Doing church is tough. It can be wonderful, yet other times toxic.  When/if you walk out, remember that Christ goes with you. He will never leave or forsake us. "We" are the church, not a building.  Karl's book Apparent Faith: What Fatherhood Taught Me About the Father's Heart will remind you that God is the ultimate parent. Perfectly loving, God is restorative, not retributive.  Contact Karl and Laura at https://desert-sanctuary.com.