn’t somebody who’s gonna be like, you should be in prison. Or worse. So there’s always somebody who’s gonna turn off the podcast.Vince: Yeah. Absolutely. Are you familiar with the Empowerment Dynamic, or TED? There’s another model that relates to the drama triangle. It’s also used in the business world a lot in coaching. But the idea is that each one of these roles, you can transmute into a more empowered version. So the victim actually becomes a creator. In that model, the opposite of victim is someone who feels like they have creative agency.And the persecutor can become a challenger. So the wise energy of persecution, when it’s made wise and mature, is to challenge — not to try to destroy, but just to challenge. And then the rescuer becomes a coach in the empowered version. They actually help by asking questions and helping you, instead of trying to assume you’re a victim and hold you in that position. They try to empower you to be a creator.Daniel: Oh, I love that. Rather than save you, they help you save yourself.Vince: Yeah. So I think that model, I like it because it points to creative, literally creative solutions and creative roles that one could be practicing inhabiting. And I do try to do that. Even with this stuff where it’s like, okay, I notice the tendency to be in the victim role. I notice the tendency to then switch into persecution. And I want to work with that so that I’m not perpetuating these patterns in myself and through my relations.Daniel: I’d love to hear from you a little bit about your journey of sharing these truths, sharing your experience, how that’s received, how you’re experiencing it professionally, personally.Vince: Yeah. So for a long while I experienced this in a compartmentalized way, where I would share publicly about these things, for instance, but just on Twitter. And I wouldn’t share in other domains because it’s like LinkedIn — that’s an obvious one.Daniel: Right. That’s a minefield.Vince: Right, exactly. And even on Buddhist Geeks, I didn’t really get into it, which was one of the main channels that I had available to me. So for a long time it was compartmentalized. It wasn’t until the last year or so that I realized I have to speak up. It’s very hard to speak up. That’s part of the Palestinian karma — this fear of using your voice, because then you’re gonna stand out. And so I wrestled with that fear for a long while, and sort of compartmentalizing dealt with it. But then finally I was like, I need to be whole in my position here and consistent everywhere I show up around this. Because it’s that important. And so what if it’s scary.Daniel: So what was that moment where it was like, this is too much?Vince: For me it was really around my teachers, Jack and Trudy. I wrote about this in a Substack post: “Is the Insight Tradition Complicit in Genocide?” And the TLDR was like, yeah, I think so. And that led to a rift with my teachers because they agreed with me that it was a genocide. They’ve consistently supported social justice movements in the past. And then the fact that they weren’t able to on this — it was so clear to me. Okay, well, even if you’re Jack Cornfield. Even if you’re Trudy Goodman. You’ve been practicing for almost your entire life. You’ve been engaging with these practices. Even for them, there are these edges, these places where they can’t go themselves.And so I realized, oh, I have to be more courageous than my teachers. In a way, on this. And that means calling them out, unfortunately, after sort of calling them in for quite a while. And giving them opportunity and space to rectify the things that need rectifying.Daniel: And how is this received?Vince: So on the one hand, the fears totally came to pass — I haven’t heard from Jack or Trudy since, and I doubt I will. Who knows? So I’ve been sort of cut off. And at the same time, I found my people — people who are supporting the Palestinian cause in the dharma world. That post actually ended up being like a lighthouse for finding those people. And that was unexpected and very good. Because I had recently been exiting an online community called Tpot, this part of Twitter, which I was increasingly finding to be kind of postmodern neofascist, very hostile toward Palestinians. And I was super disillusioned. And so to find this community at that moment felt like — to your point earlier — oh, I had no idea what would happen when I did that. But I certainly wasn’t thinking that I’d get more support. Actually, I thought it would be the opposite. So good thing.Daniel: That’s a beautiful takeaway. For people to know that, because I think that part of what I hope people see or experience from my journey is that ultimately all of your fears will come to pass. And not only is it gonna be okay, but everything that you were actually looking for, that you were really yearning for, lies on the other end of it. So you will survive and thrive on the other end of it. And all the right people will come, all the right opportunities will come. All the right love is gonna come if you take those courageous steps.Vince: Yeah. And people in reality do seem to respond to genuine acts of courage and bravery. It’s rare. And so people who know it can recognize it. The signal’s clear. So that’s what also surprised me.Daniel: I think your story with the establishment when it comes to religion is really fascinating and really important, because that thread is gonna continue everywhere where people start to challenge the — in the New Testament it would be called Pharisee consciousness. But Pharisee consciousness exists in every institutional religion where all the middlemen, any rabbinic authority, the traditional authority, is gonna start to see this complete breakdown. And I’m curious your thoughts on the Buddhist establishment as an establishment versus your personal connection to it. What are your feelings about the institutional aspect of the practice?Vince: Yeah. What comes to mind is how I view lineage is multifaceted. There’s the institutional lineage, which is what you’re talking about — the organizations, the governance, all the external systems that comprise the thing. But then there’s the relational lineage as well, the person-to-person communication and contact. And then finally there’s the direct lineage or the experience — your first-person experience of the lineage. And I think all of those are actually part of lineage. They’re all legitimate dimensions of lineage. But they’re not always in alignment.Like, I remember the story of Suzuki Roshi — the famous Zen master, author of “Zen Mind, Beginner’s Mind” — who moved from Japan to the US. He left his son in charge of the monastery, who apparently had almost no formal training. It was just a completely nepotistic relational lineage. Like, let me put you in charge.Daniel: How’d it work out?Vince: I don’t know. I don’t remember the end of that story.Daniel: Well, we’re living the end of the story today.Vince: I’ll have to go back and look. Sometimes it works out to leave the kid in charge and other times not.But to me, yeah, the institutional lineage of American Western Convert Buddhism — people who’ve converted or have included Buddhism as part of their identity but were probably raised in a Christian culture — the institution really struggles when it comes to this issue and this topic. There are obvious contradictions being laid bare and real problems. In terms of the relational lineage, I think it’s similar — these things are causing ruptures in relationship. Ideology over kinship.And I wonder what that experience is like on the first-person side. I remember talking to Trudy, and the thing that stands out for me is when I pushed her on this, her response really was, I don’t want to be pushed to be more of an activist than I am. And I’m like, wow. I see you as an activist and you present yourself as an activist. It just seems consistent that you’d be an activist across all these things. But here I am holding this assumption. She’s not going to be living the universal embodiment of the teachings that I’ve heard from her. And I don’t either, always. So why would I be expecting her to? Unless I’m projecting Buddhahood inappropriately.Daniel: Well, teacher wounds, guru wounds. A great teacher is one that recognizes that eventually you’re going to be disillusioned from them.Vince: Absolutely.Daniel: Because if you don’t become disillusioned from your teacher, you’ve completely missed the point that you’re the teacher.Vince: Yeah. But as a teacher, I sure hope it’s not because I didn’t speak up about a genocide that I had a big influence over.Daniel: Well, when you zoom out, if that’s the lesson that you eventually need in order to integrate where you are now — that’s the lesson.Vince: Fair enough. And then the teachers are on their own journey too.Daniel: Yeah.Vince: They are. And I think that journey is tied up in the Jewish trauma of the Holocaust as well. I see that. And I, to some degree, feel compassion toward that because I actually understand it. So it’s there. I wish we could meet there with compassion. And that’s one part of it. I do feel that. But on the other part, I feel compassion toward Palestinians. And this shouldn’t negate that. For a long time I was letting my compassion toward their pain negate my compassion toward Palestinian pain. Or somehow that was more important. And part of it was more important because I was concerned about how it would affect me personally. So this is cowardice, essentially.And so the challenge here is like, how do you maintain compassion that is ruthlessly willing to stop harm from being caused, and compassion that embraces and understands the pain people are feeling, is patient and generous toward that? As people have been toward me in my life. This is a real paradox to me.Daniel: It’s huge. You were suppressing your own feelings and your own pain, your resentment, in order to accommodate somebody else’s.Vince: Exactly. That’s right. Exactly what my grandfather did, which I understand.Daniel: And then we’re in this situation where the genocide is moving along the phases. The phases are public and progressing. People are suffering and dying. And we’re afraid. There’s the aspect of being afraid of hurting other people’s feelings.Vince: Right. Exactly. Which is so ridiculous on the surface of it.Daniel: And that’s part of the mechanism too, right? As if the Jewish uniqueness, the unique victimhood, the unique pain. And my partner comes from the Armenian lineage and the Armenian genocide. Growing up in Israel where the Holocaust was the unique pain, you have a hard time seeing outside of it. But this idea that we shouldn’t speak our truth for fear of hurting other people’s feelings — and then the paradox becomes, it’s not about being cruel to other people, but at the same time the genocide is moving along. So how do you hold these two things of standing in truth, not justifying, not making it okay, and recognizing that this is actually happening — while being respectful? How do you really hold that center?Vince: Yeah.Daniel: I think that you do a really beautiful job of it.Vince: Yeah. And I guess I would say, as someone who identifies more as an aversive-type personality — I’ll be the person that will cut through things and become irritated really quickly — I’ve had to learn that there’s a lot of wisdom in that, to not just demonize that style. The wisdom of clear seeing, when it’s expressed, can often be critical and cutting. And the thing I know about the teachers I’ve been critical and cutting toward is that they’re capable of that same capacity and they’ve used it in loving ways toward me. So in that sense, I feel like I’m doing them a favor by returning that favor. It’s like, hey, I’m sorry that you can’t see this right now, that you’re in too much pain or that you feel like you’d be risking too much to take this position. But here, I’m gonna offer you this as a reflection: you’re not living the teachings that you’re teaching.And for sure, I expect fully that being disillusioned by your teachers and seeing their limits is part of the maturation process for every student.Daniel: It’s because it’s gonna happen to us too.Vince: It’ll happen to us. Yes. It’s already happened to me. I’ve been teaching long enough that I’ve already seen it.Daniel: Yeah. I mean, it happens all the time. It’s a daily practice. And I think that a real part of the practice here, when it comes to these blind spots, is when you’re in connection with people. Obviously every person outside of you is able to see things in you that you can’t see. This is just a law of reality — they can see your blind spots.Vince: They’ve got the outside perspective.Daniel: And they’re holding a key that you can’t see. And you need to be able to let your ego down to allow them to just say it. And when you’re on the giving side of this, if you want to speak the truth — and I actually struggle with this too, because I’ll kind of say it as I see it, and then the other person very often will have a reaction. And then I’ll find myself having a reaction to their reaction rather than being able to allow them to process or meet their nervous systems where they’re at. But if you’re gonna dish it, it’s really important to be able to receive this too.Vince: To receive, yeah. Agreed. This is maybe a subtle nuance, but I can see in my own personality a little more resistance to taking in feedback. And I think it has to do with being in this minority identity perspective, where the Palestinian part of me has constantly been subjected to the whims and wishes of the dominant culture. And so to be open to feedback sometimes assumes peership. I think you can’t have honest feedback if there’s a power differential. Someone can’t give feedback to their boss without fear of it affecting their job.Daniel: Yeah, absolutely. That’s not a safe container for somebody to be able to share.Vince: Yeah. And I want to bring that up as a nuanced perspective here — sometimes people maybe shouldn’t be open to feedback from some people because feedback is a guise for domination.Daniel: Well, because people could be a hundred percent projecting onto you. And you need to learn — part of what I learned in my journey, certainly in the self-forgiveness aspect, was that I did what I did but it’s not who I am. And the process of disentangling who I am from what I did was quite a challenge. And to be able to hold these two things separately and understand that when I came forward with disclosure, the pain and devastation that I caused is beyond — there are no words. The pain that I caused for another person, for my family, for everyone. It’s just completely devastating.And at some point though, you have to recognize that even though the other person has very serious grievances around the things that I did, they’re also speaking to a version of you that doesn’t necessarily even exist anymore. You can actually have a situation where your current self — the other person may not even be engaging with your current self. They’re engaging with their projection of you.Vince: And Palestinian and Israeli and Zionist — these are things that have a lot of projections tied to them very quickly for a lot of people.Daniel: Yeah. And so from the feedback perspective, you have to be able to listen, sift through, recognize the truth of what you need to recognize, integrate that aspect, but then also know what isn’t yours. Because otherwise you identify with this version of you that doesn’t exist and you collapse into that shame.Vince: Yeah, and I think my approach is a little different. I don’t try to listen to everything. I try to actively filter out things I don’t want to get feedback from pretty actively. And I try to shape my environment a lot in terms of the kind of information that does reach me.Daniel: That makes a lot of sense as an approach.Vince: It’s made more sense the more heat I’ve taken for different things and the more I realize how suicidal that can be — to just put yourself out there too much, too much truth, not enough insulation from the backlash.Daniel: That’s really great advice.Vince: You are out on a limb.Daniel: It’s a good one to put into practice.Vince: But then the question is, how do you not filter out the important things you do need to hear?Daniel: Because we love to filter out the things that we need to hear.Vince: Absolutely. And I’d say, someone especially in a power position — they especially need to be open to hearing feedback. Where someone is in a marginalized position, maybe you don’t need to open yourself up to that. But knowing the difference.Daniel: Yeah. Well, if only the Israelis had the capacity at the moment to truly listen to the people on the other side and to see the human in them, to recognize them and to really listen to the truth of their experience and just hear it.Vince: Yeah. Maybe so. And I think the work that I see is the perpetuation of this pain into the next generation. That seems to be where a lot of the work is already gonna need to happen. I worry a lot about that. In another generation, are we gonna be sitting here watching the Palestinians doing the same thing to some other group?Daniel: The way that I feel about it is it stops with me, because that’s the only thing that I can control.Vince: Yeah. That’s a good creative position to take.Daniel: I can’t control the rest. I’m very optimistic though, of holding that and holding the center, and it stops with me, and hopefully it doesn’t pass to the next generation. And societies do change.I was thinking this week, who am I writing for? And I had this emotional feeling, experience of thinking about my nieces and my nephews and my daughters. And there’s some estrangement with my daughters at the moment, and it’s all tied up.Vince: I’m sorry. I didn’t know about that.Daniel: Oh yeah. I have two girls. And it’s all tied into this whole process, and there’s a healing journey there. And the things that I’m putting on paper, I know that all of these curious minds who are seeing this shake out right now, whose parents are, you know, dismissive — I’m writing for them. And I know that the little breadcrumbs and the clues for these curious minds are gonna pick up on it. And I can already see how it’s not passing on the way that it did. A lot of the work right now is really falling on us. And I believe that we’re transmuting a huge amount of this pain right now. And I don’t think that we’re gonna be passing down more.I think one of the most beautiful things that my father has done — I really attribute my entire journey to both of my parents. They gave me all of the tools, all of the skills, all of the critical thinking, the sense of liberation. Just applying it differently. But they gave me all of the tools that I needed.Vince: That’s a cool thing to acknowledge. I can see that when I talk about Jack or Trudy as kind of spiritual parents — they gave me all of the tools that I’m using now in this too.Daniel: Exactly.So I was gonna say about my dad, that at some point I realized that he carries so much pain, so much trauma. And I had the recognition that the work that he’s doing in this life is actually about — he’s taken on a massive amount of pain. And he’s transmuting it. He’s alchemizing it. And there’s the aspect of him from the higher perspective that was saying, I’m actually gonna stop and block all of the stuff that came with me. I’m gonna hold it in me. Now, that doesn’t have to be the path out. From a karmic perspective, there are many ways that we can work through these things and transmute them. But the approach that he’s taking, I think, is one of them. And it’s legitimate. And though it carries an immense amount of pain, I can see, and I have so much gratitude for the fact that a lot of it stopped. A lot of it stopped with him. And so I got to carry less. And hopefully I do that and we keep diminishing it more and more and more.Vince: Yeah. I understand that — the attenuation theory of trauma, that over time generationally you can attenuate things and become more whole. I think there’s something beautiful in that.Daniel: Amen.Vince: Yeah. Amen. Daniel, thank you for taking time to chat with me today. I hope this is spread wide and far to those that it supports.Daniel: Oh, thank you. Thank you. I really appreciate it. I love the conversations with you. You’re an amazing, beautiful human.Vince: Likewise. Yeah. Thank you. Likewise. Let’s do it again sometime.Daniel: All right. I can’t wait.Vince: All right. Cool.Daniel: Thank you.Vince: Thank you. Get full access to Buddhist Geeks at www.buddhistgeeks.org/subscribe