I talk with Phil, the creator of the Master Slave Lifestyle website and podcast (masterslavelifestyle.com), about my journey into and out of Findom. This episode premiered on his podcast Jan 2024, recorded late 2023. --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bdsm-reimagined/message

In this episode, Michael shares his personal journey of deciding to stop being a sex worker. He talks about how he started in the industry, the enjoyment and challenges it brought, and why he chose to leave. Michael highlights the conflict between his online persona and his true self, the demands of the job, and its impact on his relationships and personal growth. He sees this change as a new beginning to explore his interests, form deeper connections, and live more in the moment. Contact me via email: bdsmreimagined@gmail.com Music from Uppbeat (free for Creators!): License code: GNHL82KTDKW6KBTH License code: UZ3QGMJGYWGTEZYZ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bdsm-reimagined/message

Amendment: Around 6 minutes, I state that shame is noted to be a motivator for persons who seek sex workers and persons who are involved with chemsex. This is untrue. This is only the case if the behaviour is ego syntonic/compulsive in the subjective experience of the individual; otherwise, enjoy! :) In this short yet deeply personal episode, we embark on a candid journey through Michael's latest therapeutic explorations, focusing on the intricate relationship between kink, shame, and mental health. Michael bravely shares his evolving understanding of how deeply-rooted shame, stemming from childhood, has shaped his perceptions of intimacy, sexuality, and self-worth. With raw honesty, he discusses the challenging process of his shame—recognising the harmful belief that he is fundamentally flawed. As Michael delves into the complexities of his kink and sexual desires, he confronts the internalised stigma and the daunting task of reconciling his interests with societal norms. Contact me via email: bdsmreimagined@gmail.com Music from Uppbeat (free for Creators!): License code: GNHL82KTDKW6KBTH License code: UZ3QGMJGYWGTEZYZ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bdsm-reimagined/message

In this episode, Michael updates us on his experiences with escorting. He expresses a desire to minimise digital engagement and return to simpler pleasures as part of a digital detox. He then delves into his kink journey, continuing to talk about working with his therapist to understand his needs in relationships, intimacy, and sex, highlighting his struggles with being submissive and the fear of narrowing his sexual desires. He explores the root of these issues through inner child work, addressing beliefs formed in childhood about submission and worthiness. Michael explores how his narrative touches on the conflict between his desire for dominance and submission, the influence of childhood experiences on his sexual behaviour, and his efforts to balance his kink interests with personal growth and self-understanding. Contact me via email: bdsmreimagined@gmail.com Music from Uppbeat (free for Creators!): License code: GNHL82KTDKW6KBTH License code: UZ3QGMJGYWGTEZYZ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bdsm-reimagined/message

In this episode Michael opens up about the complexities of navigating a recent breakup and how it has impacted his exploration of intimacy and kink. He also discusses the exciting yet challenging world of escorting, sharing insights into his new venture and the deeper motivations behind it. Michael also reflects on the difficulties of satisfying his own kinks and the emotional toll it takes. Contact me via email: bdsmreimagined@gmail.com Music from Uppbeat (free for Creators!): License code: GNHL82KTDKW6KBTH License code: UZ3QGMJGYWGTEZYZ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bdsm-reimagined/message

In this episode, Michael gives an update on his therapeutic work with his inner child. He talks about feeling a sense of confidence from a previous session with the therapist but also still finding it hard to identify his needs and wants in the bedroom. He also announces two new social accounts: one for his kink and one for possible sex work. He speaks about his fears around addiction and also wonders how to tell people he dates about... all this. Contact me via email: bdsmreimagined@gmail.com Music from Uppbeat (free for Creators!): License code: GNHL82KTDKW6KBTH License code: UZ3QGMJGYWGTEZYZ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bdsm-reimagined/message

To change things up, Michael gets intimate with the face of the fetish platform Recon. Antoin, also known as @ajfs71, opens up for a personal and revealing tell-all. Contact me via email: bdsmreimagined@gmail.com Music from Uppbeat (free for Creators!): License code: GNHL82KTDKW6KBTH License code: UZ3QGMJGYWGTEZYZ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bdsm-reimagined/message

In this episode of BDSM Reimagined, Michael speaks about his latest therapy session where he encounters his inner child. He talks about how he's been working on understanding the parts of him that make it tough to really connect or stay in the moment when things get sexual or intimate. He also shares a curious similarity he noticed with a recent submissive he met, and how at times, it reminded him of the therapy work he's been doing. Contact me via email: bdsmreimagined@gmail.com Music from Uppbeat (free for Creators!): License code: GNHL82KTDKW6KBTH License code: UZ3QGMJGYWGTEZYZ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bdsm-reimagined/message

In Part 1 of this episode, Michael explores the current conditions that are leading him to flirt with the idea, and at times enact, paying men for sex - in particular straight men. He speaks about why it is straight men that activate him, the difficulty of finding someone into the same kinks, the burden he feels he puts on others for wanting what he desires, and also explores how he is shocked that people actually want to be sexual with him at all. Originally released a week later, but now included as one, Part 2 explores a further dimension of this behaviour. Michael speaks about how a recent break up has lead him to have lower moods making him more inclined to do things he feels he would not normally do. He also speculates that the urge to pay men could be an indicator to his own needs not being met. The space he pays for is a place he could satisfy his needs without feeling guilt. Contact me via email: bdsmreimagined@gmail.com Music from Uppbeat (free for Creators!): License code: GNHL82KTDKW6KBTH License code: UZ3QGMJGYWGTEZYZ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bdsm-reimagined/message

The philosopher Baruch Spinoza, in his Tractatus de Intellectus Emendatione, wrote: "For as far as sensual pleasure is concerned, the mind is so caught up in it, as if at peace in a [true] good, that it is quite prevented from thinking of anything else. But after the enjoyment of sensual pleasure is passed, the greatest sadness follows. If this does not completely engross, still it thoroughly confuses and dulls the mind." Arthur Schopenhauer, writing later on the phenomenon, observed that "directly after copulation the devil's laughter is heard." In this episode, Michael aims to further explore aspects of his sexual life, documenting areas that can become obstacles. Here, he shares his experiences living with Postcoital Dysphoria (PCD). While he has previously discussed this topic in earlier seasons (S1E5 Extras), he goes into more detail here. Study: One study (1) reported that among a sample of 1208 male participants, 40% of them had experienced PCT at least once in their lifetime and 20% reported experiencing PCT in the four weeks preceding the study. This study also reports that 3–4% of the sample experienced PCT symptoms on a regular basis. (1) Maczkowiack, Joel; Schweitzer, Robert D. (July 2018). "Postcoital Dysphoria: Prevalence and Correlates among Males" (PDF). Journal of Sex & Marital Therapy. 45 (2): 128–140. doi:10.1080/0092623X.2018.1488326. PMID 30040588. S2CID 51717755. Reports are much higher for females. Contact me via email: bdsmreimagined@gmail.com Music from Uppbeat (free for Creators!): License code: GNHL82KTDKW6KBTH License code: UZ3QGMJGYWGTEZYZ --- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/bdsm-reimagined/message