The highest highs, the lowest lows. The elation seeing a positive test, followed by the terrible grief of miscarriage. Trying to become pregnant again, yet unable to accept the fact when it happens. A physically healthy twin pregnancy, filled with anxiety. Needing help, but not wanting it when it arrives. Instagram vs the reality of life with newborns. The torture of two cries and having to decide who first. Wanting to do it all yourself and the guilt when it is impossible. Feeling entirely in love with your babies, yet wondering “why did we rush this”? Meg’s journey to motherhood is full of the contradictions and inner conflicts that are relatable to so many mothers. Together, we dive into them all and discover how Megs is navigating them all with her two beautiful boys.
In this episode we talk about:
A stressful eight months trying to conceive
First ever panic attack
Losing a first baby: the deep and enduring grief
The role of social media in shaping unrealistic expectations inducing unnecessary stress
A very quick second conception
Struggling to accept the second pregnancy after prior loss
Chose to live in ignorance as long as possible as a coping mechanism
Finding out there were two heart beats
High intensity cognitive behavioural therapy due to high levels of anxiety and disbelief
Two weeks miscarriage leave from work
Heart burn and acid reflux
Becoming proud of your stretch marks
Weight gain post birth
Struggling with the idea of a caesarian
Why the anaesthetist is your best friend during a c-section
When baby is taken to intensive care
Holding both babies for the first time, at three days old
Tube feeding and jaundice
The car journey home on a sunny Easter Sunday
Taking it day by day, nappy by nappy, feed by feed
Envy of those with one baby
A brutal reality check
Breastfeeding and pumping for twins
Need help so badly but finding it so hard to see someone else looking after your baby
The torture of hearing two cries and having to choose
