Growing up in Russia, I was told I was beautiful so often that it became suffocating. Then, at 19, my father said something that cracked the foundation of everything I believed about beauty and worth. Years later, moving to Germany forced an even bigger reckoning — with makeup, with professional identity, and with what “looking good” really means when you strip away cultural conditioning. So I ran an experiment on myself. I quit makeup entirely. Not for a week. For years. In this episode, I s...