My brothers and I talk a little about our vacation to California and all kinds of stuff happened.. like homeless people on the streets of Cali drinking things off of the ground and out of trash cans. Sorry about the audio after the first ten minutes. I was going to bring my Rode caster pro but I didn’t want it to break or leave it or have it stolen so I used a mic I hook up to my phone and its terrible.I’m posting this after 9/11 and I’m going to kind of explain what happened to me that night and why I’ve stopped smoking pot and drinking often and I have cleaned up my language. I’m not suggesting anyone ever use my methods and definitely not by your self. If you must use any substance do it with the supervision of a professional! I have decided to use my free time and boredom to love my friend Jesus and his father who i believe is God. i want to help people to not need substances to fill the holes in their lives no matter who they believe in or what they believe. Every one deserves to be free from their bondage to drugs and their bad habits. I have done meth and was addicted in 2008 and kicked the addiction by the grace of God. I have been addicted to alcohol and I've excessively used marijuana but I am reconciling all parts of my life and repairing the parts that i didn't want people to know about so that i wont be ashamed of who i am if my mom saw and heard how i act. She might listen to this episode but i know my parents will always love me no matter what. I know that. Fixing those parts of my personality makes me proud to know she will see that I am acting like a man for once and not like a child who stumbles through life recklessly. Only time and my actions and more time will tell. ill keep you guys updated!  In the ordeal that I put myself through on the evening of September 10th into the morning of September 11th. I was alone which was the dumbest part and I took hallucinogens and had a bad episode. Through the trial that i explain in detail in the podcast i felt the presence of Jesus the Christ. it was like he was literally beside me and i believed it with all my heart and soul and i give him full and total credit for getting me through with my mind, body and soul intact. I was on drugs and it could have been all in my mind but to me he was quite literally beside me as i prayed. I believe he was right there because he lives. I believe I am healed my addictions from that day because of that human being who is more then just man that we read about in the bible. I will be responsible for myself and my actions and the paths i take from here on out. I will not shirk the blame anymore. I will lay all of those addictions out on that day and as Jesus said "get behind me Satan" i will leave those bad thing at the date of September 11th and not look back.If your not religious then the explanation will be i had a "religious experience" and i am a different man then I was before. Either way i will be a better person and when i leave the world it will be in a better state and i will work very hard for that goal.The cover art is something I drew on 9/11 to commemorate that dreadful event and to speak to the people of this time. It’s called “just let this happen” and I named it that for the people who fought back and for the people who did not. May we we never forget. feel free to skip around!first part ends at second part is at last part is at I use this free audio converter every time.  https://www.freeconvert.com/wav-converter--- Send in a voice message: https://podcasters.spotify.com/pod/show/thebeardingway/message