When We Could Touch: Love Stories from the Time of Covid
When We Could Touch: Love Stories from the Time of Covid
Lux ATL
Love once meant kisses, holding hands. Now love means distance, and hugs are bombs. My name is Lux ATL, and I am a writer, former professor, and lifelong exotic dancer turned head priestess of sensual awakening. From wild nights in the jungles of Bali, to long months locked down at home, these are my stories of heartbreaking desire and degenerate exploits in a socially-distant world.
09: Apart
Now is not the time to fall apart. Things—must be figured out. Problems, solved. Home, reached. Family, reunited. Now—is not the time to fall apart. In today’s episode of When We Could Touch, hear how my friends helped me pull myself together and get home from Bali. This is my final episode of this podcast. You can connect with Lux on Instagram at lux_atl , or follow Lux on Facebook at Lux ATL. You can learn more about Lux’s writing, retreats, and online shindigs as well as subscribe to her newsletter at drluxatl.com. If you enjoyed these stories, please share or leave a review wherever you listen.
Jul 29
20 min
08: Profane
Blood. The most potent of fluids. Should there be a pollutant, one will find it in the blood. If there is anything of one another’s we should not touch, it is the blood. In the old days, the best of days, the halcyon times before horror at human contact was mainlined into our veins, even in those bright days of sharing drinks and kissing friends, we feared blood. In today’s episode of When We Could Touch, I explore the profane desires which result from increased emphasis on purity, both physical and moral. You can connect with Lux on Instagram at lux_atl , or follow Lux on Facebook at Lux ATL. You can learn more about Lux’s writing, retreats, and online shindigs as well as subscribe to her newsletter at drluxatl.com. If you enjoyed these stories, please share or leave a review wherever you listen.
Jul 23
19 min
07: Kindness
It had finally happened, just as I’d secretly feared. I could not get home after all. See me then, a lone woman, sat in the middle of a busy airport, her suitcase open and spilled everywhere, sobbing bitterly into a stuffed animal as hundreds step around her, heads down, wasted on their own needs. Alone in a crowd. And then—I looked up. A woman in a mask stood over me, her forehead drawn with concern.  “Is there some way I can help you?” she asked. In this episode of When We Could Touch, a single stranger shows me kindness in the midst of the most horrifying day of 2020 for ya girl. You can connect with Lux on Instagram at lux_atl , or follow Lux on Facebook at Lux ATL. You can learn more about Lux’s writing, retreats, and online shindigs as well as subscribe to her newsletter at drluxatl.com. If you enjoyed these stories, please share or leave a review wherever you listen.
Jul 15
16 min
06: Trapped
People in this airport—were not doing well. Some were weeping into their phones, scrolling, tapping for a solution that would not come. Some called their loved ones, uttering words that made my guts churn—words like, “my ticket is worthless,” words like, ”I cannot leave.” This shit—don’t look good. In this episode of When We Could Touch, join me as I get trapped in Bali. You can connect with me on Instagram at lux_atl , or follow me on Facebook at Lux ATL. You can learn more about my writing, retreats, and online shindigs as well as subscribe to my newsletter at drluxatl.com. If you enjoyed these stories, please share or leave a review wherever you listen.
Jul 8
15 min
05: Fine
I have a bad habit of doing whatever I wanted. And whatever I’d wanted—had landed me here. Stuck in paradise while the world burned. In this episode of When We Could Touch, join me in my final days in Bali, as I am forced to make a sudden decision to GTFO. You can connect with me on Instagram at lux_atl , or follow me on Facebook at Lux ATL. You can learn more about my writing, retreats, and online shindigs as well as subscribe to my newsletter at drluxatl.com. If you enjoyed these stories, please share or leave a review wherever you listen.
Jul 1
16 min
04: Bodies
Picture it: it is October 2019, and we’re not afraid to touch.  Six women tangle together on a bed in the heat of a New Orleans fall. I peddle in the flesh and in the spirit. I am a preacher, and I am a whore. I move spirits with my body. I tried to escape that life, and could not. Yet, it turns out, that life—could escape me. In this episode of When We Could Touch, I look back on my the ways human touch has been holy in my life and my work, and mourn its current absence.  You can connect with me on Instagram at lux_atl , or follow me on Facebook at Lux ATL. You can learn more about my writing, retreats, and online shindigs as well as subscribe to my newsletter at drluxatl.com. If you enjoyed these stories, please share or leave a review wherever you listen.
Jun 24
18 min
03: Fantasy
In this new world, fantasy is the only game running. And so—you play the movie in your mind. The one where he’s strong. The one where he wants you. He lifts you onto his counter. Your legs grip his waist. You—have always been heading here. In this episode of When We Could Touch, I’m putting your secret fantasy in the streets. You can connect with me on Instagram at lux_atl , or follow me on Facebook at Lux ATL. You can learn more about my writing, retreats, and online shindigs as well as subscribe to my newsletter at drluxatl.com. If you enjoyed these stories, please share or leave a review wherever you listen.
Jun 15
17 min
02: Bali
When the shit hit the fan, I was in Bali with my besties, dancing in the daytime, sharing bottles of tequila in the night. Soon—horror would strike, stranding us across the world. But before the horror—there was a final week of flesh. In this episode of When We Could Touch, I remember stealing pleasure in the final days before Covid changed everything. You can connect with me on Instagram at lux_atl , or follow me on Facebook at Lux ATL. You can learn more about my writing, retreats, and online shindigs as well as subscribe to my newsletter at drluxatl.com. If you enjoyed these stories, please share or leave a review wherever you listen.
Jun 15
19 min
01: Stone
Will we ever again get sweaty in a mass of dancing people? Will we ever again meet as strangers and hold hands like lovers? In this episode of When We Could Touch, I explore the ways we cope—or don’t—as Covid removes physical intimacy from our lives with a stunning quickness. Behind these locked doors is where we remembered love.   You can connect with me on Instagram at lux_atl , or follow me on Facebook at Lux ATL. You can learn more about my writing, retreats, and online shindigs as well as subscribe to my newsletter at drluxatl.com. If you enjoyed these stories, please share or leave a review wherever you listen.
Jun 15
21 min