Today I go off to Gaia Sagrada for a two week plant medicine retreat where I will work with both Ayahuasca and San Pedro. I am both excited and terrified.

A key part of sitting for ceremony with Ayahuasca is to bring an intention. For the first ceremony of the retreat, my intention is to surrender. In the four other ceremonies I have sat in over the past year, I have found deeper healing when I am able to surrender more to the medicine. As someone who likes to retain control, letting go of the reins is not easy. Especially when there is powerful medicine involved. When I sit and discover a train of thought or emotion where my initial reaction is to hide or to resist uncovering what I have found, an internal battle begins to let go of baggage. To face the baggage I truly do not want to deal with is extremely liberating.

Where in your life could you be more vulnerable? What is holding you back?