Have you ever noticed that with some things no matter how hard you try and force things, they never work out?  I know it is so hard to let go and trust that it will all work out the way it needs to in the way it is meant to be. Just realize that maybe you need to let go of things in order to open up the space you need for what is exactly meant for you: the people, the relationships, the jobs, opportunities etc.  Trust and acceptance will be your best friends.