I decided it’s finally time to start talking about the unofficial official diagnosis we got from Scott’s brain study, done by doctors at Mt Sinai in the Brain Injury Research Center. I’ve been sitting on this diagnosis for weeks, but have been unable to process through the heavy emotions of everything we learned. Thankfully, I’ve had the help of my family, my kids, Scott’s family, and my counselor who said I didn’t have to process it all now if I didn’t want to. Then, it hit me: this podcast wasn’t supposed to be me all wrapped up in a shiny bow, but me working through gritty, messy, emotional grief in an authentic way so I could document my journey. Turns out, speaking some of my feelings out loud while recording this episode helped me to heal. This one’s messy, but it’s part of our story.